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Note 1: Everything that is between double quotes " " it's dialogue.

Note 2: So last chapter ended with Alison flying to NY, this chapter will follow after that… This chapter is the longest as next chapter will be the last one, I will not give any spoiler of the ending, just to answer your questions if this has a happy ending or not… I think that after reading this entire chapter, you will have a clear idea of what is the answer for it ^^…

Note 3: Like last chapter there will be some musical moments…

Note 4: The last part of this chapter is linked with the abstract of Alison's diary of last chapter 'Revelations'.

Chapter 9 – Always & Forever

(In a plane towards NY)

Alison's thoughts. – "It's looks like the world never forgets to be cruel with me… every time that I think that I can be happy, life reminds me that hapiness is not for me…"

The blonde remembered her 1st love…

*** Flashback ***

Alison was lying on her bed with Pepe; she was gripping an envelope with her hands as she was afraid to open it; she was so lost on her thoughts that she jumped when someone else jumped over her on bed…

Samara said as she tickled Alison. – "Always so serious…"

Alison chuckled and then Samara lied down on bed beside Alison; she took off the envelope from Alison's hands …

Alison pouted. – "Hey!"

Samara raised an eye brow. – "Columbia? I thought that you just got accepted in Berkeley…"

Alison chuckled. – "I did… but I also applied to Columbia…"

Samara. – "Why? I thought that Berkeley was your dream since your mom studied there…"

Alison chuckled and blushed. – "It was… but…"

Samara. – "But…?"

Alison looked to Samara's lips and bitted her lips…

Samara smirked. – "So… you want to stay close to me… is that it?"

Alison blushed and nodded; Samara showed a huge smirk on her face and then she leaned for a kiss but she stopped until her lips where brushing Alison's lips…

Samara teased. – "You love me that much huh…?"

Alison blushed and nodded. – "You know that I do… I would do anything for you…"

Samara smirked and raised an eye brow. – "Anything…?"

Alison blushed and nodded and then Samara kissed her, in question of minutes the make out became very passionate…

Samara. – "Next week is my birthday… I want my gift in advance…"

Alison blushed. – "What do you want?"

Samara murmured on Alison's ear. – "You…"

Alison blushed and she was a little nervous as this was her 1st time; but she smiled as she was happy to give her V-card to her 1st love.

Alison waked up naked on her bed; she looked around but she got sad as she didn't find Samara with her after her 1st time, she thought that the other blonde would stay a little longer; Alison noticed that the other blonde forgot a bracelet on her bed; Alison smiled and she decided to use it as an excuse to look for Samara in her house; since both families were very close, the house of the Cook was one of the few places that Kenneth allowed Alison to go without restriction. Alison got into the Cook house, a maid let her in and she got surprised for all the decorations on the house…

Alison. – "What is this? Are they having a party…?"

Alison was thinking on leave and do not perturb when all the family Cook came into the room…

Mr. Cook. – "Alison… I didn't know that you were coming to the engagement party…"

Alison. – "Engagement?"

Mrs. Cook. – "Didn't Samara tell you?"

*** Music Moment: Instrumental song 'Pain' – OST Uncontrollably Fond***

Alison was going to say something but her mouth stood just open of surprise when she saw coming down from the stairs, the love of her life by the arm of a man that she had never seen before; Samara's eyes got bigger of shock as she wasn't expecting to see Alison there…

Mr. Cook. – "Alison, let us present you, Elliot Rollins, the future husband of Samara…"

Alison shook Elliot's hand with shaky hands and then she looked up towards Samara with watery-eyes. She stood on the party as she expected an explication from Samara but the other blonde didn't say anything, then it hit her, everything started to have sense, why they met in secret, why Samara didn't want to make official their relationship; Alison ran away from that house with tears on her face and the next day she flew to California…

*** End of the Flashback & music***

Alison's thoughts. – "Ah… But this time, it's me who's broking her heart, this time it's me the source of the pain… I'm so sorry Emily… the last thing that I want to do is hurting you…" (Sighs)

Voice of the pilot. – "Please put your belt seat, we're arriving to NY…"

(In Jason's office, NY)

Jason was huffing for all the work that he had to do; he just saw the pile of documents and rolled his eyes; he took a moment to look to the view from his huge windows; he saw the birds flying on the sky and thought how great would be to be as free as them; he was so lost on his thoughts that he didn't notice when someone got into his office…

Alison chuckled. – "Always daydreaming, my dear bro…"

Jason raised an eye brow as he couldn't believe who was there; he slowly turned towards the source of the voice and he smiled instantaneously; he ran towards her little sister and hugged her tight.

Jason smiled. – "What are you doing here?!"

Alison raised an eye brow. – "What?! Aren't you happy to see me?!"

Jason chuckled. – "Off course I'm! You know how much I miss you since you left to California… If I could, I would keep you in my pocket…"

Alison chuckled seeing how Jason was always so protective and warm with her but then the smile on her face faint and her facial expression showed sadness and Jason noticed it…

Jason said as he grabbed Alison's chin. – "Hey! Why that face? What is wrong?"

Alison took a deep breath and caressed Jason's cheek as she said with a weak smile. – "I haven't eaten… invite me somewhere to eat…"

Jason smiled and proudly offered his arm to his little sister; Alison smiled and grabbed Jason's arm and leaned her head on his arm as she took a deep breath of Jason's aroma.

(In a restaurant, NY)

Jason chuckled seeing all the different dishes that her sister requested. – "Since when you eat so much?!"

Alison chuckled. – "It's just that I always wanted to taste these dishes… so why wait anymore for doing it? Why leave for tomorrow what I can do today?"

Jason smirked. – "Yeah… let's see if you continued saying that after you get fat…" (Laughs)

Alison laughed too and then she took some fries from Jason's plate.

Jason pouted. – "Hey! Those are my fries! You've plenty of food already!"

They continued laughing, talking of superficial stuffs, eating together; Alison looked around and zoned out as she saw two little siblings in another table, she smiled and felt nostalgic seeing a little boy cutting the meat for his little sister; as she was lost on her own thoughts, Jason looked too into the same direction…

Jason smirked and raised an eye brow. – "What?! You want me to cut your meat?"

Alison smirked. – "Don't look at me like that… You've done it before… that and more…"

Jason chuckled and continued eating; Alison stared at her brother, she was trying to memorize each aspect of him, his face, his gestures, his aroma, his voice...

Alison. – "You've done so much more for me Jason… you've been my Dad, my Mom, my big protective brother and my friend too…" (She chuckled with a little of sadness and Jason stopped eating and looked at her into the eyes as she continued talking from the heart) "I was wrong… I kept telling myself for a long time that my only real friend was Pepe… but I was wrong… I've always had you…"

Jason gulped. – "Ali?"

Alison smiled looking at him into the eyes. – "Jason, now that I got the chance to say it… let me tell you that I love you so much… I love you Jason… never forget that…"

Jason gulped. – "Ali?"

Alison. – "When it gets hard, I get a little stronger now, I get a little braver now and when it gets dark, I get a little brighter now, I get a little wiser now… and all of that is thank to you… you shaped and guided me to be this person… so thank you Jason for raising me, for loving me, for carrying… I couldn't ask for a better brother, than you…"

Alison chuckled with a little of sadness and looked down to her food as she resume her eating; Jason stood frozen for a moment as he felt a mix of emotions hearing those words coming from his precious little sister; he felt happy and sad at the same time and he couldn't figure out why…

(In the top of the Empire state building at night)

Jason took the day off by Alison's request; they expended the entire day together like when they were children; Jason continued feeling anxious as he could feel that something wasn't right; at the end of their day, Jason brought Alison to their special place, at the top of the Empire state building; Alison ran to the edge and smiling seeing the view…

Jason. – "Do you still remember the 1st time that I brought you here?"

