My dearest Draco,
If I could I would run to you as fast as possible. The image of my love in a state of agitation won't let me sleep either. Be sure that I stay awake all night. It's the least I can do to be with you in my thoughts. I wish I could be with you and hug you back, comfort you in any way I know.
Be not afraid, my love. I would regret it for the rest of my life if I leave you. The last months with you were the happiest in my life. I'd never felt so loved and understood. Sometimes, when I'm lying in my bed and everything I can do is thinking about you being with me, I mourn after every second I couldn't spent with you.
I would move heaven and earth for you, Draco.
Yes, I cannot understand why you are sometimes so upset, because I cannot think of any reason I gave you to be jealous. You don't have to be afraid that I leave you. That would break your heart and with that mine as well. If I could I would rip my heart out of my chest and sent it to you, because I know that it would be nowhere else safer. I try to show you every day how much you mean to me and I hate myself that I am not capable to make you realise this.
I will never laugh at you because you tell me how you feel, neither if you show me. How much I sometimes wish for that. You don't have to be scared that I don't want you anymore if you will be a bit more emotional. I've said to you several times that you can tell me everything, but I won't force you to open up to me either. You don't have to be careful what you're saying to me. I don't want anything else from you than your love. I give a damn about your last name and I won't let me tell that I cannot see you anymore just because your father doesn't like me or something like that.
Nothing can keep me from you, Draco. And if I die before you, then I'll watch over you and be there when you come to be with me again. I'll take your hand and show you the nice, fluffy cloud I've chosen for us. You know what I mean? I'm pinching your cheek, Draco. Please, don't think about such stuff before you're old. By the way, I tried to imagine you with an old face and came to the conclusion that I'm looking forward to the upcoming anniversaries, which are bringing us closer to the grey hairs of which I'm sure you certainly never get…
What am I talking about? Draco, I just don't want you to be sad anymore. Did I cheer you up? At least a bit?
Go back to bed, my love. I shall be awake for you and keep the nightmares away from my Draco. You have to be well rested so we can celebrate your birthday like you deserve it. I have a present for you and I am quite sure that you'll like it. It's definitely your taste.
I was, am and will always be yours, entirely and with all my heart. And because you look so sweet when I'm doing it I pinch your cheek once more. Sleep well.
~Cedric
