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Chapter 9
"I…." Rivaille starts to answer but he can't tell her yet the truth. He is still not sure so he just lied "I was just taking consideration that you looked more pathetic and you're not even able to finish the food. It'll be rude of me if I just leave you here after inviting you. Besides you should thank me for helping you." Rivaille answered. He couldn't say it yet. Not this time since he still doesn't know what would be her feelings if she finds out.
"Oh…" Mikasa said as she dropped her face looking at ground and her locks are covering her eyes. She was hurt. Rivaille didn't mean to snap at her like that. He was too confused on what to answer but when he tried to open his mouth to apologize, he was stopped by Mikasa first "I didn't mean to burden you with all these things that you're doing for me. But first of all I didn't ask for your help. I would have appreciated it if you have left me here already and that's fine to me. If it's all what you think of me now then I'm sorry that I looked like this. Looking weak and pathetic as you said. And I'm all sorry for what I did back then and because of that, you were injured due to my carelessness." Mikasa stood up and faces him with flat emotion. "But thank you all for the effort, Sir. I won't bother you again. I'll take my leave now and proceed to the Introductory Ceremony" With all that, Mikasa left.
Rivaille was left sitting speechless. He felt sorry for what he had said to her. 'Tsk…What the fuck did I just said to her?' he covered his face with one palm. Regretting all the words he said.
Mikasa left the cafeteria and starts proceeding to the training field. She suddenly felt tear drops falling from her eyes and her body trembles as her tears starts to fall to the ground. Good thing there's no one around to see her crying like that. She is deeply hurt but what the Corporal had said to her is also the truth. 'I failed to be there for Eren and now this' she told herself as she started caressing her arm with a sling. If only other people told her about that, she would be all care less and wouldn't all affected by it easily but by Rivaille, It almost felt like a slice right through the chest. 'Why was he acting all caring on the first place anyway? I should blame him though for making me feel like this…Why the hell did I like him then…' she asked herself as she let her tears fall for a few seconds. 'It'll be too damn weird if he finds this feeling of mine…He'll reject me on the spot for sure. He won't even give a damn about it.' she concluded herself as she wipes her tears and starts walking again.
"Fuck!" Rivaille said it out aloud. He was alone at the cafeteria. He's mad at himself for acting like a crap on her. He abruptly stood up from his seat to catch up on her and apologize for what he had said to her but he stopped himself from doing so because it's still noon and he didn't want anyone to see them arguing like a couple outside. Much more that he's the corporal who is known for having a rude attitude and apologizing isn't much part of his vocabulary. 'I'll just talk to her later' he told himself and sighed. 'Or probably I'll just tell her if it's necessary' He said and then went outside.
Rivaille and Mikasa soon met on the stage facing the new recruits for Scouting Legion. Rivaille spared a glance on Mikasa who's only looking in front of the recruits with flat face. He was expecting to see a hurt emotion on her face but he found none. It's expected on her since she doesn't show much emotions but what happened earlier, he surely saw a hurt on her eyes. He wants to punch himself right on the spot for doing that to her when he suddenly heard the new recruits mumbling 'He's so cute!' a girl near the stage said 'He's amazing!' another girl said 'He's too hot, I would definitely wanna date him' another one said 'He's way too good on combat as what one of our seniors said, and he's definitely handsome!' 'kyaa!~' as girls started swooning his name and aweing while the guys only sweatdropped at the girls' reactions.
