Forgive Me Please!
I adopted this story from I Tried 2 Do Handstands For U
Previously in Zach's POV
After that they all shared some sort of look that I didn't understand at all and left. The last thing I heard before the door closed behind them was "no wonder she was acting so heartbroken" I sigh and put my head in my hands. First of all, I really need to find out who this Josh guy is, and second of all I need to apologize to cammie, no matter what I have to do, no matter what it takes, I will get my cammie back.
Cammie's POV
It's been a week since the argument and I am still not better. Zach has stopped talking to me and seems about upset as I am…weird. My friends are still there for me…but they aren't. It's like they try to make do stuff like nothing is wrong, but I can tell that they know what happened and they are just trying to make me feel better. But, oddly enough it's making me feel worse, I mean you can't just get in a huge fight with someone and then act like it never happened, life doesn't work like that.
It's currently Saturday and I know for a fact that something is going to happen today, why you might ask. Well, my friends are coming over today… whoop Dee doo. I stare at the door in front of me knowing that eventually three girls will enter it. I am not really aware of what is happening around me but I think an hour or two passes until it is finally opens.
"Cammie we need to talk" Macey announces getting straight down to business not even bothering for small talk.
"Hello to you to" I mutter annoyed.
"Cammie look we know what happened and we tried to let you have your space to see if that would help but you're not getting any better." Liz says gently. I look at her and laugh.
"So you noticed" I say all smart ass like. Liz looks hurt and I immediately feel bad about what I said.
"Cammie you can't let Josh rule your life, it's time to move on" Bex says quietly. I just stare at her shocked, she's kidding right?
"Don't you dare tell me to move on, you know what he did to me… you know what maybe that's my problem, maybe If I hadn't told you guys then my life would have been okay" I say with venom in my voice.
"Stop trying to blame someone else cammie" Macey says sounding frustrated.
"Stop blaming you about WHAT? Tell me what I did that I could possibly blame on you" I shout at her starting to get angry.
"Cammie, you're right you aren't blaming us you are blaming yourself, you think this is your fault don't you" Macey says a lot more calm now. I don't say anything because she is right; actually she hit it head on.
"Look Macey I know you are trying to make me feel better but it doesn't matter, I wouldn't be in this mess if I were a better girlfriend" I whisper.
"I cannot believe you Cammie, he almost killed you and you are blaming it on yourself!" Macey shouts sounding exasperated. I just look at her with a heartbroken look.
"Look Cammie I wish I could just sing a song and then poof! Everything would be okay but that isn't going to happen and I know this is hard for you so we are going to let you think on it but remember you aren't alone, you have us remember that" Liz says quietly, motioning to Bex and Macey to leave.
I nod but look at Macey weirdly, all throughout what Liz had been saying she was staring out the window giving weird looks….suspicious.
"Well, have a nice day" Bex says awkwardly waving to me. I nod again stare down at me feet waiting for them to leave. I watch as they leave but as soon as they are gone someone else enters. I look up to see Zach.
I gape at him, how did he get here and why is he here?
"Cammie, we need to talk" he says sternly. I am still getting over the shock that he is here so I don't say anything. He seems to take my silence as agreement and walks over to sit across from me on the floor.
"Look I am so so sorry for what I said and shouldn't have said that, can you ever forgive me?" he asks hopefully. I just stare at him still not saying anything.
"Ok, well maybe you can think about it but the second thing I need to know is, who is this Josh guy?" he asks making me flinch when he says Josh's name.
I sigh, knowing that he does indeed have the right to know. "Well it all started at my old school" I begin, after that I tell him about my past. By the time I am done explaining he has this horrified expression on his face.
"Oh god Cammie, I had no idea" he whispered looking stricken.
"Well of course you had no idea I wasn't about to tell my past to someone I just met" I said
"So, does that mean that you forgive me?" he asked again.
"Really Zach? It doesn't work like that, what did you expect now that I told you my past it would make everything better? The thing is I might of forgiven you if you knew what you were saying, because then I would have known it was purposeful but the fact that you had no idea what you were talking about when you mentioned Josh and you still insulted me about it only makes it worse. God Zach I would have expected more from you" I said coldly.
"Cammie please, I didn't know what I was saying" he begged.
I shake my head disgusted, "That is exactly what I mean, you can't just say things not knowing what you are saying" I say my voice a little weak.
"Cammie…please" Zach whispers sounding broken hearted. I look down, I can't bear to look at him right now, and I think if I do my heart would burst. I listen to his footsteps as he leaves my room. After I hear the front door close I burst in to tears.
Why does the world hate me?
Zach's POV
I walk out of Cammie's room broken hearted, I think I finally realized it… it wasn't that she hadn't forgiven me, it's that she hasn't forgiven herself. I think that her being mad at me is the only way she can release stress. Oh gosh, look what I did to her!
When I walk back into my room I scream in frustration and slam my face in my pillow. I look up across the window to see that Cammie is on her bed crying her eyes out.
Suddenly an idea pops into my head and I smile, I think I just figured out how to make Cammie feel better.
