Chapter 9
Roman blinked hard a couple of times but the image between his thighs did not change. Seth was there with his lips wet and so was his cock. How the hell did he fall asleep with Dean and wake up with Seth?
" Seth, what are you doing here?"
Seth smiled and ran his hands up and down Roman's thighs. " I decided to come and wake up my boyfriend." His voice purred out the words and Roman could not miss the excitement in it.
Dean had warned him. Seth really liked him. He was really starting to regret fooling around with him yesterday afternoon. Yes he did enjoy it but he wasn't taking Seth too seriously when he had said that he was his boyfriend. He thought that it had just been some loose flirty talk between them.
" Is something wrong, Ro?" Seth was now looking at him puzzled.
What could he possibly tell him? That he thought that he was quite attractive and he did like him quite fine but he preferred Dean over him? Roman looked at Seth who was starting to look quite uncomfortable and unsure of himself. No. He couldn't hurt Seth like that.
Roman shook his head. " Nah. Just surprised that's all." Seth still looked uncertain. He crooked his index finger at him. " Come here."
Seth crawled up to Roman and waited. Roman sat up and keenly observed him. Seth was certainly quite handsome with his golden skin and dark features. He pushed his left hand through Seth's tumble of bleached blonde curls, gripping the back of his head. He watched as Seth turned his head towards his arm as his eyes drifted closed and long, thick black eyelashes touched the tops of his cheek. A gentle kiss was placed on his wrist. There was a certain vulnerability about Seth underneath all of his bravado that pulled at Roman in that moment. This was probably another bad judgement call on his part but he gently pulled Seth forward and kissed him softly on his lips. A press of lips, nothing too deep but it still felt good as Seth kissed him back automatically. Roman pulled away a little as Seth's hands settled on his chest. Seth was now smiling at him. This wasn't good. He needed to stop leading on Seth because sooner or later he would find out about him and Dean and he didn't want any tension or misgivings between especially since they had to work together.
Seth kissed him again. Plucking at his lips softly. Honestly it felt really good to kiss him and he nearly got swept away into it again but he gently pushed Seth away.
" Seth, we can't."
Seth's mouth immediately twisted into a pout. " Why not?"
" Because I don't want to make things on this team complicated." That was the best that he could've come up with and it honestly didn't sound like much.
Seth of course looked skeptical. " But yesterday you said that you wanted to fuck me."
Shit. He had forgotten about that. He couldn't even blame it entirely on his dick. Even his brain thought that Seth looked like if he could be fun in the bedroom and as evidence by this morning's wake up call, he was quite bold.
Seth was studying him carefully. " You don't want to fuck me anymore?"
Fuck yes. Roman remembered all of the little noises that Seth made in his throat yesterday while they were going at it. Imagining those sounds with his dick deep inside of him, made his heart beat a little faster and his dick twitched.
" It's not that I don't want to fuck you." Roman sighed. He was naked. Seth was there and willing to go at his word. " It's just that doing so will make a mess of things."
Seth tried to shrug nonchalantly but it seemed a bit too much of an effort on his part. " It's just sex."
Roman didn't buy for a second Seth's indifference. " You know that it would be more than just that."
Seth's eyes darted guilty at him and then down at the bedsheets. " What you mean is, that you don't like me as much as I like you and this is your way of turning me down."
Roman was taken back by Seth's perceptiveness and couldn't find an immediate response. Seth was looking at him and was obviously hurt by Roman's silence.
Seth shuffled backwards. " I think I better go." He hopped off the bed and tightened the drawstring at the waist of his shorts.
" Seth, wait." He couldn't let Seth leave like this. He was right. In a way. He didn't like Seth as much as he had obviously liked him but he was starting to feel that way. There was something about Seth's vulnerabilty that drew him in and made him want to find out more about the man. But it would probably be futile. He couldn't have both Dean and Seth at the same time.
Seth however didn't wait. He just shook his head and walked out through the bedroom door.
Dean had just turned the coffee maker on when he felt a familiar pair of arms around his waist and a head resting on his shoulder. By the sound of the little sigh he knew that something was wrong.
" What's the matter Seth?" Dean turned around in Seth's embrace and was greeted with the most melancholy expression on Seth's face. " What happened babe?"
Seth sucked in a heavy breath as if he was trying to stop himself from crying. " Roman doesn't want me."
" How do you know?"
" He just told me." Seth rested his forehead on top of Dean's shoulder. " I just don't understand. Yesterday he told me that he wanted to fuck me and now today, he doesn't want to anymore."
It felt as if someone had poured cold water into Dean's veins. So Seth's sleep induced confession hadn't been entirely based on the medication. He kissed Seth's temple as he gently stroked his back. " Tell me what happened."
Dean was absolutely dumbfounded. So many thoughts and emotions swirling through his head. Seth and Roman had madeout. Then Roman had sex with him later that night and didn't say anything even though he had told him that Seth had feelings for him. He acted as if he was completely surprised by the notion even though he had a pretty good idea all along. Dean began to feel almost sick with disgust. He felt used and betrayed by Roman. Yet as he stroked Seth's hair, he also felt extremely guilty. He knew the reason that Roman turned Seth down was because of him. But Seth didn't know that and he didn't see how he could tell him without Seth hating him for the rest of his life. The coffee machine beeped behind him and Dean stretched an arm behind him to turn it off. He then held Seth tightly in his arms, kissing the top of his head. " Everything's going to be okay."
