What is that? Is it? YES! It is the meal! Finally arriving, who knows how many courses this meal has. You may die from over eating before I'm through with you ;) That got the song from Madagascar two in my head. You know Moto-moto a name so nice you gotta say it twice? That guy, he sings that song- 'I like 'em big. I like 'em chunky.' Anyway. Now I've got an episode of Strange Sex in my head. BLEGH! TLC plays some weird shit. (If you want to know what I'm referring to, message me, I'll be glad to explain… ) I really need to stop rambling with random shit in these things. But I feel like I can because I see the amount of people reading, and then I get mad because they don't review. Honestly I'd be pleased if your review consisted of only a smiley face. But since you're not I get to take up this space. Which you can skip if you want but you never know when there may be something important… oooooh. Or I could confuse you and write the whole story in bold! Oh snap. Fuck me? Fuck you too. I know I said I was going to wait for your reviews, but I got bored of waiting for you bitches so I'm posting it. I am not pleased with giving in… not pleased at all.
I woke up on the floor; I could feel the dry tears on my cheeks. Why do these things always happen? I sighed and looked down at my ring; the moonlight is bouncing off of it beautifully. I sat up and worked the kinks out of my neck. It was not a good idea to sleep out here last night.
I got up and crept into William's room; I stood over his crib and just watched him sleep. He doesn't move much, just arms flailing slightly, legs kicking. I smile and once again thank whoever made it possible for me to have William. Suddenly his eyes pop open and he looks up at me. We stare at each other until his little arms reach out for me. I pick him up and bring him to the kitchen so we can both have something to drink. I then brought him over to the couch and I sat down with him on my lap, I snuggled in holding William close and looked at the moon. Eventually I drifted off again because I woke up the incessant ringing of my phone. I answered it; it is Doggett telling me to get down to the FBI right away. I hang up and sigh, never any time to spend with my baby. I quickly throw on a different suit and beige-orange shirt; I rush out and bring William over to my mothers.
I think my favourite time in the FBI building is at 3am, nobody is here to bother me or give me strange looks. The elevator ride seems painfully slow, I sigh for what feels like the millionth time in the past three days. The doors finally open and I hurry out, I then feel and breeze on my calf, I look down and my pants are bunched up, I hop walk to fix my pants. Noting that I would never do that during the day, with other agents to observe my rushed appearance.
I watched as Scully left her apartment, William bouncing along in her arms. I had waited long enough to see her again and she me. But it had to be a surprise. I notice with glee that she is wearing the engagement ring. Something blossoms inside me, a sense of hope for our future. I want so badly to run over to her and hold her until we die, but I can't disrupt her day. Sure she'd insist that I should have when we're together later- but I know that this is much better. Once I see her car pull away I walk up to her building, I stare at it, unbelieving that I'm really here. I open the door and walk down the hall to her apartment; I let myself in with the key she gave me so long ago. I look around and see that nothing has changed, except for the baby things and pictures of William. I go over to her room and plop down belly first onto her bed. I inhale her scent, the scent I dreamed of being able to hold while I was gone. I fall asleep knowing that when I wake up, it'll be to her shocked reaction.
I can't help but feel a sense of remembrance to this man. I do not know who he is, yet. I have an idea, but have no intention or need to prove it. He'll get in trouble; we'll all be in danger if this man's identity is what I think it is. I take off my gloves and walk out into the hall to speak with Doggett.
"What is it Agent Doggett?"
"I've been out running this man's supposed ID. There's seven Daniel Millers in Fredericksburg but I can tell you, he isn't one of them." He says like he knows more than he's saying. Which is why Reyes suddenly jumps in. She can't stand that attitude, which may be why we are very close already.
"Then who is he?"
"I got an idea but you're not going to believe it." Would he just get on with it? I want to go home and spend time with my baby boy.
"Well, who is he?"
"You asked him how he got in the FBI - how he knows what he knows."
"He said that he contacted Agent Mulder - that Mulder told him..." Not that Mulder would ever tell anyone anything.
" I don't think so. I don't think Mulder told him anything. I think that how he got in here and the reason he knows what he knows is because that man in there is Mulder." Well at least he knows Mulder wouldn't tell anything. I chuckle at the thought that that man is my Mulder.
"That's ridiculous. It's absurd." Doggett doesn't look too convinced.
"Is it? What is true and what we want to be true aren't always the same."
"I'm telling you, that's not Mulder."
"I hope you prove me wrong."
