The time since you left Konoha has passed by so quickly, it seemed almost like yesterday you confronted him. Told him about his child… and now the time is arriving soon that you will have this child, this baby that changed your entire life. Its cold outside, as snow begins to fall from the clouds secluded and alone. You often find yourself feeling this way, with Sasuke always gone, and no one to talk to; constantly moving around to hide your track from the tracker nin… you are alone. No matter how much Sasuke cares he can't make up for what you gave up, he can't give you that bright sunny day in the morning, or the pep in your step, he can't give you the happy times smiling and dancing with friends at festivals, he can't provide that warm embrace when your day has gone wrong… most of all he can't be him, or them… he won't be… he forgot how. He means so well, but forgot what it was like to smile, to laugh, to care… protect is all he can do, that is all he is, protection, and revenge… just a vessel willing to break when told. No you are alone.
Time continues to draw closer you can feel the baby's restlessness, will he be here? You go over the probabilities in your head, the fact he comes back three times a week, and on the third return you both leave, three out of seven days… tomorrow the second day, then the next you wait then the third you leave… will the baby arrive this week? Or the next, but still the same the first day settle in, the second day you wait, third a sweet dinner of whatever can be salvaged, fourth wait, fifth begin packing, sixth move, then the seventh move in, and repeat and repeat and repeat. And abandoned cottage is the home you found this time, cold for the most part, but with enough fire wood you can survive. Should you tell him… that the time is coming… now… but really you don't know when. You both will have to discuss it tomorrow… being on the move during the snowfall of the winter, can that really be good? But can you risk getting caught? You will need days to recover… days to settle, and prepare, and days to allow the baby to adapt to life a week tops after the birth… he will say, two if I would say… but we can't be caught, you can't go back… no now… not to him. Even then you feel you may need more time, unlike normal people you are not very strong… no your body is not very strong, even Tsunade couldn't hide her worry from you… you might not make it. Sasuke won't say but you can see it in him too, and winter is the worst for you… it is harder to breath, harder to move, everything is harder; can you do it? Can you survive this?
Shaking your head you pull yourself out of bed, holding you belly you waddle your way over to the window and glance out at the freshly fallen snow glistening like a million diamonds laying on the ground. It's getting colder… you look over at the wood burning fireplace a small pile of rough looking logs lay next to the stone work surround the fire, you are going to need more, should you go now and get it… or should you wait for Sasuke? The fire slowly begins to dim as you stare at it… I will go, how hard can it be? Sluggishly pulling on your boots, and throwing on a large jacket you wrap a small blanket around your head as a scarf and cover yourself with a larger thicker one tying it in place around your neck to allow access to carry wood. "Just be careful…. You don't need to overdo it just another small pile to last you until Sasuke arrives tomorrow morning." Then with that small reminder you make your way out the door into wilderness to find some wood. Every step you sink into the snow, up to your knees you struggle to make your way three feet from the door, what are you thinking you continue to question yourself. Distracting yourself from the freezing surroundings you think back to the good days with Naruto, you think about the first memorable snowfall you both had together. Iruka was there keeping an eye on both of you as the hokage appointed, for you both were too young to be on your own.
Naruto jumps into a giant pile of pure white snow, the cheesy grin plastered on his face. Laughing you follow right behind him jumping on top of him.
"Suki!" he shouts at you
"Naruto!" you shout back
"Baka!"
"No, you're the Baka!" you guys go back and forth laughing and yelling, Iruka sitting on a bench nerby shakes his head as he corrects papers from his current students.
"Hey Suki?" Naruto suddenly stops to a low whisper, while you lean in to hear better.
"What is it Naruto?" suddenly a large ball of cold snow is smashed in your face and Naruto bolts away laughing so hard he trips himself face first into the snow. You clean your face and laugh running after him with a pile of snow in your hands prodded up ready to throw. "I am gonna get you for that Baka!" and you two continued like that until Iruka called you in to come and eat, and he took you both two the Ichiraku Ramen stand, Naruto stuffs his face with every bowl of ramen they put in front of him, while you sit there just playing with yours.
"You guys will be leaving my class next year, are you excited to start your life of being a ninja?"
You both smile and answer at the same time, "Yes!"
"I can't wait I am gonna become the next Hokage! Then everyone will know my name!." Naruto happily slurps up noodles.
Iruka mumbles under his breath, "I think they already do Naruto…"
"What was that Iruka-sensei?" Naruto asks mouth full of noodles.
