(A/N: Okay guys! Here we go! There was a lot of opinions on what should happen in this chapter, and while I took all of your opinions into consideration as some of you said it was ultimately my choice. So I did what I thought would make a better story for you guys! And I'll completely understand if some on you guys who don't like it stop reading the story! Even though I really hope you won't! Also fair warning a lot of this chapter is about what's going on in Camille's head. So without further ado...)
Disclaimer: I don't own anything! I'm too broke to own myself, let alone the guys of Big Time Rush!
Chapter 8: Fake Or Real?
I don't think I've been more worried in my entire life. I waited anxiously all day, what if she flips out and doesn't want to.
Jo had said it was a good idea; but that didn't necessarily mean that Camille will think the same thing.
If she didn't then all of this would have been for nothing. And I'm pretty sure Jo and Kendall would kill me. Kendall because he had been up all night helping plan this and Jo... well, she'd probably do it just for the fun of it.
The drive down that dirt path was the longest drive of my life. I had to stop myself on several different occasions from turning the car around and calling the whole thing off.
The look on her face when she took that blindfold off was nothing but shock, which did nothing to ease my worries.
"Oh my God, Logan! What did you do?"
I wasn't sure of how to answer that question. It was definitely complicated, but I don't think I have much of a choice; when Camille turned to face me, her own face unreadable.
"Well... see... we were wondering just how we were going to get pictures from our wedding. And I figured the only way for that to happen would be to have a real wedding. And I know we said that this whole thing would be fake, but..." I said before she cut me off.
"Are you asking me to marry you, for real?" I could hear the shock and fear in her voice.
"Yeah, I guess I kind of am." I said.
We stood there staring at each other for a couple of minutes; before she finally let what was running through that pretty little head of hers, known.
"Are you out of your mind? We just met! What would make you want to really be married to me? You don't even know me!" She yelled at me.
Even though I was expecting this reaction, it still hurt like hell that she hadn't said yes.
"Camille, I'm not saying that we have to be married forever. I just think it would make the next year more realistic if we were really married." I told her.
"I can't! Logan I'm so sorry; but I can't do this." She said, causing my heart to break. How c an I have fallen in love with this women in a matter of days. "I always imagined my fairytale wedding and this is it. But the one difference is I'm suppose to be in love. I don't want a marriage of convenience. It's not fair to either of us."
Camille had tears pouring down her face, and a look of utter despair on her face. I was sure that at any moment she was going to take off and I would never see here again. But before either of us had a chance to do anything Jo and Kendall were there. Jo quickly handed Haley to me.
"You guys take Haley and let her play in the garden out back, I need to talk to my best friend here." she tells me while pulling Camille into a hug.
I was about to argue but the look on Jo's face stopped me. Kendall and I head towards the garden.
"Was I a complete idiot for thinking she would agree to this?" I asked Kendall, even though I already knew the answer. Of course I was!
"Logan, you gave her every reason in the book for this wedding, except for the one that really matters." Kendall answered.
I felt like a deer caught in the headlights. How does he always do that?
"What are you talking about Kendall? What reason?" Maybe I could play stupid.
NOPE!
"Logan, you know exactly what I'm talking about. You're falling fast and hard for Cami, but you're not ready to admit it yet." He told me confirming my fears. "But you have to understand, that Camille has already done that before, and she got seriously burnt. So she's not just going to be willing to jump head first, in a marriage that won't last. And when you said that it wasn't forever, you scared her even more than she had already been."
"But that's not how I meant it!" I told him desperate for him to understand.
"I know that Logie, but she doesn't. And you have to remember that it's not just her in the equation. She has that beautiful little girl over there to think about. And for Cami, Haley's always going to come first." he said, patting me on the back before going to run around the garden with Haley.
I sat there watching them. Was I really falling for Camille? No doubt about it! Was I ready to be in a serious relationship? Hell yes! Was I ready for forever? …
Can I promise Camille forever? I don't know! But I do know that in this moment, I want nothing more than to have her, right here beside me, never letting go.
"Logie!" I heard a soft voice say.
I turned to see Camille standing there. I pat the step beside me and she comes and sits beside me. We both sit there in complete silence, watching as Kendall and Haley, we're join by Jo.
"That's what I want." I say softly.
"What?" Camille asked never pulling her eyes from the little girl who was chasing after Kendall, with the biggest grin on her face.
"A family! If Haley wasn't your daughter and you were to see this scene, you would think that they were the happiest family in the world. That's what I want." I told her. "And I want that with you and Haley."
Camille once again had tears falling down her face. "I want to believe that Logie, I really do. But..."
