I hope this chapter makes up for how I left the last one. Thank you to Debbie1689, Destielfangirl98 and the Guest using the name wHYYYYY for reviewing.

There will be less smut after this chapter which will be a relief because of how bad I am at writing it. If you have any pointers then constructive criticism is welcomed :) please review, I love hearing from you guys.

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Seven long months past as Dean waited for his time to leave. He tried to make a life for himself everywhere he went, but it wasn't the same, he missed that town, he missed the friends he'd made, and most of all he missed Castiel. They tried to keep in touch but found it more painful to do so as the months rolled on. By the time September had come around, they had stopped talking completely. But that didn't mean that he didn't think about the boy every day, it was crazy just how much he'd fallen for him. He came across a theology text book that contained nothing but information on Angels and found Castiel's name in it, he stuck a blue post-it note on the page as a bookmark. He also found a blue winter scarf and sent them both inside a box with a card to Castiel's home address, making a request for it to be delivered to his house on the 18th September, his birthday. That was the last contact he made and even though Cas text him a couple of times after that day, he didn't respond to any of them.

It was the middle of December when his father announced his plan for their first hunting trip as a family. Dean had pretended to love the idea while telling his Dad not to tell Sam and to put bringing them with him off until Christmas, saying it would be an amazing present for his little brother. His Dad had of course been thrilled with the idea and agreed so the next time he left for a hunt Dean took the opportunity to run.

"Why are we leaving?" Sam asked after being woken up, "we just got here yesterday..." the youngest Winchester seemed to think something over in his head. "Is there something here? Is Dad in trouble?" Dean was silent and Sam gasped, "we can't leave Dean! Dad's in trouble, he needs our help!"

"Dad doesn't fight monsters Sam" he whispered.

"What are you talking about?" he looked into his little brother's eyes.

"Dad needs help, yes. But it's psychiatric help that he needs..."

"No... that's not true. Dad's a hero, he saves lives! You told me yourself"

"Because that's what he had told me... I'm sorry Sam but we can't stay with him anymore"

"So what? We're just going to run off and hide from the truth"

"We're going to live a normal life" Sam looked a small bit hopeful at that, "no more running, no more moving around, no more insanity..."

"Are you sure? Are you sure he's lying about this? he whispered.

"He's not lying Sam. He really does believe what he's told us... that's what makes him dangerous to be around. He's either going to get us killed or turn us crazy as well. But trust me when I say that he's wrong about it all"

"How do you know?" Dean took a deep breath, sat down and told his brother everything. Sam nodded his head as tears slipped from his eyes and only an hour later they were on their way. Dean hotwired an old Ford Mustang and drove towards the one place he knew he could be happy.

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Cas had thought about Dean all the time. It was stupid, he'd only known the boy for four weeks, yet he might have fallen in love with him. He longed for those texts they had sent, yet they made him so incredibly upset afterwards because he probably will never see him again. As time went on he felt worse and worse until he knew that they couldn't carry on like this. They both slowly stopped communicating and Cas started to get better. But then he decided that Dean hadn't stopped texting him because it hurt too much, more like he'd found someone else and had forgotten about him.

The thought hit him like a baseball bat in the stomach. He got worse from there on. Charlie had gotten to the point of trying to force him into an alcohol binge. But, even though Dean had moved on, he couldn't bring himself to try to as well. His actions and days turned automatic and he found himself not caring for anything anymore. Then it was his birthday, he went downstairs like every other school day and had breakfast.

"Happy Birthday!" His family shouted at him as he walked towards them. Anna, who had obviously come over to celebrate gave him a hug which he didn't move to reciprocate. They all smiled at him fakely , trying not to look worried. He sat down at the table and ate his cereal.

"I thought I asked for you to not make a fuss" Cas muttered.

"Like we could do that" Gabe said "not for my favourite little brother"

"I'm your only little brother"

"Come on, open your presents" Anna sang. He looked at her and sighed.

"Later. I'm going to school"

"Have the day off" Gabe said.

"No"

"Then let me drive you" said Michael.

"I'm fine"

He left minutes later and his family sat down, they knew they had to help him but didn't know how to do it. When Castiel got back home there was a package sitting on the coffee table.

