DGM

Bad Boy's Changes

Chapter 9

A Full Moon Night

Larae tossed and turned in her bed. She wanted to see Allen. She wanted to see him to see if he was really a Noah. She knows that he looks like a Noah, but looks aren't everything. SHe told that to Allen as children. She, unlike the rest of the world, did not misjudge him. She did not look at his arm. Not as innocence. Not as evil. Just an arm. She saw ALlen for who he was. She understood him better than everyone else because they didn't witness all the suffering he has had. Allen deserves happiness and a life full of peace more than anyone else after what happened in the past. Maybe that was going overboard, but she didn't think that Allen ever truly expierenced any bit of happiness in his life. She just wants to see that real smile of his that he never had grace his face. It's always that frown. It's always a fake smile. A masked smile. He really was a clown. Maybe that's why he hates clowns. He hates himself.

She shouldn't be thinking like this though. Allen always came back. Always. So he would come back. He will. She had absolute faith in him. In his own powers. No matter what he does, no matter what happens, she will be by his side. In spirit if not physically. Her heart was with him. She would give up her life if need be. Allen was the center of her world. Even after he was left behind at the orphanage. She knew what he was doing, but he anger got the better of her and she left. She never forgave ehrself for that. Neither did he. He never forgave himself for anything. He tears himself apart onyl because no one ever liked him. Because of his past. No matter what she does, or what anyone else does, he tears himself into pieces. He's a tainted person on glass that is cracking. Soon he would shatter if he doesn't get what he needs. But does he even know that if he continues on like this then she slowly dies herself?

Allen is not a weapon, not a tool, in a war. He isn't a fighter. Not mentally. After everything he's been through, it's a surprise he hasn't lost it yet. He's only a human being. They can only subside so much pain, so much rejection and neglection, only so much damage can be done before one is broken. Allen breaks more and more everyday, but he hasn't given up. There's that little ray of hope in his eyes. No matter the cost she will give him a reason to live. Not for the war. Not for the world. For him. He isn'ta Noah. He isn't an exorcist. He is Allen. Screw the damn fortunes. No one can foretell the future. Not all of it. Allen is a mystery that not even she has completely cracked. Only because he won't express himself. "Why am I thinking bad things? Is it because Allen's not around? I do get insecure after awhile. This isn't about me though. It's Allen. I will not give up. I will find him and unless he tells me that he is a Noah and proves it then I will believe it, but it's going to take a lot to do that." Larae told herself.

Larae got up and yawned. She couldn't sleep. Too many thoughts. Se put a sweater on over her nightgown and put a rubber band in her blue hair, but it wasn't tight. It still laid against her back and she placed it over her shoulder. She slipped some slippers on her feet and opened the door to her room. Derek and Tobin knew about Allen and they were extremely worried about her. She could only fake so much. When she felt ready to crack she left. She should've opened up, but she felt it would make things worse and to talk aobut Allen who's corpse is being sought for because he betrayed the Order, would only cause trouble to stir. She mustn't speak about him to anyone while inside the hollow halls of the Black Order.

Larae shivered when she left her room. Her face showed pure calmness and no emotion. Her mind was in total turmoil with many thoughts arounsed. All she could do was think of Allen. Good and bad. The past, present, and future. What she dreamed of for him and her. What had happened and what she wish would happened. A life that could be better for her. What she will and want to do for him. What she needs for him. How she can help. So much more that it would take forever to put on paper. Her mind was ready to burst from the pressure, but that could not be helped. Allen held her heart and soul in his hand. The damge done already can't be changed or fixed anymore. She no longer pleas for that. She prays every night, every morning, every second, and with every heartbeat she has. To the god she had long ago stopped believing in just like everyone else. A miracle is all she needs. Not for her though. For Allen. She cared about him more than she should and it broke her heart to see him with anyone else or being hurt, in pain, or mourning. She didn't care. She had lived her life to it's fullest without Allen. Unless Allen is in her life she has nothing left to do. He is all she is living for now. She will not lose him too!

