I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT, STEPHENIE MEYERS DOES. I AM RUNNING OUT OF IDEAS TO SHARE!
Thank you for reading the heart breaking chapter. I cried when I wrote it.
BPOV:
What the fuck did I just do? I was walking home in the freezing rain. I was shivering and my tank top offered no warmth what so ever. Fuck me running, did I really just break up with him? I turned the corner to my street, thankful it was late, and no one would be seeing me walking down the street in a sopping wet white tank top. I could see Alice and Rose running down the street towards me. I wiped my tears away quickly, but then realized they wouldn't see them through the rain.
"Oh my fucking god Bella, don't ever do that again, you could have caught pneumonia! We were both shitty ourselves, not sure if we should go after you or wait around." At that moment Alice pulled me into a tight hug, Rose quickly joined us. I broke down. I couldnt help. I realized I had been stupid. I made a rash decision and broke my soul mate's heart.
I was a vindictive bitch. I pulled away from the girls, and continued back to the house. My head was down, and I could hear them walking along side me. Im sure they were exchanging looks. I refused to talk.
I went inside, and headed straight to the bathroom. I peeled my wet clothes from my shivering body. I turned the shower on as hot as I could stand. I stepped in and sunk to the floor. I let the water beat me while I broke. My salty tears mixed with the hot water, running down my face dripping down to my knees, and running down my legs.
I dont know how long I sat in that shower, it could have been minutes, hours, days or even weeks. I didn't care. I was only a half being. I had left half of my soul at Jasper's house. It was still there sitting next to him. Holding his hand, caressing his cheek. I stumbled out of the shower, and wrapped a large oversized towel around me. I walked across the dark hallway into my dark bedroom. The girls were sleeping on my bed. I glanced at my clock. It was 2 am. Fuck. I was going to be a zombie in class tomorrow. I pulled on some dry clothes, and took a pillow and went downstairs to the couch.
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JPOV:
I watched her leave, ripping my heart from my chest and taking it with her. Did that really just happen? Did my soul mate really just break up with me? I put my head in hands, and tried to think about tomorrow. How would I face tomorrow without Bella by my side? I didn't wait for the guys to come back inside. Instead I just went upstairs to lock myself in my room. I flopped on my bed, and closed my eyes.
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I could see the orange glow of sunlight through my eyelids. I opened them slowly, and squinted at the sun beating down into my room. I glanced at my clock. It was already ten-fifteen. I closed my eyes, and figured, screw it, I'm already late, mine as well miss the whole day. No one worth seeing anyway, if any of them wanted to see me, they knew where I lived. I was throwing a pity party in Jasperville, population one.
I could hear movement downstairs, and figured it was one of the guys raiding my fridge during break. I pulled a pillow over my face and tried to ignore the pain in my heart. I heard a soft knock on my door, and knew it was my mom. Fuck. I got up quickly and opened it to see a pissed off women. Damn.
"And why aren't you in school?" She crossed her arms. Hello, nice to see you too mother, its been what, three months?
"I didn't feel well," I lied, well it wasnt a complete lie, but I doubt the school excused broken hearts.
"Whatever, you better go tomorrow," she turned and went down the hall to her room. Shutting her door behind her. I loathed how she treated me like a five year old sometimes.
I guess I did deserve it. Just like I deserved Bella breaking up with me. I closed my door, and went back to my bed. I had just realized how true that statement was.
I was having a fucking light bulb moment. I was being an idiot. I didn't want Bella to suffer anymore, but I just couldn't give her what she wanted most. To take responsibility. The whole situation was 50/50, and I knew that, but some how, some way during all the fights and flights, Bella decided to shoulder the whole thing. She said she need a break. I would give her a break, praying in silence that it wouldn't last longer then a week, but I would give her the space she so despretely wanted.
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BPOV:
I rolled off of my side onto my stomach. I hit the floor. What the fuck? I opened my eyes to see Alice and Rose trying not to laugh at me from the kitchen. I just scowled in their direction. I ran upstairs to take care of a personal moment. I went into my room and pulled on jeans and a black shirt. I pulled my messy hair into a ponytail. I slipped on my old vans. I went back downstairs to see what the girls made me for breakfast. They had eggs and toast set out. Figures. The least complicated meal. I sat down and started pushing my eggs around from side to side of my plate. The girls also sat and watched me not eat.
"Stop staring at me!" I finally broke down, not able to handle them pitying me.
"Sorry Bella," Rose at least looked sorry, Alice just glared at me. What the fuck was her problem?
"What Alice, fucking spit it out," why was I taking my anger out on my best friends?
"Bella, well I think it was stupid of you to break up with Jasper last night instead of talking things through with him," she looked down at the table, tears welling in her eyes.
"Thank you captain obvious. I felt like shit for nothing? You mean I could have just made my problem go away by talking to him? I am so glad I see the light now. You have enlightened me, and I owe you," I stood up and threw my full plate into the sink. I grabbed my zip up hoodie off the back of the chair, and walked outside. I didn't have a car yet, and I did not want to go to school. I thought about walking somewhere, anywhere. Before I could get far away I heard the door bang open, Rose calling after me.
"Bella," I turned and faced her. She tossed me her car keys. "I can ride with Alice." She smiled at me and went back inside. I loved Rosalie Hale with my entire being. She was the greatest God-send in this moment. I climbed into her BMW, starting it quickly, and tearing out of my driveway. I didn't have a clue where I wanted to go, but just drove. I focused on the roads, I didn't need to be in another accident. I spent a good half an hour just driving before I found myself on the parking lot over looking the beach where it all started. I turned the car off and got out. I closed the door, and stood in front of Rose's car. I half hoped to see the gang down on the beach playing around like nothing had ever happened. Emmett chasing Alice around with a water gun, Rose pissed because he got her wet. Edward and Jasper laughing at the scene before them.
I could remember the first time I saw Jasper's enchanting blue eyes. He saw me in the back of my Tahoe, being a loner. He smiled and asked me to join them. Simpler times. I leaned against the hood of the car. I remember the hot dogs. Emmett eating more then his share. Then the first party I ever attended in Forks. How I was drawn to Jasper. Kissing him that first time. I could still feel the sparks. Before I realized what I was doing I was walking slowly down the stairs to the beach. I went over to the log we always claimed. I sat on it, and stared into the permanent bonfire pit we had created.
I sniffed, not even knowing I had started crying. The tears fell softly from my eyes down my face, dripping on to my hoodie. I needed to make things right with Jasper. I was stupid to demand him to place all the blame on me. He was too much of a gentleman to even place half of it on me. I should have just told him to drop it, and to move on. It happened, now we were healthy and smarter. I knew what I had to do. I got up and went back up to the car. I got in and drove home. Not Charlie's house, because that would never be home, at least not without Jasper.
I could have driven there with my eyes closed. I knew the roads to his house like the back of my hand. I gave every metaphor to my driving to his house a cliche'd grouping. Finally I pulled up. I noticed his mom was home, hopefully she wouldn't put a damper on things. I parked the car, and ran to the door. I couldn't get inside and up those stairs fast enough. I knocked softly on his door, figuring it was locked. I heard him growl.
"Im coming hold your damn horses mom," I was caught off guard by that, but figured she must have realized he hadnt gone to school either. I heard him unlock his door, and pull it open. I didn't give him the chance to say anything before I was in his arms, kissing his lips with desperation.
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a/n: ok I need to clear something up, they still aren't back together, but it will be soon, maybe next chapter, maybe chapter 11.
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