"It's for you" Luke said and he nodded but just sat down on the sofa and read a book. Non of his family pushed him to do anything else for the rest of the day. Anna came over again after school and ended up just sitting around and watching TV until she left at eight to go home, Michael and Luke both retired for bed a couple of hours later and, as always, Gabe stayed up for as late as possible to keep him company before passing out asleep on the other sofa.

It was around three in the morning when he finally decided to go to bed. He got up and placed his book on the coffee table next to the parcel. He went to walk off upstairs when a word caught his eye. 'Winchester'.He turned and read the return label on the package. It had been sent by Dean. He fell back onto the sofa and started ripping away the tape. The noise startled Gabriel awake and he turned to watch. Silent tears ran down Castiel's face, whether because he was sad or happy, he wasn't too sure. He tore into the box and picked up the card, he smiled and opened it. He didn't really read what it said at first, just stared at the messy script on the page.

To Cas,
Happy Birthday blue eyes.
I know we haven't talked in a while and I'm not even sure if you want to hear from me but I saw these when I was in New York last month and they reminded me of you. You might not even like them but I couldn't help but buy them. I hope your well.
Love Dean xx

Cas let out a happy laugh, and Gabe smiled, trying to not let on that he was watching in case Cas's mood changed. The boy looked into the box and took out a scarf. It was thick and made of soft wool, not that scratchy kind that would irritate his skin. It was a dark blue with threads of brighter blue weaved in. He placed it to one side and took out the last item. Seeing the Theology text book surprised him, then he flicked to the page that was book-marked with a post-it note and smiled when he saw his namesake angel. He realised that he never knew anything about the mythical creature he was named after and started to read, he eventually fell asleep on the sofa with his new book in hand. Gabriel got up and pulled a blanket over his brother before going to bed.

His birthday had been the turning point for Cas, he was feeling like his old self again because he knew that Dean still cared. He'd text him to say thank you and that of course he wanted to hear from him. He never got a reply but he wasn't really expecting one either. The next day his sister came around again in the morning to see if he was okay and everyone but Gabe had been shocked by his new attitude towards them. They brought out the cake they had stashed in the fridge and everyone acted like the day before hadn't happened and that this was his real birthday.

Everything just seemed to return to normal, including his sleeping patterns. He no-longer felt the need to avoid sleep, he wasn't even sure why he did so in the first place other than he just wanted to. He still had the occasional bad day but they were getting less frequent now, and he discovered that all he had to do was to spend some time looking at the things Dean had sent him to feel better. And now it was the middle of December and it was getting cold and windy he was able to wear the scarf all the time.

The 5th of December was a Thursday and Charlie no-longer got a lift home with him on Thursdays because of the 'Robotics Club' that she had now joined. So that is why Cas was alone when he walked to his car after the end of school. He was keeping his eyes on the snow-covered ground as he trudged along and so it took him a while to notice the figure that was leaning against his Ford. He stopped walking as he caught sight of black biker boots. Castiel slowly lifted his gaze and looked at the boy, their eyes met and they just stood and stared at each other for a moment before he marched towards him, took his face in his hand and pulled their lips together. The boy laughed and hugged him closer. They stayed that way for a while, just standing in the cold snow and getting reacquainted. The kiss turned into kisses. They only stopped to catch their breath and they leant their foreheads together.

"How long are you back for?" he whispered, mentally preparing himself for Dean's answer.

"We're staying" he pulled his head back in shock and looked into the other boys eyes which at the moment were more of a brown than a green.

"You promise?"

"Yes" Dean smiled and kissed him gently. Cas's phone started vibrating in his pocket and he reluctantly pulled away to answer the call.

"What?" he asked and the voice at the other end sighed in annoyance and relief.

"Where are you?" Luke asked.

"Still at school, why?"

"Because you're usually home twenty minutes ago. We were getting worried" Cas checked his watch and saw that he was right, they'd been making out for the past half an hour.

"Oh"

"Why are you still at school"

"Long story. I'll tell you when I get home" then he disconnected the call and put the phone back in his pocket. He turned back to Dean. "Have you got to be anywhere?"

"Nope"

"Want to have dinner at my house?" Dean nodded and brought them together for one last kiss before they got inside the car and drove away.

