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Hey a lot of you guys have been asking me to update soon. However, I feel like there are about 4 or 5 chapters left of this story and I don't want to mess them up. Which is why I will probably take a week to write one chapter so expect an update at least once a week. As for the whole Edward aloofness, it will be explained and they will end up together. I love happy endings and this story will have one. Thanks to everyone who reviewed I love you guys. Ok enough of my mindless babbling on with the story.

Love Always,

Jalila


Waking up in the morning was close to impossible but had to be done or else a pixie would come into my room and drag me out. I looked at the clock hanging on the north wall of the kitchen realizing I was early but I didn't want to arrive at the Cullen household yet. Prolonging the appointment I had with my friends I turned on the television and watched infomercials until my phone rang leaving me no choice but to answer it.

"Sorry," I began. "Rose or Alice or whoever I know that I'm starting the day off a bit late but I'll be there as soon as I can. Besides when are we ever tardy."

"Fine Bells but get your but here. Esme made some omelets for us and you have no idea what you are missing."

"Em don't eat all of it I'm out the door and heading over. See you in 5."

"Alright Bye."

The minutes seemed to go by incredibly fast. Five minutes turned out to be three. In all honesty I hadn't meant to go over 80 it's just…when I'm nervous I tend to speed…a little. The house was the same, the people the same and I was…well I don't know what I was. Alice was at the door as usual leading me into the kitchen where my food was served although it was cold. My plate was left untouched as the rest ate silently wondering what I was thinking not entirely sure if I wanted to speak. When everyone was done I drove us all the school.

First period had gone by extremely slow. At first I thought having Edward in a couple of my classes was going to be great but when awkward silence took the place of friendly conversation it wasn't a comfortable environment. I had tried to start a conversation, numerous ones actually, none of them had succeeded because he would say something that would stop me from responding.

All my intents were futile and I couldn't understand why he wasn't even talking to me. I understood he didn't like me (in a romantic way at least) that didn't mean we couldn't be friends. The rest of the day was the same Edward was quiet while the rest of us engaged in small rants arguing which is better or which is sweeter etc. I would catch his eye from time to time when I felt his gaze but he would quickly turn his head after being caught.

The final bell rang and I sprinted to my car wanting to forget about the horrible day school had brought on. High school is such a cliché place to let drama unfold but hey I am a teenager and that is what we are known for. Twenty minutes later Rose and Emmett arrived opening the back door allowing me to drive them home in 10 minutes flat.

"Personal best Bella." Rose noted.

"I know." My phone rang but I didn't want to answer it knowing it would most likely be my mother. Anyone that would call me was already near me so no need for them to call at the moment. We entered the living room each choosing a place to sit and watch whatever mediocre show was playing on the screen. The constant vibration that I felt from my back pocket was beginning to get annoying so I gave in and answered my phone.

"Hello?"

"Hey Bells its Jake I've been trying to reach you for a while."

"I'm sorry I didn't pick up earlier so what am I good for?"

"There is something I want to tell you. Is there any way you might be able to get here before it gets to late?"

"No worries I'm there."

"Alone."

"Uh…sure. See you in a bit."

My goodbyes to everyone weren't necessary as they listened to me say I would meet someone in a few minutes. They still had a difficult time leaving me seeing as how the last time I left there home I ended up miles away.

I drove the distance to La Push meeting up with Jake outside in his garage. He was fixing a bike while humming to a song that sounded like James Blunts Your Beautiful. I cleared my throat so he could hear me.

"Sorry Bells didn't hear you come in. Pull up a chair." The only thing you could sit on was a rusty stool by all the tools.

"What's this thing you couldn't tell me over the phone. I'm anxious and that little line caught my attention now spill."

"I don't exactly know how to tell you."

"The say it all at once without stopping to see my reaction."

"I fell in love with Leah and I don't know how to tell Sam. He's been my friend for years he's like a brother to me. Knowing that I'm dating his ex-girlfriend is killing me inside I owe him some sort of explanation right. There's no way he could be mad about it right. He is dating Emily there's no reason for him to be jealous."

"Wow! We skip out on a weekend together and you fall in love."

"Bella please I really don't know what to do."

"What does your heart tell you to do Jacob? Whatever direction it takes you to is most likely the right one."

"At the moment I want everyone to know I'm in love with Leah and I want to stop hiding my relationship."

"Then tell Sam but make sure to talk to Leah about it first."

"She already knows I want to tell him and she's fine with it. I just… I need to make sure it's the correct thing to do."

"Do you fell guilty every time Sam comes up in a conversation between you and Leah?"

"Yes." He smiled sheepishly.

"Then you know your answer. Sam will be fine with it I'm positive. Remember how he acted when he realized he loved Emily and not Leah. He told her didn't he and know she has you. If you make her happy than Sam will be happy."

