So guys I am so sorry I haven't posted in such a long time. But it's just that I have been really busy with school and work and teaching dance/dancing. I will really try to post ASAP after this one. It might be a short one.

I had actually finished this chapter but I lost it so I had to write it again.

R&R

Enjoy.


No one's p.o.v.

Jenny was standing in front of Nate's door. She was very nervous. 'Come on Jenny it's just Nate. The Nate you loved from the moment you met him. The Nate that was my best friend. Ok just take a deep breath.' She took a deep breath and knocked. Then the door opened and there he was. They just stood there, just looking at eachother.

"Hey" Nate said after moment of silence.

"Hey"

"Come in please."

Jenny stepped in and was left speechless. The room was decorated with candles and rose leaves and wine. There was so much. Then Nate spoke up.

"I'm sorry this must look very cheese and I understand if you want me tot take it away if you ..."

"No I love it. Yeah it's cheesy but I think it's very sweet."

"You really think so? I left an hour earlier so that I could finish this."

"Why all this effort?"

"Because you are worth it. I told you that I would wait for you and that is what I'm doing."

"Nate." He was about to interupt her

"No let me finish." she said. He nodded his head for her to continue.

"I know that you want to be with me but before that happens I think we need to talk first. We stil have a lot to sort out.

"Yeah you're right." And with that they sat down on the bed.

"Look Jenny I know I made a lot of mistakes in the past. I want to apoligise for them but the thing is that I was running away from my feelings and I was afraid that if I screwed it up with you that I would lose you. But I already had screwed it up because I was running away. If I would have admitted it from the start who knows how it could've gone. We would have been happy, like really happy because you always made me happy."

"Okay Nate let's start from the beginning first. Nate when I met you I had just met Chuck who forced me to kiss him. And then you and I bumped into eachother and it was amazing and perfect. You were such a gentleman and I immediatly fell in love. But you were with Blaire but in love with Serena and it was already very complicated so I wanted to stay away from you but then you kissed me at the masquerade ball. But you thought that I was Serena so I ran away. But then you found out it was me and you apologised and there was no way for me to escape those feelings. But you were taken. And then we talked at Blaire's birthday and you helped me on my birthday and you just became such a big part of my life. You moved in with us because you had a rough time and it was so fun having you and then you kissed me and I felt like I was in heaven. I knew you were the one, but you ignored me and then you helped me with the querilla fashion show and you kissed me again Nate. But then you moved out without telling me why and you hung out with Vanessa again and you kissed her. You broke my heart again. I had a fight with Agnes and she burned me sketches and designes and I wanted to call you but I couldn't, because we weren't talking anymore. At the snowflake ball I wanted to stop Vanessa because I felt guilty but you told me about the letter and I was happy, but the words you said after that kept chasing me. 'You're not who I thought you were' You followed her out and you kissed her. You broke my heart 3 times in 1 day Nate. That's when I started changing. I met Damien and he reminded me so much of you so I thought if I got together with a look a lik of you, I would get over you but it didn't. It only made my feelings stronger. So when you told me I deserved someone better I hoped you were refering to yourself. So I didn't sleep with him but I slept with Chuck but I wanted it to be you Nate but you were with Serena again. So I left because I needed a break from here and it worked. It is Ironic how Chuck was my first everything, my first kiss, my first time. But if I could go back I would."

Nate cringed at those last sentences.

"Jenny there are no words that can subsribe how sorry I am. But I really love you Jenny. When I first met you I had this feeling to protect you because you were so nice and innocent. At first I thought it was because you were like a sister to me, the more I got to know you the more I knew that was a lie. When we first kissed at the ball I kinda knew it wasn't Serena but I fell in love with the taste of your lips. They fit perfectly. It was like a perfect match. Then we kissed again on the street and I thought I found my happy ending, but I was living with you and I was older and Dan would've never aproved, so I ignored you. Of course I kissed you again when you put on that amazing show, you looked so beautiful. And about leaving your house, so Dan found out and got angry and said that I had to leave. I never wanted to leave without telling you how I felt but I had no choice so I wrote it down. When I found out Vanessa stole the letter I was so pissed with her but then you took revenge and I got mad at you because I was dissapointed, I thought you would never do it. I felt so bad about it but I thought I blew it with you so I went after Vanessa. Then I got with Serena again and all of sudden you were dating someone, well Damien and I was so mad. I thought I had lost you forever so I warned you but you didn't want to listen. I looked everywhere for you that night. Hoping to be in time. Then a lot happend and all of sudden you left and I didn't know why. I was so depressed and I missed you. I really wanted you to at least say goodbye. Then you came back and I found out the truth and almost killed Chuck, when Blair told me you found someone new I died inside. You left again but we kissed and I promised you that I would fight for you Jenny and I'm going to keep that promise. I know a broke a promise once but never again. I love you and I never want to lose you again."

"Good, because I love you to and I don't want to lose you eiter" She whispered and then leaned in and kissed him sweetly.


Okay it turned out to be longer than I expected but I hope you guys enjoyed it and I'll try to post within the week.

It would be really nice if you guys revieuwd or give idea's.

Lovies

-A.