'Ok sorry guys, just realized that a whole line was cut out of this chapter, what the hell? Maybe I should read it through before I post it. Sorry! (embarrassing)'
Okies, finally up-dating my story! My lap-top broke (agh!) so I lost a whole lotta my story, but I now have it back! so squees! enjoy...
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chp.9 - what if..?
(Jacob pov)
I felt exhausted and slightly sick as I phased back into my human form, Embry, Quil, Seth and Leah who though was good distance from us and well hidden behind a large bush phased back also, even though most of us by rule didn't ever try to catch an eye-full of Leah before she managed to get her clothes on, I still noticed Embry's eyes flicker over to where Leah was concealed.
None of us ever really thought of Leah that way, I mean she wasn't bad looking or anything, she was quite stunning to the outsider, but once you got to know her, reallygot to know her, you just couldn't look at her in any other way than dislike, but Embry being Embry couldn't help himself, as Leah was one of the only girls of age on the reservation that he hadn't tried to have it on with.
I wasn't the only one who'd noticed Embry trying to get a perv, Seth smacked Embry hard across the back of the head, "what? I wasn't looking" Embry said in his most Innocent voice rubbing the back of his head ruefully, but the smile that was pulling at the corners of his mouth did nothing to convince anyone. Quil let out a laugh and pushed Embry into her "Leah didn't you know? Embry's got the hots for you, he was wondering if you wanted to make-out?" he laughed dancing out of the way of Embry's fist.
Leah grimaced as Quil laughed loader making stupid kissing sounds, Embry pushed him roughly into the nearest bramble bush before turning to Leah and saying in a deeper stupid voice that he obviously thought was sexy "Leah, baby, you know I find you a bitter cold hearted bitch and I seriously dislike you as a person as you do me, but I still definitely would do you if you where up for it"
Leah let out a sound of disgust and spat in Embry's direction, it happened to miss, Embry laughed and said "just wanted to let you know your've got options, I mean no strings attatched or anything, cuz believe me it would be purely phisical, and seriously it'll be beneficial for all, maybe you wouldn't be so up tight if you got layed once in a while" we all laughed, apart from Seth.
Leah was vibrating dangerously "Embry I'd rather fuck a dog" she spluttered at him furious, Embry smirked as he said slowly "well I never said we had to be human, I could fuck you as a dog if that's more your thing" Embry made an obscene sexual motions at her, Quil let out a whoop of laughter at this, Seth seemed rather quiet, Leah had reached breaking point, she exploded into blur of gray as she lunged at Embry, Embry only just turned into a wolf in time as Leah's teeth managed to sink into Embry's hind leg.
Embry let out a yelp of pain that was mingled with humor, before they got into a full blow out fight, you could hear the sounds of their snarling and fighting slowly disappearing the further they faught into the woods, Quil burst out laughing, I joined in half-heartedly, Seth brought us back to the present "is this really the time? I mean a girls just been killed and La Push is in danger from some sicko vamp" he said un-amused.
This seemed to sober Quil up pretty quick, I rubbed my eyes wearily, my pack and I just finished our long patrol, I was seriously spent and so damn tired, the meeting with the elders alone went on for a good few hours, then we had to patrol, it was nearing noon by the time Sam's pack had taken back over the watch.
I yawned widely and stretched out my slightly stiff muscles, I could see the sun was high in the sky, it was around lunch time, at the thought my stomach grumbled, Quil laughed as he heard this and patted his own stomach "read my mind perfectly" Seth made sounds of agreement so we made our way east towards Emily's and Sam's place, it was real close only a couple of yards from where we'd phased back.
Emily was already preparing food as we made our way through the back door into the small kitchen, she turned around and smiled at us warmly, she was still beautiful even though she had a thick red scar running the length of the side of her face, pulling her eye and the corner of her mouth down into a lopsided grin, we knew the scarring whent all the way down most of her whole right side, you could see the scarring on her right arm as she had her sweater's sleeves pulled up as she was stirring pancake mixture in a large bowel.
We didn't stare, Sam hated anyone staring at her, as this was a horrible downside to being a werewolf, the danger, Sam had only lost his control for one second and now his most beloved was greivisly scarred for life, and also that we saw her everyday and we'd gotten used to her a long time ago.
