A/N: Hi everyone! Thanks for your reviews. I'm happy that you like my story! Thanks to EdyFerrone for translating and Kiamilachan for correcting!
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Chapter 9 New Directions
Kurt has never thought that the picture of a human being standing before his eyes could fuck his head like this.
The room gets immediately filled with tension.
Sebastian is leant against the door. He's staring at him with evident amusement and a smirk on his face that Kurt would want to punch off his lips.
Rachel's gentle touch on his hand makes him come back to real life so that he explodes with anger.
"What the fuck are you doing here?"
"Did you learn how to swear, babe? Congrats."
Kurt moves fast forward to hit him when two strong arms hold him. He immediately understands that this is Finn. He tries to fight to get free and put his hands on this annoying jerk who is still laughing in front of him. It doesn't work though, because Sam is helping Finn now and Mercedes is in front of him too, whispering words to calm him down, but Kurt doesn't even listen. He thinks there can't be such anger as the one he feels now. He would kill him now, he's sure of it. What should he do? Kurt slowly calms down, now aware of the fact that the guys wouldn't let him go anyway. The only thing that feels right now is leaving.
He grabs his bag which has fallen to the ground by now and he walks out of the room, leaving everybody speechless.
How could they accept this?
Rachel and Mercedes gave their okays to welcome Sebastian in the New Directions even if they knew everything about them, and the others, even if they didn't know about the love triangle, they surely knew he hates the Warbler for what he did to his boyfriend, for what he did to him.
And yet they let him in.
Of course, Kurt could easily forbid him to do so, but he knows that the Glee club needs a new member desperately now that Blaine's gone and he can't be surprised that his friends chose to let him in technically. Sebastian's voice is amazing, he can dance like a dancer and he has that sexy face that could easily help to bump the reviews of the judges in competitions. The easiest conclusion that comes to his mind sounds the most logical one too. He's going to leave the glee club. It's not like they need him, since he's always been a background prop, at Regionals too. He isn't essential because if a letter that claimed him a finalist at NYADA wasn't enough to convince his friends of how good he is, of how much he'd deserve a solo, then they don't really need him.
When he gets to half of the hallway – the school is still desolated – he turns towards the bathroom; maybe he needs some cold water.
He washes his face, wipes it and then he takes a deep breath. This is going to be the hardest decision ever, he knows it; it's not because he left the glee club, but because he won't go back because it's not only about Sebastian: his friends disappointed him. In his head, suddenly, all the wrong things he's been through during these years start rolling, the once he got from his precious friends in glee.
The solo he didn't get even though he's the best, the way they joked about him, Finn who told him not to sing with Sam if he cared about his reputation, the elections, when they voted for Brittany when winning was essential to his future, the fights, and then, finally, Rachel asking Blaine out for a date when she knew Kurt was in love with him.
Everything wouldn't have come back to his mind if Sebastian's presence there didn't break something within him. While thinks about all this, he realizes that it might be helpful to send a text to Blaine to tell him about the situation, even in the case he wouldn't reply.
Blaine, I've left the glee club. Sebastian has transferred to McKinley.
In a few seconds Blaine unexpectedly answers the text and Kurt can sense a weird feeling of happiness at reading his boyfriend's name on the screen.
Kurt, don't leave the club because of him. Maybe that's just what he wants.
Kurt knows Blaine is right. Maybe this is just probably some stupid revenge from Sebastian towards Kurt for having rejected him. He probably wants to take everything from him and he knew that if he joined the glee club, Kurt would have left. He didn't think Sebastian could be so mean.
When he's about to text Blaine back, Kurt hears the door of the bathroom open, and when he looks up, he finds himself looking at Sebastian.
"Kurt, can we talk?"
"Just say what you have to and then leave. I can't promise I'll listen." Sebastian smiles weakly at Kurt's bossy attitude.
"Look, I didn't do this for you. You're the favorites at Nationals this year and I want to win. The Warblers lost, so I don't need them anymore."