Larae could smell the fresh air as she walked down the dark halls. She passed the windows and only a small glimmer of light came through and shined on her face giving her little comfort or sight. Yet, it could not give her confidence or Allen. Nothing she wanted. Her life encircled Allen. A thought she shouldn't have either, but that's what she felt. Allen had a heart of gold that is locked up and needs to be broken out of the prison cell that wields it. He gave her what she needed as a child and now she will save him like he had her. She was indebted to him. She owed him. She owed him her life.

Lavi heard footsteps coming down the hall and he took his eyes off the words on the page in the book Bookman was making him read. The didn't know why, but he had a feeling he should blow out the candle's flame. So he did. He stared out of the library's door and listened to the footsteps that echoed in the darkness. No one was up. Not even a scientist. Everyone had fallen asleep except for him. So who would be up at this time? Komui? He's probably working on another robot, but the footsteps weren't coming from that direction. He carefully got out of his seat and pushed the chair back under the table. He made sure to make no sounds and even held his breath for a bit. He stood near the door, but unless the person turned around, they would not see him. Maybe not even then. Unless they could see at night. In pitch black. He saw a shadow coming towards his direction and could tell it was a girl.

Larae felt really cold even with her sweater on. She disregarded this. Her nightgown wasn't thick and if not for one layer that touched her skin, it would be completely see through. So of course she would be cold. Her soft footsteps sounded so loud and eerie to her for some odd reason. She gave a small, barely audible sigh. If it weren't for the emptiness and quietness tonight then no one would be able to hear her little sigh. Not even her, but it also echoed in this place. She looked up from her feet to a staircase right next to the library. It spiraled up to the roof of Order. Where she was heading. She stopped walking right in front of the library doorway and the window off to the side had light shing through and it shone on her. She wouldn't look out the window though. She wanted to go outside. Not look outside. She had to go outside before the wallscompletely enclosed her. Before she suffocated. So why did she hesitate to walk out? Was she scared of life beyond the walls? Still? Was she afraid that if she walked out she would see something she didn't want to?

Outside these walls was Allen. She may not be able to see him, but there was a full moon tonight. Allen would most likely be staring at it wherever he is out there. "Allen. . . . . . I'm coming." Larae murmured.

Lavi's eye widened. Larae was talking about Allen. No one was allowed to speak of him so cafefreely. Not like she just did. The higher ups were ashamed to have considered Allen a comrade, but they wouldn't think that if Allen came back willing to give his life to them and give them information on the Noahs. Larae took a few more steps and her hand reached out for the stair's railing. She put one foot on the first step then the second. She stopped there. She looked down and her hands violently shook. The trembles traveled up her arms and up her neck and down her back until her whole body was shaking. Lavi gazed at her with a soft eyes. "Al. . . . . . len." Larae whispered.

Larae walked up the stairs and when Lavi thought it was safe, he followed. Larae opened the door that lead to the rooftop. She walked out of it and didn't bother to close it. She walked to a bench that was placed on the roof awhile ago. During the day many people came up here to relax or get refreshed. She looked up from her feet and up at the many stars in the night sky. Her eyes fell on the full moon and it's lumnious light. The moon reflected in her eyes and then that's all you could see. The moon. Her eyes were glued on it. Lavi leaned on the door and stareda t her with a frown. She took the information about Allen the hardest. Worse than Lenalee took it. Lavi was worried about her like everyone else was, but he knew she wouldn't speak up. She had perfectly good reasons not to. "Allen, you promised. Please come back. Dont' break my heart again. Not again." Larae mumbled.

Lavi watched as tears ran down Larae's face. He wanted to do something, say something, but what? He barely knew her. No one really knew her. ONly her two brothers. They still didn't know her as well as someone else. Allen. "I also promised you. Remember out pact. Don't fall into the darkness. You're not alone." Larae said softly.

"Larae." Lavi whispered.

She didn't hear him. Luckily. "I'm here for you. No matter what happens. You're not a Noah. Come back. Please come back. Please." Larae pleaded to Allen who wasn't there.

Larae covered her mouth with her hand. She would see him again, but will she like what she sees this time? Would she be prepared? Could she stand the sight? "I'm always here for you. Don't give in. You are not a demon. . . . . . . . Allen." Larae uttered.