Alison smiled and nodded. – "How can I forget… I had 12 and I was so sad that no one gave me anything for St. Valentin…" (Little chuckles) "So you bought this huge teddy bear and a box of chocolates and brought me here to give them to me…"

Jason chuckled. – "Yeah… at that time you were obsessed with this old movie… what was it?"

Alison smiled. – " Sleepless in Seattle… yeah… one of my favorite movies of Meg Ryan and Tom Hanks…"

Jason approached and was side by side with Alison, looking too to the view from the observation deck…

Jason said as he continued looking to the view. – "Like you said, I raised you… Dad was helpless after Mom's death, so I took you as my responsibility, and don't get me wrong, I loved it every second of it… I would do it again and again without hesitation…"

Alison chuckled and blushed

Jason. – "You're my precious Ali-bear… my precious little sis, you're like my daughter… I know you better than the palm of my hand… I know you so well that I know that something is bothering you right now…" (He looked towards Alison and noticed that the blonde continued looking towards the view without saying anything, just pressing her fists tighter, so he continued talking) "I remember it perfectly when Mom died and we went to the hospital, when I saw you there, you had the same fear reflected into your eyes as you've now…" (Sighs) "We moved together as one Alison… always… so whatever is it… we can handle it… as one… as always…"

Alison sighed with sadness but without daring to talk

Jason took a deep breath and shout to the four winds; looking to the view. – "I hate working for my Dad!"

Alison. – "Jason! What are you doing?!"

Jason looked towards Alison and said smiling. – "Come on… it's very liberating to speak out what is suffocating your chest… come on, try…"

Alison looked down and shook her head; Jason decided to give it another try…

Jason screamed. – "I'm scared to die without knowing what love is! I've never fell in love! I want to! But I don't know how! And it scares the shit out of me!"

Jason took a deep breath and he smiled as he felt lighter screaming all those truths; he looked towards Alison, but the blonde continued looking down in the same position, Jason sighed and started walking towards the doors of the elevators.

Jason. – "It's late… let's go home…"

Jason was slowly walking in silence when…

*** Music Moment: Instrumental song 'Need Somebody' – OST Uncontrollably Fond***

Alison screamed with tears in her face as she squeezed her hands. – "Please, let me live!"

Jason immediately turned in direction of Alison and showed a shocked face as he murmured. – "What?!"

Alison screamed with tears in her face as she was looking up to the sky. – "I don't want to die! Please, let me live!" (Tears) "What will become of Emily, of my employees if I die?! Who will take care of them?! Huh?! I don't want to bring any pain to anyone!" (Tears and sobs) "There are… there are so many things that I want do for my beloved…" (She yelled to the sky with a little of anger in her voice) "How could you just ask me to die like this?! I want to live! I don't want to die!" (Tears) "I want to live!" (Tears and sobs) "All the people I love are right here…" (She screamed very louder as hell) "I just got the chance to be happy with Emily! So why are you making me die now?! I don't want to die! I want to live!" (She collapsed sitting on the floor as she continued crying and screaming) "Please! Let me live!"

Jason ran towards his little sister and hugged her very tight as he kneeled at her side; Alison curled on Jason chest and continued lamenting herself…

Alison cried. – "I'm so scared… I-I-I'm so scared… Jason… I don't wanna die… I don't…"

Jason was already with tears on his face and he just caressed Alison's head and hugged her as tight as possible…

Jason cried. – "Ssshhh…. It will be ok… don't be scared… I'm here… It will be ok… ssshhh…"

Alison continued curling on her brother and crying.

*** End of the Music Moment***

(In the DiLaurentis House)

After the empire state, Jason brought Alison to their home, they talked for long time about Alison's health and then Jason used the excuse to make some chocolate for both of them in order to cry in the kitchen alone, he didn't want to cry in front of Alison; as Jason was on the kitchen, Alison was on Jason's room, the blonde curled on Jason's bed as she was remembering, all the times that she crawled on his bed when she was scared; she chuckled under the thought that she was doing the same as when she was little, crawling on her brother's bed because she was scared… scared of death.

After a while; Jason came back with two cups of choco; Alison stood up and sat on the bed, she took the cup and said thank you to her brother, she looked down to her phone that was ringing…

Jason looked to the phone and noticed that it said 'Emily' so he asked. – "Are you not answering?"

Alison sighed and turned down the call. – "Nop…"

Jason. – "Does she know…?"

Alison shook her head as she drank the coco

Jason. – "Why not? If she loves you, she should be at your side now and…"

Alison. – "A year ago, her Dad was missing and she got depressed because of it, she started drinking, failing in the school, losing her way… she's too fragile to handle pain and loss…" (She took a deep breath and then she continued talking looking at Jason into the eyes) "I love her too much Jason… I don't wanna be a reason for her to get depressed again; I don't wanna her to fail school or became an alcoholic because of me…"

Jason. – "Alison…"

Alison. – "How I'm supposed to tell her about me dying…?! I can't tell her about my pain… I don't want her to know that pain exists… she can't handle death…"

Jason. – "She will find out eventually… you can't hide it forever…."

Alison. – "I know… but I need to figure out first what I need to do…"

Jason took a deep breath and then he kissed Alison's front-head. – "We will figure it out, together, you're not alone…" (Sighs) "Let sleep, tomorrow morning we will check with the best doctors in Manhattan…. We will find a way… I promise…"

Alison chuckled with sadness. – "Don't make promise that you can't keep…"

Jason. – "Alison…"

Alison. – "Can I sleep here? With you? Like old times…"

Jason chuckled and nodded. – "Off course…"

He hugged her and did his best to hide his fear of the unknown future of his precious little sister. He was also scared of losing her…

(A few days later, in the lobby of the DiLaurentis offices)

Alison was waiting for her brother when she received a call from Erza…

Alison on the phone smiled. – "Erza… how did it go? With the editorial…"

Erza on the phone replied very happy. – "Hi boss! Great! Thank you so much for presenting me with them! They're gonna publish my book!"

Alison chuckled on the phone. – "That's great… they are honest people Erza… they will take care of you…"

Erza said on the phone. – "Thank you again… really… my dream is becoming truth and it's all thanks to you!"

Alison smiled on the phone. – "No Erza… It's because of your work and talent… I just opened a door for you… the rest is on you… I'm sure that you will become a great famous writer…" (Little smiles) "You've already a fan with me…"

Erza smiled on the phone. – "Thank you boss…."

Alison said on the phone. – "Erza… how many times…"

Erza replied on the phone. – "Right, right, right… sorry… Alison…"

Alison chuckled on the phone. – "So how is everything over there? How is Pepe?"

Erza replied on the phone. – "Everything is ok; you're managing everything at distance so well that it looks like you were here…" (Little chuckles) "And about Pepe, I just put him in a plane to NY, like you asked me…"

Alison smiled on the phone. – "Thank you Erza… I really need him right now with me…"

Erza asked on the phone. – "Is everything ok boss… I mean Alison? Can I do something for you?"

Alison sighed on the phone. – "Thanks Erza, just continued assisting me and sending me all by e-mail; for the meetings, please check which ones I can do by skype and for the others let the marketing team takes care of them ok…"

Erza said on the phone. – "Ok… mmm… how long are you staying in NY?"

Alison sighed on the phone. – "I'm not sure… I will tell you when I know ok…"

Erza said on the phone. – "Ok… take care Alison…"

Alison smiled on the phone. – "You too Erza… thank you… you're the best assistant that anyone can have… you're a great person with a huge heart, never change that ok…"

Erza said on the phone. – "Alison… is really everything ok?"

