It's been a couple of weeks….it's Halloween now. I'm supposed to spend it with Sasuke, but who knows if he'll blow me off for Gaara. He still hasn't told me my answers about you know what. Which is okay I guess…I mean I still haven't told him about the whole 'gang' thing. So far I've gotten about 700 dollars from my missions.

Sasuke's being kind of mean to me lately. I mean, he hasn't asked me to come over…he ignores my calls…and he's always talking to Gaara. His background on his phone is a picture of him and Gaara. It really pisses me off. Is he falling for Gaara? I don't know what I'd do if that were to ever happen! I've loved Sasuke since as long as I can remember and it would shatter my heart into a thousand pieces.

It sucks so much it even sucks the breath out of me sometimes. I wish he'd know how much it hurts. I didn't even get to enjoy taking advantage of his father while he was being inspected.

Sasuke has a new sister now…I haven't got to meet her because Sasuke completely ignores me now. I even forgot her name…it's something like….Oh forget it…what's the point anymore? I've been saving up all my money to get Sasuke a wicked awesome Christmas present…it may be far off…but my gang is taking a break for a while….so I'm going to need to save as much as I can.

Right now I'm sitting at lunch. Hinata is sitting next to me of course…doing nothing but twirling her fingers. This is really getting annoying. Sasuke won't even talk to me. Is he mad at me? I don't understand…I haven't eaten anything for the past 4 days now. I'm too depressed to eat. Half the girls at my school don't eat…it's pretty weird if you ask me. Wow, that was completely random…oh well. Anyways, after school Sasuke ignores me again. I run up to him and hit him in the shoulder lightly.

"What's up with you? Are you mad at me or something?" Gaara's with him.

"NO! Quit asking!" I don't get him anymore!

"Then why are you ignoring me?!" This just annoying.

"Because…I have a boyfriend Naruto…you're supposed to spend a lot of time with your boyfriend you know." WHAT ABOUT ME!? Am I nothing to him now? I look down.

"We're…supposed to spend…Halloween…together…" He's looking at me so cruelly.

"Oh puh-lease…we've been spending Halloweens together since forever…I think you can deal with one without me…right? Why don't you spend it with…Hinata?" Why is this happening to me? Why doesn't anything good happen in my life? Honestly.

"Right. I'll just be alone…" Could it be that Sasuke likes Gaara more than me? I just want to jump off of a building. I turn back and walk away…even though my house is the same way they're going. Damnit. We were supposed to spend Halloween with each other…I knew he was going to blow me off for Gaara. I just knew it. I have to turn back. I might as well walk with them…I turn back around and they stare at me like I'm crazy.

"My house is over…there" Sasuke rolls his eyes. What's wrong with him? Why does he hate me so much? WHAT DID I DO!? Everything is completely silent until I get to the turn in which leads to my house.

I walk all the way back to my house and my mom is home again. What the hell? This is weird. My mom is never home. I walk in. My mom rushes over to me in some skimpy little outfit. She holds out her hand and as I look closer I see a diamond ring on her finger.

"I'm engaged!" She hugs me. What the hell? She leans over and presses her lips up against my ear…I feel so violated. "Don't worry sweetie…things are going to change…he's rich…We'll finally have money." Is my mom just using him for money? Hmm…it does sound like her.

"Does that mean we have to move?" I don't want to move.

"Of course…but unfortunately, we have to wait a couple months….we're getting married in January." I swear…my mom is such a fucking slut. It's so annoying. I hate her at times (now that I got to know her a little). Sometimes I wish that she never came for me….but I'd kind of rather be here than the orphanage. When she finally lets me go I walk over to my room. I couldn't afford a Halloween costume so I can't go anyway.

This sucks. I don't want Sasuke seeing Gaara anymore…it hurts too much. I'm just going to take a shower and watch television until I pass out….the worst part is…I don't even get candy…at least at the orphanage they gave out candy…of course my mom can't afford fucking candy.