I suck at updating, I know. I'm so sorry!
The last few weeks I had a little social life. I got myself a boyfriend, who I then ended things with. :( I could tell myself it was because he was no Joe Jonas, but thats pretty sad and not the actual reason. Ha.
I have started a update for Cinderella too, but now I'm stuck.
Mouth Shut will come in the next few days.
"I want you to sing this on stage. Not your brothers, you"
Kevin sighed a little as he looked back at the piece of paper in front of him, her voice once again floating around his mind.
Placing a hand on his brother's shoulder, Joe gave him a small smile. "Mum wants to speak to you, she said it's important"
"I can't do this" Kevin muttered indicating to the paper.
"Go talk to Mom, we'll sort this out after" Joe promised squeezing his older brothers shoulder gently.
Nodding, Kevin pulled himself into a standing position before slowly making his way towards the lounge of the suite where he knew his Mom would be situated.
He felt his heart rate pick up a little at the look of pain on her face. "M-mom?"
Turning her head to catch his gaze, she managed a short smile before opening her arms out to him.
His feet slowly made their way towards her awaiting arms, falling onto the sofa next to her and curling up into the warmth of his mothers hug.
"W-what's going on?" He asked quietly, trying to clear the slight stutter.
Staying silent for a few moments, Kevin felt one of her hands run through his hair gently, before pulling him a little tighter into the hug.
"I got a call about ten minutes ago"
"Who from?" He asked again, his voice laced with confusion.
"Malibu General"
Cold fear ran through him as the main possibility ran through his head. "Mom..."
"I'm sorry Kevin, so sorry"
Shaking his head and pulling away from his Mothers hug, Kevin looked up at her wide eyed and voice pleading. "Please Mom..."
She reached out her hand to run over his cheek, an attempt to wipe some of the tears falling slowly down his cheek.
"W-when?"
"Around 2 hours ago sweetie, Dr. Michaels said they did everything they could to save her, but it was no use. Apparently she's been deteriorating for a few weeks"
Kevin nodded. "She kept it from me, but I knew... I just didn't... so soon"
"I'm sorry sweetie" Denise sighed.
Shaking his head, Kevin managed a small smile. "You have nothing to be sorry for Mom. I just need some time to think"
Standing up, Kevin noticed Joe quickly shuffle away from the bedroom door and back into the room. His legs carried him back to the room he was currently sharing with Joe, his lips managing a smile at his sympathetic brother.
"You want to talk?"
A small shake of his head again, Kevin fell onto his bed. "Not at the moment, thanks though"
--
"You'll come see a concert right? We have one in Malibu in a few weeks time"
"Of course I will Kev, wouldn't miss it for the world" She replied, her tone of voice indicating to Kevin she wasn't as well as she made out she was.
"Are you sure you're okay Miles?"
"I'm fine Kev, just tired"
"You promise? You know if you're not feeling well just tell me and I'll be back there on the first flight"
"That's something I won't be letting you do Kevin, however I feel. I'm fine though, stop worrying"
Kevin sighed. "Okay, Okay"
Miley laughed a little. "Have you sung that song yet?"
"Joe & Nick are helping me with the finishing touches"
"Ring me the first night you sing it, you know I want to hear it"
"Joe has it all planned, don't worry" He laughed a little. "I just hope I do you proud"
"I'm already proud of you Kevin; I know you're going to do amazing with this song. The fans are going to love it"
"I hope so"
"I have to go for some more chemo, but I'll talk to you later?" She asked.
"Of course, I miss you"
"I miss you too"
--
Shaking his head once more, Kevin crossed his arms over his chest shooting glares at Nick.
"I can't. I don't have an amazing voice like you and Joe, the fans will hate it"
"Miley wanted YOU to sing this, not either of us" Joe pointed out. "You have a great voice Kevin; you just need some more confidence"
"The fans are going to love this. Anyone who doesn't can go get stuffed, you don't need them to tell you what you should and shouldn't be doing"
"I just think one of you two would be better singing it"
"No way! You and Miley wrote this, it's personal to you Kevin" Nick pushed in.
"It won't sound right coming from anyone else"
--
Kevin couldn't help but smile as the crowd continued to scream at the three of them stood on the stage.
"Thank you!"
"So tonight, just for you we have a new song" Nick smiled looking to his left and catching Joe's eyes.
"Kevin, I think you should introduce it"
Kevin shot a look over to his brothers. He was already terrified of singing it, now they wanted him to introduce it.
