Oh my gosh

Did you like last chapter I did

Wow

I never expected that to happen

Or this

Irony right

Anyway here's what answers my questions

The answer to rose's murder problem could come up here

I don't own anything shame right

Oh and some language sorry

Chapter 9: Ghostly Reminder

Why now did I have to remember my past now and why can't it just me die

God dammit let me out of this nightmare

Let me finally rest in peace

Yea like that's ever going happen

I'll always be at risk

And so will they

GOD!

I don't know how many ghosts I was seeing they were all surrounding me

And I had a feeling they were trying to make themselves visible

I kept hearing screaming

I kept hearing my name in the back of my head

"Rose!"

"Roza!"

"Hathaway!"

"Make them go away!"

"Breath Roza please!"

Huh!

Who would call me that that's not my name and why in the hell would I stop breathing

Someone was terribly on crack

"Rose were begging you make them stop there hurting everyone!"

Make what stop

"Is she dead?" a female voice spoke

"Those things broke the wards we'll have strgoi here any min! Those ghosts or whatever they are preventing us from restoring them there all over the court!" I heard some man scream

"Wake Hathaway up she needs to get rid of them"

I heard more screaming

"Don't you think she could be dead I mean you wanted to kill her!" that woman spoke again

"She's not dead lissa she's breathing Roza? Wake up please I need you" now another man spoke the same one who's calling me roza

Why did his voice make me feel like I'm flouting on cloud 9

Why does he feel so familiar?

Who were these people?

I tried to fight the white and black spots clouding my vision

I can't breath!

What's going on!

Someone help me!

Anyone!

"Stop Stop STOP!" I yelled

No one answered me

I was trying to gasp for air but I couldn't all I saw was pitch blackness

Was I dead

Those voices stopped now

Where was I?

What's going on?

"Rosemarie Hathaway? What are you doing here?" someone behind me spoke

HOLY SHIT!

"So you know who I am?" they asked

"How can't I you started all of this!" I yelled

"Glad to see you too" they laughed

Wait if this person's dead then am I

"Rose you have to leave now!"

"What's going on were are we and who are you really."

"Rose now's not the time to act stupid now go back to the living world"

"The hell I would if I could get there- wait does this mean I'm dead if I'm not in the living world anymore."

"Rose your not dead but your not alive either your in the tormenters valley the land were the shadows rest with no end or beginning."

"wha- so this is were I'll end up?" I said

Clearly startled

"I'm not sure but what I do know you're not meant to be here exactly your different you're meant to be alive."

"Oh great! that answers that question now tell me who are you?"

"And again Rose don't you remember me completely"

"Nope"

"Remember close your eyes and remember me."

I closed them I had no idea why I did it how can I trust a ghost

But wait all those readings all those pictures all those visions I knew her I've always had

I shared her similar fate

"Shadow kissed guardian Anne" I whispered

She smiled "Welcome Rose welcome to the Tormenter's valley."

"Why am I here?"

"To choose if you want to live or finally be silenced forever your choice will change everything you're the chosen line from us those living, those who are permanently dead and those trapped in between."

I gulped I had all those responsibilities?

"What does this mean I can really choose if I want to be shadow kissed?"

"That you don't" she frowned "but remember what happens here affects the living it's a string and you're our tape to keep it all together."

"Can I go back?" I asked

"Yes but difficulties and death will follow you out all those close to you will pay the consequences."

"What consequences?"

"Well let me think of one person you've already affected ah that's right Dimitri Belikov, you've grown so attached to him that-" she stopped

"What the hell are you talking about! What's Dimitri got to do with this?"

"Ever since you to have depended on him to suck the darkness away like that time in the cabin. He's been affected spirit isn't friendly when it comes to love."

It took me a while to understand her words how did she know about me and Dimitri and the cabin

And what does she mean that spirits affecting him

Spirit isn't friendly when it comes to love?

HOLY MOTHER FUKIN SHIT!

"Rose do you know why he was turned strigoi in the first place?" Anne asked

I know now this was all my fault Dimitri's been getting himself into danger when he's with me because I depend on our love spirit didn't like it and tried to get rid of him

That didn't work when he was turned strgoi so now it's clawing away on his soul and on his sanity

He's going through the same path as me

He's in sprits way when it comes to me and I'm in sprits way when it comes to lissa

It's a chain and one of them has to die for the virus of sprit to end

"If you stay rose it will automatically end they'll both be back to normal he'll be back to normal as if you never affected his life."

"I'll have to let our love die" I whispered

For spirit to finally let me go

She nodded

"You must choose you weren't meant to love he got in the way he's going to pay some consequences as he gives you the strength to fight against your true place in the world."

NOnoNO!

"I wouldn't I'll never abandon him! I love him! And he'll fight for me"

"Think about it rose because those ghosts in the living world aren't going to wait mush longer." and with those horrifying words she disappeared into the dark mist

I was getting Dimitri sick with all of spirits darkness it wants him out of the way

It wants me out of the way and doing what I was meant to do

Which I still don't know what that was

Great this was always going to be my fate choosing and running around the world solving problems that caused even more problem

Maybe it's best if I do die

I mean maybe Evette's letter was wrong what die's comes back to life but to destroy what needs to live

And in this case it's Dimitri

God he wasn't going to like this would he hate me

Guess I have some quick thinking to do

Why me!

He doesn't deserve this I don't deserve this

Spirits really pissed of at Dimitri well would I defend him or do what's best for everyone and let it consume me

Tears were coming down so hard I'm not sure what I'll do

I'm scared

I screamed but no one came I want out

I want him

I want to just die

Confused? If you are tell me I don't think I did a very good job on explaining one of my min plots

Yup you got it

This problem along with rose and lissa's siblings

Are going to make this story complicated so tell me I have to get better at this

Hope you liked it

~Mari