Lavi couldn't believe his ears. Allen was not a demon, but he really did act like one when he last saw Allen. She heard the things he had done. His thirst for human blood, how does that not shout out demon? He didn't want to think like that. Not about Allen, but what he saw. . . . . . . it was scary. "Be the true you. Only you know who you really are so please don't give up. Even if you do remember I have enough faith in you for the both of us." Larae said.

Lavi smiled. She really did love him. Even after hearing and knowing Allen is a Noah she can still say this. He closed the door and walked over to Larae. She looked up at him and wiped away the tears. Lavi sat down beside her and put his jacket on her. "You're going to catch a cold out here. You should go back inside." Lavi said with a grin.

"Thanks Lavi, but I'm staying right here until the moon is gone. It's the only thing I have left of Allen right now. Only until he comes back. Though I plead and pray, I know he'll come back, but it's hiw he comes back that frightens me." Larae told him.

Lavi hugged her. "You want to cry. Go ahead. I'm a shoulder you can cry on. I owe Allen big time and until he does get back, I'll watch over you. I can't replace him, but I'm sure it's better than nothing." Lavi replied.

"Lavi?" Larae asked, shocked.

"You won't talk and I don't blame you for not wanting to talk about it. There's only a few people here that care about Allen now. It's not easy to lose the one you love. It seems he's always leaving you behind. Isn't that what he feels like to you? He's always out of your grasp and you're the closest person to him. Lenalee believes that too. She doesn't love him as much as you do, but it's Allen's choice that matters in the end. SO with all this on mind, the past and the present, all this bottled up, all the emotions, the pain, your thoughts, your feelings, it's only going to kill you on the inside. It's not something you can easily talk about, but the only way to let it out before you can form words to someone else besides Allen is crying. It'll release so much. So go ahead. Cry." Lavi explained.

"Lavi. . . . . . . I can't." LArae said, looking away.

"You were earlier. It's not good for you to cry alone. You're not the only one grieving, but you appear to be suffering the most. That can't be helped. So in turn I will help you. Just cry." Lavi said.

Larae stared at him and the tears fell down her face. She grabbed Lavi and cried in his shirt. Minutes passed and the minutes turned into an hour. She could've cried longer, but she turned her head around to stare at the moon. Plus, Lavi was going to have to take his shirt off and twist it because it was so wet from all her tears. "He's always one step ahead no matter how close I come. Everytime I reach out for him he takes another step. Now he's out of sight and I must find him before things get out of hand." Larae told him.

"You'll catch up. You have to. With all this passion you have driving you to him. If there's anyone that can save him it has to be you." Lavi responded, patting her head.

"I hope that's true." Larae said, releasing him.

"It's really cold out here. I'm not just saying that because my shirt is soaking wet and you have my jacket and for your health. It's really cold." Lavi said and you could see his breath turn to fog.

"I told you I'm not going in." Larae said.

"And I'm not going to let you freeze out here alone. I don't think it wise to leave you alone right now." Lavi retorted.

Larae looked at the moon that seemed really big. Like it was right in front of her. Like she could reach out and grab it. Then something fell in front of her eyes that stood out from the gray- blue- white moon. She reached her hand up to grab something and sstared at it. "Snow? Already?" Larae asked.

Lavi stared at the large snowflake as it started melting and soon, vanished. He looked up at the sky and Larae stood up, Lavi's jacket falling off. She held her hands up and smiled. "Snow. I haven't seen it in so long." Larae said gleefully.

"It's snowing? But it's only the beginning of November." Lavi said as he stood up.

Larae started walking forward for a few seconds and she stopped two yards away. She stared at the sky and something sparked in her eyes. Something ignited in her eyes. "Allen loves snow. More than I too. I hope he can see it from wherever he is. And he can see the moon. It's like I'm staring at him now because of it and the snow." Larae murmured, but Lavi heard.

Allen. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

Allen walked out of his room and frowned. All of the other Noahs were sleeping. Hopefully. He walked down the streets until he came to the door that lead to an alleyway in town where he went to school. He finally memorized it. Only for now. Only because he really wanted to go outside. He had this gut wrenching feeling that he had to. He looked behind him before he entered the door. He didn't see anything. He didn't hear anything. He smelled no one. He shut his eyes and sighed. If caught he would be in big trouble, but didn't care. What did he care about? He went through the door and someone came out from behind the corner of a . He narrowed his eyes as he thought of the worst possibility. He followed Allen through the door and when he got outside a very cold breeze blew by. It was chilling. Now he wished he had a jacket.

