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EPOV
Song for Chapter: No Ordinary Love – The Civil Wars

The air is tense is my father's office.

There's so much to be said.

And nothing to be said at all.

Renee has yet to acknowledge any of us.

Even when I called her to inform her about you love, she acted as if it was a disservice to her.

I can't look at her, knowing everything they all put you through, and watching this façade she brings forth breaks me in two.

I love you, and seeing that with her, you smile, I endure it.

I slept in our bed last night.

I lay in our bed last night.

Sleep never came.

It never does when you're not wrapped in my arms.

I wonder if you still feel it.

The buzz that lingers whenever we are in close proximity of each other.

It's always been there.

Even on the first day I ran into you in Arizona.

We never knew that our paths would cross that day.

You always say I saved you that day.

And maybe in some way I did.

But ultimately it's you who saved me.

Every time.

You always save me love.

Give me a reason to breathe.

My mind has been going nonstop lately.

Mostly thinking about our future.

Will you remember?

When?

I wonder if you knew about our angel growing inside of you.

I wonder if you were going to tell me about our miracle on the night of our anniversary.

We were planning on having an angel.

It's funny how things work out.

Carlisle says you're 10 weeks along.

I want to share this time with you.

This is supposed to be our time together.

My father is studying me.

As if I'm his patient.

He sees what a mess I am love.

I haven't been to work since the accident.

If you knew that you'd kill me.

Letting our business, our dream fall to nothing.

It wouldn't be the same without you.

The children wouldn't understand why there's only one of us there.

I wonder what goes through your mind.

Do you have any signs going off in your head?

I played for you the other night while you slept.

Your favorite.

Please come back to me love.

I'm losing it.

"Ed."

"Yea Charlie?"

"Me and Ali are leaving." He says sadly.

"She's leaving isn't she Charlie?" I croak.

"Looks like it son. You can come stay with me and Lizzy if you need to."

"Or you can stay with me and your mother." My dad adds.

I scoff.

"Dad, mom's a mess. Last thing you need is both of us."

Mom misses you so much baby.

She is so torn.

For me, for you, for us.

"Jazz would love you at the house." Ali smiles as she enters the office.

"No." I say with finality. "I'm fine at our house. I don't need a babysitter."

Everyone nods. But I see the uncertainty behind their eyes.

I leave after your father and sister.

After telling you how much I love you and our child I head out to the beat up Honda.

I miss our Volvo.

Thanks to your father for letting me use the car he got you when you were 16.

God baby, the lies you were told.

They hurt to think about.

I pull up to our house.

The creamy yellow paint on the outside with the white border doesn't give me the happy feelings it used to. It makes my chest ache.

I take our Mimi out and watch her look around for you. Even the puppy knows your missing. The damn wiener dog that you fell in love with the moment you saw it at the pet store.

Everything reminds me of you love.

We get back inside and the first thing that slaps me in the face is our wedding picture framed by the entrance.

God, you're beautiful.

I grab the picture and take it with me to our guest room.

I can't sleep in our room.

Not when I know you're leaving to Arizona.

I forego a shower.

Again.

It's only 7pm but I feel the darkness fall over me before the sun is even fully set.

I'm beginning to appreciate the darkness, love.

Happy Friday Lovies,
You know what to do!