Roman had managed to get out of bed and pull on a pair of boxers. He could at least go and make some breakfast and see what Dean was up to. The main part of the house was open planned and as he turned the corner, a sight greeted him from the kitchen. Dean was embracing Seth whose head was resting on Dean's shoulder. He watched as Dean made comforting circular motions on Seth's back.
A sinking feeling just hit him in the gut. Seth had to have told Dean what had happened. He didn't even think about that. Of course Seth would. He and Dean were close. Now Dean would know about what he did behind his back and there was nothing about it that painted Roman in a favourable light.
He was just about to slip back behind the corner when Dean's eyes met his. There was no mistaking the absolute anger in those blue eyes. Roman swallowed hard. He had fucked up. Royally. He mouthed an ' I'm sorry' at Dean who just narrowed his eyes at him in return. Yup. He had definitely screwed up big time. It wouldn't be a good idea to go into the kitchen right now. He went back into his bedroom and got dressed. There was a nice breakfast cafe that was about a ten minute walk away. He would eat there today and try to formulate a plan on how to win Dean back and how to stop Seth from hating him.
" Hey." His fingers were slipping easily through Seth's soft brown curls. " How about I take you to breakfast?"
Seth lifted his head up a bit as if he was contemplating it. " Where?"
" There's this nice place in town that we passed when we were coming here."
" You mean the place that looked a Parisian cafe?"
" Yeah." Dean would bet that it would be as pricy as it looked from the outside. But right seeing as Seth's misery was partially his fault, he would suck it up.
" I guess that's acceptable." He pulled away from Dean but laced his fingers through his instead. He gave Dean's hand a gentle tug. " Let's go and get ready."
Dean was amazed at how many pastries Seth ordered. His mantra was usually that carbs were the devil. But looking at the plate that contained two large croissants, one of them half eaten, four macaroons, and a small round brioche loaf, he figured that his mantra had been shown the door for now. There was also small plate that held little containers of jam and butter. Dean's own meal looked far healthier with a salmon and spinach quiche with one mini croissant and a coffee.
Seth had opted to eat inside instead of outside on the patio with the nice looking french styled furniture. Dean watched as he sliced the half eaten croissant in half and generously applied jam down the center. Seth had to be feeling awful about what happened with Roman. Dean honestly didn't expect Seth to take Roman's rejection so hard. Seth was always one to just shrugged things off and keep it moving but the sadness that had taken over his features told him otherwise.
Dean was never really good at comforting people. Even though he tried harder with Seth, he still knew that he sucked at it. Also, he felt like biggest hypocrite in the world to be comforting Seth when he couldn't come clean to him. It was selfishness on his part really. He didn't want to come clean because he didn't want to risk losing him. He had feelings for Seth. He could at least admit that. He had feelings for Roman as well. Maybe one could call it human nature but he didn't want to give up either of them unless he was forced to.
" Stop staring at me." Seth took a bite of his croissant. " Your quiche is getting cold."
" Sorry." Dean took up his fork and cut off a piece of the quiche. " Just making sure that you're okay."
Seth just looked at him as he took another bite but he didn't answer.
Half an hour later they were climbing back into the SUV. Dean was driving. As soon as he had clicked his seatbelt in place, he felt Seth's hand on top of his. He looked up and saw that Seth had leaned over the console and his face was right in front of his. He closed his eyes as Seth kissed him. His lips sweet with the jam.
Seth ended the kiss but didn't pull too far back and kept his hand on top of Dean's. " Take care of me when we get home?" His breath softly caressing Dean's face.
It was in these sort of moments that he could never find the willpower to tell Seth no.
Dean nodded.
When Roman returned to the beach house from breakfast, he noticed that the car was gone. He settled down on the couch and turned on the television. He was still at a lost as to what to do about the situation. He was certain that Seth had told Dean about what had happened between them but he wasn't certain if Dean had told Seth about them. Dean had seem so adamant about protecting Seth from finding out about them that it was the only consolation that he had. However it probably looked in Dean's eyes that Roman wasn't sincere about him and had been playing both him and Seth. Everything was such a fucking mess. If there was a way that he could have both of them, he would. But from the look that Dean gave him this morning he knew that was just wishful thinking on his part.
His ears perked up at the sound of footsteps on the stairs. It appeared as though Dean and Seth were back. He stood up and nervously ran his hands down the sides of his shorts. He needed to clear the air between them even if this was going to be a painful conversation to have.
When Seth and Dean walked in, he felt the tension rise immediately in the room. Seth looked at him and looked away and Dean just held his gaze.
" Can I talk to you guys?"
" I'm busy." Seth huffed.
Roman's eyes pleaded with Dean's. " Dean, please?"
The auburn haired man stared at him for a few more seconds and then turned to Seth. " Go on. I'll be there shortly."
Seth glanced between the two of them and then placed on hand on Dean's shoulder. Before Dean could stop him, Seth grabbed the back of his head and pulled him in for a hard kiss. Dean knew that this was Seth lashing out at Roman in a passive aggressive manner.
Seth pulled away and smiled at him. " Don't keep me waiting too long." It was evident by Seth's tone to what he was referring to. He watched as Seth walked away before turning to Roman.
The older man was now looking at him as if he wanted an explanation from Dean. Now how the fuck was he going to explain to Roman what was going on between him and Seth?
A/N: So many shenanigans in this chapter. Are you guys keeping up? It's day four, morning time. Now how is Dean going to explain this to Roman?