I sat down heavily at the scrubbed wooden table and rested my face in my arms on the table, I heard Quil and Seth sit down on the other side, "where's Embry?" I heard Emily ask, she didn't mention Leah's name, as Leah only rarely came here, and that was only if absolutely necessary, I didn't blame her, if Nessie had never come along and I'd still had feelings for Bella, I couldn't bare to go visit her and Edward living together their perfect happy lives.
Quil let out a snort and Seth kicked him hard from under the table, Quil just laughed and answered "oh him and Leah are out there fighting in the woods" he said snickering, I opened my eyes and saw Emily frown slightly, she worried too much about us, even though she knew we healed incredibly fast, she still didn't like us fighting.
Emily turned around to the stove putting the bowel down, and taking out a pan before putting it on the cooker and lighting the stove, she metled some butter into the bottom of the pan, my stomach grumbled longingly at the smell of the sizzling butter, my eyes drifted to the small clock on the wall, it was coming up to 1:15pm, damn I was so tired, I yawned again and ruffled my hair.
Emily started to pour the pancake mixture into the pan, "Seth dear could you get the maple serup out of the cupboard?" she asked Seth kindly, Seth groaned but got up and rummaged in the cupboard for a second before taking out two squeezy bottles of the old maple and putting them on the table as Emily was plating up the first batch of pancakes.
We where making our way through our fourth stack when Embry came stomping into the kitchen, his hair was sticking up in odd angles and had twigs and forresty crap tangled in it, he was flexing his left hand with a slight grimace of pain, "hey Emily, pancakes great! I'm starved!" he moaned sprawling himself all over the table after he sat down, Emily placed Quil's next stack infront of Embry instead "hey!" he complained as Embry squirted maple syrup generously over them.
Seth asked Embry sourly "where's Leah? you didn't hurt her too bad did you?" Embry though seemed to be smirking in a strange way "ah nope, she certainly wasn't in pain, she's a wild one that Leah" he said in an oddly restrained voice, Quil shot him a strange look from across the table, Embry just shrugged at me when he noticed me eyeing him, he still had that stupid grinnish smirk on his face, Seth noticed as well but looked to me as if he wasn't trying to read too much into it as Emily placed another large stack of pancakes in front of him, and Quil's moan of longing as his new stack was placed in front of him.
After I'd eaten enough I stood up "where you going?" Seth asked "back to the Cullens place, I told them I'd tell them when we came to a decision on what where doing about the bloodsucker problem" Seth jumped to his feet "I'll come too" he said stuffing the last of his pancakes in his mouth, the syrup dribbling all down his chin, "Seth didn't you mom want you home today?" Quil said amused, Seth groaned "yeah to take me clothes shopping, I mean whats the point?" Embry snickered, I sighed heavily I was too tired for this "Seth just go home, I'll take care of it, you mom's been badgering me about letting you off for a week" Seth whined "aw come on Jake" but Emily answered before I could "Seth, it isn't nice to do this to your mom, she's a good women, go home and humor her, for me?" she said smiling her lopsided smile at Seth, Seth just mumbled angrily, "fine" he pouted.
Embry got up to follow me and Quil copied him, "do you really wanna come?" I asked surprised, "yeah I do, well I'll come with you, but I'm not coming inside" he added as I shot him a suspcious look, I looked to Quil he just shrugged "well if Embry's going I'll come along" Seth moaned "that's so unfair!" he complained, "why don't you help me clean up Seth?" Emily asked kindly "aw great, washing the dishes and as a treat I get to spend the rest of the day with my mom trying on clothes" he said sourly, "ah well those are the breaks" Embry laughed stepping out the backdoor after Quil, I followed them out hearing Seth mumbling darkly under his breath.
I blinked dully against the bright sun which at that moment had broke though the clouds, we walked a short way into the forest to phase, "hey Embry, what was that back in the kitchen?" Quil asked, I looked to Embry curious as well, that stupid grin was back on his face, "oh nothing" he said in that same constrained voice he's used back in the kitchen, "we'll find out in a minute anyway, might as well just tell us" I said, Embry smirked wider "well umm...like you said you'll just find out in a minute anyway" he said in an amused voice, Quil asked suddenly shocked "no way, you and Leah didn't get it on did you?" he asked in disbelief Embry laughed and pushed Quil into the nearest bramble bush, "no way! I don't believe it!" Quil said pulling himself out of the bush and pulling a thorny bramble from his hair.
