QUON

I opened my eyes when something stung my nose; I had the doctor and 2 nurses, Trey, Sarah around me. I started to sit up slowly but was stopped by the doctor.

"Wait wait don't move let me check your head make sure you're ok." The doctor said checking me after he was done I got up I talked with the doctor more than I was sitting in the waiting area they was going to do the surgery tomorrow afternoon. I stayed in that waiting area all night I slept on the chairs, I took up 5 chairs. Sarah tried to stay but I told her I didn't need her here, I really didn't talk to anyone other than Trey. The Next day around noon only those close to me showed up, all night Bree was texting me I didn't wanna be bothered with her. Right now they was doing the surgery they came out so I could sign some papers and all I had to do or could do was wait.

1 New Message Baby mama

Baby mama: I will always love you, I'm sorry for what happened Quon, I didn't mean for it to happen, it was a mistake.

Me: If it was a mistake, and if you loved me, you wouldn't have even said that shit to me.

Baby mama: Come outside, we need to talk this out, saying it over text isn't gone help.

Me: I don't want to talk to you.

Baby mama: yes you do, I know you do.

Me: No, I don't, because I know if I talk to you, I'll want to kiss you and tell you how much I love you, I know I'll fall deeper in love with you and I can't let that happen, you hurt me, in more than 1 way.

I looked up at her as she read the message, a tear rolled down her cheek and she stood up ran outside. I got up and went outside to talk to her this is not what I need right now.

"What?" I asked

"Why?" she asked when I didn't answer immediately she continued, "Why are you being this way towards me huh I mean what the fuck Quon" she said

"Well I think it was rather rude after the night we had you tell me I was just sex..." I said

She laughed. "This is such bullshit." She said before turning to address me directly. "You are so full of shit. How many women have you left without a backward glance? How many of them? Can you remember? I said it so you wouldn't and I know how you can be when you get around your friends and call it just sex. I said it on my own accord and that pisses you off." She looked away again.

"I'm not here to impress my niggas really have I ever played you out infront of them? Have I ever treated you any different..." I said

She turned to face him again. "Bullshit...you are. What did you want me to do, pretend like everything is cool and the passed never happen. I'm not Sarah who's claiming you to the world. We had sex yes and it was a mistake. It's done..." she said

"A mistake? Making love was a mistake to you?" I asked

"YES! Yes it was a mistake and I will live with it and more. Now leave me alone." She said I grabbed her arm and pulled her closer to me. "What do you want? Leave me alone. Go back to your..." she said

"SHUT UP!" I yelled and repeated when she tried to speak again. "SHUT UP!" I was pissed. "What happened between us was not a mistake. It wasn't. I know for a fact that, that I was the only guy you had orgasms with like the ones I gave you. If I wanted Sarah, I would be with her not standing here listening to this crap coming out of your mouth. And if I thought you were one of those girls who pinned after a man, I wouldn't be here either. You want to talk about bullshit? Let's talk about yours. I came here to talk to you. To talk, but you've got a stick so far up your ass that you can't get past the fact that you want that mistake to happen again but don't wanna admit it's not just sex."

We both stared at each other breathing hard. There was nothing else but so much more to say. I saw the fear in her eyes...and the loneliness. I wanted to pull her in my arms and kiss her until all the anger she felt left and all that remained was the soft, plaint woman I'd made love to on that night. I watched as she turned to walk away. And right then and there I was beyond pissed so I had to much emotions going on that it left my mouth before I could control it.

"Was Kash a mistake too, huh?" I asked she stopped and looked at me tears forming in her eyes.

"What did you say?" she asked her voice was small now.

"I said was Kash a mistake huh? Since sex with me was just a mistake then you're saying he's a mistake right?" I asked she walked a little closer to me.

"Leave my son out of it" she said I almost slapped the shit out of her.

"Your son you mean our son I cant believe you Bree I can't you fucking keep me from my son and not even tell me about him for 4 years what was you thinking? So tell me is he a mistake huh? You wanted to hurt me. You knew I loved you, and you just wanted to break my heart. Payback for what happened four years ago."

"I broke your heart?" she asked, looking me in the face. That was the last thing she wanted to do.

"He's mine," I said it wasn't a question.

"Yes," she said weakly. In just a few seconds, a multitude of emotions played across my face, from disbelief, to anger, to pleading. Then abruptly, my face turned stony, not revealing anything of what I was feeling. I looked so calm, that Bree wasn't sure if she had imagined what she had just seen on my face. I knew he was mine but to finally hear her admit it was on a different level.