"I guess you're right," he smiled at me. "Damn, I wanted to find the solution myself but here you come and say everything I needed to hear. Everything makes sense when you explain it. Why is that by the way?"

"Because I'm awesome that and the fact that I can cook like no other teenager in the planet."

"Let's forget about me for a second. I heard your mom was getting married again. How are you?"

"Who told you that?"

"Alice, they called me to know if you were down here that day you disappeared. Of course you know I made them tell me everything," sometimes being a single child had its advantages. "California. Really Bells you ran away to California."

"Hey in my defense I wasn't paying attention to the road. I drove until I came to a stop."

"What were you thinking about so hard?" He pulled me from the stool and we began to walk into the woods. The same trail we had gone through when we were little.

"Everything. My mother was my main concern. I was upset she hadn't told me anything about Phil. When I met him for the first time all I could see was the love he had for my mother. He won't hurt her and I trust him. Yes, he's young but she deserves her chance at happiness." We stopped and sat our backs leaning on the base of a tree.

"That's half of the story now what's the rest." Ugh. This is the conversation I didn't want to have.

"She asked me to move in with her in Seattle."

"You're moving." His eyes almost popped out of his head. "You'll at least visit."

"I'm not going anywhere."

"Why not? You always wanted to live closer to her." He rose an eyebrow looking as if he was trying to finish a puzzle but was missing a piece.

"That's exactly what I'm asking myself." My voice sounded sad even to myself.

"What do you mean?"

"It's simple Jake," I exhaled. "I fell in love with Edward."

"I knew it." He smiled hugely.

"How could you know it? I've only known it for about two days."

"That day when I went to you house. He looked at you the same way I look at Leah."

"You're wrong" I retorted bitterly.

"What?"

"I love him he doesn't love me." My heart sank a little when I took in mind what I had just said.

"How do you know? Have you asked him?"

"I didn't need to what he's done is enough to prove it."

"Seriously Bells, this cryptic thing you're pulling is starting to hurt my head." He teased trying to lighten the mood.

"The night I came back everything was fine. He told me he didn't want me to leave and I was ecstatic. The next morning wasn't as happy though. Edward was cold and distant. No matter what I did he pulled away from me. Today was no different. In school he kept quiet and spoke only when asked something directly." Tears were threatening to leave my eyes but I wouldn't cry.

"What are you going to do?"

"The wedding is this weekend. If Edward and I stay in the same place we are now then I have no other choice than to leave. They are the only family he has left and I don't want to make him feel uncomfortable."

"Bella this is your home as well. Everyone here knows you."

"I know."

"Promise me you will think about this before making a decision that you'll end up regretting."

We stopped any conversation that had to do with love or anything that would put a damp on the rest of the day. Instead we once again broke out the two bikes we had bought two years ago and drove around in circles. No one ever knew what it was we did when we were alone in a clearing and we took extreme precautions to keep it that way. If my mother found out we rode bikes I'm pretty sure I would have been out of here so fast I wouldn't be able to say bye to anyone.

Speed was my guilty pleasure in everything else I played it safe. The thrill was exhilarating. Before either one of us noticed it was twilight. We placed the bikes behind the bushes where we keep them hidden before I left I promised to return sometime during the week.

My front door was open when I arrived home which only meant one thing. I parked the car in the garage and opened the door leading to the house.

"Honey I'm home." I called out.

"In the living room darling." Everyone was staring at the screen watching what seemed to be Texas Chainsaw Massacre. My eyes stayed on Edward and sat on the opposite side of where he was.

"Where did you run off to Bella?" Jasper asked with a smirk on his face.

"Had a little one on one with Jacob."

"Did you run off to your little secret place again?" Emmett asked. "What do you guys do there? You know what never mind I don't think I want to know."

"Nice Em." I scowled though he did nothing but laugh.

"Bella I'm curious myself. What do you do out there?" Great Rose can't drop anything like Alice once it's brought up.

"We talk. That's all we do."

"Bella you honestly expect us to believe that after all these years of being Jacobs friend you haven't ever thought of him as more than a friend." I couldn't help but look at Edward from the corner of my eye. He had a grim expression but remained silent.

"No, we have never even had that as an option. Besides after what he told me today I don't think it will be on the menu even if we wanted it."

"What's that suppose to mean?" I had just piqued Alice's curiosity.

"It means that you should all worry about your own love life and leave mine alone."

"Ah so there is something." Emmett noted. I remained quiet until I heard Edward speak.

"Is there something?"

"I'm tired and I'm sure you all know where your rooms are so have fun."

I went upstairs and locked my door. I didn't want any late night visits. I showered and changed into my nightgown before jumping on my bed and falling asleep.