Are you mine…?
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Buffy's POV
It's been a couple of days since that incident with the door thingy happened. We still didn't know what caused the spell…and that somehow terrifies Giles. He seems…occupied with the thinking. I don't know why…and when I asked him…he just shrugged it off and said that it's nothing.
Yeah right…nothing. He's usually doesn't think that hard. I don't know why…but it feels like he's hiding something from me…
"Hahaha! Geez! I never thought she'd pose like that!"
Faith's laughing…wonder why? I frowned and looked at the clock. I overslept. Good thing it's Saturday. No school! I smiled and began stretching as I walked towards the door. I noticed that Mika isn't in her crib…so she's probably downstairs with her 'dada.'
Kinda spooky huh? I mean, it seems only yesterday when Faith and I are mortal enemies. Fighting each other…almost killing each other. She was the only one that could match me. We're equal…both slayers. If ever we did fight to the death…I wouldn't know what the outcome would be. Would I die? Would she? I can't tell. Yeah sure I did stabbed her and won at that time…but…something tells me…she was holding back.
And now? Look at us…we're living together…with a baby that calls us her parents. Us…once rivals…being parents to a baby girl. Weird…it feels like…I have my own family.
I smiled wide as I thought of this and slowly made my downstairs to where the laughter is being heard. I turned to the living room and was about to mouth a good morning when I saw what was happening.
Remember when I told you about us being parents with Mika? Well…I forgot to mention her…grandmother. My mom…showing Faith a photo album…of me…
Mom turned to me smiling.
"Good morning dear…"
Both Faith and Mika also turned to me. Faith was sitting in the couch Indian style with Mika sitting between her legs…looking at the photo album.
"Hiya B!"
"Mama!"
Both smiled at me which I thought was cute…but I can't think of that with them looking at…at…that! I sat next to them and placed a hand on my face trying to prevent them in seeing me blush.
"Mom! I told you never to show those pictures to anyone!"
"Awww, don't be embarrassed dear. It's just Faith…"
Just Faith…Just FAITH! God she really doesn't know Faith. Knowing Faith…she'd probably laughing her ass off seeing me in those photos.
"Yeah B…it's just me…"
She glanced at me with an evil look on her face. I'm not gonna hear the end of this later. Ignoring the evil glint in her eyes, I turned away and just looked too hearing Faith smirk once in a while.
"You look cute when you were a child B!"
I frowned and pouted blushing a little. Mom laughed a little and said…
"Yeah…she was…she looks exactly like…Mika there…"
"Was? Hey I'm still cute you know!"
"Yeah…don't you worry B…you're the queen of cuteness."
Okay…I'm blushing again. I don't know why…Faith only said I'm cute and now…I'm blushing! I blushed even more when I noticed mom looking at me. She had this serious face like she's…looking at something in my face.
"Uh…wh-what is it? Is there something on my face?"
"You…really do look like Mika…"
"Uh…th-thanks?"
Okay…she's getting weird…
"Are you sure she's not yours?"
"Mom! No! If I got pregnant I would have known!"
Now she's being ridiculous!
"Hmmm…you're right. But still…maybe you should do something to find out who her real parents are…"
Faith's POV
Hehehehehehehe…B is just soo cute in these pictures. As I turn the pages…she seems to be getting older. Soon I've reached Buffy as a teenager. Yeah…still cute and she looks innocent. There's her with Xander and Willow…and I must say…Red's kinda cute too with her hair long. Xander just looks…the same.
"Mama…"
Mika said as she pointed towards Buffy. She is one smart kid…
"Yeah…that's mama…kinda skinny huh?"
I whispered to her softly trying not to disturb the serious talking that B and her mom are having…about Mika. Her mom just told her to find out who her real parents are…and well…Buffy hasn't answered yet and just looked at the floor. I don't know what she's thinking…but something tells me she's opposed to the idea.
I flipped the page again and frowned when I found a picture of Buffy. She's holding someone…and invisible someone. Must be Angel. I stared at her face…she looks really happy. Angel…the love of her life. You know…she still hasn't told me how they broke up.
'Must be nice to have someone to love like that…'
"Dada…da…da…"
That stopped me from staring at the picture to look at Mika who was pointing at a picture of me and B the night of the prom. Yeah…I remember it. Xander asked us to pose for a picture even though Buffy's dress was a mess. I can still remember that night. That was the night…that I felt so alone. Yeah sure the Scooby tried hard to make me feel at home but still…I was an outsider. I can never be one of the scoobies. I realized this at that night…
"Oh! I'm going to be late for work…"
I looked at B's mom as she slowly stood up and made her way towards the door. The last thing she said before she went off to work was…
"Don't wait for me…I'll be home pretty late…"
We just sat there for awhile…both of us thinking of different things. It was only when Mika pulled my hair was I put out of my trance.
