You ran past the shed, through the icy air. You came upon the stop you had your showdown with Papyrus at, and you caught sight of something golden. The memory of killing your friend fills you with determination.
You run faster, trying to outpace the footsteps rapidly catching up behind you. Suddenly, Sans was right in front of you. You barely managed to slip under his arm. You continued to run, dodging the branches and rocks and Sans when he popped up in your way.
After five minutes of this chase, you felt your lungs begin to cry out. You knew you needed to find a place to do this, and now. You saw a small opening in the trees and drove for it. You rolled under one of the bushes and watched as Sans appeared in the clearing in front if you. He searched around frantically, calling your name. Your chest clenched at the pain in his voice, but this was for the best. You were absolutely certain.
Sans left, and you could still hear his voice in the distance, getting more and more hysterical. You wiggled our way out from under the bush, not bothering to brush the dirt off the front of your sweater. It was going to be ruined in a second anyway. You made your way to the center of the clearing and knelt in the snow. You gave yourself a few minutes to admire how the snow hung to the branches, and how the light created little rainbows on the white ground.
Smiling, you took in your surroundings for the last time. If you had to pick, you wouldn't have chosen to have anything else to see for the last time. It was simply beautiful. A small smile graced your lips as you held the knife out. You let the light glint off the blade, playing with the glare on the snow, watching the spot of light dance about.
You strained to hear Sans, but was relieved to hear nothing but the falling snow. Taking a deep breath, you prepared yourself. It was finally time.
You grasp the handle with both hands and place the tip of the blade on your stomach before raising it up above your head. As the blade arced down, it was as if time slowed. You saw something move out of the corner of your eye. Sans was running towards you, his irises almost nonexistent. You saw him reach a hand out, but it was hair's breadth too late.
The knife slid into your stomach with ease, Sans' hand flying past the handle as it disappeared into your chest. You felt a surge of pain like you've never felt before. You felt cold hands on your face, in your hair, on your arms, but all you could hear was static. You felt the blood dripping from your stomach, and knew Sans would try to save you if you didn't finish the job.
With the last of your strength, you ripped the blade out of your stomach, letting your hands fall limp at your sides as the blood began to gush out, creating a ring of death around you. You vaguely heard Sans let out a scream, but you couldn't find a reason to care. You were so tired. You just wanted to take a nice long nap.
You felt pressure on your stomach. It took so much effort just to open your eyes, but you had to tell him something important. He was devastated, blood staining his skull and jacket.
"Stay with me kid. Oh god stay with me." He had hot blobs falling from your eyes, cleaning streaks down his snow white bones. You distantly heard yelling in the distance, or maybe it was right next to you. The roaring was too loud.
"Sans…" You're voice was barely a whisper. It hurt to talk. It hurt to think. It hurt to breath. "I'm… not going to reset." A
All emotions drained from Sans' face. All the fear and sorrow and pain, gone.
"No…no you can't leave us!" But it was too late. You tried to give him one last smile, but you weren't sure it actually made it to your lips. You coughed, and you tasted something metallic on your tongue. This was it, you knew it
"I'm sorry…." Your last thought was he deserved that much. Your vision blackened, and you were suddenly falling.
"NO!"
YOU HAVE DIED. RESET?
...
NO.
This is going to be the last chapter I'm going to post for Afterthought. It was fun while it lasted, and it really helped me get my thoughts and feelings out safely. Thank you everyone for the support. It really helped me stay safe.
This was written at the end of a very, very bad day. I'm not sure if the emotions came through, but it really kept me from doing anything dumb.
Although this adventure is over, antoher is always around the corner.
Until next time…
~Starlight