I cut her off before she could add doubt. "No buts! Camille, can I honestly say that if we do this we're going to be together forever? No! Can I say for sure that you will never regret this decision? Nope!" I looked up to see her staring at me. I locked eyes with her and held it as I said my next couple of words. "I don't think anyone, no matter the circumstance, can honestly promise that. But I can promise that no matter what, I will always be here for you and Haley. Making sure that you never want for anything and that you are really happy. That I can promise you, Now and Forever."
"So if we were to do this; I'm not saying we are; but if we were, what happens after this year is up? Your parents will be gone, so there won't be a reason for you to be married. What do we get a divorce then?" she asked. I could see the fear in her eyes and all I wanted was to wrap my arms around her and tell her that everything would be fine. But I knew I couldn't do that just yet.
"Camille, I would never ask you to marry me for real, just for my parents benefit. I would never ask you if I didn't really want to be married to you." I tell her, shoving all my fears and worries away and just letting everything out. "Cami, I might have only met you a week ago, but I think I'm falling in love with. And to be honest that scares the hell out of me, but I had to tell you!"
She looked at me with complete shock written on her face. To be honest, I was a little surprise myself. I don't know where that all just came from. Kendall was the one who could express his feelings like that not me.
Finally Camille seem to snap out of it and she said the one thing I hoped for yet never truly believe she would say.
"LET'S GET MARRIED!"
Camille P.O.V.
Wait... did I just say, what I think I said?
I think I just agreed to get married to Logan, for real. Where the hell did that come from?
When I took that blindfold off and saw my fairytale come true, I didn't know what to say. I didn't understand what was going on. Was he asking me to seriously marry him?
When he confirms my thoughts, my reaction even took me by surprise. Tears formed in my eyes and it felt like everything in my life was crashing down around me and I couldn't do anything to stop it. There was no way I could marry this man!
So how did I get here? Why am I standing at this doorway, in this damn dress, getting ready to walk down the aisle.
No doubt in my mind, I'm going to be sick. Before I could make a mad dash for the nearest bathroom, the wedding march started to play, and the double doors swung open.
Okay Camille, just breathe. Breathe and walk. One foot in front of the other. That's all you have to do.
It bad when you have to give yourself a pep talk just to walk down the aisle. When I finally reached the altar, Logan took me by the hand and led me up to the minister.
I looked around the room, I don't know how they managed to pull all of this together in one night, but I'm seriously impress.
I felt myself start to zone out as the minister started to talk. How is it that in a little less than for days, my life change so drastically.
Here I was marrying someone who was pretty much a stranger to me. My brain was screaming for me to grab my daughter and run but my heart was telling a whole different story, and it seemed that my body was siding with my heart.
Maybe ti doesn't matter how long I've know him. There's been plenty of people who ran off and got married, after only knowing each other for a couple of days, and lived perfectly happy
lives. So who's to say that it won't work for me and Logan?
Oh get real! There is no way in hell that this marriage is ever going to last. You're just setting yourself up to be let down yet again.
"Do you, Logan Ty Mitchell, take the, Camille Ann Roberts to be your lawful wedded wife. To have and to hold from this day forward." The minister asked.
Logan looked me in the eyes and I could see his confidence shining through,
"I Do!"
"Do you, Camille Ann Roberts" Oh Hell!" take the, Logan Ty Mitchell, to be your lawful wedded husband. To have and to hold from this day forward."
This is the moment of truth! Am I really ready to get married? Do I want to be married to Logan? Well I guess we're about to find out.
I opened my mouth without a clue as to what was about to come out. It surprised me that I didn't say 'NO' and take off running. But instead I said those two words that changed my life forever.
"I Do!" I could feel my eyes widening, realizing that I had really just said that.
The next thing I knew Logan had turned to get something from Kendall before once again taking my hand.
"Logan please repeat after me." the minister said, "With this ring, I thy wed."
"With this ring, I thy wed." Logan repeated, sliding the ring onto my finger.
While my brain was in complete freak out mode, the rest of my body was on autopilot, as I turn, handing the bouquet to Jo, before taking the rind she handed to me, and turning to once again face Logan.
"Camille repeat after me." the priest started. "With this ring, I thy wed!"
I started sliding the ring onto Logan's finger. "With this ring, I thy wed!"
Logan smile as those words left my mouth, could have lit up the world, better than the sun ever could.
"By the power invested in my, by the state of Texas, I now pronounce you husband and wife, Logan you may kiss your bride."
Clapping and cheers broke out the moment our lips touch, but they couldn't compare to the banging and screaming that was going on in my head.
I couldn't tell you how I managed to make it back down that aisle and out back to the reception area.
But I could tell you the exact thing that was running through my mind, when I saw the two people, who I never thought would be within 5 miles of me, standing awkwardly in the corner.
