"And then we fucked" I said, ending my story of how Mr Belikov and I had gotten it on earlier that week. I was sitting in a coffee shop with Tasha and Lissa and telling them all about my little predicament of 'how the fuck can I pretend it didn't happen?'
"Bloody hell Rose! Like seriously, my mind is blown and I don't know what to say" Tasha said with a shocked yet deeply interested expression on her face.
"Well I know exactly what to say! How was it? Was he good? How big was he? How many times did you fuck? Did he make you-"
"Woah Liss, one question at a time! Yes he was good…very good actually, yes he was on the larger side of the spectrum, we only did it the once though….but ever since I can't stop bloody thinking about it. I mean sure I was the person who was like 'this was a mistake, don't mention it again' but now I'm the horny person who doesn't give a fuck, excuse the pun, about anything except getting his dick back inside of-"
"Hey, keep it pg. rated, we are in a coffee shop!" Tasha teased whilst giggling like a school girl.
"What am I going to do?" I asked them as I buried my hands into my wild brown hair. Looking around the café I probably shouldn't have been spilling my guts about an awesome fuck here: there were so many people here who were under the ages of 15.
"Well has Dimitri mentioned anything about it?" Lissa asked as she took a bite of her chocolate brownie.
"No, he just runs away every time we are alone in a room. He is fine when we are surrounded by people but as soon as it is just us two he makes any excuse to get the hell out of there".
"Classic Dimitri. You know he did the exact same thing in college when we had sex and then a week later I came out as lesbian, I think it's his way of-"
"Hold on, hold on. You guys had sex in college and then a week later you turned out to be a lesbian? Wow what a blow to his ego!" Lissa giggled and once again took a bite out of her brownie. Lissa was so excited and giggly I was beginning to wonder if that brownie was actually a space cake.
"What I don't understand is how you could have come out as a lesbian after he fucked you? I mean, come on Tasha he was probably the best fuck of my life so far!" I said…probably a tad bit too loudly as a table full of teenage boys turned to gape at me.
"Well I had a feeling I swung the other way, so I thought if anyone could prove I was a lesbian it would be Dimitri. You see in college he was known for his 'skill' in the bedroom, so I assumed that if I wasn't impressed by his handy work I most defiantly would be a lesbian. I still tease him now about he turned me lesbian" Tasha said giggling and Lissa and I joined in.
I bet that took the Russians ego down a notch.
"What is that look on your face for Rose?" Lissa asked me and I just smiled.
"I think I have a plan forming together" I stated before I signalled them closer and whispered my top secret mission: piss off Dimitri
… / ...
When we got home Dimitri was sat in the living room on his laptop and I could hear Adrian and his friend Evan from 'Thursday's day care' playing in Adrian's room.
"Hey, Mr Belikov, I hope you don't mind but I invited Lissa and Tasha back here" I stated.
"Oh no that's not a problem Miss Hathaway" Dimitri said as he turned to smile to the girls.
"I'll give you ladies some space" Dimitri said as he got up to move.
"Oh no, comrade, really it's not a problem, join us". Using his little nickname that I had developed for him before 'the accident' (as I refer to Adrian's fall) made Dimitri smile to himself and then nod and follow us to the kitchen.
Tasha was reaching up to get some glasses and a small sliver of her stomach was showing where her top had risen. Perfect.
"Oh Tasha, your skin looks so soft and creamy looking" I said as I came up from behind her and ran my hand over her skin. Tasha smiled, already 'in the know' of my plane.
"Why thank you Rose. Say who was it you said you were going on a date with tonight?" Tasha asked, trying to maintain her giggling as she pulled down four glasses.
"Yes rose what did you say his name was?" Lissa asked whilst she poured out four glasses of wine, passing one to everyone. Dimitri took a gulp-probably trying to help him endure this 'girl talk'.
"Oh actually it's not a he. I'm going on a date with a girl" I said, loud and clearly so that Dimitri could hear. His reaction was rather hilarious. He spat his mouthful of wine all over the kitchen counter and turned to gape at me.