"Oh, nothing, and what about you Suki, your always quiet, what do you want to accomplish being a ninja?"
"Well, um… I just can't wait to start defending myself and taking care of me and my friends." You stare into your ramen your hand clutching your chest, "I want to help others mostly." Iruka smiles, and ruffles your hair.
"Well, Suki then you need to train hard and I wish you the best." You smile back at him and hand your bowel of ramen to Naruto.
"Sorry Iruka-sensei I am just not hungry right now." Iruka laughs, while you give your bowel of ramen to Naruto he cheers for joy and gives you a huge kiss on the cheek causing your face to burn cherry red. And life for that moment was great Iruka took you guys to the park everyday to play while he graded papers then to ramen after the day began to set, nothing could've been better until one special day. Iruka as usual was sitting on the bench grading his papers Naruto and you were playing in the snow as normal pushing, shoving, and jumping on one another. At this moment you shoved Naruto into a snow bank and bolted in the opposite direction, Naruto spring ready for the chase, and then suddenly you felt something inside of you just snap. Stopping abruptly your eyes widen and your breath stops, slowly you turn around to see Naruto running after you, you watch as he slows his pace down his face turning from joyful to almost horrifiyed. Reaching to hand out to grab him everything starts fading and next you find yourself laying in the snow, then black.
Picking up another log you place it in the makeshift sled you put together while walking around, you continue to remember that day, the day you found out about you condition. After that moment you passed out infront of Naruto, Iruka rushed you to the hospital, and for about three day you layed there in that hospital bed machines surrounding you, wires, and IVs hooked all over your body, a horrible sight to behold. When you woke up you were alone, in a dimly lit room, the machines and coldness around you made you hysterical, you had no idea where you were or what you were doing there. Doctors had to come in and calm you down, injecting your IV with some kind of serum you fell asleep, the next time you woke up the Hokage and Iruka were standing there mutter to each other.
"Sir, I don't think she should return back to class, if her condition is as bad as the doctors say it is then if we let her continue this path she may end up…"
"Iruka, I am not going to decide her fate for her, this decision should be left to her, this is her life, she may be young but I know she will make the proper decision."
"But sir, she is still a child, and what lies ahead could…"
"Iruka don't be rude, the young miss is awake," the Hokage turns and smiles at you, "Well, good afternoon young lady."
You look at both of them and put on a small smile without putting any effort to get up, "Hi" The Hokage smiles at you, "Iruka-sensei where am I?"
"You're in the hospital Suki… you fainted when you were playing with Naruto so I brought you here."
"Oh… so I can go home now right" you give them a weak smile, then Iruka sits down next to your bed.
"Unfortunantly you can't leave yet Suki, you need to stay here for a few weeks because the doctor need to run some test." Your smile disappears.
"Oh, ok then, but Naruto will be here right?" he looks away then.
"I am also very sorry to say this, but Naruto is not allowed in this area because of a few pranks he pulled while you have been here… but there is someone else in the room with you to talk to." He moves aside so you can see Sasuke Uchiha another kid from your class, but someone far more skilled and intelligent then yourself. "Sasuke injured himself in a training accident so he will be sharing this room with you." You look over to where Sasuke lay, sleeping silently.
That was the day when you became friends with Sasuke, the day that your secret relationship with one another began… now look where you are… running away with him and all this time you though Naruto was the one. Really are either of them the perfect man for you though. You shake the thought out of your head, you remember back to those few weeks in the hospital, Sasuke taught you how to play games of logic such as chess, he caught you up with lesson plans in school (basically a tutor) and most of all he gave you a friend when you needed one. Those few weeks in the hospital where amazing, yet brutal, many times you had attacks like the one with Naruto, and the doctors put you through many test, by the time you would come back in room you would be so exhausted you fell asleep while Sasuke was talking to you. But you smile at the memory of him leaving the hospital and returning everyday to comfort you… he was a great friend then… and still is. Smiling you look up into the snowy sky to realize the sun is already setting and if you start heading back now it is still will be dark with how far you ventured off. The wind picks up a bit and you find yourself shivering as you pulling your makeshift sled with the little bit of strength you have. Suddenly the thought of this endeavor comes into your mind as being a horrible idea, but it is too late now. You continue making your way to the cabin, sunlight falling away fast the cold creeping its way through your bones. You pick up pace your heart pounding fast, that's when you feel it. Hot liquid running down your legs… 'Did I just pee… no…' soaking your clothes you realize what is happening… 'Shit my water broke'
