Again I DID NOT READ THE MANGA so now that I am I'm pulling a few ideas here and there from it. I probably should have waited to read the manga until afterwards.
Haruhi Pov
I stood outside of the classroom and stared at Kaoru waiting for him to tell me what he wants to. He had a casual smirk on his face with an arrogant air around him, it seemed to make things seem… a bit passive aggressive. I don't know why though.
"What is it you want?" I asked thinking about the test I need to study for later. It seems like it could be easy enough but I have some problems with configuration in French. Kaoru placed a hand on my shoulder making me blink and look up at him suddenly remembering his presence.
Leaning forward he kissed me. It was innocent in a way, just a peck and had practically no emotion in it at all. He leaned back and sighed then pressed his forehead against mine. "I got nothing, how about you?" Kaoru asked with a smirk. I nodded in agreement just a bit surprised at his actions.
I'm not one of those girls who want twins to both like her but at the same time I don't care if Kaoru kisses me. I have no emotions to it whatsoever except when I think about how Hikaru might react to it. Other than that Kaoru doesn't mean much to me right now. In the beginning I was worried about him and even cared more than I probably should but over time I'm beginning to lose all my feelings for him. He's not behaving like the Kaoru we all loved and were proud of.
"I think I'm done with this." He whispered and hugged me tightly. I didn't react at all and let him do as he wished hoping that he will allow me to go back to class soon. Hikaru might get worried.
"Done with what?" I asked him and then my eyes widened. For some reason this boy is crying and I don't know why. He began to hug me tighter to him as his salty tears began to hit my clothes. The girls at school still think I'm a boy which is fine. I don't really care, but having someone this close and crying on me… makes me wish I was a guy.
If I was a guy I would be a bit stronger and could hit him and push this boy away from me. If I was a guy then I would know to some extent what his mind is like so I could talk to him on his level. If I was a guy maybe this wouldn't be happening at all. If I was a guy maybe I wouldn't even be in love with Hikaru.
"I'm done with being pissed off at you two for leaving me behind… I'm done with all these pissing battles and how I keep trying to win you over when that's impossible. I'm done with being twins because it just makes us too close and makes this hurt… I'm just done with being me." He cried holding me too tight. It was becoming hard to breathe.
Lifting my arms hesitantly I began to hug him back. Slowly all the feelings I once had for him came back one at a time as each tear fell. "You're an idiot." I informed him and listened to his soft laughter in between the sobs.
"I'm so sorry I can't love you. I keep trying to but I just can't." He mumbled causing me to smile.
"It's good you can't love me because then this would have gone on longer." I informed him with a light smile.
Suddenly the door opened and Hikaru came out. When he saw us, I knew he couldn't see Kaoru crying since his face was away from the door. My boyfriend's eyes widened slightly before he turned around and ran. I watched him go and rolled my eyes. "He thinks I'm cheating on him." I sighed and looked at Kaoru's face.
He pulled away and began to wipe his eyes before turning around and running after his brother. Smiling I watched him go then turned around to head back into class. "You are something else, Haruhi." Kyoya said from behind me. I turned around and grinned at him.
"It wasn't me. This was bound to happen and the two needed to figure it out themselves." I shrugged and then looked down at the floor. "I didn't want to be the bait they fought over, though." I grumbled causing him to laugh before patting me on the back.
"Without you I'm not sure it would have happened that fast. It helps that you were practically apathetic throughout the whole thing, except for the occasional feelings of worry, am I right?" He asked making me laugh, yes I can be cruel.
"Sorry but boys are just boys; you can't make me care about every little fight, especially yours and Tamaki's." I grinned making him nod with a small smile.
"Go on to class… I have to take care of Tamaki. He's been in a mood all day." Kyoya sighed but we both knew he was going to enjoy helping the blond boy out.
I watched him go for a moment then looked in the direction that my two boys went. Sighing softly I hoped everything would turn out okay… because despite our kidding around I really do care about those two and this fight has been a bit too much for all of us.