Tyki looked around, but didn't see Allen. He heard a small clank and looked up. Allen was climbing up a metal ladder attached to the building on the right. Tyki swiftly followed, but took a different way up. He cloaked his presence with the help of an akuma nearby. The akuma was on it's way because of Tyki's orders, but he was still worried Allen would sense him. Allen stood near the ledge and stared at the full moon. He was frowning, but the very edge of his lips were curling up. "So cold out here." Allen muttered.

Tyki stared at Allen. He didn't realize Tyki was only a few feet away. Tyki wondered what Allen was doing out here though. Allen had been right though. It was freezing. You could even see Allen's breath. Minutes passed and Allen stared at the moon endlessly. He hadn't seen the moon in so long. So, so long. It was his light on the darkest night. It always showed him, guided him, to where he needed to be. It got him out of a dark place, but he keeps getting into another tunnel. Will this ever end? Hopefully. 'You're my moon Larae. I promise to protect you. I will not break this promise. Not again. Larae. Get off you bitch! Larae! My moon. You. . . . . .Larae. . . . . . I don't know. I lvoe the both of you! I can't decide. My moon. You're my moon. Larae. Moon. Moon. Moon.' Allen's old words ran though his mind, stuck. They kept replaying and replaying. Flashbacks started and he tried to stop them, but Larae was stuck on his mind. Why? Why now? WHy think of her now? It was the fifth of November. No, wait, it was the sixth now. The sixth of November. "Now it makes sense. It happens every year. Damn it. Just leave me alone." Allen said aloud.

Allen was around eight when he first met Larae. That means he knew her for about ten years. This was the very day they met head on all those days ago. When they really met. Not just introuductions or looks. When Allen had literally met Larae. It was a complicated explaination that not many understood. Then again, he never told anyone. He looked down at the ground and frowned. His left hand reached for his heart. What was this feeling? Did he miss her? No. That wasn't it. Whatever it was, it would go away in time. He felt something touch his face and looked up at the moon again. A few white flakes fell down in front of him. He held out his hand and the cold snowflakes fell onto his skin then melted within seconds. "Snow? It's not even the middle of November." Allen said.

It didn't really matter, did it? No, but his thoguhts went back to Larae. Why couldn't he get her out of his head? Only for tonight though. Allen looked back up at the sky and blinked. It was snowing. He shut his eyes and his hand balled into a fist. When he opened his eyes he turned around. "The moon that intertwins my soul with that day. That dark day. Then it changed. Can you still guide me moon?" Allen mumbled.

Allen felt something warm run down his face and then it got cold. His hand touched his face and brought his hand away. "Tears? Why. . . . . am I crying?" Allen said aloud.

Tyki stared at the tears that ran down Allen's face and raised a brow. What was with all that mumbo jumbo stuff about the moon? What's with the tears? Allen didn't seem to know either. Allen's hand covered half his face and he suddenly became saddened then angry. He was mixed with so many emotions. "No. It's over with. That's no longer my fate." Allen murmured.

Allen gritted his teeth and stared at the moon, turning his body half way around. "Get out of my head. I am a Noah now. Nothing less than that. I live for the Noah. I live for the Earl. . . . . . . . . . and I'll seek my revenge on them if I ever lay eyes upon them again." Allen said to himself.

"Master Noah? I thought you were suppose to be in the ark?" a teenage boy asked. Or was it a girl. Either was it was a teen. Someone younger than him by human form. "Master Noah?"

"Akuma. What are you doing here?" Allen asked.

"I sensed your presence. You're a new Noah, right? I was told you were not to be alone or out of the ark without another Noah." the akuma said.

"They still don't trust me on my own. I guess I can't blame them. I'm not going anywhere. I'm just. . . . . . . . thinking so to speak." Allen said, kinder than usually.

"Thinking aloud." the akuma stated.