That cocky bastard! I can't believe he thinks he'd figure out if it was Mulder before I would; but of course it's not Mulder. My Mulder would not have looked surprised at my engagement ring. He would've seen it and smiled up at me. That's what Mulder would do. Convincing myself probably isn't the best way to go about this. But I just can't give Doggett the satisfaction of doubt, I know it's not him and I will prove it.
When I finally got to leave Quantico the day was turning out to be quite beautiful. I should bring William out somewhere, he rarely gets out, besides the car ride to my mothers. I got in my car and quickly sped off in the direction of my mother's home.
I arrived at my mother's door out of breath; she suddenly got this look of panic on her face which confused me, until I realized it was because of my appearance. I quickly smile to reassure her and tell her I'm just picking up William. She looked at me odd and let me in.
"Thanks."
"Dana-"
"Mom, trust me, it's nothing. I just got a little too excited about doing something outdoors with my baby." She still looked a little baffled at me. I smiled and picked up William. "I'm going to the park"
"Thanks mom." I hugged her quickly and hurried out the door. Smiling I put William in his car seat and drove off. For some reason it just feels like a happier day. There must be something about the sunshine. And just to prove life is full of coincidences the radio started playing the song Something About the Sunshine by Anna Margaret. I hummed along softly looking in my rear-view mirror at William. He sat there with a tiny baby smile on his face. His little hat with ears resting snuggly on his head. His appearance warmed my heart and I couldn't help my smile widening.
The park was crowded for this time of day, it is only 10 am . But I suppose all the mothers who are fortunate enough to stay at home bring their children out too.
The phone ringing is what woke me up. I groaned, and bolted up trying to figure out why I am so comfortable. I then remembered in back with Scully, well almost. She doesn't know I'm back yet. I let the phone ring until it got the machine. 'Hi Dana, you left William's mittens here- I know you're going to the park, I was just hoping you may have gone home first. Apparently not. Don't worry about picking them up, I thought you might need them . But it's actually nice out- so just ignore this message.' Maggie! I missed her, she is like a mom to me. Scully is at the park. I need to see her now, I can't wait anymore. This will be a nice surprise, no work to do anymore if she's at the park. Now which one, I think she'd be at the one by Maggies since she didn't come home. I hurried over to the door and put my shoes on; quickly locking the door I bolted out of her building and down to the park. I needed to hurry it's not close and I don't want her to have left by the time I get there.
I waited for half an hour before I finally got a chance to put William in the baby swing. He didn't right out fight me, but he was apprehensive about going into this contraption. That if you think about it is quite frightening. Once he was settled he was pleased and clapped his hands while giggling. I smile just watching him enjoy himself. What I didn't notice was that someone was watching us and slowly getting closer.
I felt someone's eyes on me after a while of pushing William on the swing. I looked around ,and noticed a man standing a couple meters away, walking towards me. My first instinct was to take my baby and run. But the more I stared the more familiar the walk of this man was, the curve of his face, his long strong body. I couldn't move- could this really be happening to me? Is he really back? I don't have that kind of luck. But as her got closer I realized I wasn't seeing things. My Mulder. Mulder was really here, slowly walking towards me, with a look of apprehension on his face. Does he really think I won't figure out if it's him or not? I couldn't take it anymore. I asked the woman beside me who I'd been talking to if she could watch William for a moment. Out of the corner of my eye I noticed that she was about to question why, but stopped when she saw the look of love on my face, while staring not at her or my baby but at this man. She smiled and figured it had probably been a while since we'd seen each other. I looked over at her and she nodded. My smile got at big as it could possibly go while I turned and ran to Mulder.
Mulder stopped walking once I started running towards him, his face adapting a smile as well. He held his arms open and I flung myself into them, wrapping my legs around his waist. Our foreheads resting together, staring at each other intently.
"Why didn't you tell me you were coming back?" I whispered my lips gently brushing against his as I spoke. His hazel eyes piercing my blue ones as he answered back.
"If I told you I was coming back, this wouldn't be happening right now." I smiled in defeated acknowledgment. Then he kissed me. It filled me with such passion that I almost fainted. He held me tighter than ever before, crushing our bodies together. Eventually he let me down, once my feet were back on the ground I smiled up at him, both of us breathing heavily.
"Someone has been waiting to see his daddy again." He smiled at me and I grabbed his hand. Both of us slightly jogging over to where I had left William. The lady smiled at us, picked up her daughter and left us alone. "Mulder…?" I whispered, I looked up at him to see him staring intently at William, he staring right back. Mulder squeezed my hand in response. "Let's go home." He nodded and scooped William up. With William in one arm and me tucked under the other we made our way back to my car.