Embry laughed again and shook his head smiling wider but didn't answer, "I don't believe it either, I mean seriously Leah hates your guts Embry, it's probably just something stupid" I said to Quil, who was looking at Embry as if he'd never really seen him before. Embry stopped walking a few paces away "this is a good enough spot to phase" he said pulling his cut off jeans down and tying them securely around his right calf, Quil and I followed him, this was another downfall to be being a werewolf, when you phased you clothes didn't just pop in and out of existence you had to carry them around with you, after my cut off sweats was tied securely enough I felt the tremor of heat ripple up my back and through my body and in the next second I felt myself explode into the giant russet wolf.
I bounded after Embry and Quil into the forest, I saw through Embry's thoughts shocked, Quil was speechless in disbelief also, Embry and Leah fighting through the woods, we could feel the sexual energy they felt as they had ripped at each other before they stumbled down a hill, in the second of confusion before the fight had started back up again, tremors rock through Leah's body turning her back human, Embry quickly phased back also, Quil and I was stunned when just after Embry had phased back Leah had pushed Embry roughly down onto the forest floor and punched him across the face as she pushed herself down on top of him and fucked him angrily, how'd she'd broke Embry's left hand as he tried to touch her body.
Shock, utter shocked disbalief followed, I heard Embry's smug thoughts, "no way, no fucking way!"Quil thought, I was thinking along those lines myself "aw man, Leah" I thought surprised and still shocked, "I know! what the hell was with that? rough, hard and rather painful but damn it was great" Embry thought back ecstatic "so now what? are you and Leah going to be an item?" Quil asked amused now as the shock was wearing off, Embry let out a whine "don't even say that" he thought back horrified, "seriously though Embry, that better not happen again" I thought angrily, I didn't want to hear Leah's thoughts if they kept it up and it turned out bad, like I knew it would.
Embry thought it over for a minute "why not? I mean if she wants to do it again, I'm up for it"he thought back seeing nothing wrong in it, I growled slightly and Quil mentally groaned "I'll tell you why not man, I can see it now, Leah will get feelings for you, and who knows now after that if she hasn't already" Embry cut Quil off "what? I shouldn't do it again just because you don't want to hear Leah thinking dirty thoughts about me?" he mentally snorted, "no Embry that isn't it, I mean sure that would be horrible having to think that along with her, but don't you see?" I thought annoyed at his lack of understanding.
Embry was confused "no what?" Quil grumbled at him annoyed too "you seriously can't see anything wrong with it? Leah will get the hots for you and she'll want something more than just sex, and you won't of course then you'll go sleep with another girl and she'll get hurt and then oh my god, can you imagine how much that would suck for everyone? look how long it took her to get over Sam!" Quil and I mentally groaned, we could see it all now.
Embry could hear what we where thinking "yeah but Leah and me? seriously guys, she won't want anything else, like I told her before, no strings attached purely a physical relationship, she knows I would never wanna date her or anything" Embry thought back dismissively "Embry man, she's isn't that kind of chick, sex isn't the same for her as it is for you, she'll fall for you, she'll want something more, she's extreamely jealous, she won't want you sleeping around or even looking at any other chicks and we all know Leah, she'll want that emotional relationship, she may be a cold hearted bitch on the outside, but seriously she wants someone to love her, she wants what Sam and her once had" Quil thought back.
I couldn't agree more with Quil "and not to mention Seth! how do you think he'll feel about you just using Leah for sex? he'll hate you, and seriously Embry I don't want you even thinking about Leah and all that when Seth's with us. I don't want to have to deal with that crap" Quil agreed, Embry grumbled angrily "seriously guy's, I know where you coming from and all that but I don't agree, its just a bit a fun, nothings going to happen" Quil and I mentally groaned again "and anyways don't worry guy's, we'll keep it just between us, Seth never needs to find out, and seriously I doubt it will even happen again anyway"Embry thought back, but we could hear the hope that he was trying to hide from us that it would.