"You're, you mean, you're a lesbian?!" he asked, mouth agape and his eyes wide.
"Well not usually, but since, you know, the other night…I've just been feeling very horny and turned on by women. I mean I think I might actually be a lesbian".
"What?" Dimitri said to himself and his eyebrows knitted together.
"I mean how? The fuck, seriously?" he asked in utter astonishment at me revelation.
"Yeah. I think when me and you had sex it all just clicked into place that it was girls that got me turned on and not guys. So I guess you could say you turned me lesbian". I tried to say it with a straight face, I really tried but the expression on Dimitri's face was just too hilarious.
Suddenly it all clicked and he looked at Tasha.
"You told her didn't you? God Tasha! And you rose; you made me believe that I had turned you into a lesbian! I mean ok Tasha I could cope with turning lesbian, but turning more than one girl lesbian is too much. You had me doubting my skilled ability to fuck" Dimitri said, looking pissed off and amused at the same time.
"Whoa, calm down there Mr Ego, I didn't mean to make you doubt your abilities, but I can't believe you actually turned a girl lesbian!" I said giggling like a school girl, and the scowl on Dimitri's face just made me laugh all that much harder.
"For the last time she was already a fucking lesbian. My dick had nothing to do with turning her off men" Dimitri hissed through his teeth and looked as though he was about to stomp his foot in a tantrum.
"Oh come on comrade, don't be like that it was just a little joke" I said giggling and sipped my wine.
…
/
"So Rosie how was your day? Mine was great, I'm seeing Evan again next Saturday, plus I will see him on Thursday! He did the funniest thing today.." and as Adrian explained his day to me I couldn't help but smile at the beautiful, intelligent and bubbly boy who was excited to tell me about his daily adventure.
Adrian truly was a fantastic kid and I realised I would lay my own life down to save his. I had only known him for a few weeks and that made me disappointed, disappointed in the fact that I had missed all the funny things he had said in the four years prior to our meeting. It made me confused as to why Adrian's mother hadn't stuck around for this beautiful boy…all I knew was that she was 'absent' from his life, but I had the feeling her absence was of her own decision, why she chose that I had no idea.
"Baby I think you need your beauty sleep. Get some rest and you can tell me all about it tomorrow." I said as I tucked Adrian into his bed and gave him a kiss on the forehead- it had become out nightly routine.
"You know I like having you around Rosie poo. It's like having a really cool mum to look after me. I love you" he said, with his wide, stunning green eyes looking up at me, waiting to register my reaction to his words.
"I'm glad you like me being around, because I plan to look after you for a long time baby. I love you too" I said smiling from ear to ear.
"Good night baby" I said as I turned to leave.
"Rose?" I heard him call out from the dark, with only his small night light illuminating his gorgeous face.
"Yeah?" I replied as I stood waiting by his door.
"How come my mummy didn't love me?" he asked, his sweet voice laced with confusion and depth for such a young age.
"Oh baby I'm sure your mummy loves you very much". What was I meant to say in this situation? How was I meant to handle it?
"No she didn't. If she did she wouldn't have left me and daddy. Sometimes I think it's my fault."
"You think what is your fault?" I question as I move from my spot by the door to sitting by Adrian on his bed.
"That daddy is so sad all the time. It's my fault that mummy left and so it's my fault daddy is sad. That's why I like you being here. Daddy hasn't been so sad since you turned up" Adrian whispered, but smiled at the last part of his sentence.
"Oh sweetheart your mummy didn't leave because she didn't love you and daddy defiantly doesn't blame you for it. Your daddy loves you very much and he isn't sad baby. He is happy and full of love from the love you give him. Honey it isn't your fault if daddy is sometimes sad about something."
"Sometimes I feel as though daddy doesn't love me as much anymore. He's always working as though he doesn't want to spend time with me" Adrian muttered under his breath and a stray tear slipped down my cheek. How could this little boy not think he was loved?
