Trouble – Chapter 9 – Feel like having an audience?
Author's note: The song used in this chapter is "You'll Be In My Heart", by Phil Collins. I do not own this song nor anything in this fic apart from Lily, Jules and the storyline. Thanks to everyone who reads this story! Love you all!
When I walked into the livingroom, alone seeing as Kozik had gone ahead, feeling a lot better than before, I was basically jumped by Juice.
"Tinkerbell..." He sweetly called my nickname, immediately making me suspicious. What did he want now? "Can you sing something for us?"
I shook my head with a smile, I should have known.
"I'd love to but I don't have my guitar with me." I laughed but when Alex took out my guitar from the case I couldn't help but glare playfully at him.
"Just one song, Lil." He pleaded with one of those Tig-smiles. I knew he loved my singing and what kind of little sister would I be if I denied him the sound of my angel-like voice?
"Alright, this probably won't be anything like what you guys listen to but the guitar is in my hands. I decide the song and be sure you listen to the lyrics, I actually wrote them for you." I scolded them all with a mock-glare before strumming the guitar gently.
Juice placed himself on the floor in front of me with a happy grin, soon being joined by Kip and Opie's kids, Ellie and Harry. Opie himself sat in the armchair with Lyla on his lap, Gemma was sitting next to Clay on the couch holding his hand lovingly. Alex had placed himself on the armrest of the couch where the rest of the guys had spread out.
I let my eyes travel to Kozik as I cleared my throat, he was standing by the fireplace, looking at me expectantly. He had never heard me sing, but I knew that he was going to be amazed. If not by my voice then by the song.
"Here it goes."I took a deep breath and allowed my fingers to fill the room with the sound of the acoustic guitar.
"You'll Be In My Heart"
"Come stop your crying
It will be all right
Just take my hand Hold it tight"
I let my eyes travel to Kip, telling him to hold on and keep his hopes up until he got patched in.
"I will protect you
from all around you
I will be here
Don't you cry"
I looked down at the "children" in front of me, thinking back on the times I had been there for Juice when things were tough, thinking about how I wanted to be there for Ellie and Harry if they ever needed me.
"For one so small,
you seem so strong
My arms will hold you,
keep you safe and warm
This bond between us
Can't be broken
I will be here
Don't you cry"
I let my eyes travel over the family in the room, singing the words in my heart.
"'Cause you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more
You'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be here in my heart, always "
I looked at Alex, remembering all the things we had been through together. How everyone looked at the two of different knowing what happened to our parents.
"Why can't they understand
the way we feel
They just don't trust
what they can't explain
I know we're different but,
deep inside us
We're not that different at all"
I allowed myself to look at Kozik, smiling a little when I saw the look of happiness on his face. These lines were for him and I wanted him to hear me say them, to know that I meant every word of it.
"And you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more
Don't listen to them
'Cause what do they know
We need each other,
to have, to hold
They'll see in time
I know"
The people in front of me, myself included, lived such a different life, not to mention dangerous. This was for all of those who had been lost and to the people we were going to lose in the future.
"When destiny calls you
You must be strong
I may not be with you
But you've got to hold on
They'll see in time
I know
We'll show them together
'Cause you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on,
Now and forever more"
Kozik looked at me with such love I blushed but I kept my gaze in his gray eyes as the last chorus left my lips.
"Oh, you'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be in my heart, always
Always"
Applause and whistles filled the room as I stopped. It felt so good to be singing again and just knowing that I was singing to the people I had written the song for warmed my heart.
Alex came up to hug me, he was wearing a look of pride on his face and in his eyes and the feeling of his strong arms wrapped around me made me smile.
Over his shoulder I caught Koz staring at me, pride showing in his eyes as well and I winked at him, since it was the only thing I could do right now.
It spoke not only to him but to everyone who had shown up tonight. These people were dearer to me than my own life and I felt so glad to be able to let them all know that.
"That was beautiful, sweetheart." Gemma hugged me once Alex allowed me to breath again.
"Thank you." I hugged her back hard, breathing in the scent of home. "I meant every word."I said over her shoulder, talking both to her and the man I loved, the latter showing me a sexy grin showing he heard me.
