I was just thinking….does anyone actually read this boldness crap?

Maybe I should write something really juicy so that if you don't, your missing out…I got nothing- the only thing I can think of is that my best friend is les, no bi, no pan, no bi…something. Thank you for reviewing and please continue to do so. Seeing lovely reviews when I wake up makes my day.

Due to the above this chapter is dedicated to by lesbian/bisexual/pan/whatever the heck she wants to be best friend…even though she is never going to read this because she had never heard of Stargate and when I tried to explain it to her I got to "is an American Air force Sci-fi based on space travel and Egyptian mythology" and she got confused so...

Chapter 9: A step through-one last time (Sam POV)

"So…where are we going exactly?" I ask curiously as he helped me into his car, my mind racing and coming up with the possibilities.

"You'll see"

The journey was quite short but as each moment went on my excitement grew and I started crossing off possibilities from the list. Of course I had some few good ideas, a space centre for my enjoyment or knowing Jack probably an IHOP to celebrate MacGyver's 20th Birthday (he's only obsessed with it though because he thinks he looks like the main character). Not that it really bothers me much because I quite like it too. This however was too long a journey to the nearest IHOP so maybe not, and an idea suddenly came to mind- but surely the SGC where too busy, then again Jack had been the previous general and did have a pretty high authority even though he was retired. We arrived finally and I was right as another thing on my list of I'll never do again was to be checked off; Going through the Stargate. I was glad to see Teal'c again, even though he had only come to visit us a few weeks ago but his stays were short as duty called.

I got changed pretty successfully by myself except for my t-shirt which I ended up having on back to front for the first half an hour as Jack thought it would be funny to not tell me for a while. The others on the base thought this was cruel, but Jack would have done it to anyone and he was just treating me as normal, besides eventually I saw the funny side of it..eventually…when I got my own back by asking Teal'c to stick a sticky note on his butt saying "stick any unwanted items up here". I know I shouldn't of but nobody really cared, the Stargate programme was definitely more relaxed, the new girl of SG-1, Vala, even had long hair and pranced about flirting with the officers, if that is not against regulations I don't know what is.

After a while I geared up. I had Jack, Teal'c, Vala, Cameron Mitchell (the new leader of SG1) and also SG-3, and even Jonas who had returned to help the team without Daniel- much to Jack's annoyance, I don't think he ever really got along with him though.

As we walked up the ramp I felt ever so grateful to Jack who must have fought so hard to get them to agree to this. The SGC had wanted me to go to some safe world already visited, but Jack insisted that this would be a real mission, new planet and proper adventure, so of course Jack went over board and now we were going to a possible home world of Ba'al- Jack really doesn't do things by halves. Everyone stepped through as Jack and I stepped up to and stood before the shimming pool of water.

"I'm fine" I said not wanting to let him know I was nervous. I needed to do this.

"Actually I was going to say ladies first" he said smiling and I know that he remembered.

"So are you going to push me through this time as well?" I meant it as a joke but my voice came out nervous and so my secret was revealed. I knew him too well to know he would be rising an eyebrow at me, curious, and so I explained. "It's just, I've been through this gate so many times. I've never imagined it being like this. After so long I stopped worrying about what could be on the other side. I mean I never forgot the threat, the danger that I might never come back, but all the times we got lucky I just…This is the last time I will ever see another world, maybe even this world, what happens if there is something on the other side that is worse than last time?"

Jack didn't answer straight away. He just took my hand in his as I waited for him to say something sentimental or deep about life that would make me feel better.

"Why do you think we have explosives?"

And with that, he squeezed my hand and we took a step through the gate on last time.

I was wondering whether anyone had any questions as when I read fanfics I always wonder about the writer and how there writing and stories reflects them so I give you permission to ask any questions but no stupid or scary questions please.. REVIEW!