Chapter Nine
Believe in Me
(Gaara POV)
I stared at the screen my brain registering the beeping of Naruto's heart monitor but my heart drowning in feverish denial.
This was all a lie.
A bad dream that I would soon wake up from.
This couldn't be happening. None of it was real. My eyes danced across the straight line accompanied by the soundtrack of relentless beeping. Tears welled up in my eyes but didn't slip down my pale cheeks. Finally I looked away a tightness consuming my chest.
"You F****** B****** you said you wouldn't die!" I screamed as I felt my fist go into the floor numerous times.
Strings of curses and other unintelligible words flew out of my mouth before I collapsed in a ball of pitiful sobs.
"God dammit." I growled as I felt the tears slip down my cheeks.
"You can't do this to me!" I screamed as I tried to stand but finding all the strength in my body gone.
Instead I lay on the ground cursing the very god that granted me life.
My feet guided me blindly down the deserted streets. Snow was falling gracefully from the heavens freezing the clear trail of tears on my face.
How could this have happened?
How could I have let this happen?
I took in a shaky breath before sitting on a lone bench. The bench itself was no more than a few scarps of wood with paint that had long had been peeled off but still it served it's main purpose of being a seat for people passing by. I sat on the bench my head hanging low to my chest as I let the snow gently kiss the crown of my head. There it melted and dripped down my scalp to my neck to cool my skin.
I would have liked to stay there until the snow buried me in a ice cold death but I had promised Naruto something.
I had promised him that I would go on and finish what he had started.
Bringing Sasuke back became the mold of my life.
The only thing that made me get up from that bench and walk home.
(End of Gaara POV)
The emptiness I felt when I burst from the darkness almost made me fall back to my knees. I hadn't won after all. However I realized as I glanced around the suffocating emptiness that I was not in my own world of desolation.
I was in someone else's.
My eyes darted around looking for the owner of this absolute darkness, hoping that it wasn't Naruto that resided in the desolation.
"Naruto!" I found myself calling anyway, blindly walking through the thriving darkness. I called again…softer as if I was afraid that he would answer. However I shouldn't have worried because there was no answer, just the never ending silence and cold. Still I walked through the emptiness looking for who I knew was Naruto.
"Naruto!" I called again as I searched.
He didn't answer and I was afraid that I would never find him. Tears welled in my eyes as I walked on my shaking feet to an unknown destination.
"Naruto! Answer me please!" I screamed as I found my legs beginning to give under me.
As if on queue they buckled from under me and I fell to my knees. Hot tears fell from my eyes as I crawled forward my hands moving around on the ground still searching. My hands rested on a cold lump of flesh and a panicked yell tore from my mouth. I grabbed the body and dragged it toward me. My heart slammed repeatedly against my chest as I desperately wished it wasn't who I thought it was.
It couldn't be.
I turned the body over and stared into the still face of Naruto. His face was unnaturally pale, and his lips were a dark shade of blue. First it was the shock of seeing him not breathing…dead that made it impossible for me to make even a single sound.
"Naruto…" I whispered as I saw my tears splash onto his pale skin.
"Naruto…please wake up…Naruto please…Please don't die…please." I whispered as I clutched his body close to my chest.
Tears ran down my cheeks as I rocked him back in forth in my shaking arms.
"Naruto! You can't die! NARUTO!" I screamed clutching him still tighter. "You can't die on me…you just can't…" I sobbed as I buried my face in his ashen blond hair.
"Naruto…" I sobbed.
'I turned to see Naruto busily making ice cream with a weird shaped ice cream maker ball in his hand. He threw it up and down a patient smile on his face.
"What are you doing?" I asked as I sat down next to him.
He glanced at me his blue eyes twinkling.
"I'm making ice cream." He said.
I chuckled as I said "I know that but why don't' you ask me to buy you some?"
Naruto just shook his head as he threw the ball again.
"Because we don't' have lots of money and this is cheaper." He replied his smile never leaving his face.
He had excepted the label of being poor long ago. I however felt a pang in my chest at his words.
"Why don't I go to the store and we can buy those popsicles you like so much?" I asked giving him a bright smile. Naruto looked up at me with wide eyes and his smile grew ten times bigger.
"Really?" He asked the ball in his hand forgotten.
"Of course." I said already feeling the warmth in my chest swelling. He was up on his feet racing towards the door.
"Let's go Sasuke!" He cried and I could hear his feet pounding down the concrete steps.
I smiled and followed after him, glad that I was the only one that could make him smile like that.
The only one.'
Naruto's still body in my arms became somewhat of a comfort. At least even in this way I could still keep him.
Maybe if I begged the great deity in the sky enough he would return Naruto to me.
So in the dark confines of Naruto's dead world I rocked him back and forth.
Reliving the memories i has so foolishly forgotten.
'"SASUKE!" Naruto called as he noticed me in front of the gates to his school.
I turned a smile gracing my usually stone face.
"Look what I made you!" He cried as he thrust a picture in my hand.
It was a childish drawing of Naruto and I but I felt a swell of pride deep in my chest.
"It's great." I said as I ruffled his mob of blond hair. His smile grew as he looked up at me with such devotion I wanted to lock him in an embrace.
"Well let's go, I have to go to work." I said hating the way Naruto's face fell.
"Do you really have to?" He asked his lips forming into a pout.
"Yes I do." I replied pinching his cheeks while I laughed.
"Well then I will wait for you until you come home." He said as he ran ahead.
"I'll expect you to keep your promise!" I called as I raced after him.
Naruto turned to train his sparkling blue eyes on me.
"Of course! Because I love Sasuke!"'
I breathed sharply in and out letting the cold atmosphere soak into my skin.
"Naruto please wake up I won't leave you alone again…I promise…so please wake up…please wake up…I didn't get to tell you that I loved you…" I sobbed as I rocked him back and forth.
Back and forth.
"Naruto!" I screamed into the abyss.
(Gaara POV)
I couldn't bring myself to go anywhere near where Naruto was laying dead. If I didn't actually see him then I could believe that he was only sleeping. Despite my thought sometimes I would find my gaze wandering to the door in the far corner where no sound could be heard. It was almost as awful as hearing his screams during the night.
I shook my head as I strapped my arsenal of weapons to my body.
A long carefully sharpened sword, numerous sizes of guns and knifes.
I closed my eyes as I strapped the bomb to my chest. The bomb was my last resort if nothing else worked that would. I covered the cross net of wirings with my shirt and stared at myself in the mirror. No weapons could be seen under my clothes to my great satisfaction.
A tight smile formed on my lips as I brought my fingers up to my lips.
"I'll keep my promise Naruto." I whispered as I turned and walked out the door.
It would finally be the end.
(End of Gaara POV)
A/N
Very sad chapter right? i nearly cried writing this i was like i'm such an evil person*insert sob* I know i'm a dorkXD anywho but this is not the end! so lets see what happens okay?:) and before you hate me please know that anything could happenXD yeah i write as i go so lets see what happens shall we:D okay thank you guys for reading! and thank LoveUntilWeBleed for commenting your still as amazing as ever! and sorry for the late updates everyone i was really sick. Like coughing up nasty stuff and allDX it was horribleDX but i am back feeling much better:D so yeah! i hope you guys are glad i'm backXD thank you for reading and i hope you guys comment and enjoyed this chapter:D
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