Chapter 9

Bella POV

I wrapped my arms around my middle as I ran through the small town. I knew what was coming up. My house. Charlie's house. I looked over and saw Charlie getting out of his cruiser. He looked so sad. My heart broke more. Sobs shook me as I ran to the arena.

When I got there I fixed my wig. Then I put on a pair of silver glasses on, with a dark blue tank top and a white crop jacket over that. Dark blue jeans with white sneakers completed my outfit. I looked great but I felt horrible. I cant do this. Yes I can. No I cant. I'll just leave. "5 minutes." Ryan said from outside the door. I can do this. No I cant. But I have too.

I tucked in my wings. And walked out. I walked onto the stage and immediately smelled vampire. I looked to my left in the first row was 2 girls. A small pixie looking one with black spiky hair and a model looking women with gorgeous blonde hair. They watched me in fascination and excitement. I noticed they also had backstage passes around their neck.

"Okay. Everyone, this is my last concert in America." I said. I heard 'aww's' from the audience and gave a small smile. "So this is going to be a great concert! I have all new songs. So here we go." I shouted. "I am Princess Emma Annabel Mason!" I shouted then began my song.

I came to this place just looking around

I didn't come to seek anything out

But in the end I saw way too many things

More bad than good

I saw my old house from so very far

I saw my father getting our of his car

But worst of all

Was the expression on his face

Not one of happiness but of pain

Just seeing him made me cry

And wish I could go back in time

To fix everything

But then I wondered would I be up on this stage

If I never had a boyfriend and never saw the light of day

But I cant go back in time

So I guess I have to live with this crime

Of all my memories

There are more bad than good

Everything happens for a reason people say

But 'why?' is all I have to ask

Why is this happening to me?

Why did I make love?

Why did my heart break?

When he didn't come home last night

When I stayed up and cried

When my children called out his name

When tears came to my eyes

When my children left this world

When I was alone

When someone took me in

And gave me a home

And now look at me

You would think I am oh so happy

Because that's what it looks like from the outside

But definitely not on the inside

I just don't want to live anymore

Everything has been taken from me

I just don't want to live anymore

Please just take me away

I don't deserve to live for eternity

I finished the song and tried to not to remember what that song meant to me while I looked around. Everyone was clapping and or whistling. "Thank You. That was called, 'Why?'" I spoke then started my next song.

As I stand here and sing

There are many questions unanswered

For example where have you been all my life?

And why did you leave me to die?

As I look back

I wonder why I am not already dead

Because my heart is broken

From many things

Too many things if you ask me

It is cracked straight down the middle

And it wont ever be repaired

It cant ever be repaired

I can never love anyone else as much

I can never fill their spots

I can never forget my family

I can never revisit the happy times

All I can do is feel guilty

My heart is broken

Cracked straight down the middle

It cant ever be repaired

I wonder why I can still stand here

I feel like I am gonna fall

I want to just go sit in the corner in a ball

And cry out my feelings and beg god to give me back

Something to live for..

Because my heart is broken

Cracked straight down the middle

It cant ever be repaired

I need something to live for..

"That was Broken." I said. "Okay. Now we have 2 songs left." I yelled and continued.

That is so great

Then it turns bad

That is my life

Anything good anything bad

Was always worse then it could be

I could never have my happy ending

When I meet a guy

And we have a connection

And he seems so nice and sweet

He just gets taken away from me

And I have finally figured out why

I didn't deserve him

I don't deserve this life

I don't deserve anything great

I don't deserve anything

Nothing at all

So after I figured this

I decided to tell myself the truth

I am so ugly and worthless

I am so stupid and fat

I am so rude and mean

That I don't deserve anything

I mean anything at all

I don't deserve

Anything nor anybody

I don't deserve you..

Because your so cute and charming

I watch you mess up your beautiful bronze hair

And your cute green eyes that watched my every move

And when I messed up you told me you'll be there for me

And you were always there for me until the last moment

But you are still better than me

I don't deserve you

I don't deserve you..

"Thanks Everyone. That was 'I don't deserve you.' And here is my last song." I yelled.

I got through it

I got through it

Was what I thought

In my mind

I laid on the hospital bed

With my beautiful babies in my arms

Then you came over

And asked to hold your children

I handed you the little boy

While I held our little girl

I watched you rock him back and forth

And I realized you were meant to be a father

And I knew that you were going to be the greatest dad

Anyone could have

And I smiled at the thought

Of our children and you and me

But then came December and you disappeared

From this town from this universe

We searched and searched

But nothing came up

Then I was alone

With my two children

And you were gone

My heart broke into a million pieces

Or so I thought

But it happened all over again

Later on

And even though my heart isn't beating

I continue to be in pain

I will always be in pain

From losing you

"Thanks everyone. That was Losing You. I hope you enjoyed my concert. Goodnight Forks, Washington." I yelled. And ran off stage. I went into my dressing room. I sat down in my chair and was about to take off my wig when there was a knock on the door. "Come in." I said. And the two vampires came in. The pixie one was literally bouncing. "Hi, I'm Alice." She said. "I'm Rosalie." The blonde said. "Hello, Alice and Rosalie. I'm Emma. Nice to meet you." I said politely. "Are you a vegetarian?" Alice asked. "Yes." I responded. "Us too." She said, excitedly.

"Wait then why do you have glasses on?" Rosalie asked. "One of my abilities is to shoot laser beam out of my eyes. I need the glasses to keep them away." I said. "That is so cool!" Alice yelled excitedly. "One!?" Rosalie asked. "Yes. I am also immune to human blood, I have a mind shield, I phase, and I have wings that change color with my emotions." I said. "Where are your wings?" She asked. "Well they are tucked in right now. Do you guys have any abilities?" I asked.

"I can see the future." Alice said. "I don't have one. But two other family members do." Rosalie said. "Others?" I asked. "Ya. Our family." Alice said. "How many?" I asked. "Counting us.. 7." Rosalie said. "Wow." I said. "Do you have a coven?" They asked. "Um.. Yes." I said. "I have to go now." I said. "Okay. See you at the coronation?" Rosalie asked. "What?" I asked. "The Voultri are going to show the new stuck up princess tomorrow." Alice said. Stuck up? Tomorrow? "Tomorrow? And how do you know she is stuck up?" I asked. "Everybody from the royal line usually is. And didn't you get the invite?" Alice asked. "Um.. I must have but I haven't checked my mail." I responded.

"So see you at the coronation?" Rosalie asked. "Yes, You definitely will." I responded. Then we all said goodbyes and I quickly changed into myself and grabbed my bag and ran. I grabbed my cell out and called Aro.

"Hello?"

"Aro."

"Bella, your coming home now?"

"Aro."

"What my dear?"

"When were you going to tell me that my coronation is tomorrow?"

"Oh."

"Yes, Oh."

"It was going to be a surprise."

"I don't like surprises."

"Well it's tomorrow. There no more surprise. Now hurry home."

"Fine."

"See you soon, Isabella."

"Bye."

Then I hung up and kept running. I thought about meeting Alice and Rosalie. Other vegetarians. I thought about my songs and my father. I thought about Forks, Washington. I thought about being the Princess Of The Voultri. I thought about Edward Jr. and Annabel. And finally I thought about my one and only love Edward Anthony Mason.

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Thanks, Vanessa

(Vanessa Cullen 17)