Truth
Hours passed before I finally gathered the courage to go back into the cabin.
I snuck in quietly,
hoping he'd be asleep.
Wrong.
It was as if
he were waiting for me.
Right.
When I entered,
he stood up.
"Allen."
I hoped he couldn't tell
I'd been crying.
Wrong.
He noticed almost
instantly.
"You were crying..."
What kind of response did he expect?
Yes Lavi, I was definitely crying over you
because I'm a good for nothing
weakling
who lets emotions
get in the way
of life.
And now what?
What is he going to do?
Patronize me for it?
Laugh in my face?
Beat me to a pulp?
Wrong.
He took me into his arms.
Something he's never done.
"God, Allen...I'm so sorry."
I melted instantly.
Why, you ask?
Why would I show affection
and such weakness
to the man
who...
Makes my life a living hell?
Who makes me feel uncomfortable in my own skin?
Who breaks every brick wall separating me from the world?
Who appears to have no feelings whatsoever towards my wellbeing?
Simple.
I love him.
God, I love this chapter. I love the ending of it. See, this whole story is pretty much about how Allen loves Lavi even after all of the horrible things he's done to him. It's a very strange relationship if you ask me. It's odd because they are both seeking love, but two completely different types of love. Lavi's love is obsession and desire, when Allen's love is comfort and understanding. It will most likely get even stranger later on.
And also...there's this grammer mistake in chapter two that keeps peeving me. It's not my fault though. The chapter itself was perfect but for some reason when I updated, the 'r' wasn't there. When I saw it, I said in exact words, "Fack."