"No baby, daddy works a lot because he was to, not because he wants to." Adrian just nodded.
"Your daddy and I love you very much you know that right?"
"Sometimes I like to pretend that you are my mummy" Adrian whispered barely audible. I gasped, not expecting his words.
"Adrian, you know that I am just your nanny right? I may love you like you are my own son but you do know that your daddy and I aren't a couple right?"
"I know that, I'm not stupid Rosie! I just like to imagine what it would be like to have a proper family" he said, smiling sadly. This was all a bit too deep for me to handle.
"Baby we are a family, a slightly dysfunctional one, but a family none the less. There is daddy Dimitri, baby Adrian and nanny Rose" I stated.
"I'm not a baby anymore though Rosie".
"No, you Adrian are not a baby, you are the funniest, sweetest, kindest, smartest and handsomest kid I have ever met and I love you very much" I said smiling with tears in my eyes. Seriously this kid was going far in life and was the most epic boy I had ever met.
"Now get some sleep, I will see you in the morning" I said and kissed his forehead when walking out the door. I pulled the door to so that it was only slightly ajar and then the tears came.
The tears were flowing full course as I tried to sweep them away as I made my way to Dimitri's room.
"Ah there you are. You know after that little stunt you pulled earlier about the whole 'I'm a lesbian' thing I should pull you across my knee and spank you for being a naughty girl" Dimitri said huskily from behind me as he wrapped his arms around me.
Finally I was getting the attention from his that I had been craving ever since we had fucked. And damn that sounded hot-he wants to spank me? Don't mind if I do Mr Belikov, the man in control.
All worries about Adrian had vanished for that time being as I was totally engrossed in everything that was Dimitri.
"Spank me you say? And then what would you do to me after that comrade?" I say in a sexy, sultry voice. Dimitri spun me around and pushed me up against a wall.
"And then I will-have you been crying Roza?" Dimitri asks. Then all my conversation with Adrian comes flooding back to me and I feel guilty for forgetting about it even for the smallest of moments.
I nod my head and Dimitri pulls me towards him in a tight embrace.
"Please don't cry Roza. God I feel like an ass for making a pass at you whilst you were upset. And I know you said it was a mistake but I can't stop thinking about you. Are you crying over that? Is it because I have been really distant this week? It's only because I thought that is wanted" Dimitri said and I rolled my eyes at his Mr Ego coming back out.
"No, it's not that" I mutter and I feel Dimitri pull me to his room and sit me on his bed, him sitting next to me.
"What is it rose, your worrying me know" Dimitri said as he rubbed soothing circles on my back. Having his hands on me had my head spinning and I found it hard to concentrate and find the right words. Instead it came out so harsh and blunt.
"Adrian doesn't think you love him" I choked out. Dimitri's face went from one of shock, to confusion to pain and I couldn't help but reach out and bury my face into his neck, taking comfort from his embrace and Dimitri no doubt doing the same from mine.
"Why would he think that?" Dimitri asked in a robotic state as though his body had gone into shock.
"He said that because you worked a lot he felt as though you didn't want to spend time with him. He also said that you blamed him for his mother leaving you two" I whispered. Dimitri's grip on me tightened to the point of pain.
"Did you tell him that? Are you trying to manipulate him against me?" his voice dripping with venom.
"What? No I love that boy and you are a great father to him, why would I poison him against you?" I said shocked and astounded that Dimitri would think such lowly of me.
"You wouldn't be the first women to enter my home and try to manipulate Adrian into getting their own way and most importantly into my pants. But for some reason I seemed to have allowed you to jump straight into mine no questions asked, so if I find out that you have been saying things to my son to get into my bank account like all the other whore of a nanny's I have employed then I will be very angry rose. Very fucking angry" Dimitri seethed and pushed me away from him.