Alison sighed on the phone. – "Don't worry about me Erza… just focus on your book, ok…"

Erza sighed on the phone. – "Ok… but if you need anything… I'm here… all your staff is here for you…"

They continued talking for a moment and then the called ended; Alison put her phone on the pocket of her coat, she was rolling her eyes all over the place and then she locked her look on one direction; she froze as she looked to someone that was approaching…

Emily said once she was in front of Alison. – "Long time no see…"

Alison mimicked her. – "Oh… long time no see…"

They gazed to each other in silence for a long time; Alison still frozen as an ice statue; not able to speak or move; Emily took her phone and dialed a number; Emily was looking down to the screen of her phone and she started to raise her face when Alison's phone started to ring; as a reflex, the blonde took her phone on her hands; she gulped when she saw that the number dialing, it was Emily's number; the blonde pressed the red button to turn down the call and Emily noticed it…

Emily. – "So you didn't change your number… you just ignored my calls and texts… I thought you had changed your number or that something bad happened to you…"

Alison. – "How did you know where I was?"

Emily. – "I asked Erza…"

Alison. – "Oh…"

(Awkward silence)

Emily sighed with frustration. – "Why did you ignore my calls and texts?"

Alison replied looking at Emily into the eyes with a cold look. – "Just because…"

Emily raised an eye brow. – "Just because?!"

Alison sighed. – "Sorry… but I'm a bit busy… if you don't have anything else to say-…"

Emily. – "Why wouldn't I?! I've tons to say to you!"

Alison. – "And if I don't want to hear it… there's no need for me to…"

Emily looked confused of the blonde's attitude and said. – "Alison!"

The blonde started to walk away from Emily but the brunette stopped her grabbing her from the arm; Alison turned her head towards Emily and looked at her into the eyes…

Alison. – "What are you doing?"

Emily. – "Exactly! What are you doing?! You were the 1st one claiming me to don't shut you down without a reason… and now! You're doing the same?!"

Alison took a deep breath and replied. – "You're right… I shouldn't keep you waiting for something…"

Emily sighed. – "Thank you…"

Alison looked at her into the eyes and said. – "So let's leave this very clear… let's break up… the best for you is to be as far as possible from me…"

Emily looked confused. – "What?! Why?!"

Alison. – "I'm sorry Emily; the last thing that I want to do is hurting you or causing you any pain…" (Gulps) "But it looks like I don't have a future to offer you so we should end this now…"

Emily looked confused. – "Why are you doing this?! This doesn't make any sense?!"

Alison waved her hands to her security staff; they approached and then she commanded to them. – "Please escort this girl out of the premises, she has no business here…"

Emily. – "Alison!"

Staff of security said to Emily. – "Please Miss… follow us…"

Emily glanced to Alison and said. – "This hasn't over Alison!"

Alison. – "I'm so sorry Emily… please… let me go… go back to California, live your life and just forget me and be happy…"

Emily was going to say something but she got out of the building before she could say anything.

Alison murmured to herself with tears on her face. - "I'm so so sorry; I don't wanna hurt you… I don't but no matter what you will get hurt so compared to the pain I've given to you, mermaid; I hope I'll have to go through a thousand times more, compared to the misery I've put you through, I hope I'll be 10 thousand times more miserable…" (Tears) "I'm really sorry…"

(In Hanna's studio, NY)

Emily came back after her encounter with Alison; as soon as she got in the apartment, all her friends were there waiting for her…

Aria. – "Did you see her?"

Emily nodded with a sad face and sat on the couch; her friends sat around her and gulped seeing the sad face on the brunette…

Hanna. – "What happened?!"

Emily said with a sad voice. – "She broke up with me…"

Aria. – "Oh Em… I'm so sorry to hear that…"

Hanna sighed. – "So she's really pissed off because you lied about your past…"

Aria. – "Maybe she just needs time… let the things cold down a little Em…"

Hanna stood up and said. – "No! There's no time to waste! We've to start to do a plan to get back my bestie!"

Spencer. – "I don't think it's a good idea…"

Hanna. – "Why not?!"

Spencer. – "Because… I think that she has a last name to protect… I'm a Hastings… I know what kind of pressure can give you to have a last name to protect…" (Sighs) "Sorry Em… but I don't think that you will work with her… she definitely doesn't want to sully her image with you…"

All the girls reunited, they discussed about Alison's behavior, Spencer thought that now that Alison knows about Emily's past, she just doesn't want to be linked with someone like her; Hanna defended Alison and the girls discussed all the day. Emily couldn't sleep thinking of what Spencer said, so the next morning, she needed a break to think so she went for a walk to the closed park…

(In Central Park)

Alison was jogging with a bottle of water on her hand, suddenly the bottle of water just dropped from her hand; she stopped jogging and looked down to her shaky hand and remembered something that one of the many doctors that she has seen told her….

Doctor's voice memory on Alison's head. – "Things will become harder… starting from extreme headaches, vomiting, double vision and you will also start having problems with your motor nerves and sensory nerves…"

The blonde took a deep breath and kneeled on one knee trying to grab the bottle with her hand but she couldn't, her hand continued shaking and she couldn't grabbed the bottle; her vision started to get blurry and Alison got really mad, she stood up and kicked the bottle with anger and yelled; she started having a headache so she sat on the closer bench; she took a deep breath and closed her eyes; she stood there, for a long time with the eyes closed…

Alison thought with the eyes closed. – "I want to see you… I want to see you, mermaid…"

After several minutes; when she started to feel better, she slowly opened her eyes and for her surprise, a girl was in front of her, looking at her with puppy eyes…

Emily blushed and rolled her eyes into the ground once she saw the blue eyes of Alison staring at her

Emily. – "Have you seen 50 bucks by any chance?"

Alison looked down as she said. – "No… I haven't…"

Emily waved a foot and said as she continued looking down to the ground. – "I definitely dropped it around here… somewhere…" (She kneeled in front of the blonde and said as she touched once of Alison's legs) "Lift your shoe…"

The blonde did as requested and there was nothing below…

Emily touched again Alison's leg and said. – "Take it off… the shoe…"

Alison. – "Excuse me?!"

Emily. – "I think that you're hiding my fifty bucks in your shoe… so take it off?"

Alison. – "Are you serious?"

Emily nodded as she continued being kneeling in front of the blonde, looking down; Alison sighed and took off her shoe and gave it to the brunette…

Alison. – "See… There is nothing there…"

Emily said as she shook the shoe. – "Mmm… that's weird… where did it go then…?" (She gave the shoe to the blonde and then she touched the other leg of Alison and said) "Now the other… take it off..."

Alison sighed as she put on, her shoe again, she wasn't on the mood to continue with Emily's game and she just stood up and was planning to leave but as soon as she stood up from the bench; the brunette who was kneeling in front of her, grabbed her hand; Alison stopped moving, when she felt Emily gripping her hand…

Emily. – "Someone told me that you're avoiding me because you don't want to sully your reputation by being associated with me… but I don't believe it… I don't believe any of that… how could I believe that? How could I?! When I know what kind of person you're!" (She rubbed her cheek on Alison's hand and continued talking) "I know that you're not the type of person to run away from me just because of my past…"

Alison turned her head and looked at her. – "I told you that you didn't do anything wrong… you want to blame, hate anyone… well hate me! Blame me!"

Emily stood up and said. – "Ali… I can't hate you! I can't blame you! I know you!"

Alison. – "Why you said that?! You don't know me Emily!"

Emily. – "I do know you! I know everything about you! I know exactly what you're thinking right now too…"

Alison smirked. – "Oh really?!"

Emily. – "Yes I do… you're thinking: 'I miss you Emily and I wanted to see you'…"

Alison's smirk faint of her face…

Emily said with watery-eyes. – "You're thinking 'I miss you so much'… that's what you're thinking right now…"

Alison didn't say anything, she just gulped…

Emily. – "I miss you too Alison! A ton! So, so much! I miss you so much that I thought I'd go crazy! This is my response to what you are thinking!"