"Ow! Quit it!"
But she didn't…she never does. All she does is laugh while pulling my hair. I could never understand her. I'm beginning to ask why she hasn't pulled B's hair. Speaking of B…she stood up and looked at me smiling slightly.
"Cmon…let's go to the magic box and see what the guys are up to. We could do a little training if you want…"
I grinned at her and raised my eyebrow.
"Think you can beat me?"
"We'll see…"
Buffy's POV
Mika is in my arms while Faith is beside me holding a bag full of Mika's things. We really do look like a family. A family that's going to spend the day together…in the Magic Box. What kind of family spend their time in a Magic Box?
'Being a family…means us being parents and Mika being our daughter. Me and Faith…parents…now that's weird….'
"Can I ask you something?"
"Yes?"
Okay…did I just squeak my answer? I shook my head and glanced at her. She's not looking at me. She's just looking ahead.
"What happened between you and Angel?"
I stopped walking and turned to her surprised at what she's asking. She looked at me and smiled.
"Hey…you don't need to answer if you don't want to…"
"No…I was just…surprised…that's all…"
I began to walk and she did too…waiting for my answer. Both of us were silent for awhile. Mika was the only one who wasn't…looking around and pointing around her…laughing.
"I guess…we weren't really meant to be…he decided to move to LA when we defeated the mayor…"
I noticed her flinch as I said 'mayor.' I guess she still cares for him…even though he's a monster…
"Why didn't you go with him?"
"I…I can't…"
Yes…I can't. I was a slayer…I was needed here…that's why I can't go or be with him…it makes me remember the conversation that we had…
Flashback
"You deserve more. You deserve something outside of demons and darkness. You should be with someone who can take you into the light. Someone who can make love to you."
"I don't care about that."
"You will. And children."
"Children? Can you say jumping the gun? I kill my goldfish."
"Today. But you have no idea how fast it goes, Buffy. Before you know it, you'll want it all, a normal life."
"I'll never have a normal life."
"Right, you'll always be a Slayer. But that's all the more reason why you should have a real relationship instead of this, this freak show… I didn't mean that."
"I'm gonna go."
"I'm sorry. Buffy, you know how much I love you. It kills me to say this."
" Then don't. Who are you to tell me what's right for me? You think I haven't thought about this?"
" Have you, rationally?"
"No. No, of course not. I'm just some swoony little schoolgirl, right?"
"I'm trying to do what's right here, okay? I'm trying to think with my head instead of my heart."
"Heart? You have a heart? It isn't even beating!"
"Don't."
"Don't what? Don't love you? I'm sorry. You know what? I didn't know that I got a choice in that. I'm never gonna change. I can't change. I want my life to be with you."
"I don't."
"You don't want to be with me? I can't believe you're breaking up with me."
"It doesn't mean that I don't ..."
"How am I supposed to stay away from you?"
"I'm leaving. After the Ascension, after it's finished with the Mayor and Faith. If we survive, I'll go."
"Where?"
"I don't know."
"Is this really happening?"
End of Flashback
I cried a lot at that time. Never thought he's really going to leave me. But…looking back…I think I understood. If he didn't leave…would I have found Mika in my bedroom? Would Faith and I be okay?
"So…you offered yourself to him…let him feed you when I shot that arrow to him…"
"Huh? Uh…yeah…"
"Sacrificing yourself for the one's you love…that's pretty much like you B…"
She looked at me and smiled. The way she smiled…I've never seen her smile like that. She looks like…she's proud of me or something. Of course I looked away…feeling my face burn.
"You sound like…you haven't done anything like that before…"
That made her look away and just stare ahead. I wonder if I said something wrong?
"So what do you think of what your mother said earlier?"
Oooh…changing the topic. She's definitely avoiding what I said. I wonder why? Maybe it's something about her past…
"And what was that?"
Faith's POV
"And what was that?"
"You know…the finding out whom Mika's parents are…"
Again she stopped walking. I think I kept asking the painful topics. But…why would finding out Mika's parents is…painful? I turned to her as she looked the ground.
"I…don't want to…"
She said that in a very soft voice. No ordinary human could hear such a thing…luckily I'm not ordinary. I frowned slightly not understanding what she's saying.
"Why?"
"I…I just…don't want to…"
What kind of reason is that? That's so selfish of her. But somehow…I think I know why she's acting this way.