I put William in his seat and Mulder got in the passenger side which stunned me. I slipped into the driver's side and drove off. When I turned down a street that doesn't lead to the apartment Mulder looked over at me questioningly. "Just wait." I turned my gaze back to the road and continued. When I got to the familiar neighbourhood of where my mother lives Mulder understood right away. We didn't need to communicate our plan. He stayed in the car while I brought William back to my mother. She was surprised to see me back, but I told her I had been called back into work again she nodded in understanding took William and told me to be careful.
I got back in the car and Mulder took my hand, I started the car and drove us back to the apartment. I took my hand out of his and I could feel the twinge of hurt, and placed it on his thigh. This relaxed him. Knowing it wasn't a rejection. He's a silly man sometimes. I slowly dragged my hand up his thigh until I was cupping him through his pants.
"Scully!" He gasped.
"What?" I replied smiling at him.
"Not that I don't like this. But you're driving."
"I know, but I'm also not the one who's distracted."
"True. But it's been a while by myself Scully. And if you don't hold back now I won't be able to hold on later."
"Who said anything about later?" I winked at him, turning back to the road leaving him with a stunned look on his face. I took my hand away and chuckled at his disappointed look. He has no idea… I quickly turned right and pulled us into an abandoned warehouse; I brought the car around back and parked it. I unbuckled my seatbelt, turned to him and unbuckled his. Taking off my shoes I answered his unasked question. "It'd be another half hour before we got back home, and honestly ever since that weekend I've had this need to jump you whenever I could. And now I can, you're here." He smiled at me as I crawled over into his lap straddling him as best I could.
"I love you Scully."
"I love you too Mulder." With that he captured my lips with his, his tongue slowly running over the roof of my mouth then back down to my tongue, where they continued to wrestle. I lean into him pressing my breasts into his chest. Unconsciously grinding my hips into his. I reach my hand down and find the lever and the chair tilts backwards, he groans into my mouth as my pelvis matches his perfectly now. Hungrily our hands roam over each other's bodies; the frenzied removal of clothing leaves buttons strewn about the car. I pull back, looking down at Mulder in just my bra. I slowly lower myself onto him savouring the feeling of him inside me I start to move. His hands move to grip my hips, helping me. We both sped up at the same time, knowing exactly what the other wants. I add a little swivel to my hips which makes Mulder's fingers dig into my hips harder; it doesn't hurt, I'm too far gone to feel the pain, all I feel is the pleasure. The car is filled with sounds of our panting, gaps and moans. I feel my inner muscles clench around him, and I know he feels it too, for he starts thrusting into me harder and faster which leads to both of us climaxing.
Once we both came down from our high, I opened my eyes and look up at him. My head resting on his chest- I can feel his heart beat start to return to normal. I then remembered where we are and started getting dressed. Mulder watched me as best he could while dressing himself. I smile at him and take my seat; once we're both buckled in I start the car and continue our drive home.
I lead Mulder into the apartment and see his bag already on the floor; I look up at him questioningly.
"I got here a couple hours ago, I wanted to surprise you at home, but then Maggie called to tell you about Williams mittens; she said you were at the park so I ran over, I wanted to see you two both so badly." I pulled Mulder into a tight hug.
"So, is it safe for you to be here? Back with us?" I search his face but he's keeping it blank. He looks down at me with a frown.
"No- but nobody knows I'm here. We just have to keep it a secret. Unless you want me to go again to keep William safe because I will." I put my right index finger to his lips, shushing him.
"Mulder, don't be ridiculous, of course I want you to stay. And you are. We'll do what you suggested; we'll keep your return a secret. And honestly I don't see the downside in getting you all to myself." I hug him again and I feel him inhale the scent of my hair.
"That means the world to me; I just missed you both so much." I rose up on my tippy-toes and kissed him, a long searing passionate kiss.
"We at least have to tell my mother so she doesn't question why I am not leaving William with her anymore." With that he scooped me up and carried me into our bedroom where we made love until we fell into exhausted induced sleep.
Wow, in the previous author note at the beginning, I meant to say who is delivering the notes not writing. Hopefully you all know Mulder is writing the notes.
Oh and I don't know if I've told you already, the first couple of chapters were in place of the episodes providence and provinence. Those never happened… William is never in full blown out danger. He could've been- but he wasn't. Do you understand?