Taking a deep breath, Kevin moved towards his microphone. "Hey New York!"
He was met with screams, a little confidence making its way into his heart.
"I'd just like to thank you guys for being so patient with me these last few months, it means a lot that you were still here on the other side. I know there's been a lot of speculation about what really happened and I know that what most people believe is that it was exhaustion. I feel tonight, I should be truthful with everyone..."
He glanced over at his brothers once more, checking they were okay with where this conversation was going, he was met with encouraging smiles and a thumbs up from Joe.
"Truth is I caused the reason behind my collapsing. Being the eldest in this band, I've always felt a little bit of an outsider. I started noticing the remarks in magazines and the hate websites and instead of speaking to someone about it, I thought I could sort it out myself"
Kevin closed his eyes as he heard a few sharp breathes from the audience.
"If I'd have spoken to someone, I know I would have realised the fans I do have out there. The ones that I know will never leave my side. I love every single one of you for sticking by me in everything; you'll never know how much that actually means to me. Instead I kept everything to myself
"I was took to hospital after that gig and told I had anorexia"
Gasps echoed around the venue as Kevin re-opened his eyes to look out at the crowd.
"I was admitted to Malibu general, where I stayed for around three months. Whilst I was there, I met this amazing girl. Amazing doesn't even begin to describe her actually. She told me she had leukaemia and boy did I feel stupid for what I was there for. She opened up to me and I found myself letting her in too, within a few days she was my best friend.
"I sat with her through all of her chemo sessions and she re-built my self confidence. She told me she loves to write songs, I sang one of mine for her, from then on it was a constant pester to get me to sing up on stage a little more. We ended up writing this song together and she made me promise her that I'd be the one to sing this when I made it back to the stage.
"I fell in love with this girl, I'm not sure how or when, but I fell and I fell hard. Turns out she felt the same for me. I knew everything was getting a little worse for her, she never let on, never complained about anything but I knew. I was adamant that I was going to get her to one of our gigs, something she'd told me she wanted to do.
"We got a call this morning...." Kevin trailed off as he felt his chest tighten a little, the mummers of the crowd filling his ear. A light squeeze on his shoulder caused him to jump, turning to look at Joe stood next to him.
"She... she passed away this morning. I regret not having the confidence to sing this a few gigs earlier so that she could have got her wish of hearing it"
Strumming his guitar softly, Kevin's eyes travelled to the starlit sky. "This one's dedicated to Miley Stewart, the strongest, the most amazing girl I've ever had the fortune of knowing. Thank you for making me believe in myself again and thank you for believing me in yourself"
Nodding towards Nick, Joe smiled placing his arm around his brother's shoulders quickly and giving him a quick squeeze. "I'm so proud of you Kevin"
Kevin smiled, attempting to wipe the tears from his cheek before starting to strum along with Nick. It was now or never...
When I think back
On these times
And the dreams
We left behind
I'll be glad 'cause
I was blessed to get
To have you in my life
When I look back
On these days
I'll look and see your face
You were right there for me
In my dreams
I'll always see you soar
Above the sky
In my heart
There will always be a place
For you for all my life
I'll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you'll be
And everywhere I am
There you'll be
Well you showed me
How it feels
To feel the sky
Within my reach
And I always
Will remember all
The strength you
Gave to me
Your love made me
Make it through
Oh, I owe so much to you
You were right there for me
'Cause I always saw in you
My light, my strength
And I want to thank you
Now for all the ways
You were right there for me
You were right there for me
For always
In my dreams
I'll always see you soar
Above the sky
In my heart
There will always be a place
For you for all my life
I'll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you'll be
And everywhere I am
There you'll be
There you'll be
End.
So thats it. Over. Done. Finished.
It sucked a little right? Im sorry.
Reviews are lovely 3
I'm also currently annoyed! I have this story I've been working on for the last 3 days constant. I have about 20 drafts of it, but I end up not liking it. I just can't get it right, grr.
Congrats to Danielle and Kevin... thats kinda what inspired my story im stuck on.
Oh and is it just me who think the JB need sleep? I watched a video of them from one of their gigs. Joe yawns, Nicks in his own little world, Kevin sneezes and they all look completly shattered! I mean c'mon I know there one of the biggest bands around at the moment, but their not superman. They need sleep too.
I personally feel their a little over worked and its not gonna be long before one of them crashes. :(
Anyways! Reviews please!
Lou xo