The Cullens house came into view as we trotted up the drive, "well I'm not coming in, I'll see you guys later I seriously need to sleep"Quil thought yawning and shaking out his coat, "yeah same, I'm spent" Embry thought back, you could just hear him mentally grin at his stupid joke, I rolled my eyes "well I'll see you later then" I thought as Quil and Embry ran back into the forest, "see ya later Jakey" Embry thought back sarcastically, "yeah see you later, have fun at the Cullens" I heard Quil think just before I phased back human.
I made my way up the drive and crossed over the paddock of a front yard, I felt a small thrill of excitement and the familiar flutter of butterflies in my stomach as I thought about how I was about to see Nessie again, my mind drifted back to yesterday in my room, what we did, how amazing it was and talking about amazing, Nessie told me that I was, I knew she was just saying it, but it still made smile and made me feel like dancing, I skipped up the steps onto the front porch, I just opened the door without bothering to knock, they already would know I was here anyway.
I half skipped over the thresthold as well but stopped quickly as I spotted that Emmett give me a funny look, my eyes racked over the room Nessie was no where to be seen, and neither where Bella or Edward, "so where's Nessie?" I asked trying to stop myself grinning like a douche bag, Emmett snorted before turning his attention back to the giant flat screen, he seemed to be watching some crappy movie, "well?" I asked again annoyed, "out hunting" he said flicking his hand towards the giant window of a wall where you could see out to the woods.
"oh" I said feeling disappointed "do you know when she'll be back?" I asked, Emmett again ignored me, "do you even know when she left?" he just shrugged his shoulders, I felt a thrill of annoyance "do you even know anything?" I asked scathingly at that moment Alice came dancing down the stairs, finally someone who might answer me something "hey do you know when Nessie'll be back?" I asked her, Alice's eyes drifted to the TV, "well, will someone answer my damn question!" I burst out angrily, she looked at me appalled "maybe you should learn to show some more respect, dog, as you are a guest in our house" she said back irritation thick in her bell chime voice.
I mumbled angrily under my breath as a response, her eyes went oddly blank before saying "they'll be back at exactly ten past three" she said her eyes coming back into focus, my eyes shot to the clock over the mantle it was almost three, "ha cool" I said sitting down on the floor next to the front door to wait, I leaned my head against the wall and closed my eyes, I was so tired...
"..Jake time to wake up" I felt someone say into my ear and shaking me gently, I noticed the hot touch against my skin, not the expected cold touch, I knew at once who it was, I opened my eyes to find Nessie shaking me awake, she was just so damn stunning, no matter how many times I saw her I would never get over it, my heart twanged in my chest as I took in all her glorious beauty, from her pale peach toned skin, her warm chocolate eyes to her thick auburn locks, I couldn't help my imagination run away with me for a second, before I heard Edward growl in disapproval.
I pulled myself to my feet and stretched, I suddenly noticed on the other side of the glass wall that it was dark out, "man how long was I out?" I said feeling slightly shocked as my eyes snapped to the clock, it was eight thirty, "why didn't anyone wake me sooner?" I asked slightly annoyed, my packs shift had already started at six, "I have to go, the guys'll be wondering what the heck happened to me" I said pulling the front door open, Nessie grabbed my arm "it's fine, Seth came around earlier wondering where you where, he said that the pack is fine to patrol without you, so please stay, Grandmama Esme is making you dinner" she said trying to coax me to stay, I could smell the aroma of cooking meat wafting from the kitchen, my stomach grumbled longingly and I just couldn't deny anything to Nessie when she was looking at me the way she was.
I was feeling extreemly guilty fifteen minutes later, sitting down opposit Nessie at the dining table that was hardly ever used, Nessie was looking down at her own dinner of lamb chops, mashed potatoes, baby peas and sweet corn with a look of disgust on her face, Nessie hatedhuman food, Carlisle insisted that she eat it and made her sit down every evening to eat dinner, I was always invited over for dinner as Carlisle thought having me here eating would somehow make Nessie enjoy her own dinner more, ha, mostly she would just shove her barely touched food onto my plate when Carisle was looking the other way.
