A/N: I am like.... kinda almost done and that was fun. I love it. It took like three seconds... hahaha!
Chapter 9: Realization
E POV
I drove slowly through the neighborhood, just thinking about how my life has been and what I have been doing with it. Its actually been an eye opener to all the things that I thought would never happen. I never thought that I would need help in school, I never thought I would stop messing around with girls, I never thought I would like Bella. . . I paused for a while as that thought processed through my head. I like Bella?
"SHIT!" I screamed as I swerved from the road, as I almost hit a cat. I almost ran into a mailbox on the side of the road but thankfully, for my new breaks, I stopped as fast as I started. I almost ran over Esme's favorite creature and if she would have found out, I would have been dead, I'm not even exaggerating. I breathed deeply and began to drive back in the direction of my house. It took a while to get over the fact that I could have wrecked and not only hurt myself but also my baby. . . my sweet, sweet, Volvo. I pet the seats, "Its okay baby, you know I would never let anything happen to you." I reassured it.
When I got home everyone was, obviously, waiting for my arrival. Alice ran up to me first without surprise, "Hey Edward! Where have you been?" her brows bounced, suggestively.
Emmett came into the room, rubbing his stomach. "Yeah, where's the food little brother?"
"Don't play this game with me, I told you guys ahead of time that I wasn't going to make it to dinner," I rolled my eyes and everyone started laughing. I was glad that they enjoyed torturing me, as I headed for my room.
"Edward," Jasper called. "Are you still game for Friday?" I was confused at first and then finally my brain started to process correctly. Every Friday night we had truth or dare night, I completely forgot about it. We only make exceptions if we throw parties. . . last time didn't go so well. I cringed as the memories came back. I almost forgot that Jasper was still waiting for my answer. I nodded and told everyone that I was going to my room to study for a test and finish some homework.
After a while in my room, or just about 5 minutes there was a knock on my door. "Come in Alice." Everyone knows not to disturb me while I was studying, except Alice of course. She was the energetic one, but also the nosiest. She was great to talk to but she would constantly want to know what was going on with everyone. "Is there something you need?" I asked as I placed a scrap of paper to mark my spot in a book.
"I have just noticed that seem distracted lately and you missed dinner at home, you never miss dinner at home," she tried to figure me out but was unsuccessful. She was always similar to Sherlock Holmes. She never knew what she was talking about until she connected all the parts.
"I called you and told you that I would be missing dinner and that I was at Bella's house," her name sounded so sweet as it rolled off my tongue. Wow, did I just seriously think that? I shook my head.
"Yeah you did call. . . and so did Lauren, Jessica, Janine, Michelle, Allison. . ." she went on an on with names of girls that I promised to call but never really got to it. "Can you, not, tell girls to call you. It gets really annoying by the five hundredth time. I spent the entire day making up excuses for you," I glared at her and she smiled.
"I need to change that, those girls are getting a little freaky," I sat up and propped my chin on my hand.
"You have been missing plans with the family, missing dinner, and you have been hanging out with Bella for a while. . ." her face finally showed realization. Everything clicked together in her mind. "OH MY GOD! Its all coming to together, I knew it! Your in love, you love her! You love Bella!" she squealed.
"What?! I hate her, what are you talking about?!" I demanded. "Get out of my room, NOW!" I shoved my tiny sister out of my room and slammed the door before she could come back in.
"Deny it all you want," she screamed from behind the closed door. "You'll realize it sooner or later!" She ran down the hall and it got me to thinking, do I love Bella? No it couldn't be! I hate her. Alice must be messing with my mind, I turned on some music to calm me down and get all my thoughts in order. As much as I tried, I just couldn't get Bella's face out of my mind. Its as if it was permanently tattooed into my brain.
That was the first night I had dreamt about her. . .
In my dream I was walking through the woods, I knew I had to keep going, but I didn't know why. I knew I had to keep looking but I didn't know what I was looking for. I started to panic, I knew that if I didn't find it quick I was going to miss it. I tripped and fell into a clearing, a beautiful place filled with tall grasses and colorful flowers. I was struck by her beauty, she was sitting on a boulder with her feet dangling to her side, she dipped her hand into the small creek and smiled at the ripples that she caused. I walked to her slowly and she looked at me, she chocolate brown eyes made her more beautiful than ever. I slid her down off of the rock and smiled at her, she smiled back. I leaned in and we kissed. This was a different kiss, one that I have never experienced. It was full of passion and love, not like the kisses from the other girls.
I awoke with a smile and began to think to myself, it could be possible that I was having some feelings towards Bella but it wasn't love . . . right?
"ALICE, I AM LEAVING WITHOUT YOU!" I yelled as I knew that I was going to be late, due to the fact that my sister couldn't find an outfit to wear to school. Jasper and Emmett yelled for her and she finally responded.
"Rosalie is wearing red so I can't wear red," she acted as if that should be obvious. I will never understand the fashion nonsense between girls, its completely absurd what they go through just for clothes. She ran down the staircase as she fixed her shirt, to make it look perfect. I opened the door and got into my car, everyone else followed. "You never cared about being late before. . . why do you care now?"
"Nothing, I just have to talk to the Coach about something," I started the car and we made our way to school. I needed to talk to Bella, I didn't know if this was normal or if this was going to help but I had to tell her that things were progressing in our relationship and that I kinda wanted to pursue it. Just to test things. I just hope that she wasn't going to freak about it. Oh, dear lord help me!
