I sobbed as I looked at all the things I had pined for so many months ago. The photos of me and Edward in Charlie's tiny living room arms wrapped around each other smiles plastered on our faces, Edwards cold and fake, messily snapped on the camera Renée had bought me, the jewel case containing the small white disk that had my lullaby lovingly copied onto I, the box of long expired plane tickets a white bow tied around their shiny white surface and the radio that I myself had gouged out of the dash board after Edward had left.

As I stood their aimlessly staring into this tattered black bag, practically dead to the world, my numb mind twigged one very unusually factor. My heart had not tinged when I had said Edwards's name. There it happed, well didn't happen, again. No pound of fury thumping against my heart, no flicker of hurt just pure bliss. Heartfelt and happily welcomed bliss. I smiled listening to my steadily pounding hearts its beats almost happier, like they were whole at last. No matter how good these feelings felt I had to show Edward and his sycophantic family what it was like to feel someone you love abandon you and how it was a punishment to be reserved for the hardened of evil murderers! I closer the bag and trudged over to my sand wood bedside table and placed it on top next to my alarm clock its number glowing 8:30. I smiled the newfound happy feelings welling up inside be flooding the whole in my chest and for once in 8 months I felt whole again. My smile broadened as I grabbed my wash bag and practically skipped to the whit bathroom door across the tiny hall way and the steamy shower concealed behind it.

I was laughing. There was no logical reason for it I just, was. I slowly opened my streaming eyes trying to make sense of this sudden gleeful moment. Sat lazily around me on 3 of the squishiest, whitest couches were the Cullens all laughing along with me. 'I must look silly' I thought, 'laughing over nothing' I tried to stop but I was just too happy watching the light bounce onto their faces light bouncing brilliantly off them like thousands of diamonds were encrusted onto their marble skin, to content just sat here giggling along with my family , 'whoa' my sopping wet eyes bugged out as I thought this, the pointless laughter still bubbling up my throat, ' did I just call the Cullens my family?' hiccupping my way into science, with the same goofy grin on my damp face, I felt a cold yet oddly welcoming arm drape itself over my jumping shoulders. My still slightly blurry gaze followed the arm up to a shoulder, then a jaw and then the most heart meltingly beautiful sight. Edward smiling my favourite crooked smile. I snuzzled into him, loving the way his hard cold body felt against mine. I looked around at the other 7 people sat around us each one with the same loving smile on heir devastatingly beautiful faces. Jasper had his muscled arm around Alice's petite shoulders, Rosalie leaning into Emmet's huge chest her hand lovingly placed on his chest, Esme and Carlisle sweetly holding hands and Robert stood his hands in his pockets an air of easy grace seeming to flow off him. I closed my eyes beaming and nuzzling closer into the love of my life's chest feeling him squeeze me protectively blissfully happy in my own little bubble of happiness.

I was awoken by my fiercely beeping alarm clock. Smacking it off and still unconditionally happy I practically hopped towards the shower to start my morning preparation.

"Bella honey someone's here for you" I could tell with the way my mum spoke that she was smiling and I was scared to find out why. Puzzled I grabbed my bag and wallet and left my room.

Stood at the bottom of the stairs was Edward happily chatting to my Mum. I smiled taking my full focus off walking down the stairs and tripped. Before I had even got close to the floor Edwards strong hand grabbed the small of my back heading any further progress towards the floor, "thanks" I gasped partly because of the shock of the fall but mainly because of Edwards closeness. He smile obviously listening to my frantic heart beat as he pulled me to my feet,

"Oh nice save Edward" mum said her hand over her heart her breath slightly uneven, "are you okay?" she said this like it was a simple question like 'hello how are you' because I fell so much,

"I'm fine mum. Let's go" I kissed Renée on the lips and left the house.

On the journey to school I sensed there was something not quiet right about Edwards's behaviour. He'd answer my questions very vaguely and the one time I had mentioned the 'animal attacks' he had immediately changed the subject to his old favourite of the weather,

"Edward tell me what's wrong I know you to well for you to tell me you okay!" I grabbed his arm as we pulled into the car parking spot and he made to get out

"Everything's fine be-"

"No it's not! what's wrong?!" I was beginning to get angry now,

"I just have a lot on my mind at the minute" he smiled and looked me straight in the eye but I knew he was lying,

"Tell the truth Edward, please I can take it" he looked at me his topaz eyes meeting mine his full of sadness and anger,

"the animal attacks aren't animal attacks." He swallowed hard anger flaring in his eyes. My fears confirmed my stomach dropped through the car floor and onto the cement below, " the attacks… are Victoria"

Du du duuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!!!!

Hahaha im back ppl yey. Or I hope yey other wise how silly do I look lol.

I will post another asap coz I shattered and going bed. Oh I just want to say that it is…

108 days til the new moon movie I am officially starting a count down im so freaking excited!!!!!!!!!! Aniwho got to dash beddi bi time

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