Love are Lies
~Rachael Wang :)
Chapter 9: To Let Go
I woke up finding myself beside Lucy's bed in the early morning. I guess I forgot to go home last night and dozed off while I was chatting with Lucy.
But really, I was worried about this Alexander guy. He was pretty good looking and talked in a sense with logical words.
"Good morning Lucy, I think I fell asleep beside your cute, sleeping face." I smiled to myself.
I stood up and stretched slowly, walking to the door.
"Bye, I'll see you another day," I said, leaving.
It would be much better if she was awake and suddenly heard my corny comment. Like in those weird dramas where they just wake up from an almost impossible miracle and find their loved one sleeping beside them. That's never going to happen.
As I closed the door to her hospital room, I bumped into Alexander, who came to visit again.
"Damian, you came here pretty early…" he stared at me, "Or maybe you slept here through the night?"
"Yeah, I did." I yawned, "Visiting again?"
"Of course. Are you leaving…?"
I hesitated and thought, 'what was his and Lucy's relationship?' so I decided to peek on them, "Yeah I'm leaving. See you some time."
Alexander walked into the room and softly closed it behind him. I pretended to walk away towards the end hallway.
Then I waited and quickly shuffled back to her room quietly, slightly opening the door.
I looked through the small space and stood there quietly.
"Lucy. We're here together again." He caressed her face.
I growled at the sight, but even though I wanted to run in there to give him a straight punch, I decided that would do nothing but cause trouble.
"I shouldn't have rejected you that day," he continued, "Because now, you're the only one for me, so please give me another chance and come back."
No response, but the feeling inside the room felt very timid and awkward.
"And yet… you chose some other guy. I'm hurt, wounded. Actually, I've also been thinking, maybe I should just die if I can't have you." He laughed.
This guy was really nuts, I'm guessing. The tone of his voice and his insane attitude and way of talking. What is he trying to do?
Suddenly, a nurse nudged me and I fell face-first to the hard, tiled floor. Alexander turned around looking me curiously.
"Didn't you… leave?" he widened his scary eyes.
I thought quick, "Uh… I left something here. Sorry."
"You heard what I said didn't you?!"
"Well… uh, not really."
"Really?" he lowered his expression.
"Y- Yeah, of course I didn't."
There was no sound at all and everything was silent. I couldn't tell what he was thinking at all and it kind of gave me an eerie feeling.
Awkwardly, he interrupted the silence, "You're lying."
I froze in shock, how did know? Was he even human?
"What are you talking about?" I stalled longer "I'm telling the truth."
He took a step backward and opened the window, allowing the cool air to breeze into the dark room.
What's up with him?
Suddenly, he walked over to Lucy and looked at me, grinning.
I had a bad feeling about this, so I took one step forward.
Big mistake, he grabbed Lucy out of her bed and held her tightly, standing beside the huge window.
"W- What are you doing?" I asked.
"If I can't have her… no one can," he smiled.
"W- Wait, we can talk this over! You don't need to do this."
"But, you guys are lovers, I can't stop her… but if we die here, we'll be together without your interference in beautiful heaven."
"Yeah right. Lucy will be the one in heaven and you – you will horribly end up in hell for this. Think about it, you're killing someone right now and committing suicide at the same time!"
He was trembling. "You don't understand anything…"
"Yes I do. We can settle this calmly and wait until Lucy wakes up."
"But; but when she wakes up… she'll be with you, and not me."
He stepped closer to the window and sat on the edge, staring at the grass.
Wait a minute… this was the first floor! What am I talking about? They can't die like this.
"This is the first floor Alexander… You can't die like this."
"Duh," he laughed. "You totally fell for it, how pathetic."
"What?"
"Do you think I would jump out the window and kill my loved one just like that? I'm only teaching you a lesson from spying on me while I'm talking to her."
I was really pissed off because I wouldn't have forgiven him if he killed Lucy. My mind was in rage from this joke because it wasn't funny at all.
"Bastard," I ran over and grabbed him by his shirt.
"What? You're going to punch me in the face?"
"No." I let go. The tears came from my face and I felt like an idiot.
"But if I really lost her, I wouldn't know how to live and survive."
I wiped my wet face with the sleeve of my shirt.
"Yeah… I heard you're dying anyway when you're 20." He commented, "She really does love you. However, when you die… you know sad she'll be?"
I looked at him in thought. It's true, losing your loved one could feel so painful that you don't want to live yourself.
"What's your point?" I asked cautiously.
"If you leave her, she probably won't love you anymore and fall in love with another guy. Then when you pass on, she won't be as sad."
"What?... I can't do that. I love her too much."
"But if you really loved her, wouldn't you want her to be happy?"
It's true. I would always want Lucy to be happy. I can't let her mourn over someone like me. She was too good for that.
"But, wouldn't she be sad if I leave her?"
"Hmph, all girls are sad when their relationship breaks, but they still get back on their feet and keep going for a new love. Simple."
"But..."
"No 'but'. Don't you want her to be happy?"
"Of course!" I exclaimed.
"Then what are you going to do Damian?"
"I don't know… So I have to let her go?"
"Exactly," Alexander smiled.
