Chibs and Jax still weren't back. I had spent the last two hours cuddled up with Tara on the couch. She had passed out an hour ago, but I couldn't have that luxury at the moment. Not only did I have to stay wake to protect Tara and Abel from the same kind of home invasion I had just experienced, I also had to think about what was going to happen over the next few days.
First and foremost, Chibs would want an explanation tonight, not only about my callousness when dealing with Zobbel's men, but the lack of emotional breakdown afterwards, and the confusing words shared with Jax even after that. It was a cowards way out to wish that Jax would fill him in a little on the words we had shared, but I couldn't help but think of how much easier it would be for Chibs to already know a little of the story. I would probably get my wish too, because I knew that Chibs wouldn't be able to not ask questions while they were gone. They would both want to talk about the slight distress I had just caused them, but neither knew the whole story. I would still have to explain to both of them, and probably the rest of the club, what happened in Japan. At first a scary thought, now that I had had the time to sit and mull over it, it didn't seem that bad at all. I didn't want the guys to look at me any different, but if they didn't, then there was no way they would take me seriously when it got out that I would like to prospect. They would need a reason for my behavior; I knew they wouldn't just let it go.
It was time to knuckle up and come clean. The truth will set you free after all.
