"I love you Jasper." That was all Bella could say, she knew it was hard for him to have had to kill his brothers and sister and Bella also knew she was the reason. If only she had stayed away none of this would have happened, they would still be a family. Bella wouldn't exactly be happy but at least she would know that Jasper was happy with his family, now she will have to watch him everyday and now she was to blame for the sad look in his eyes when he looked at her.
Months went by and everything was going well, Bella and Jasper were happier, he was getting better by the day occasionally Bella would catch a glimpse of regret in his eyes but it would disappear quickly. Jasper enjoyed living with Peter and Char again he had missed them whilst he was living with the Cullen's, they had stayed away from each other because of the difference in diets but when Bella came on the scene Jasper happily reverted back to his human diet, he embraced his nature and so did Bella.
Jasper and Bella spent their time learning about each others histories including Jasper's time with Maria. Bella was fascinated, she spent hours questioning Jasper's every detail, everything she could she thirsted for knowledge about Jasper, there was nothing she didn't know about him, even things that the Cullen's and Peter didn't even know, they were mates in every sense of the word.
But doubts were beginning to nag at Bella about how much Jasper regretted, and with those doubts came Bella's instincts to Run and never stop running. She thought about how better off he would be without her, and how he could be free and himself without having to worry about her or what her reaction would be to something. Maybe he could even return to the Cullen's if he so desired, not that there was much to go back to but maybe Alice would be better for him than she was.
It was with this last thought that Bella made her final decision, she would wait for the most opportune time, but then she would run and leave Jasper behind, she couldn't stay and see those feelings in his eyes towards her any more, yes he may love her but the regret out weighed all of that.
It was turning out to be a sunny day when Bella decided that today was the day, Jasper was out hunting with Peter and Char had to run into town shopping, so Bella decided to go with her and then she would leave her at the shops, never looking back.
"Bye Jasper, I love you, have a good hunt." "Bye love, I'll see you when you get back from shopping, have fun with Char" He kissed her deeply before he turned and ran out the door with Peter hot on his heels, "Right Char let's go and shop," Bella said with a small smile, knowing Char hated shopping as much as she did.
They got to town half an hour later having driven, not wanting to draw attention with walking out of town with loads of bags, Bella had decided that she would shop with Char for a bit first then split up from her claiming she wanted to go to the book store knowing full well she wouldn't follow. An hour later Bella made her move and headed towards the book store, whilst Char went in the direction of the lingerie store, Bella told her she would meet her there.
Then once Char was out of sight Bella ran, past the shops, and kept going till she reached the edge of town, where she stopped, briefly looking back in the direction of where she knew the house was, "I love you Jasper, I always will now matter where I am" she whispered into the air around her knowing he will never hear the words, or know exactly how much she hurts doing this but she has to for him.
And so Bella ran and she ran stopping only long enough in each town to feed, just enough to keep her going. She headed South, she didn't know why but she knew that was where she needed to be and until she could find what she was looking for she would keep running and searching.
Sorry about this chapter but half way through writing it, i decided to put a sequel to it, this one is finished, abrupt i know but i wasn't sure where to take it without changing the story entirely. Please understand this is my first fanfic so i was kinda unsure what to do with the ideas in my head!
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