I looked over at Logan, who was staring at me waiting for my reaction. My urge to run kicked in times ten, when their eyes landed on Haley.
I turned and pull Logan back outside with me. I finally dropped his hand as we reach the middle of the garden. I walked a little farther in. I could feel his eyes on me the entire time.
I knew that I would have to tell him what I was feeling. But at the moment, even I wasn't sure. Every emotion you could have, seem to be crashing through my body at the same time.
I took a couple of deep breaths, hoping that would help me relax, but all it seem to do was fuel the fire that was burning in the pit of my stomach.
I sat down on one of the benches, and just let everything take me over. I could feel myself drowning and for once I wasn't sure if I wanted to fight it.
What's the point? No matter what I do, I tend to screw it up. I screwed up my life by falling for the wrong guy and ending up pregnant. I screwed up Haley's life by being selfish and keeping her from a family that could actually take care of her. And now I've screwed up Logan's life by agreeing to marry him. I bring nothing but misery to the people I care about.
"That's not true!" My head snapped up at the sound of Logan's voice. When the hell did he sit beside me.
"What isn't true?" I asked, praying that I hadn't been thinking out loud.
"You don't bring misery into any ones life. As far as I'm concern, you bring nothing short of happiness." he explained. "You think you screwed up my life... trust me, my life was screwed up long before I met you. And since you've been it, you've only made it better.
"As for you screwing up with Haley, it couldn't have been easy for you to go through, what you went through. But somehow you made it through and that made you a stronger person, and I don't know anyone who could be a better mom for that little girl." he paused, to wipe away the tears that had been falling down my face.
"And you didn't screw up your life, you might have derailed it for a while; but that doesn't mean you can't fix it. And the one thing I know about you is you have so much drive and passion, that no matter what life throws your way; you're going to make it through and make all your dreams come true."
I wrapped my arms around him and held him to me as tight as possible. My tears started to slow, and all the emotions that had been pulling me under, started to drift away. In this man arms, everything felt safe, nothing could hurt me.
I pulled back and looked into his eyes. I could see that he really did love me. How it's possible to fall in love with someone in a week, I will never know; but some how we managed to. Rather I was ready or not, there is no denying that I'm in love with Logan Mitchell.
I pressed my lips to his quickly before pulling back. "Thank you! I need that."
"I'm just happy I could help. So come on, what else is going on in that pretty little head of yours?" He asked, pulling me into his side.
"How did you get them here?" I asked, staring at the roses across from us.
"That was all Jo's doing. She said no matter what was going on between you guys, you would still be hurt if they didn't come to your wedding." he answered. "So she somehow talk them them into it and all I did was pay for the plane tickets and their hotel room."
"What am I suppose to them? Cause the only thing that I want to say is how much I hate them. How pissed I am that they did that to me. And that I will never forgive them for it." I told him, feeling the tears start to swell up again.
"Say exactly what you are feeling! There's no point in holding it all in. Cause sooner or later it's going to end up coming out. You've waited three years for this moment, so my advice is let it all out." he paused for a second. "But let's wait until after the reception. This is your day, and I want you to enjoy it. So for now just let it all go, and live in this moment with me."
I didn't say anything back, there was no need too. While my first reaction is to get up and run and not stop running I was sure nobody would find me, I knew that I could never do that to Haley nor Logan.
He wanted me to be there with him. The fact that this amazing man, really wanted me, made everything else seem insignificant.
We sat there for a while longer, just enjoying the peace and quietness, that this place provided. But that was burst by the sound of Haley giggling.
"Momma, Daddy! Auntie Jo say come inside." she says, as Logan picks her up.
Logan glanced over and could see the nervousness written all over my face.
"Are you ready for this?" he asked.
I took a deep breath before standing up and grabbing his hand.
"As ready as I'll ever be!"
BTRocks! BTRocks! BTRocks! BTRocks! BTRocks! BTRocks! BTRocks! BTRocks!
(A/N: So I know this chapter was shorter than usual but there was just so much emotion packed into it that I figured that would be a good place to stop. So there you go, they're married! I know you some of you guys are probably saying that it's happening to fast, and I would probably agree with you if my parents didn't get married after only knowing each other for a couple of hours, let's just say what happens in Vegas doesn't always stay in Vegas. And my parents will be married for 28 years this coming November. Sure they have their ups and downs but what married couple doesn't. So I know that it doesn't take months or years to fall in love, I've live in one of those moment my whole life so I can't help but believe in fairytale romances like this one. So I hope that I get to keep all my readers and that you understand what I did. And hopefully you'll tune into see just what kind of a mess Camille and Logan got themselves into. So thanks again to everyone who reads and review this story. You have no idea how much your love and support means to me.)
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