Day 9 in the Big Skins House
8:15am
The bathroom
After continuing to ignore her the previous day, Emily had woken up in a foul mood and had gone straight on a verbal attack towards Naomi at the first opportune moment. They were in the bathroom together, everyone else still in the bedroom sleeping after having a late night due to Cook regaling them with stories of his rather intimate 'candle lit' dinner with JJ. Cook had convinced them that JJ had been given some good news about college test results, persuading them that this was the reason he had been given a treat. JJ had explained his challenge to Cook, having been given the go ahead by big brother, but the lies he told were to remain a secret.
Emily had been shouting for the past ten minutes about how pathetic Naomi was, and how fucking ridiculous it was to be homophobic; after all it's not like she was going to try and 'gay her up' was it.
"Homophobic? Homo-fucking-phobic?"
"JJ told me what you told him."
"What the fuck did I tell JJ?" came Naomi's response, the anger audible in her voice.
"That you admitted you were homophobic and ashamed of the attention I was throwing towards you" Emily bit back. "It sounded like I'd fucking tried to molest you or something".
Emily watched as Naomi's shoulders suddenly sunk at the accusations, tears springing to her eye. If she wasn't so mad at Naomi for being such a cow towards her just because she was gay, Emily would have felt sorry for the girl.
Naomi sniffed, wiping her eyes with the back of her hand before speaking, her tone suddenly softer and shakier than it had previously been. "I'm not sodding homophobic. I didn't lie the other day. I was uh…I was brought up in a very liberal household. I did marches against homophobia and everything; got a t-shirt somewhere to prove it!"
Emily stared at her wondering about the sudden change of pace to the argument and waiting for her to continue.
"My mum was a proper hippy, into this whole communal living shebang" she imparted. "When I was fifteen I decided I'd had enough of sharing my life with a uh…with a bunch of strangers who thought it was acceptable to sneak into my bed at night because they had nowhere else to stay. I had woken up one too many times with some Jesus look alike shoving his foot in my mouth, so I moved out and went to live with my brother and his housemate in London. She was gorgeous Emily; absolutely fucking stunning! I was so confused. Didn't know what I was feeling. Anyway I um…I sat down one night in tears and my brother asked me what was wrong, so I told him how I was feeling. How confused I was. I was young; I just wanted some reassurance, you know, that what I was feeling was ok. That it was normal. And do you know what he did Emily?" she sobbed, tears streaming down her cheeks, "he punched me. He hit me so fucking hard that my head smashed back against the wall and I crumpled to the floor. He beat me within an inch of my fucking miserable life Emily. The fucking homophobic prick couldn't stand the idea that I may like a girl. I woke up in the hospital a few days later. I dunno how I got there. My mum was there and she looked so um...so broken. I couldn't stand the way she was looking at me. I wished he had just killed me Ems. I wished my fucking life away because of that homophobic prick."
Emily gasped drawing a sharp intake of breath, eyes widening and concern flashing in them.
"Anyway she brought me back up to Bristol where she was living, and I've been there since" continued Naomi. "I barely even leave my own house, too fucking scared he's waiting for me. I came in here to see if I could try and claim my life back, you know! Get away from Bristol, stop relying on my mum and all that shit. So sue me if I'm scared to show any fucking emotions towards you!" Naomi sobbed. "I didn't say anything to JJ; I'm not homophobic…I could never be…I'm not" she followed in a feeble tone, tears rolling from her eyes.
Emily looked into her azure eyes, sorrow reflecting back in her own as she inched forwards and sat next to the girl who had slumped down against the wall. Emily turned slightly, threw her arms around the broken shell of Naomi, and pulled her as close as their bodies would allow. She whispered soothingly in her ear "I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry, I didn't know, I'm sorry." Emily leant in and pressed a chaste kiss upon Naomi's tear streaked cheek and Naomi mumbled into her ear "Can we stay like this, for a while?" wrapping her arm around the red heads waste and gripping tightly onto her pyjama top. She rested her head against the crook of Emily's neck, letting the last of her tears soak into the smaller girls shoulder. "Yeah we can, for a while."
JJ would pay for this Emily thought as she rocked Naomi gently in her arms, stroking her hair and continuing her soothing whispers. He would pay for making her believe, rather naively, that Naomi could be anything but accepting of others. She knew that she would be too much of a pussy to do anything worthwhile, after all Katie had always been the bruiser in the family, but come nominations day JJ would definitely pay.
No wonder the poor girl is so hot and cold (well mainly cold!) all the time!
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