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Chapter 9: Bella's POV

I examine myself in the mirror one last time. Why was I so nervous? It's just dinner. Dinner with a friend. No big deal right, just a friend that I used to date. I take one last deep breath trying to steady my nerves.

This is not a date. Do I want this to be a date? No! I can't date Edward again. We both have moved on. He's one of my only friends here. I can't lose him as a friend over old high school feelings. I'm pulled from my musings by a knock at the door. Who could that be? I wasn't expecting anyone. I look at my phone for the time. Shit! I need to get rid of whoever this is or I'm going to be late. I open the door only to find Edward waiting in a medium blue button up shirt and black dress pants.

"Wasn't I supposed to meet you at the diner?" I say shocked by his presence.

"Yes but I remember you saying something about drinking tonight so I thought it would be safer if I picked you up."

"That's very thoughtful. Thank you. Let me just grab my purse and phone." I remarked letting him in as I go to grab my things.

"Would you mind if we went to Port Angeles for dinner? One of the guys at work mentioned this great Italian restaurant that just opened up." Edward called out as I stepped into my room.

I grab my purse putting my phone inside of it. I hope he doesn't think this a date. We can't ruin this. "I don't mind but isn't it a bit of a drive just for dinner?"

"I'll admit my intentions aren't exactly selfless. Jessica has a date tonight with some guy at the diner. I know we're just friends but I don't want her to get the wrong impression."

"Port Angeles would be perfect then. I could go for a good Italian wine tonight." I reply smiling up at him as I usher him out and lock the door behind me.

The drive was filled with friendly banter and talks of Edward's new apartment. It sounded perfect for Emma and him. It would be close to the station and her preschool. There was a park less than a block away for Emma to play in once the weather warmed up.

The more he mentioned it the more jealous I got. I kept making up excuses why I couldn't move out of Angela's house but the truth is; I'm scared. If I get my own place I'm setting roots again and I'll be stuck working at Newton's forever. I'll never meet anyone again. I don't need a man but I'm a twenty six year old woman with needs. Yes, I own pleasure aides but I haven't been able to use them or pleasure myself since Ethan was born. I feel guilty touching myself in the shower or in bed knowing Ethan is in the next room. I feel kind of dirty even trying.

I cross my legs hoping to relieve some of the tension I've caused thinking about masturbating. Maybe tonight after a few glasses of wine I'll relax enough to try again. It's been almost a year and half since I've been touched by a man or even myself. Edward puts his hand on my knee and I jump.

"Whoa sorry. You kind of zoned out when I was talking to you." Edward exclaims moving his hand away.

"Sorry, just thinking about Christmas."

"It's fine." Edward says pulling into the parking lot. "Don't move. Let me get your door. Before you start arguing I know I don't have to but my mom raised me to be a gentleman even to female friends."

I put my hands up in surrender as he gets out coming around to open my door, "Thank you. Esme would be proud."

I don't remember the last time I had so much fun. Dinner was delicious. The wine Edward picked out was the best I've ever had. I think I drank most of the bottle by myself. I haven't felt this relaxed since college. I lay my head against the cool glass of the passenger side window.

"Are you okay?"

I look over at Edward as he turns on to my dark street, "I've never been better. I might be a little drunk." I reply with a giggle.

"Don't tell your dad but I'm feeling a little tipsy too."

"Your secret is safe with me, Mr. Cullen."

"Let me help you to your door. It's kind of dark back there and you aren't the most coordinated person."

"Hey! I've gotten better."

I prove Edward's point when I trip on curb. Edward grabs my arm before my knees hit the driveway.

"I told you."

Edward puts an arm around my waist helping me stay upright the best he can. I start walk down the steps only to proceed in falling again. This time against Edward's chest. I grab his arms trying to stand up straight. I look up and I start getting lost in Edward's eyes. When did his eyes get so green? Keys. I need my keys. I pull my gaze away from his eyes to find my keys in my purse. I try to get my key in the lock a couple times before Edward helps me. He smells so good. How did I not notice earlier? I walk inside prepared to say goodnight instead I hear myself invite Edward in.

I will not have sex with Edward. No matter how sexy he looks and smells. I put my purse on the table and sit on the couch, trying to get my brain to stop turning to mush.

"Can I get you anything? Water, soda, maybe coffee?" Me naked under you. No Bella you're friends.

"No, I'm sure I'll be fine. My place is only a few blocks away. I can walk if I have to."

"You can crash here if you need to." Red alert Bella. Bad idea.

"No, really I'll be fine. I'm not that drunk."

"But you're still drunk."

"Not as much as you."

"I'm not that drunk. I know what I'm doing."

No I don't. I have no idea what I'm doing. Even when my lips touch Edward's I still have no clue what I'm doing. His lips are soft and warm. I don't even realize it when I lay back on the couch pulling him with me. His tongue starts exploring my mouth. My hands run up his back scratching lightly as I do, thinking about how much this shirt was in my way. I feel Edward pull away and my heart sinks. His eyes never leave mine as he takes off my boots. My chest heaving as he runs his hand up my leg. I feel my panties start to dampen. Please touch me. I need you to touch me there. I feel his hand stop at my hip before his lips are on my neck and jaw. I moan softly silently begging him to touch my wet center. I feel like we're the only two people in the house until I hear footsteps above my head.

"Bella, are you home? I thought I heard your key in the door." I hear Angela call down the stairs.

Edward pulls away and this time I know he won't continue kissing me tonight.

"Yes, Angela. I'm home and fine."

"Sorry it's late. I'll just talk to you in the morning." I hear the door close and watch Edward back away.

"I have to go. I'm sorry." Before I can say it's fine he's out the door and I'm on the couch more turned on than I've ever been.

Groaning at my luck, I finally get up off the couch locking the front door before taking off my belt dropping it on the floor. I start walking towards my bedroom leaving a trail of clothes as I go. I climb in my bed covering my naked body before reaching into my night stand drawer.

"You will have to do tonight." I say turning my rabbit on.

I close my eyes imagining Edward's lips on me still. I run my vibrator over my hard nipples and down my body. My body feels on fire as I think of Edward on top of me. I push my rabbit between my wet folds. My body comes alive as I force it deeper inside of me. I rub my nipples as I feel the wings massaging my clit. I bite my lips as I visualize Edward inside of me whispering in my ear as he thrusts himself deeper into my center. A moan slips past my lips. Edward's lips are around my nipples sucking them softly. His name falls my mouth as I beg him for more.

I need him deeper. I arch my back as I feel the vibrator moving deeper. I feel pressure building before my body starts shaking and my sheets become soaked. After the high starts to wear off I begin to notice just how wet the sheets are. Shit did I just pee the bed?! Groaning, I finally put away the rabbit and get to up strip the sheets and proceed to grab news ones.

I climb into my clean bed and drift off dreaming of Edward in my bed. When I wake up my body feels so light like I'm floating on a cloud. I've never felt like this. I wrap the sheet around me as I walk into the bathroom to shower. My head is a little fuzzy but I know after last night everything is going to change.