"So you're not here for me?" Why does this sentence come out so surprised? Kurt can't understand, but he regrets immediately the turn he's given to this conversation when Sebastian answers.
"Don't flatter yourself too much, babe. Even though I'm curious to know what you're going to do now. Will you make them send me away?"
"No, Sebastian …" Kurt says, shifting closer to him. "I'm the one who's leaving. I was disappointed and humiliated once again. My friends care more about winning than about our friendship, so I decided to give them what they want. Do they want to win? They need you, not me."
He shouldn't have added the last sentence. He knows Sebastian is probably going to read it like Kurt wanted to compliment him. Though it's actually just the truth, because Sebastian is surely going to have the solo Kurt never had and he'll lead them to victory, like Kurt could have done if his friends ever trusted him. But still, he doesn't wait for an answer. He just moves towards the door to get freed of Sebastian's presence.
Suddenly though, he feels something tugging at his arm. Sebastian pulls him closer, Kurt can almost smell his scent.
"Kurt, if you don't feel like coming back to glee club, that's okay; but don't blame your friends for wanting to be winners for once."
Kurt pushes Sebastian's arm off of his own and the boy leaves it with no complains. The last gaze Kurt turns to him is pure disdain. How can Sebastian even judge him after all that he's done to him? Kurt's mind is suddenly being filled with exciting projects about the ways he could kill, but he pushes them away too. Going to jail for Sebastian isn't worth it.
Before he can get to the door, he hears Sebastian saying something that sounds like: "You didn't text me again about that text. I really need to talk to you." But Kurt almost doesn't catch the worse, too fucked up with everything that's happening inside him to focus on anything that isn't walking out of the bathroom.
As soon as he gets out he finds Mercedes and Rachel waiting for him. They had probably followed Sebastian.
"Kurt, please …" Mercedes murmurs softly. Rachel looks like she's about to cry. Kurt doesn't answer. He just walks away from them, leaving them down the hallway as they watch him walk away.
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"Any news about Sebastian?" Thad had practically asked anyone. Nobody knows anything. The only ones who might know are indeed the Warblers.
"I've got a text from Kurt today," Blaine says, "Sebastian transferred to McKinley and entered the New Directions." He stands up from the armchair, gathers his things and walks out of the room.
Sebastian is at Kurt's school. Maybe they're even going to attend the same lessons. The idea of them spending half of their day together, sitting next to each other crashes against him. He's about to grab his phone and just call Kurt when he hears his name alone the hallway. It's Jeff who's been following him since Blaine left the room.
"Hey, Blaine, what's wrong?"
"It's nothing, Jeff, I just needed some air."
"Are you scared about Kurt?" How the hell did he figure that out? Blaine thinks.
"A little. I'm afraid Sebastian might bother him."
"Kurt is tough, Blaine. If Sebastian crosses the line, he'll kill him. Don't worry about it." Jeff says smiling as he tries to encourage Blaine.
Blaine smiles back and Jeff leans a hand on his shoulder to push him back to the Warblers' room. Yeah, Kurt is going to kick him this time; he has no excuses not to trust him. This is probably the right proof Kurt and Blaine need to understand if they're willing to actually give another try to their relationship, to figure out if Blaine is really sure about forgiving.
Once he steps back into the room, he sees all his friends relieved at his comeback.
"Well, we can move to the second point of the day. The nursing home of Lima asked us if …"
Blaine doesn't really pay attention to the topic, but he understood his friends moved forward. They know about his fears concerning Kurt even if they don't know about the reasons. They're the best friends Blaine could ask for.
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Lessons go by slowly.
Kurt found out he has to attend math and literature with Sebastian and he just hopes he won't dare sitting beside him. He thinks that after school, that afternoon, there's going to be the first meeting of the glee club that he won't go to. He feels bad, but he can't even look into their eyes, especially his best friends.
Hours go by and Kurt decides he'll go back home. He sees Rachel trying to cut his way before he goes out, but he just ignores her.