"So you heard all that? It;s not really a big deal I guess. The past should stay in the past. If it finds it's way to the present then things will change." Allen said almost sadistically.

"It's none of my buisness sir." the akuma responded.

"I'm just speaking what's on my mind." Allen said, looking at the moon.

"Why are you out here master?" the akuma asked.

"I just needed some fresh air. Alone time. Instincts. I dunno. Jsut felt like coming out here." Allen said as he held his hand back out for the snow to fall on. "Why are you here?"

"I told you I sensed your presence."

"That doesn't mean you would come here. I would think this would be the best time to hunt. If that's what you're doing out here this late." Allen responded.

"I just felt the need to come sir. I'm sorry if I bothered you, but I knew you were a Noah, but I never felt this presense before." the akuma said.

Allen glanced at the akuma. He knew what Noah was what? "You're a level four." Allen stated.

"Yes."

"What is a level four doing in a place like this?" Allen asked.

"I'm suppose to keep any kind of threats from coming to town."

"You mean exorcists?" Allen asked.

"Yes sir. I don't mean to pry, but there's another aura with you. It's innocence."

"That doesn't matter." Allen said.

Allen's frown deepened and he sighed. "Do you have a name akuma?" Allen asked.

"Dice." the akuma said.

"Dice. . . . . I see. Can you not tell the other Noahs or akuma about me being here tonight? I don't need any problems with them right now. I don't need to lose their trust over something like this. They might think I was going to leave." Allen said, rambling.

"Huh? I mean, if that;s what you wish, but if they ask I don't really have a choice, but to answer truthfully master Noah." Dice told him.

"I understand that. I better get going." Allen said.

"Excuse me master, but do you have something with the moon. I've noticed you've been staring at it for quite some time and you did mention something about it earlier." Dice asked.

"You're overstepping a line akuma." Allen said coldly.

"Forgive me." Dice said, bowing.

Allen was about to leave, but then he smelled blood and heard a scream. He turned around and looked down at the street. The blood. He had to restrain himself, but he couldn't. He sniffed the air and when he opened them his eyes seemed to of get brighter. Almost glowing. His hands twitched with excitement. He couldn't resist. he blood was getting closer and closer and closer then it was right below him. He stared at a woman who had a few cuts and was scared to death as a man walked towards her with lusty eyes. He was drunk and was probably going to rape her before killing her or just kill her. Allen didn't care about that though. The akuma followed his gaze and Dice stayed there. He wouldn't do anything with his master arond. He then felt a weird aura come off of Allen. He took a few steps backwards and then watched Allen jump down off the eight story building onto the gorund. His feet were sore and hurt from the inpact on the ground, but not much. It was like a bee sting. Both the man and the woman stareda t him. "Go away kid. Get lost!" the amn shouted as he tried to take the woman's skirt off. The pervert.

Allen kicked the man off the woman and she was frozen on the ground, feeling unsafe still. "You get lost or I just might kill you." Allen hissed.

The man got up and attacked him with a knife. Allen grabbed his wrist and gripped it. The knife dropped out of his hand and hit the ground, but before that happened, the man's hand and lower arm's bones shattered. Allen used more strength then he should have, but the widn blew the blood's smell towards him and it made him use more than planned. Before the man could cry in pain Allen's hand went through his chest and pierced his heart. The woman screamed as the man died and fell ont op of her. He stared at her and grinned a crooked Noah girn. The woman got up and started to run, but Allen grabbed her and pulled her back. Her back hit the wall very hard and Allen pinned her hands above her head as his other hand raised her shirt and touched a huge cut on her stomach. "It smells so good I can't. . . . . resist." Allen mutttered, eyeing her blood.

The woman squeezed her eyes shut and prayed for a miracle. Allen licked the blood off of her stomach and his hand deepened the wound, amking her scream. He toyed with her a little, loving to see her painc and struggle. IN the end, he killed her and he was covered in blood at the end. He licked soem blood off of his fingers and stuck them in his mouth, sucking the blood off. He turned around and headed back towards the alleyways. Dice jumped down and looked at the two corpse. "You'r enot just going to leave them here, are you?" Dice asked.