Alison sighed with watery-eyes. – "Please Emily, don't make this harder of what already is… go back to California and let me go…"

Emily. – "Is that really what you want? Me, out of your life?!"

Alison took a deep breath and tried to don't cry as she nodded avoiding eye-contact; she resumed her walk away from the brunette; Emily just followed Alison with her eyes as the blonde walked away from her...

(A few days after, in a hospital in NY)

A young intern was running on the hallways as if her life depended on it; she didn't stop running until she arrived to the office of her attending; she opened the door and got into the room without asking permission…

Dr. Amelia. – "Miss. Cook! What are you doing?!"

The blonde intern was catching her breath but her heart and breath just stopped as soon as she saw once again, those blue eyes that she hadn't seen in years, she smiled seeing those blue eyes…

Alison raised an eyebrow. – "Samara?!"

Dr. Amelia saw that both girls knew each other and there was an awkward moment of silence when someone page Amelia into the ER for a neuro consult.

Amelia. – "Miss DiLaurentis, sorry I need to go but my intern, Samara, she will escort you to do the CT scan… we need new scans and with that I will be able to give you a diagnostic ok…"

Alison nodded. – "Ok… thank you doctor…"

*** Music Moment: Sorry by Aquilo***

Amelia left and both girls stood there alone; they stared at each other without speaking for a while until Alison broke the silence…

Alison avoided eye-contact and sighed. – "A few days ago, my doctor in California told me that I don't have much long time to live, well… it's a bit perplexing; but everyone dies anyway right…"

Samara. – "Alison…"

Alison smirked. – "It's funny how destiny plays its cards… I ran away from NY to never see you ever again… and now… fate brings me here… to you…" (She saw Samara into the eyes and said) "It looks like fate is considering you as part of my salvation or my ending… I wonder what will be…? But considering our history maybe this will end as a tragedy…"

Samara tried to give a step forward but she walked back to her initial position...

Samara. – "Don't say that… I-I-I'm not the same… I've changed and I…"

Alison sighed. - "Just because you're becoming a doctor… it doesn't mean you're not Sarama Cook…"

Samara looked down and said. – "It's a good start… a chance to live simply… wining people respect, doing something good, maybe become a person someone could love…"

Alison said with a little of pain in her voice. – "Someone did love you… "

Samara looked up and both girls stared into the eyes as they remembered the last time that they saw each other on the engagement party of Samara.

Samara was going to say something but she didn't when she saw Alison losing balance caused by a strong headache; Samara ran towards Alison and held her…

Samara said with concern. – "Are you ok?!"

Alison pushed her away and sighed. – "I don't have time to waste so… let's do the CT…"

Samara gulped. – "Alison…"

Alison. – "Are you going to do your job or not?!"

Samara took a deep breath and nodded. – "Please follow me…"

They entered into the room of the equipment and Alison lied down on the table…

Samara. – "Don't move ok…"

Alison. – "I know how this works… It's not my 1st time doing this kind of tests…"

Samara sighed. – "I know… I read your file…" (She gulped hard; she took this chance in order to speak from the heart) "I didn't marry him... I couldn't do it… I never loved him… I just accepted the ring on that time because the Rollins had an important business with my Dad… but I couldn't follow my Dad whishes so I broke up the engagement because I'm still in love of you…" (She chuckled) "I finally have the courage to say it out loud… I'm sorry for not telling you 'I love you' when I knew I did and I'm so sorry that I destroyed you… you, the only thing that I've ever loved…"

The other blonde didn't reply, they did the test and just when it ended, Alison stood up from the equipment and said to Samara looking at her into her green eyes…

Alison. – "Samara, I don't love you anymore… you did hurt me but don't worry, you didn't destroy me… it takes more than you to destroy Alison DiLaurentis…"

Both girls chuckled and Samara looked down, looking a little sad hearing that Alison's doesn't love her anymore.

Alison. – "Thank you for saying 'sorry'…"

Samara shook her head and continued looking down as she said. – "It's nothing… it's the last thing I could do…"

After that; Alison talked with Amelia for a moment about the new scans, they had a long conversation and Alison got out of that meeting with sad eyes; she was getting out of the hospital when Samara grabbed her from the arm…

Samara. – "Alison! Please don't give up!"

Alison took her arm away from Samara and yelled with frustration – "Let me go Samara!" (Sighs) "Unfortunately, I met you again in the most miserable and most awful moment of my life… but the last thing that I need right now, it's your pity!"

Samara. – "Alison… I will find a way to save you… I will… I promise…"

Alison mocked. – "You heard your attending… It's not possible to take it out without killing me!"

Samara looked at her into the eyes and said with determination.- "I've broken many promises to you… but I'll not break this one… I will find a way to save you… I will… I will get out that tumor of your head… I promise…"

Alison chuckled and left; Samara stood frozen looking to the love of her life leaving…

*** End of the Music Moment***

(In Central Park)

In the afternoon, Alison went for a walk to the park, she was really sad that all the doctors gave her the same diagnostic; she was walking when suddenly, she lost control of her legs and sat on the ground…

Alison said as she looked at her legs. – "Huh?" (She tried to move her legs but she couldn't, she started crying and punching her legs with her fists) "Stand up! Stand up! You're my legs! Aren't you?! Stand up! Come on, stand up! Stand!"

She continued crying and punching her legs with her fists, she cried with anger until her eyes got sore of so much crying. It started to get dark and Alison wasn't able to move, she didn't want to worry Jason but she called him anyway; she was waiting for Jason and looking up to the sky when the stars started appearing…

Alison self-talk in her mind. – "It's not about the time… but I just want to see you… when I think of you… my heart starts to play a melody… mermaid… I swing between hope and despair now… what should I do? Should I just accept my fate? Or should I keep searching for a miracle? Should I stop dreaming of a future with you?" (Sighs) "Maybe I should just give up… I did have a good life… My dream did come true when I found love with you… it was a short moment but… at least I had it… even if it was brief… so it's ok right? That's enough right? Yeah… that's enough…"

(In Kenneth's office at night)

Kenneth was on his desk when Jason came into the office…

Jason said with a shaky voice. – "Dad… Alison… she…"

Kenneth sighed without looking at him. – "Don't talk with me about your sister… I'm very upset with her because she sold to the Kahn the land of Nevada without consulting it with us…"

Jason got angry hearing his father words; he just closed his fists very tight as he took a deep breath…

Jason. – "My precious Ali-bear is dying… she's sick, very sick… she has a brain tumor…" (Tears) "Until now, doctors said that is impossible to get it out without killing her in the process… and…" (Sobs) "The Tumor, it's growing so fast… doctors don't think that chemo would work…"

Jason's phone rang and it was Alison, he talked with her on the phone as Kenneth dropped his pen and stood frozen by the news; after the call Jason cleared his tears of his face and said looking at his father into the eyes…

Jason. – "You're our boss… that's it… that's all I can say about you…" (Sighs) "I don't remember what it's like to have a father but I do know what it's like to have a sister and it's good, really good, the best part of my life… so this isn't your employee talking to you neither your son requesting you love… no, this is me, Jason, the big brother of Alison, telling you that I'm not gonna let you to continue breaking her heart…" (He said with a bossy voice) "So I'm asking… NO! I'm telling you this! Next time that you see her… you will be kind; you will be a Dad; a real lovely Dad… you will tell her that you love her, that you're proud of her… you will put her mind at ease…" (Sighs) "So be a Dad… to her, for her… before it's too late…"

Jason walked away because he needed to go towards Alison who was waiting for him in the park…

Kenneth stood up from his chair and yelled. – "Jason!"

