Chapter 9

Bloody Tears

Natsu closed his eyes as he tried to breathe. 3 weeks later, he was finally out of the hospital. He was really silent ever since he got out of the hospital. Lucy came to check on him to see how he's doing. As he sat on top of the desk, he looked down at the ground as a tear dropped. Lucy then patted his back and then he turned around.

"What is it?" He asked.

"I just wanted to make sure you're okay...that's all..." Lucy answered.

He then looked back down at the ground as hours passed by. After school, Lucy needed to help her father with some plans for the business. As Natsu walked around, someone suddenly snatched him and then threw him onto the ground. As blood covered his eyes, the person beat him up as blood fell down from his left eye. He suddenly couldn't see through that eye. As he stood up, tears dropped down onto the ground as blood mixed into it. When he ran away, he got an eye bandage and covered his eye with it. As he went to an eye doctor, the doctor said that he needs to wear that for 8 weeks. Blood was covered all over the bandage.

"Even if I might lose an eye, at least it's one step closer to fate itself..." Natsu said.

The next day, he went to school with the bloody bandage covering his eye. There was a large and noticeable scratch under the bandage. As Lucy wanted to know what happened to him, he just walked away from her. He didn't know who made it worse for him. As he touched the bloody eye bandage, he continued to walk as tears fell down from only one eye. He's been hiding behind a wall of arrogance that he lost.

"Why do I always feel depressed..? Why was I even born...?" He asked as he looked up at the sky.

"What can I do now...?" He asked.

As he feels that more misery that will come to him, he wants to die right now. He remembers his childhood dreams that have been crushed and abused. He gave it all up so he wouldn't feel so bad anymore, but that only made it worse. Lucy then grabbed his hand and then hugged him tightly as continued to walk. She kept on asking these questions about his childhood life. As he tried to recite them, he couldn't remember any memories when he was a child. She can't understand why he won't smile now. Tears fell down as she saw his bloody bandage.

"What happened to you...?" Lucy asked as tears fell down.

Then, he told her to follow him and then took off the bandage from his eye. Lucy's eyes widened when she saw the eye as Natsu didn't care what happened to it. It's like he wasn't alive in this world. As he put it back on, she then hugged him tightly as he hugged her back for the first time. Then, as he brought Lucy back to her house, she thanked him as she went inside. When he went back into his house, his mom tried to cheer him up. But, nothing worked after all. She doesn't understand his feelings, personality, or heart.

"Who died your heart in the color of darkness, Natsu..?" His mom said softly and tearfully.

He then heard it and then answered as he walked.

"I don't know anymore..." He answered.

"No matter what, there's no way you can fix me. I'm already broken and won't accept apologies anymore. It's too late, mom." He added.

As he walked up into his room, his father was gone and was in another country for a business trip. He sat down on the floor as he covered his face with his hands. As he looked outside, he closed his eyes and then fell asleep. He knows that his future will end up badly soon enough. When he woke up, he felt his heart in pain. As he was getting injured, hurt, and even scarred, it slowly puts him into misery.

"Can't I remain the same for the rest of my life..?" He said.

"There's too many questions in life already..." He added.

He looked at something he dropped a long time ago. It was a picture of when he was just a little boy smiling. Tears fell down as he remembered that moment in his mind. As he remained silent, he was wondering on how he survived so long from his misery and suicides.

"How did I survive anyway..?" He asked himself.

Right now, he couldn't remember a thing from a long time ago. He had a little bit of amnesia so he wouldn't remember a little. He suddenly remembered the words that Lucy cried out as she held his arm tightly.

-Flashback-

(Missing Scenes)

"You're the only one who made me smile! Can't you see that everyone is worried about you?! I want you to smile! If I can't fix you, nobody can!" Lucy cried tearfully.

"You'll effect a lot of people once you're gone! Snap out of the trance you've been through, look into the light!" She cried.

As he looked at Lucy, tears kept on falling as he cried out.

"I don't care anymore! I don't understand life so what's the point to live?!" He cried as tears fell down.

Then, she hugged him tightly as tears fell down. She said something back to him and then he was surprised.

"If you don't understand life, you'll figure it out soon enough...save yourself...please..." She said as her voice started to break.

-End of Flashback-

"I'm sorry, Luce.." He said.

As he looked up at the ceiling, he recites a memory that he had never thought before. If fate captures him, he can't escape after all. But, someone will bring him to life soon enough. It's the one who understands him and cares about him a lot. One of Lucy's goals were to free Natsu's darkened heart and fill up the hole in his heart. As she looks out the window, she then went to bed and slept. But, why does the spy that watches the devil in Natsu makes him feel insecure? How can he ever understand that life is precious and you just can't give up on it? He's been trying to free himself ever since he got captured by fate and darkness. A red string of death ties up around his upper body as a piece of paper covers his face for failure.

"Can't anyone help me..?" He asked.

Death wants to take over his body as he tries to reject it as long as he could. He doesn't know who destroyed his life. He's been trying to figure out the answer for his whole life. How can he survive from this without any answers for his own questions? Can he get away from life and just get over it?

"Just move on..." He said to himself.

TO BE CONTINUED...