When he gets home, he sits on the sofa, sighing deeply and tiredly. He sees his dad moving closer to him and sitting beside him, staring at him carefully. Kurt doesn't say hi, but he doesn't move either.
"Kurt, what happened?"
"Nothing, dad. I'm going upstairs, maybe I'll call Blaine." His dad nods unsure, but he thinks that if he's going to call Blaine, at least everything is fine between them.
Once he gets into his room, Kurt turns on the music, lays on the bed and tries to turn off his mind. He realizes immediately how much he needs to talk to Blaine now. A few weeks ago, Blaine would have surely been the person he'd call in such a situation, because he was not only his boyfriend, but also his best friend.
He gains some strength and digits Blaine's number. Calling him now almost seems wrong, but he needs it.
The phone rings a few times, then Blaine picks up.
"Hey, Kurt. Is everything okay?"
"Yeah, it is. It's just … I know we've said we'd call just in case of emergency but …"
"That's fine, Kurt, calm down. You told me you left the glee club …"
"I think that was the best thing to do. I could never work with that asshole and if they want to win and think Sebastian is the right man to do it, I allow them to do so; but I really don't want to be in the middle of this whole thing."
"Kurt, I get it, but you're going to go crazy without the glee club. It's your only way to pour it all out."
Kurt sighs at the words, because it's so, so true, but he doesn't care.
"I know, Blaine, but I can't do this. It would only make me nervous now."
"Just do as you feel, baby, but think about it carefully."
"How is it that you called me?" Kurt is shocked. It seems like Blaine hasn't thought about it too much, that the word baby came out of his mouth spontaneously. He can imagine Blaine stiffen at the realization.
"I'm sorry, I didn't want to say it, it just came out …"
"Don't worry, that's fine. You didn't call me that in a while."
"I know," Blaine says and he takes a long pause before he adds, "I'm afraid, Kurt."
"Of what?"
"You know, Sebastian is there with you, at school, like, all day …"
"Blaine …" Kurt starts, hoping he can make his honesty sound into his voice, "You don't have to worry about it. It's going to be a challenge for us, so that you can figure out whether you trust me or not."
"I can try." Blaine answers. He really wants to try and trust Kurt completely this time. All of a sudden, he thinks back at the real try: the texting between Kurt and Sebastian. So he asked Kurt if he did face the topic with Sebastian.
"I should have texted him to tell him that I wanted to meet him and talk, but obviously, there was a change of plan with what happened at school."
"So you have no idea what he wanted to tell you?"
"No, Blaine, he didn't tell me anything about it. I think he just wanted to give me his excuses for punching me in the face." Kurt is actually sure about it because they really don't have too many things to deal with. There's no other reason to meet each other.
"Fine, but when you'll calm down, you should try and talk to him, even if it's just to find out what he wanted." Kurt agrees completely with that.
They talk for some minutes more about casual things and then Kurt murmurs a few excuses about bothering him to which Blaine answers with a fond "Don't worry about it", and then they disconnect.
Kurt. I really need to talk to you. I don't want to hit you or anything. I just want to talk. I have so many things to tell you. Just let me know if you're in.
That text. Blaine has now made him think about it, about what Sebastian might want to tell him. The way he acted in the bathroom, the way he had provoked him during lessons, it isn't that reassuring. He's surely going to apologize, but then he would also start joking about how Kurt had gone back to his lovely Blaine like a good housewife would do. He knows Sebastian too well. He really doesn't plan on going out with him so that Sebastian can make fun of him because there would be no Finn stopping him this time. But he's so, so curious. Without really thinking he texts Sebastian:
Since you wanted to talk to me, see you tomorrow at the Lima Bean. No bullshit.
Ok, see you at 3.
Ok.
He sends another text to Blaine, just to tell him that he did this. Imagining what Sebastian is going to say doesn't make any sense. It'd be better to just let him talk.
Ok, see you at 3.
Kurt reads the text again and think about the fact that tomorrow his going to meet his ex-lover for an awkward date for the first time since it all changed. He falls asleep at that thought.