"Oh it's probably because I have a tight ass and big tits. Believe me Dimitri you wanted into my pants, not the other way round, if it was you wouldn't have assaulted me in the hallway trying to talk dirty to me. Now listen here mister. If I wanted to manipulate you into getting my own way I could without the use of Adrian. I could get you to fuck me in an instance, to buy me anything I wanted, after all do you remember when we fucked and you ripped me dress, what was it that you said to me? Oh I remember 'at this moment I would buy you anything you asked for'…you see I can control you without the need for Adrian. But I don't. I won't ever manipulate you into getting your money or gifts from you because I'm not the type of whore to do that.
I am however the type of whore that would manipulate you into fucking me, but quite frankly I don't need to manipulate you because you want to fuck me anyway. But how dare you accuse me of using your son to get into your pants to get your money. I love that boy more than I have ever loved anyone before and for you to accuse me of being a gold digger it makes me very angry. Very angry indeed Dimitri". I edged closer so that there was only a couple centimetres between us.
"How dare you say that my love for that boy isn't real? Because it is. And that is why Adrian never questioned my love for him, because I'm always there for him. It was your love he questioned. Why do you think that is? Possibly because you are never around? I get it you have an important job but your son is far more important. You want him to have the best, I understand. But all he cares about is that his dad is with him-heck he's already lost his mother he doesn't want his father to be an unfulfilled void in his life. Do you know what Adrian said to me? He told me that sometimes he pretends I am his mum. And that meant the world to me because I know that I have made a good impression on his life without the need to manipulate him into saying anything like that, I have earned his love unlike those creepy whores of a nanny before me, so don't you ever compare me to them again. Now if that boy doesn't think you love him, we need to fucking show him how much we do love him and you need to stop taking your anger out on me!"
Oh fuck. I had most defiantly put my foot in it. Our bodies were nearly touching, our faces mere centimetres away from one another.
"I have so much respect for you for saying that to me. If I didn't have to deal with this situation I would be fucking you so hard and passionately right now" Dimitri said in a husky tone. So standing up for myself and being fiery turned him on? Good to know for future reference.
I smiled up at him.
"You're still a jackass" I said before I got on my tip toes and gave him a peck on the lips.
"Roza what am I going to do? My own son thinks I don't love him…how fucked up is that".
I stepped into his embrace and buried my face in the crook of his neck. Mmmm. He smelt so damn good.
"Take tomorrow off work should be the first step, and that's all you have to do tonight…so that means if you wanted to, we could, perhaps…yanoe?"
And before I could finish I was stripped off naked and pushed onto Dimitri's bed.
… / …
When I woke up I pleasantly found my limbs intertwined with a certain Russians. Looking over at the clock I could see it was quarter past 8 in the morning. I smiled to myself because this meant Dimitri had taken my advice and stayed off work today to spend with Adrian.
"Morning sleepy head, how are you feeling?" Dimitri's sexy morning voice said. I never thought I would describe someone's voice in the morning as sexy, but Dimitri's voice was huskier than normal and had a thicker Russian accent….mmmmm.
"Morning Comrade, and I'm feeling…sore" I said as I moved my legs and felt achy and sore down below where a certain Russian member had been only hours before (to put it bluntly we fucked on and off throughout the whole night).
"Hmm, I was expecting more of a 'thoroughly well fucked, or incredibly satisfied' type of answer" Dimitri teased.
"Well I'm sorry that I didn't stroke your already huge ego" I laughed which was shocking to me because I am not, I repeat NOT a morning person.
"No I'm afraid you didn't…but last night you did, on many occasions, stroke my huge dic-" I cut him off by throwing a pillow at him.
"Well as much as I don't want to admit it you should take me soreness as a compliment for your huge ego because my soreness is due to another huge thing of yours constantly fucking me last night" I said and threw another pillow at him.
"Hmm that is more like it" he said as he pulled me over for a kiss.
"So what are we going to do today?"
"I was thinking the park; have a picnic…make a day of it since you have taken the day off?"