Jason turned towards him and looking at him…

Kenneth. – "Where is she?!"

(In Central Park at night)

Alison talked to herself, looking to the starry sky. – "Just look at how the starts are twinkling… it's beautiful… It reminds me the fireflies that you showed me on your town mermaid; I would love to see them again… I hope I will…"

Alison was lying on the ground, looking at the starry sky; she saw a shooting star on the sky…

Alison. – "Can I ask a wish then? Take care of Emily, God, don't let her suffer… Don't let her get lonely… I don't care what happen to me… I will not ask anything for me… just let her have a happy life… please… it's all I wish…"

Alison turned her head when someone called her name; she looked surprised for who that person was…

Alison gulped. – "Father?!"

*** Music Moment: Instrumental song 'Wherever you are' – OST Uncontrollably Fond***

Kenneth took off his coat and covert Alison's legs with it as he said. – "It's cold and the last thing that you need is a cold…"

Alison gulped and blushed; she murmured. – "Thank you…"

Kenneth sighed as he was kneeled on one knee beside his daughter; he looked at her and said. – "Can you…" (Gulps) "Can you move your legs…?"

Alison looked down and shook her head; Kenneth looked sad and he just held her into his arms; he was carrying her bridal style; the blonde just curled on him and gripped her hands on him as a little girl looking for protection; Kenneth was looking up, avoiding eye-contact; Alison looked up to him and noticed watery-eyes on him…

Alison curled and snuggled him and said with a soft voice. – "Daddy…"

Kenneth's tears started to fall when he heard Alison's words; it has been a long time, since the last time that the blonde called him like that…

Alison said with tears on her eyes. – "Sorry… I was a bad daughter… I feel terrible…"

Kenneth tried to control his voice but it sounded heartbroken. – "No… you are a great daughter… since you were a kid… you always slept well, ate well, study well… Whenever you looked at me, you smiled for some reason… I'm too blessed having a sweet daughter as you…"

Alison chuckled and blushed. – "Ok… let's say I was a good daughter then…"

Kenneth. – "You're… not 'was'… don't talk in past tense…"

Alison chuckled and gripped very tight on Kenneth as she said. – "I don't want you to think that I didn't do my best…" (Tears) "I lived hard… even if I got another chance; I couldn't do it better… but I still feel sorry towards you…" (She cried) "I'm sorry… I'm really sorry Daddy because I couldn't be the straight daughter that you wanted… I made you feel ashamed and I'm sorry for that…"

Kenneth felt heartbroken and cried in silence as he was carrying her daughter in his arms…

Kenneth. – "I'm sorry… I… I was a little rash with you…" (Tears) "But it's fine… It had always been fine…" (Sighs) "Everything is going to be fine and you gonna be fine…"

Alison said with a sad voice. – "And what if not… what if I just got worse until I… what if I die?"

Kenneth took a deep breath and said with tears on his face. – "My door will always be open for you to visit whenever you miss me…" (Tears) "When the flowers bloom, I'll think that you're there; when the wind blows, I'll think that you're there; even when it rains, I'll think you came by; when it snows, I'll also think that you came by…" (Tears) "So it will be ok… because you'll always be there…"

Kenneth looked down to the blonde and their eyes met…

Kenneth. – "Thank you Alison, thank you for being my daughter…" (Tears) "I'm very proud of you and you've been always in my heart, I do love you…" (Tears) "And I'm so sorry for not showing it…"

Alison chuckled and smiled with watery-eyes. – "Me too… I love you Daddy…" (Tears) "It was a great honor to have you as my Dad…"

Kenneth's tears increased and he just put a soft kiss on Alison's front-heat as he held her very tight in his arms.

*** End of the Music Moment***

(A few days later, in California at the swimming pool of UCLA)

It was the finals, the Fields and the girls came to cheer up Emily on the competition; the brunette did her best to smile but her smile was weak as she was still sad for the absence of Alison in her life. They won and everybody approached Emily to congratulate her for the victory…

Erza. – "Hi Emily! Congrats!"

Emily hugged him and smiled, she raised an eye brow as she noticed an old man in a suit beside Erza.

Emily. – "Thanks Erza… mmm… who is…?"

Kenneth stretched his arm and said with a firm voice. – "Congratulation; I'm Kenneth DiLaurentis and I would like to speak with you in private…"

Emily gulped hard and felt intimidated under the presence of Kenneth; she shook his hand with nervous hands…

Emily nodded and said with a shaky voice. – "Hello Sir… thank you…" (She nodded) "Sure… sure… I will just change first…"

The coach lent his office to Emily in order to speak with Kenneth in private; they went into the office and neither of them sat; Kenneth was looking to the trophies as Emily played with her thumbs, biting her lips and sweating for the nervous…

Emily's thoughts. – "Fuck! Who is him? It could be her father, her uncle… her lawyer… he really looks scary… why he's here? Why he came with Erza?! Shit! Should I ask?!"

Emily mumbled. – "S-S-Sir…"

Kenneth took a deep breath and said. – "I'm Alison's father; I'm informed that you and my daughter are living together…"

Emily. – "Ah…. We did… I don't know if you know Sir but as far as I know she's in NY… she hasn't come back to California…"

Kenneth. – "Do you love her?"

Emily looked confused. – "What?!"

Kenneth looked at her into the eyes and said. – "Why haven't you looked for here?"

Emily gulped. – "I did look for her and she broke up with me…" (She looked down) "I don't deserve her Sir… she's too good for me…" (She looked up and her eyes met with Kenneth's eyes) "I do love her; I'm deeply in love of her but sometimes when you love someone; you have to make sacrifices… even if that means putting your own feeling to the side…"

Kenneth sighed. – "You two making this kind of 'sacrifice' for each other when there is no time to waste…"

Emily looked confused and Kenneth noticed that Emily had no clue of the truth; he sat on the desk with the arms crossed and Emily sat on the chair that was beside him; he took a deep breath and he revealed the truth about Alison's illness; Emily's jaw dropped open and shaking as tears were falling from her brown eyes; Emily just gripped her pants as she continued crying in silence hearing the news. Kenneth took out of his pants a little box; he opened it and put it on the desk; Emily saw by the corner of her eye, the beautiful diamond ring that was on that box…

Kenneth. – "I gave this ring to Alison's mother when I asked her to marry me… I know that Jessica would love Alison to wear it…"

Emily. – "Sir…?!"

Kenneth kneeled in front of the brunette and looked at her with watery-eyes…

Kenneth. – "As humiliating and desperate this may sound… I'm here to beg…" (Tears) "I'm begging you to stand by her side, to love her, to make her smile until…" (Sighs) "Please… I can't take her pain away… she's giving up! She's giving up! And I-I-I can't make her smile… but you can… you can make her smile again, you can give her, a reason to grip on life and don't lose faith… please I'm begging you… please…"

Emily looked at him into the eyes and she could feel the despair on him.

(In a plane towards NY)

*** Music Moment: Without you by One two***

Emily was looking through the window with a sad look, lost on her own thoughts…

Emily self-talk in her mind. – "Huh… the people I care about keep leaving me, It's happening again, life's taking Alison far away from me… the girl I took for granted would always be on my world… the girl I want to be by my side forever…"

The brunette sighed and shook her head trying to stop any negative thought on her mind; she remembered that Kenneth gave her in advance, a letter that Alison wrote for her, Alison prepared the letter in case of her dying, normally Emily shouldn't receive the letter but Kenneth wanted to give it to her. Emily hesitated in opened it or not but in the end she opened the envelope and started reading the letter…

Alison's letter. –

"Dear Mermaid,

It feels weir to be writing this letter, I really don't know with which part to begin with… but I guess we should start from the beginning; a few time ago, my doctor told me that I've an inoperable tumor so I may don't have much long to live; what worries me the most is you… I may be gone, but you have to continue living your life; you've to build the world, you believe in. Don't live in despair; don't blame the world; don't use me as an excuse to fall into that darkness again… you promise me, you promise me that you will not be a mess, that you will not lose yourself again… do you remember? You'll be ok if you don't give in; I believe in you and I know that you will do great.