I was staring at her like I had never seen her before, "Were you ever going to tell me?" I asked

"Yes," she pleaded, "I was going to tell you, I was just scared."

"Kash will come live with me." I said

"What?" she said almost fell over with shock. The statement was so abrupt; she hadn't been expecting anything like that at all. "What-what do you mean?"

"I mean exactly what I say. In three weeks time, no more, Kash will come to live with me." I said

"B-but, I can't!" she protested, mostly out of shock than anything else. You couldn't just decide to get him, just like that." She said

"Why not?" I demanded, "I have enough money to take care of our son comfortably. He needs a father, and I'll be damned if I let any other man be that to him." I said I wasn't even asking her, I was telling her. Bree wondered if I really meant what I said earlier in the week, if I really still loved her. With a sinking heart, she knew that if I reassured her of my feelings, and promised to love her and our son, she would gladly throw herself into my arms and marry him in a second. As it was, it was just my pride that was talking, not my heart. She felt that I wanted to prove that I controlled the situation.

Bree shook her head, "I can't." she said thinking to herself Tell me again, she was screaming silently, tell me you love me.

There was a long pause. "Breanna," I said calmly but sternly, "I'm getting my son one way or another. You've deprived me of the first four years of his life, but you won't take away the rest from me. Now I'm giving you the chance to let him leave with me on your own, take it or leave it."

Bree shook her head desperately, "You can't!" she almost shouted, horrified, "You can't take my son away from me!"

"I don't want to, but I will if I have to, and don't think that I won't and you'll see how it feels to not be around him for 4 years." I said she was almost in tears again, and I added more gently. "Do it for our son. You'll be giving him a good home, with two loving parents-even if they don't love each other we both grew up without both parents in our life's don't do it to him." I knew she couldn't leave our son, or take a risk of losing him.

"Yes," she answered me quietly. "He can live with you" I turned around and went back into the hospital in the waiting area I looked and saw Kash I walked to him and picked him up hugging him tight.

"You're going to squeeze my guts out" Kash said giggling.

"Daddy will never do anything to hurt you" I said Kash looked at me confused for a few minutes then smiled.

"Daddy you're really my daddy?" Kash asked

"Yes Dolla I'm really your daddy. My name is DaQuon Jessie Jordan and yours is Kash Jessie Temple" I said looking at him.

"We got the same name you are my daddy" Kash said and wrapped his arms around me tight. I couldn't stop smiling he knows I know this is my son. I sat down and let Kash go back to finish playing with TJ and Tee. I looked at Bree was sitting next to Courtney and Courtney kept looking at me, till I gave her the finger I knew Bree was telling her what happen and I wasn't going to let her ass judge me, shit she don't even let Tee see his dad because his dad married some other woman and not her.

I got other things to think about like my mom and hoping that she pulls through and that she comes out of the surgery alive and that she gets to spend time with her grandson. I sat there watching Kash play with a whole new light to it, knowing he is my son blood and all. After a while Kash came to me daddying me to death and I loved it, he told me he was hungry and wanted MacDonald's so me, Trey, TJ and Kenny all left to go eat. Me and Trey talked while the kids played.

"So I see you know he's your son how does it feel?" Trey asked

"It feels good to know that when I first saw him I fell in love with him and I didn't know why but now I do… question did you know that he was mine?" I asked

"No I thought he was and I asked Bree she said no that you wanted his father.. I didn't believe her so I asked Courtney and she told me it was a guy's son who she met when she lived with her dad. But I'm sure Courtney knew but didn't say shit" he said

"Man I cant wait till my mama knows he's mine for sure" I said smiling.

"So tell me what did you say to Bree that had her telling Courtney giving you a dirty look" he asked

"I talked to Bree she was texting me all last night then when she got here, I finally talk to her and she was saying us sleeping together was a mistake and she was laughing saying how wrong it all was so she tried to walk away so I asked her was Kash a mistake since we had to have sex to make him. Then after all that I told her in 3 weeks ash will come to live with me and I can take care of him without a problem and that she can do it willingly or I can make her do it by force." I said

"Really? You wouldn't take him from her like that" he said know me too well.

"I know I wouldn't do that but I just wanted her to see that if I wanted too I could, I could take him and have to courts give me full custody…" I said

"How do you really feel about her be honest?" he asked

"I love her too death I do and I always have just she's got this wall build up and I don't know man she won't let me back in after I made my plea with her and she said she forgave me but she still wanna make me pay for it when she said she forgave me, that's bullshit. I'm not going to keep saying I'm sorry and keep telling her how I feel and it gets me nowhere I'm done. I'll help take care of my son that's it" I said he nodded.