Yes, Corporal Rivaille has fangirls now. Rivaille stood there and kept his flat face waiting for them to quiet down and Mikasa slowly looked at the side. Rivaille didn't miss that one. He had gotten curious of her reaction at the moment. He didn't wait any longer so he started the introduction 'Today's assembly, is for welcoming you the new recruits for our legion. The Commander isn't here for a while along with the other officers as they went outside for a mission so I'll be here on his stead to welcome you all. I'm Corporal Rivaille and beside me is the top notching student on the 104th trainees squad and is now member of the survey corps, Mikasa Ackerman" Rivaille started to introduce himself and Mikasa." Upon entering this group, you'll still have another training here in terms of combat and use of three dimensional maneuver gear. I'm here to instruct you and polish your movements unlike what you did back when you were still trainees." Upon saying it, the girls started to swoon him again. 'He's gonna train us! Kyaaa!' The girls started fangirling then. Rivaille coughs as he continues "I expect you to be early tomorrow as I evaluate your use of 3 dimensional maneuver gear, so prepare yourselves and this won't be easy...That'll be all and good day" Rivaille finished the speech and walks behind the stage and Mikasa follows. The girls on the new recruits never stopped fangirling on Rivaille. "Tsk...I knew it. This is gonna be all shitty. Why would I even instruct these shitty brats." He said out aloud. Mikasa only remained silent upon what Rivaille had commented. He forgot that Mikasa was there and he immediately faced her. She didn't let him talk when he was about to open his mouth "I believe that would be all in my schedule, Heichou. I will proceed to my room now to change this dirtied sling" Mikasa said and she walks away. Rivaille was again speechless and finding out that Mikasa is really upset of what he had done to her earlier. He wanted to catch up on her again but the other members of the corps approaches him for some important matters. He sighed and just proceeded to his work.
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Mikasa had changed her sling and prepares for tomorrow's activity. She asked her senpais if there is anything she can help but they only told her to rest up. Hanji probably told everyone who lives where she is staying to not let her work much. Mikasa sighed and just stayed to her room until it's almost dinner time. A knock on the door was heard and Mikasa thought it's probably one of her mates to ask her if she will go on the cafeteria for dinner. Upon opening the door she was surprised that it was Rivaille. And he's breathing fast?
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Rivaille still couldn't shake from his head from what happened and he badly wanted to talk to Mikasa now. His work had gotten on his way so he waited until it's dinner. As the sun started to set, he finished all what he had to do and then he rushes afterwards to where Mikasa is currently staying. His leg is better now but he kind of overworked it when he tried to ran so it somewhat gave him a slight pain on his calf. As he reached to her door, he immediately knocks on it and gladly the girl opens it. Before Mikasa could cut him off again he immediately asked her "Can I...Can I talk to you?" Rivaille as he panted from running. He knows that he must have surprised Mikasa due to her gaping reaction. "Umm... Alright" Mikasa responded as he let the Corporal inside her room.
Mikasa didn't say anything yet and She just waited for the man to say something besides he's the one who went there for business. "I...I wanted to apologize on what I've had said on you earlier... I didn't mean to" Rivaille said. She didn't hesitate on what he said and just accepted it "It's okay, Sir, you didn't have to apologize. I figured out that it's my fault for putting such burden on you and you've just done it for what's necessary..." Mikasa replied back. 'How can she be so selfish for just accepting the blame which it isn't even hers' Rivaille had it, he needed to let it out as he speaks "Mikasa.." Rivaille said as Mikasa is surprised again for calling her first name "Why..Why are you so stubborn?" Rivaille is feeling tightness on his chest. Mikasa wants to retort about the issue he just said but she remained calm "What do you mean, Sir? are you here to reprimand me and my weakness again? If you excuse me, I've had all it and there's no need to emphasize it." Mikasa said as she proceeds to the door to go out. Rivaille immediately grabs her arm and forcefully faced her. "Why can't you at least think about yourself for once!? You worry a lot about the other people but for yourself you can't!" Rivaille said louder. Mikasa was shocked and she didn't expect that he'll be like that. It's still unclear for her why is he acting like that. "Heichou…." She said as she struggled a bit from his hold.
Rivaille almost loses his cool but he need to tell her what he feels. "Eren...why are you so clingy on him?! Do you love him?!" Rivaille said as he tried to shake her "I...I don't know" she said "Just answer me dammit!" Rivaille shouted. He didn't know what he was doing but he definitely wants to say it to her. Mikasa forcedly removed her arms from the Corporal's grasp "How can you even think of that?! Eren is my only family left and I love him as my brother! Eren saved me from getting killed, so I must also protect him this time but I can't because of this friggin' injuries! And it's none of your business whether I'm so attached to him or not!" Mikasa shouted at him and tears started to form on her eyes. Rivaille is deeply shocked and he couldn't take it anymore so he hugged her tight. "I'm..I'm sorry..please..don't cry anymore..I'm here..shh.." Rivaille said and just buried his face on the crook of her neck. Mikasa couldn't help it as she cried on the man's shoulder.
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That'll be all for this chapter. It'll take another week or less again for the next one. Thanks again for the reviews and favorites! :3