The people I love might think I was unhappy but I was really, truly happy thanks to you. I'm grateful with life that it brought you to me; I couldn't have asked for more.

Emily, never look down on yourself, don't care about the past or the mistakes that you can make, beautiful things are made with efforts and the 'you' that your underhanded lie brought to me, it's a gentle human soul, a kind and carrying person that made my world a little brighter.

The round moon peeking into the apartment under our 1st kiss, the movies nights, the meals, the talks, my 1st sleepover with friends… everything was so fun; we had a great time, wasn't it? Isn't it funny how the most common things as eating with you, can be my precious treasures? What about you?"

Emily said with watery-eyes. – "They're precious to me too…"

Alison's letter. – "Was I able to live inside your heart?"

Emily chuckled with watery-eyes. – "Yes, you were… you barged right in without taking off your shoes…"

Alison's letter. – "Do you think you'll remember me at least a little?"

Emily chuckled. – "If I ever forgot you… you know you'd come back to haunt me…"

Alison's letter. – "You better don't hit 'reset'!"

Emily chuckled. – "As if I ever would…"

Alison's letter. – "Don't forget me ok?"

Emily cried. – "Never…"

Alison's letter. – "That's a promise, ok! I'm glad it's you, the person who taught me true love and I will always and forever love you Emily Fields, I love you! I love you! I love you!"

Emily gripped tighter the letter and her tears fell on the paper and some letters started to get blurry because of the tears…

Alison's letter. – "Sorry I didn't see you swim, sorry I couldn't be your tutor any longer; I'm so sorry for all the pain I caused you; sorry a million times over, I hope you would be able to forgive me one day… thank you for everything mermaid… thank you… thank you so much for making my life such a full one…"

Emily cried. – "You're so selfish! I'm the one who should be thanking you!"

*** End of the Music Moment***

(In a hospital, in NY)

*** Music Moment: A little braver by New Empire***

Alison was looking through the window from her hospital bed with a sad look; she sighed with sadness and she just turned her face when she heard the door opened; she thought that it was her father or her brother but her eyes just got bigger of surprise seeing who was the person in the frame door.

Emily self-talk in her mind. – "She has lost weight, she's too pale; she looks very sick and sad…"

Alison. – "Emily…?"

Emily smiled and said as she approached to her. – "Wow you look amazing today! You shine so bright I can barely look!" (Emily covert her eyes with her hands and said) "Really, too bright!"

Alison chuckled for the 1st time in weeks and blushed under the compliment. The brunette sat on the bed beside Alison and put her arm over the blonde…

Emily said as she prepared her phone for a selfie with Alison. – "Will you pose for me?! Smile!"

(Sounds of a flash)

Alison blushed. – "Em… you can't take it without a warning…"

Emily. – "Why not?!"

Alison. – "Because…" (She looked down and said with sadness) "I'm not looking pretty…"

Emily chuckled. – "Well… I disagree… look!" (She showed the picture to Alison) "You look so good! It's a pity that such beauty it's wasted on me…"

(Little laughs)

Emily said looking at the picture. – "We look sweet in it… I'll send this to Hanna and brag about it…"

Alison blushed again and chuckled; the blonde looked at Emily and the brunette felt the gaze of Alison on her and turned her head too towards the blonde; both stared at each other for several minutes…

Alison sighed with sadness. – "You shouldn't be here… seeing me like this…"

Emily said as she brushed the blonde hair of Alison's face. – "You were once my hero… did you know that?"

Alison. – "So am I not your hero anymore?"

Emily. – "Right now you're a jerk…"

Alison raised an eye brow. – "A jerk?"

Emily. – "Yeah a jerk!" (She took a deep breath and her eyes became watery-eyes) "Because you were pushing me away on purpose… afraid I'll get hurt… Did you really think that would help me?!"

Alison sighed. – "Emily…"

Emily said with tears. – "You're wrong! We're madly in love with each other! All started with a lie… not wanting to see you as a love interest… pretending to be straight… it was a lie! But Ali! I like you! I love you! That's why I can't stand wasting another minute, another second not being with you!" (She hugged Alison very tight) "That's why from now on, I'll do nothing else but look at you! I'll stay at your side and stare at your face until I bear a hole in it! So yeah… you're a jerk for hiding me this, for trying to endure this all by yourself… so if you want be my hero again… don't die and find a way to live… you're not allowed to quit after influencing my life the way you did…"

Alison chuckled with tears on her face and hugged Emily back. – "Ok… I'll try my best to keep breathing… I will struggle as hard as I can… struggle, struggle, struggle… like there's no tomorrow…" (She gripped on Emily) "It's your fault, all of it… the reason I'm putting up such an unseemly struggle, why I'm so fixated on living… it's your fault… you gave me this desire to cling on life… to the time that I spend with you… you exist inside me… mermaid… you like lasagna of tuna, you like chocolate milk… you love sweet food… what else do you like? What are your favorite animals? What kind of stuff did you collect when you were a kid? What cartoon shows did you like? There's so much that I don't know… I envy Hanna and the girls for knowing everything… I want to know so many things about you… so… I will keep breathing until I know everything about you… ok…"

Emily continued hugging her and crying in silence as she nodded. – "Ok…"

Alison chuckled with tears on her face. – "You really are cruel… such a cruel girl… telling me to dream one more time… I thought I was satisfied because my dream of finding true love came truth and I'd told myself it was enough… yet here you're… watering this withered heart again…" (She chuckled) "I'm greedy after all… so I'm just gonna dream again and keep gripping on life for you…"

*** End of the Music Moment***

After a lot of research, Samara found a possible way to remove the tumor; she presented the approach to her attending…

Samara. – "So what do you think…?"

Dr. Amelia. – "I think that it might work… good job Cook…"

Samara. – "So you're doing it right? The surgery?"

Dr. Amelia. – "Well, that will be the patient's decision, there is still a high risk but I think this is her best shot to survive… let's talk with the patient and her family…"

The doctors presented the option of surgery to Alison, Jason and Kenneth…

Alison. - "What if I don't do the surgery?"

Amelia. – "Best scenario, you died in your sleep, without pain… looking into the last scans… you don't have more than a week…"

Samara. – "Alison, please, trust us, this will work…"

Alison looked at Jason and Kenneth and then she nodded. – "Ok, let's program the surgery…"

Emily was in the hallway, looking at all the persons getting Alison out of her room; she slowly approached to one of them because she was scared of what was happening.

Emily asked. – "Hi… can I ask what is coming on…?"

Samara raised an eye brow and asked. – "And you're?"

Emily stretched her arm and said. – "I'm Emily, Alison's girlfriend…"

Samara shook her hand but she looked pale; Emily noticed it…

Emily. – "Are you ok?"

Samara shook her head. – "Yeah… mmm… so…"( Gulps) "You two… you're together…?"

Emily nodded with a smile. – "Yeap!"

(Awkward silence)

Emily. – "So… can I ask where they took her… those nurses…?"

Samara. – "Ah… yeah… we're doing some tests; we programmed surgery for this friday…."

Emily nodded with a little of fear reflected into her eyes; Samara noticed the fear on Emily's eyes and patted Emily's arm.

Samara. – "She's in good hands… Amelia is the best neuro surgeon on the country…"

Emily sighed and looked down as she played with her thumbs…

Samara. – "She will not die… I will not let it…"

Emily looked up and saw the determination on the green eyes of the blonde intern and smiled.

