Hey Pyrrha,

It's been an...emotional week. Your father has been training me nonstop since I got here and I have vastly improved. He taught me a mix of your style along with improving my sword and shield combo. I can see how you were so strong Pyr, Your dad is a monster. I was able to last for a full two minutes with him before he utterly decimated me. He complimented on how fast I had learned his moves and said that hes never seen someone learn as fast as I had. I thanked him and we sat down to take a break, He then asked hesitantly if you had made friends while at beacon. I said that you made plenty of friends including myself, our team, and team RWBY. He gave me a sad smile and said that he was glad you were able to finally make new friendships that would be real and friends that didn't treat you like a god. I said that you were the reason I was able to actually fight. I talked of how you trained me and how you made me so much stronger. He smiled again and said that he was glad you met such a good guy like me. We sat in comfortable silence until he said that we trained enough for one day and he expected me to come again tomorrow for more. I told him that I would be there, said goodbye to him and your mother and went back to our hotel. Even though I've been training with your dad Pyr I still practice with that video you made for me. It helps me clear my thoughts and makes me feel at peace when I hear your voice. When I got back to the hotel I was met with Ruby sitting on my bed waiting for me to return. I asked her why she has been waiting for me and she said that we needed to talk. I sat down across from her on the other bed and she started to talk. Ruby talked of how she knew about me constantly staying up late to train with your instructional video. I asked her what the problem with that was and she started to lecture me. She talked about how it was unhealthy of me to be staying up so late and how that if I don't stop watching your video I won't ever move on. I started to get angry and told her that the video is all I have left of you and there was no way in hell I was stopping. She then started to yell at me that she understood that I was still hurting and I can move on in my own way. I then retorted that I'm moving on but it's harder for me than it is for her. She then yelled that I wasn't the one that watched you die. Her eyes widened and she knew she went too far and started to apologize when I interrupted her. I then said with venom in a low voice that it was worse for me because I was the one you left behind. I was the one you forced to run. I was the one you wouldn't even let help. I was the one shoved into a locker and sent away. I was the one you kissed and left behind. I WAS THE ONE WHO LOST THEIR FIRST LOVE! I started to pant and tears started to come out of my eyes. She then reached out to comfort me but I recoiled and didn't let her touch me. I told her to leave me alone and not talk to me for the rest of the night. She started to walk out the door and said silently that she was sorry. I didn't respond as I looked at the floor with tears streaming down my face. I asked why you left me Pyr. Why you didn't at least wait for help. Why you didn't just run with me to live another day. You made me feel like the lovable idiot stuck in the tree while his friends and love fought for their lives. I just want to know what you were thinking Pyr. But I won't know until I die. Til I talk to you again Pyr. Your knight and only yours, Jaune Arc.