Not tonight however as Carlisle had suspected as much, and had made Nessie sit on the other side of the table to eat rather than next to me. I would have to hand it to them though, for never eating they made damn good food, how was it even possible to make mash potato taste just so damn delicious? and the dinner roles! there was just no word to describe them, my eyes drifted up from my food over to Nessie who seemed to be eating one pea at a time, "aw come on, Ness, it isn't that bad" I said cheerfully, her face grimaced slightly at what I was doing, I'd mixed the peas and corn up through my mashed potato and was piling it onto one of the dinner roles.
Bella made her way into the dining room and sat down at the head of the table, her eyes narrowed like Nessie's with revulsion, as I chewed on the cutlet bone making sure I left no scrap of meat behind, this seemed to be the final straw for Nessie, she pushed her food away and complained at Bella "Mom, do I have to keep eating? Jacob's totally put me off my food!" she said looking away from my indecent amount of malling on the bones of each cutlet bone making sure I'd left absolutely nothing behind.
Rosalie had entered at that moment, "don't blame you, he isn't even just a filthy dog, he's also a disgusting pig I can't see how you can stand to be near it" she said acidly sitting down next to Nessie, "really Renesmee, you can do so much better than that" she said her lip curling as her eyes raked over me, "I'm serious, just because the dog's imprinted on you, it doesn't mean that you have to be with him or anything, no one wants you to feel any pressure to end up with him, there's a large amount of Vampires out there, even Humans, but the Werewolf, I can't even imagine how you can even want to touch it, or kiss it, and I don't even want to imagine any further than that" Rosalie finished shaking her head in disgust.
I felt anger surge through me, the heat vibrating up my spine, I felt the lamb bone snap in my shaking hands I pushed myself away from the table to my feet, Bella and Nessie both jumped to their feet in the same instant, "stop talking about Jacob like that! I'm sick of it! just because you don't like him, I do, so could you please just be nice to him for me? because incase you haven't relized I love him!" Nessie spat at her prancing around the table to me and putting her hand on my cheek showing me calming pictures trying to get me to calm down but glaring at Rosalie with tears in her eyes.
Rosalie slowly got to her feet "I'm sorry Nessie, it isn't your fault I know you can't help what you love" she said malevolently, "Rosalie just shut up! and leave Jacob alone" Bella said angrily, Rosalie smirked in-spite of herself "oh sorry, Bella, almost forgot you've kissed him before haven't you? I forgot all about about that whole little thing you two had going on with each other, how does it feel that your only daughter is stuck to spend the rest of her existence with your cast offs? he wasn't even good enough for you, but he's good enough for Renesmee? don't you want her to find her own Edward? don't you think that maybe there's an Edward out there for her too?" Bella snarled.
Rosalie turned back to Nessie "Nessie I don't want you to feel any pressure to be stuck with that dog, I believe there's and Edward, a Emmett even a Jasper out there for you, no matter what stupid ties you might think you have with the mungruel, don't let it hinder your decitions when the right Vampire comes along, because believe me he's out there" she said turning around and storming from the room, Bella let out a sound of anger before following after her.
I clenched my fists and taking deep breath's trying to calm myself down, I still felt myself vibrating dangerously, the heat surging through my body, Nessie removed her hand from my face and grabbed my arm and pulled me out of the dining room, through the oddly empty living room and out the front door before Nessie said in a strange voice "lets go back to your place, I really can't stand to live here anymore" she said her grip tightening and pulling me forcefully down the drive before breaking into a run.
I felt the anger I'd felt in the kitchen explode through me, and I was bounding after her on heavy paws, my mind going back to what that blond bitch had said, was she right? was there a vampire out there for Nessie? she was right, just because I'd imprinted on Nessie, Nessie hadn't imprinted on me, would then if she met someone else, another Vampire, her own Edward, would she feel obligated to stay with me? or would she just leave me without a second glance just like Bella did?
No, I wouldn't let that happen...
...Not again...
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Ok so there it is, the 9th chapter! what did u think? I can barely even remember writing it's been so long! oh well, still good I say. =) 'sorry again about that!'