"I need to get back. If it's a problem then you can dispose of them. If you can, find a way to get rid of the blood too. I don't care." Allen said monotonelessly while licking the blood off of him.

Allen made sure to leave no blood stains in the ark on his way to his room. When he got there he hurried to the bathroom and filled the tub with water. He took off his clothes and dressed in a pair of pj pants. He didn't bother with a shirt or socks. He started rinsing his clothes in the tub to clean them of blood or at least the smell, but he couldn't. If he was caught he would be in so much trouble. He got rid of the water in the tub and stared at the clothes. "You will have to burn the clothes kid." Tyki said, standing in hte bathroom doorway.

He turned his head around so fast it almost snapped right off. His skin was still covered in blood and despite Tyki bieng there he couldn't stop himself form licking it off. "How did you-"

"Did you forget Road or myself has to keep an eye on you at all times. I used that akuma to cloak my presence from you once we left the ark. I won't tell the Earl, but if you get caught because of your own mistakes that's not my fault." Tyki said.

"Then why did you watch me and not take me back to the ark?" Allen asked.

"I wante dto see what you were doing and what you were going to do with the humans. You killed those two without a second thoguht or regret. You're still licking the blood off your fingers. You're so shameless." Tyki said.

"You've killed mor ehumans than I have. That makes you shameless too." Allen said.

"Have you quenched your thirst for tonight?" Tyki queried, changing the subject.

Allen's eyes widened again. He hadn't realized he was still licking himself clean of the blood. He even bit himself a few times and drank his own blood. He was like a vampire afterall. Still, he didn't stop. Even when he got all he could he licked his lips, wanting more. He didn't have enough. "I asked you a question boy." Tyki said, grabbing Allen's hair and making him stand. Sorta.

Allen's knees barely touched the floor and he stared at Tyki. Why did he care? "Need. . . . . more." Allen said.

"You're so sinister. Burn the clothes and take a shower. If oyu want to keep it a secret you ahve to get that scent off of you." Tyki said as he threw Allen on the floor.

Tyki stared at him. He was just as bad as last time. Nothing changed. He was blood drunk. As long as he didn't attack Tyki for blood he would be fine, but will he calm down? "You're on your own with this." Tyki told him and left.

Allen did as Tyki suggested, but Road came into his room after he finished taking care of everything. He sat on his bed, twitching. He still had the thirst. He was a Noah. Not a vampire. So why the bloodlust? Road stared at Allen and noticed Allen's strange behavior just from sight. "WHat did you do Allen?" Road asked.

Allen's hands moved from his face and he stared at Road. Would she tell? "B- Blood. Need more. So. . . delicious." Allen said, but not as crazed as last time.

"You left the ark, didn't you?" Road asked.

"I. . . I. . . I just went for some air. I didn't mean to take the blood. I didn't mean to lose control after smelling the blood. I killed them, but I want more." Allen said calmly.

Road sat on his bed in front of hmi. He killed someone? More than one person too. He said them. She could smell the blood come from his mouth too. His thirst for blood is going to continue like this until he learns how to control the Noah. This rarely happens to a Noah, but Allen wasn't normal. Drinking blood from a human is a sin. Noah of Sins must comit a few sins. He might have bloodlust because of his hatred from the past though. Or it's making up for his innocence wanting to destroy the akuma. She went through a similiar bloodlust once, but she didn't remember much. She was probably really angry at that time. Maybe it was right after the fourteenth killed the Noahs except for her and the Earl. Going back to the subject at hand, Allen's thirst will continue until he's had enough blood to quench his thirst. He might not gain enough self restraint for the next time though. "Have my blood." Road said.

"I'm not a vampire. I don't need blood to survive. I just need some time to get over the taste." Allen said, not liking the fact Road was offering her blood.

"It won't harm me. This isn't my real form, remember?" Road said.

"No. I'll be fine. I just need sleep." Allen said and laid down, falling asleep as fast as possible.

"No, but when a Noah gets a bloodlust like this it just going to go away." Road said, brushing his hair.

I hope I didn't go overboard with the blood thirst. t sounds a lot like a vampire and not much of a Noah, but I just had to do this. I hope it doesn't bother anyone. Please review and thanks for reading. Thanks!