"I feel you, you my nigga" he said

"You know you my nigga too" I said

"All the way" he said we dapped. After we was done we left and went back to the hospital once I walked in I smiled when I saw my sisters. They both looked at me came running to me hugging me tight I haven't seen them in like 3 weeks cause they was out of town.

"Quon missed you" Klair said

"I missed my big pudding" Katie said and I smiled hugging them tight.

"I miss thing 1 and thing 2 as well" I said breaking the hug they looked down when Kash pushed his way through wrapping his arms around my leg.

"Who's your friend?" Klair asked

"This is Kash my son" I said both of their heads pop up looking at me.

"What? I know we wasn't gone that long. Explain please" Katie said

"Calm down I just found out myself Kash is 4 years old" I said Klair knelt down and was talking to him making him laugh.

"Who's his mother?" Katie asked

"Bree" I said

"Bree really" Katie said turning and looking at Bree. "Why didn't you tell us or my mama I had no idea you had a son"

"Katie it's hard to explain but I'm sorry" Bree said Katie just shook her head and looked down at Kash who was looking up at her.

"Kash these are your aunties Klair and Katie" I said pointing them out. "Katie is my favorite… Ouch" Klair punched me and Kash laughed.

"And I'm Keith your grandfather" a voice behind us said and I turned around now standing face to face with my father, not step father but my blood father. I didn't see him when I came in but here he was right now Keith.

"What are you doing here?" I asked looking him right in the eyes. Me and my father haven't been around each other or seen each other in 12 years he didn't even show up to Dashard's funeral, his own fucking son's funeral like who doesn't show up. The last time I saw him I was 9, but I remember writing to him, my mom told me what college he went to and at 10 finally I wrote a letter to the alumni association and asked them to forward it. I did not hear back so I wrote a second time and included a photo. My father later called me 2 years later when I was 12 and he told me that he didn't receive the first letter but did the second. He told me that he wouldn't have believed me had I not included a photo. We have identical color of the eyes, that's the reason till this day I wear brown contacts cause I don't want to be a part of him and his blue eyes.

"I'm here bringing your sisters here and seeing if Joyce is okay. I got these papers the nurse brought out and I'm going to turn them back in, it's more information on the options that we have for her. But don't worry about it, you go on and sit with your sisters while I speak with the nurses and the doctors." Keith said I reached up and snatched the paper work from him. "What are you doing?

"I don't need you thinking you can control any of this" I said

"I have the right to I've known your mother longer than you so I got every right" Keith said trying to take the paper from me but I wouldn't let him.

"No you don't I'm her son your nothing to her that the doctors will allow you to have a fucking say so, excuse me" I said walking around him.

BREE

I stood there watching I knew how he felt about his dad he told me about him, and I was the only person other than his mom, and sisters that saw him without his contacts on it the sight was beyond beautiful I told him if he was walking around school like that, all the girls and woman would jump on his a fast. He told me then about his father having blue eyes. He also told me he didn't want no parts of him mainly his eyes. I stood there long enough when I saw him walk away, I followed him out and saw him sitting over to the side.

"Mind if I sit down?" I asked. He didn't say anything and just stared into the distant space. I sat down beside him and took his hands into mine. "Hey, look at me. Please Quon," as I moved and took his face into my hands, making sure he looked at my face.

"I am sorry, sweetie," he whispered then pulled me into a huge bear hug.

"It's alright and I understand, Quon. I really do," I said then pulled back and ran my fingers through his hair. "He's just here to bring your sisters. It'll be ok?"

"How can it be ok, Bree?" he asked furious at himself for his rude behavior earlier but it wasn't his fault. "Did I hurt you?" he looked at my arm. "How badly are they bruised?" he kept running his fingers over the marks.

"It's alright, Quon. Don't worry. They will be fine." I said

"I am such an asshole ..." he said

"Hey, no! Don't bad mouth yourself. Don't beat yourself up over my fuck up I was wrong" I said looping my hand around his arm.

"I promise it won't happen again, I won't put my hands on you like that again" he said and kissed my palm. "You are not angry, right? You can hit me if you want. I deserve it," pulling me closer.

"I am not angry at you I am at myself and I won't hit you. You are too sweet to be slapped," I said

"Are we still friends?" he asked

"Of course, we are. You will always be my best friend, Quon. Unless you don't want to be friends ..." I said

"You mean a lot to me, Bree. Don't you dare forget this." He said

"Same here, Quon," I said I leaned my head on his shoulder and he rested his head on top of mine, we interlaced our fingers, I stared off in the full parking lot, not saying anything else just being here for Quon.