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Luke heard his little brother's car pull into their drive and sighed once more in relief. The months that he'd spent acting depressed were still fresh in everyone's mind and they still worried that the tiniest thing could reverse his progress. So, when he rushed to the front door and saw Cas walk in with Dean by his side he got very concerned. His brother had only just gotten better and Dean showing up and leaving again could very well put Cas back at the beginning.

"Dean" he said in acknowledgement and Gabriel instantly paused his video game. He shot out of the living room and into the hallway to see for himself. Dean stood in the doorway, not sure how to proceed. Gabriel smiled warmly at him.

"Hey Dean-o. How long you back for?"

"I'm staying" he replied happily with a smile of his own. After that both brothers felt better and let Cas and Dean go upstairs. Cas walked into his bedroom with Dean close behind him. Dean looked around the room happily, he had missed spending his time huddled up here with Cas, not necessarily having sex but just being in each other's company. Not much had changed in the months that he'd been gone. There was two shelves on the far wall where Cas liked to keep small photo albums that held photos from birthdays and Christmas's and anything else he deemed important enough to be reminded of. His bookcase, that almost took up the space of a whole wall was now nearly full, Cas had obviously bought many books in the past seven months. Cas's desk was still by the window and his laptop and angel figure were now joined by the Theology book he'd bought him. His CD stand, where he kept all his music, no-longer had CD's pilling up on top of it as well as in the slots because he had a second one which was now half full as well, meaning he'd bought a lot more music over the months as well. Dean caught a glimpse of some albums that he recognised as Metallica and Nirvana, but he decided to wait until later to get a closer look.

"So what do you want to do before dinner" the taller boy asked and Castiel answered by pulling him into an instantly passionate kiss. The two collapsed of the bed with Cas straddling him and moaned into one another's mouths.

"Cas" Dean panted as his jeans were unzipped. "Hey... we've got all the time in the world. We don't have to rush"

"I've just missed you so much" he said as he began to bite and suck at the neck of the boy beneath him.

"I've missed you too... but your family is down stairs" he mulled this over and nodded.

"Then I guess we're just going to have to be quiet" he removed his scarf and trench coat as well as Dean's jacket while the boy underneath him worked at taking off their shirts. Once he'd fully unbutton Cas's grey shirt he stopped and stared into the boy's eyes.

"You look so incredibly hot in that" Dean said, noting the 'Big Balls' AC/DC t-shirt that Cas was wearing under his normal attire. The boy with blue eyes smiled down at him and rocked his hips making Dean gasp out a moan. Dean slid his hands under the black shirt and slowly pulled off. The delicateness in his movements left Cas's skin tingling where he'd touched it. He moved off him just far enough to dispose of the rest of their clothes. Dean took an opportunity to flip them over so he was now on top. Cas leant back on his elbows and Dean kneeled above his waist, straddling the older boy.

He draped himself over Cas and kissed his swollen lips, his hands moved over his chest and down to his abdomen before settling on his hips. He moved after a moment to sit back up and grasp the twitching cock of the boy beneath him and began to stroke. Cas's copied his actions and after a few moments they were both stroking and grinding into each other. The fiction built and they found it incredibly hard to not scream out the others names in pleasure, Cas moaned quietly as he released in Dean's hand and Dean followed him not long after, tilting his head backwards and biting his lips to keep him from moaning too loudly. They lay down together and smiled sleepily while sharing soft and intimate kisses.

An hour later Gabriel went upstairs to tell them dinner was done, he knocked on the bedroom door and opened it to find Dean lying naked on top of his little brother, both fast asleep. He closed his eyes immediately and ran out of the room, screaming about there not being enough brain bleach in the world. He spent the rest of the night avoiding both of them. Dean decided that he had to get back to his brother and so after dinner Cas drove him to the motel.

"Your staying here?" Cas asked him, concerned and Dean nodded.

"Just until we find somewhere more permanent" he'd decided to tell him where he was really staying to stop him from being suspicious about never going to his home, "it might take a while, but it's not all that bad here" Cas nodded, wanting to offer that he could stay with him for a while but realised that was probably a bad idea, especially since he didn't yet know what their relationship was yet. Dean leant over and kissed him goodbye but paused before leaving.

"I've got a new number. I'll text it to you"

"Does Charlie know that you're here yet?" He shook his head. "Good" Cas smirked evilly, "I want to see her reaction"