"B…I know you don't want Mika to be taken away from you. Her parents might be looking for her…"
She raised her head to face me with a glare.
"Her parents left her in my room! Why would they be looking for her?"
"You don't even know if it was her parents who left her there!"
"But still! It could be them!"
Argh! It's like I'm fighting a kid who wants to keep a dog inside the house. I stepped closer to her feeling my anger rising.
"Don't be such a baby and accept things as they are!"
Both of us were glaring at each other. Our anger both rising rapidly. It was only when Mika cried. I guess she's upset seeing us shout at each other.
"Look what you've done!"
Okay…did she just say that?
"Me? Oh so now this is my fault! Yeah…blame it on me! I'm always wrong!"
That was when Mika gave us a shattering cry. That girl can scream. I wonder whom she got it from? B is trying to calm her as I check my ear if it isn't bleeding.
"Shhh…it's okay…"
"Hey…calm down…"
She didn't calm down though…she just kept on crying and crying. I think I'm gonna be deaf after this…
Buffy's POV
"Cmon Mika…we're sorry…"
She looked away ignoring me. She's just frowning sitting at the table in the Magic Box. Sometimes I wonder whom she really belongs to. It's like she can understand what we were talking about. Now she's angry probably because her 'mama' and 'dada' had a fight.
"Wow…she's just ignoring you. What did you do to her?"
Xander asked as he looked at Faith who was leaning at the wall frowning.
"Nothing! B here is just so…persistent. We ended up yelling at each other…"
I couldn't help but roll my eyes as she said persistent. I wasn't the one who was persistent. She just…wouldn't understand. I glanced at Giles who was looking at Mika. I was surprised to see everyone here. Even Julie who I think just wants to see Faith even though she said that she wants to train or something.
Yeah…she's been training. It was Faith's idea to train her thinking that she probably is essential to the group just because she's good at the crossbow. Giles was even amazed to see her being Robin Hood or something. And speaking of Robin Hood…here she is standing beside Giles looking at Mika too.
"Maybe you should really find out who her parents are. I'm really starting to doubt that she isn't yours…"
"She's right Buffy. It will be best if we did find out who her parents are. We'd never know…she might be a demon child…"
I looked at Giles…frowning.
"Demon child? She can't be a demon child!"
"Can you explain why she looks like both you and Faith?"
"Coincidence?"
"How about the way she could sense both of you?"
"A guess?"
He sighed shaking his head. Okay…that was stupid…but maybe they're right. But still…if she is a demon child... I won't let her go to her parents. I'm going to raise her like she's mine…demon or not…
"Okay…but no DNA testing okay…I don't trust them."
Willow stood up and smiled.
"Takes too much time anyway. We can do a spell…I've been looking into it."
Why does it feel like they were expecting this? I shrugged as both Tara and Willow prepare what to do. They placed a bowl of water in the center of the table and turned to look at me nervously.
"Uh…we…we need blood in this spell…"
I held out my hand and smiled.
"I've got plenty of that…"
"Um…not your blood…hers…"
She pointed towards Mika who was still sulking. I looked at Willow with my eyes wide.
"No! You're not going to take Mika's blood!"
"We have to…just a little bit…"
"No!"
Giles sighed and turned to me.
"Buffy…we don't have a choice…"
"But…ahhh! Fine! But I'm not taking part in this. She's mad at me already…"
"I'll hold her…"
I turned to Faith who was now walking towards Mika. She carried Mika in her arms and placed her head on her shoulder as Giles took a needle and pushed the needle in her little finger slightly making it bleed. I couldn't help but flinch as Mika flinched…her eyes full of tears. I think the only reason that she didn't cry out was because Faith was holding her tightly whispering words in her ears. They took the bowl and let Mika's blood fall into the water.
"That's enough…"
Faith said as she looked at Giles who nodded. Giles wiped Mika's hand as Faith pulled her away slightly smiling.
"Now that wasn't so bad…was it?"
Mika just frowned pouting as she looked at her hand where the wound was.
"Guess you're still mad at me too…huh?"
I walked to them and smiled at Mika who still ignored me. She flinched when she heard the thunder outside. Rain were pouring hard outside and the only thing that could be heard was Willow chanting and the heavy rain that's hitting the roof. All of us just stood there waiting for the result. The water stared to move much like when you flush the toilet…mixing Mika's blood with water. As soon as Willow stopped chanting, the water slowly stopped moving revealing us…nothing…just the clear water. Willow and Tara looked at each other frowning.
"What happened? There's nothing there…"
Willow turned to me and smiled slightly.
"Congratulations…it's a baby girl…"