Emily. – "You promise?"

Samara. – "I swear of my life, I will not let her die…" (Sighs) "Friday, we're doing the surgery; so if you want to expend time with her; do it now, on Friday, she might be surrounded by doctors and it may be complicate for you to see her…" (Deep breath) "Stay with her while you can ok… you will regret it if you don't… believe me I know…"

Emily looked confused but before she could say anything, Samara avoided eye-contact and she was pretending to walk away when Emily grabbed her from the arm...

Emily chuckled. – "Hey… mmm… this may sound out of place for me to ask but… mmm… can I ask your help in something…?"

*** Music Moment: Whenever you will go by Charlene Soraia***

It was Thursday, when Alison did the last scans for the big surgery of the next day; Samara was pushing Alison's wheelchair on the hallways of the hospital after the last CT…

Samara. – "So any headache today…?"

Alison sighed. – "No… I just feel sleepy…"

Samara. – "Mmm…"

Alison looked around and she showed a confused face. – "Ah… my room is not in this direction… are we doing more tests today?"

Samara. – "No more test for today…"

Alison. – "So where are you bringing me…?"

Samara. – "You will see…"

Before Alison could say anything else; there arrived to a room that the interns used for lunch; Alison smiled looking to the lovely decoration of the room; they were a lot of balloons with the shape of a heart and roses all over the place. Her smile got bigger when she noticed a shaky brunette in the middle of the room with a rose between her hands…

Alison smiled. – "Emily…?! What-…?"

On the corner of the room, the girls appeared playing instruments; Aria was playing a guitar, Spencer was playing a music keyboard and Hanna was shaking a tambourine; they were playing a lovely melody as Emily sang to Alison…

Emily sang. –

"I never meant to fall for you but I did…

I want my hot lips, to touch your soft lips,

So that my love can be delivered to your heart…

If you still don't know, how I feel about you…

More than anyone else in the world… I love you…

I will love you…

I will love you always…

I will love you forever…

I will love you…"

Alison was overwhelmed with the lovely gesture; Emily kneeled on one knee in front of Alison and gave her the rose; Alison took the rose and she found a diamond ring on the rose…

Emily said on one knee. – "I've decided I want more… that we… both, we deserve more… and I don't care what the future would bring… so…" (Big pause) "Alison Lauren DiLaurentis, would you marry me?"

Alison smiled with happy tears on her face as she nodded and said. – "Yes! Yes! Mil thousand times Yes!"

Emily smiled and took the ring of the rose and put it on Alison's finger; Emily cupped Alison's cheeks and kissed her in the lips…

The girls. – "Aww!"

Samara took a deep breath and did her best to contain her tears…

Samara mumbled. – "I-I-I need to check other patients…" (Gulps) "You can stay as long as you want… ok…"

Emily smiled to Samara and said. – "Thank you…"

Alison too looked towards the blonde and she saw her with warm eyes and smiled to her. – "Thank you…"

Samara took her time to see Alison's face, glowing of happiness and a weak smile appeared on Samara's face as she nodded and then she left.

Alison was looking to the ring and smiled. – "It's beautiful mermaid… this should have cost you a fortune…"

Emily. – "About the price… I've no clue…"

Alison raised and eye brow and looked at Emily with a confused look

Emily chuckled. – "Your Dad gave it to me… it belonged to your mom…"

Alison. – "So you met my Dad…"

Emily nodded. – "Yeah… he's a scary person… I'm definitely never making you cry… he would definitely get the shit out of me…"

(Laughs)

Alison teased. – "Actually, I think that you should be more afraid of Jason… you've no idea of how protective he's about his precious little sister…"

Emily chuckled and Alison too; both girls were stared at each other with big smiles when someone interrupted their gaze…

Spencer. – "Ok, lovebirds, we've a tight schedule to follow so let's move!" (She grabbed Emily from the collar of her jacket and she started dragging her out of the room)

Emily pouted. – "Hey!" (She looked towards her two other friends and waved her hands to them as she said) "Help here!"

Hanna smirked. – "Don't look at me… you put her in charge of your proposal-wedding plan so… live with the consequence of your decisions…"

Aria nodded. – "Yeah…"

Alison looked confused. – "What?! A proposal-wedding?!"

Emily blushed and smiled. – "Yeah… I kinda wanna marry you today…"

Hanna. – "Yeah bestie… there is not place for second thoughts! You're gonna say 'yes' to us today…"

Aria raised an eye brow. – "Really Hann? 'Us'…?!"

Hanna smirked. – "What?! I'm the cupid who put this couple together!" (She looked at Alison and said to her) "Sorry bestie but when you said 'yes' to Em… you said yes to me too!"

Alison chuckled

Spencer. – "Ok! Too much chat here! Let's move guys! I didn't trace a schedule for nothing!"

Emily was going to say something else but Spencer dragged her out as Hanna and Aria stood with Alison in order to help her to get ready.

Family and close friends were on the chapel of the hospital; as soon as Emily saw Alison entering into the room with a white dress; she felt overtaken by the beauty of her blonde…

Emily smiled with a goofy face. – "God! She's breathtaking!"

Alison was happy as for the 1st time in weeks, her legs didn't abandon her and she could stay up all the time.

Minister. – "Did you prepare any vows?"

Alison blushed. – "No… but I do have something to say…" (She took a deep breath and said with a lot of happiness looking at Emily into the eyes) "The moment we met, my life became extraordinary, you're the joy in my heart and the person that I want to see every night when I close my eyes; I love you Emily Catherine Fields and I promise to love you, to be your friend and your roomie… always and forever…"

Emily smiled and then she said her vows. – "The moment I met you, you brighten my life; you taught me to be my best self, to look forward for a tomorrow. And when I was vulnerable, you were strong, now is my turn to be your rock" (Deep breath) "Alison Lauren DiLaurentis, I love you, and I wanna live my life in the warmth of your smile and the strength of your embrance. I promise you, I will love you, I will be your friend and roomie for life… always and forever…"

Minister. – "By the power vested in me by the state of NY; I now pronounce you…"

Alison didn't let the minister finish his sentence as she rushed and kissed Emily into the lips; Emily smiled under the kiss and hugged her with a lot of love; not willing to let her go never again…

*** End of the Music Moment***

After all the celebration; at night, Emily was taking a nap, in the chair, beside Alison's hospital bed, she slowly opened her eyes when she felt a finger nailing on her cheek…

Emily said with sleepy voice. – "Mmm…"

Alison pouted. – "I want to see the stars…"

Emily. – "But it's cold outside…"

Alison pouted. – "Come on! Come on! Come on!"

Emily sighed and stood up, she held her into her arms, bridal style, she careful walked to the stairs without being seen by the nurses; and they were climbing the stairs to the terrace of the hospital…

Alison. – "If I'm heavy, you can get me down and I will do my best to walk…"

Emily chuckled. – "Actually, I think you could stand to eat more…"

Emily thought. – "She's light, very light… at some level, I felt easy in my mind, that she was all right now… that she was so strong, she could just sent her illness packing… that this 'now' would go on forever… she's light… fragile and yet… so beautiful…"

Emily's thoughts got interrupted once they arrived to the terrace; once outside, Alison smiled looking to the starry sky; she raised a hand like if she was trying to grab a star with her hand…

Alison smiled. – "Wow… look mermaid, the stars, just look at how the stars are twinkling… they look more beautiful and brighter tonight…"

Emily chuckled and then they sat on a bench that was outside; Alison was looking up to the starry sky with a big smile and Emily just smiled looking at Alison smiling.

Alison started singing looking at the stars. – "Twinkle, twinkle, little star, how I wonder what you're… up above the world so high… like a diamond in the sky… twinkle, twinkle, little star…"

*** Music Moment: Instrumental song 'Magnolia' – OST Innocent Man***

Emily chuckled as she was looking at Alison singing and Emily thought. – "Please don't go, don't go anywhere, please don't go! Don't leave me!" (A tear appeared on her face but she cleared it before Alison could notice it)

Emily said with a little of sadness expressed in her voice and face. – "I want to be with you forever…"

Alison looked at the sad and thoughtful face of Emily and then she put together: her hand palm with the palm hand of Emily

Alison. – "Don't look sad Emily, look, your hand is happy to be touching mine…" (She smiled looking at the brown eyes of her wife) "You look so pretty under the light of the stars…"

The brunette smiled and blushed; both continued looking at the starry sky and Emily saw by the corner of her eyes that Alison was slowly closing her eyes…

Emily. – "You look really tired…"

Alison sighed. – "I feel just a little worn out… it was a wonderful intense day..." (Chuckles) "It was such a wonderful day, I wish that time would just stop in its tracks… thank you…"

Emily chuckled and patted her shoulder as she said. – "Get some sleep…"

Alison sighed. – "I'm not tired…"

Emily. – "You are…"

Alison. – "I want to play with you a little longer…"

Emily. – "And you will… but now, sleep well…"

Both girls stared at each other but in the end, Alison accepted the offer and leaned her head on Emily's shoulder. The blonde closed her eyes and Emily intertwined their fingers; she kissed their hands intertwined and put them in her lap.

Emily. – "Are you sleep?"

Alison nodded with the eyes closed. – "Yes…"

Emily smirked. – "How did you answer, then?"

(Little smiles)

Emily looked to their hands intertwined and asked. – "Are you sleep?"

Alison sighed with the eyes closed. – "Not yet…"

Emily. – "Mmm… so do you really think I'm pretty under the light of the stars?"

Alison smiled with the eyes closed. – "You're pretty… you're so pretty that I can't dare look at you…"

The brunette blushed and chuckled; she was smiling but her smile faint of her face as she felt how Alison stopped squeezing her hand…

Emily gulped. – "Are you sleep now?"

(Silence)

Emily. – "Are you really sleep?"

(Silence)

Emily took a deep breath and gripped tighter Alison's hand as she looked up to the starry sky…

Emily said with watery-eyes. – "Ok… I'll let you sleep… I'll not talk… I won't ask you to play with me… yeah… you had a really long day today… I won't wake you again… so don't worry about your Dad, about Jason, about me… don't worry about anything… just sleep…" (A tear appeared on her cheek) "Thank you Alison… see you tomorrow… I will see you every day… always and forever because you're my shiny sun…"

*** End of the Music Moment***

2 years after…

(Graduation ceremony at UCLA, California)

Emily was the Valedictorian on her graduation; she was very nervous on the podium; she looked at the crowd; she smiled and waved her hand towards her parents and her friends who were on 1st row…

Hanna yelled. – "You rock Fields!"

Emily chuckled hearing Hanna's enthusiasm but her smile looked a little sad as her eyes were wishing to see too another blonde there cheering her up; she shook her head and took a deep breath before starting her speech…

Emily. – "Dear all… there's a universal truth, we all have to face, whether we want to or not; everything eventually ends… as much as I've looked forward to this day, I've always disliked ending. The last day of summer, the final chapter of a great book, parting ways with someone you love…" (Deep breath) "But endings are inevitable; leaves fall, you close the book…" (Deep sighs) "You say good-bye…" (Gulps) "Today is one of those days for us; today we say good-bye to everything that was familiar, everything that was comfortable; we're moving on… but just because we're leaving and that hurts, that doesn't mean that we will forget anything of these past 4 years… There are some people who are so much part of us… they'll be with us no matter what… always & forever…" (She looked up to the shiny sun and smiled) "They are our solid ground, our North star, our brighter sun which illuminates our path… and the small voices in our hearts that will be with us always & forever…"

Emily's speech ended and everybody applauded.

*** Music Moment: Golden love by Midnight Youth***

After the ceremony, Emily took some time for herself on the campus; she was walking over green grass, lost on her own thoughts; she took off from her pocket her phone and smiled looking to the wallpaper of her phone; it was a picture of Alison…

Emily smiled looking into the picture. – "So what do you think?! I did good right?!"

The brunette was so distracted looking at her phone that she didn't notice that a furry dog was running towards her and before knowing, it tackled her; Emily was lying on the ground and chuckling…

Emily chuckled. – "Hey buddy! What are you doing here?!"

The dog was licking her; all over the face when someone else approached pulling the dog off from Emily; the brunette sat in the ground, she was taking off the dirt from her toga and looking down when this person offered her a hand saying the words 'Let me help you…'; Emily looked up and she got speechless under the view; hypnotized by those blue eyes, that porcelain skin, that diamond smile and that beautiful golden hair…

Alison. – "Is there something wrong?"

Emily smiled. – "No, I'm just enjoying the view…"

Alison chuckled. – "Come on, you don't want to be late for your graduation's party…"

Emily grabbed Alison's hand and stood up with the help of the blonde; Emily hugged her tight…

Emily smiled. – "You came!"

Alison. – "Off Course that I would be here mermaid… I would not have missed your graduation for anything in the world…"

Emily. – "I thought that you were still in Paris?"

Alison. – "Well, I was but you're more important that any contract…"

Emily smiled, blushed and hugged her tighter; she tried to kiss her wife but Alison didn't let her…

Emily pouted. – "Hey! It's my graduation day! I do deserve at least a kiss…"

Alison smirked. – "And you will… once you clean your face… I'm not kissing that slimy face with dog slime…"

Pepe barked and both girls laughed looking at the dog; they started walking together, side by side, with the hands intertwined and they were talking as they were walking…

Emily. – "So when did you arrive?"

Alison. – "This morning, I passed by to the apartment for Pepe and I just arrived in time for your speech; I didn't find any seat at front so I stood at the back…"

Emily. – "Oh… so what did you think?!"

Alison. – "About your speech?"

Emily nodded and smiled

Alison smirked. – "I think that someone read my diary and I should demand some kind of compensation for copyright infringement…"

Emily chuckled

Alison smirked. – "I'm serious Em… sharing my personal thoughts it's not cool…"

Emily giggled. – "Sorry… it's just that you write so beautiful… I just wanted to share it with the world…"

Alison smirked. – "Mmm… you will not get your way with it mermaid…" (She looked at the brunette into the eyes and said with a seductive voice) "You need to be punished for it…" (She bitted her lips)

Emily teased and bitted her lips. – "Uhmm… so do I need be spanking?!"

Alison smirked. – "Maybe…"

Emily teased. – "So for what kind of punishment I should prepare myself?"

Alison smirked with a seductive voice. – "A lot, a lot of naked punishment…"

Emily bitted her lips and leaned for a kiss but Alison avoided it again…

Alison chuckled. – "No Em… your face is very slimmy!"

Emily. – "Come on! You can't talk with me about naked punishment and don't expect me to react!"

The blonde continued avoiding the kiss and she started to run away from the brunette…

Emily chuckled. – "Oh! You're not running away from me! My dear wife!"

Alison teased. – "Let's see if you can catch me!"

Emily bitted her lips and said. – "Oh! Game on!"

The brunette started to playfully with her wife and around the lovely couple; Pepe jumped and barked. At the end, Emily tackled her wife and they both fell on the grass; Alison laughed as it tickled to be kissed by Emily and her dog at the same time.

Alison laughed. – "Stop! Stop! Stop! It tickles!"

Emily smiled. – "You asked for it Roomie!"

Alison continued laughing and smiled; being surrounded by her two roomies and the two big loves on her life.

Next CH10 – The Roomie