Our Story
part 9

**********

Ok, kind of switching the view around here. It's Padme's POV, just for a while.

**********

Ugh! He makes me so mad! I swear, I could just knock him out right now! He knows exactly what I'm talking about, yet he acts as if he doesn't have a clue! I hate him! I hate how he acts like such a child. I hate how he's so impatient. I hate how he can be so immature. I hate how he never takes things seriously. I hate it when he always plays pranks on me. I hate the fact that he's grown a thousand times taller than me! I hate how looking into his eyes reminds me so much of the ocean, so deep, dark, mysterious. I hate how his slyish smile makes my body tingle. I hate how kissable his lips are. I hate his soft, blond hair. I hate how even hidden underneath all that Jedi garbs, his muscles still reveal. I hate his soft, sweet voice, so melodious to my ears. I... oh my god, I'm falling for him!

Damn it! What's wrong with me? This is wrong! I can't fall in love with someone five years younger than I, not to mention how I'm a queen and he was a former slave. He's not a slave! He's a Jedi! What's wrong with you, Padme? Have you forgotten all your morals? Anakin may have been a slave, but that's not what he was destined to be. He's a Jedi Knight. My knight. He's mine. And I am his.

But what if he doesn't love me? I turned him down for Bail many years ago. I hurt him.

"I'm going to marry you," he stated so many years ago. But that's impossible now. Bail and I are arranged to wed in a week. My entire planet, as well as his, will be watching. I can't let them down.

But Ani... I can't let him down either. To deny my love for him is to deny myself of freedom. I am a free woman. Then again, I am a queen, who's life has been devoted to her people and to what's best for them.

But... Anakin...

"I'm sorry, Your--- Padme. I didn't mean to leave you unnoticed. There was an emergency..."

"Anakin, please, just stop lying to me. Now... why did you leave me?"

He looked away, as if ashamed to look at me.

"Fine, you wanna know why I left?"

"Yes, please do tell."

He turned to face me again. This time, with an expression on his face that I would've paid not to see. He looked so... lonely.

"I left because I couldn't stand the fact that you didn't feel the same for me. It hurts, you know, to know that the woman I've first fell in love with is in love with another and may never feel the same for me."

He looked away again. His loneliness only brought more pain to my heart. I couldn't stand it any longer.

"Anakin---"

"But hey," turning his gaze back on to me, "I've gotten over it. I've overcome that part in my life and have moved on."

You got to be kidding me. Anakin! No! Not when I've finally come to realizing how much you mean to me!

"We could still remain as friends, that's if you still consider me one. Do you, Padme?"

Ugh! Now I have to put on a fake smile!

"Ya, friends. Friends for eternity."

Friends. Is that all we are to be now? Just friends? When I gaze into his eyes for a long period of time, will he think of that as a friendly gesture? When I out of nowhere appear at his front door , grab him by his neck and give him a longing kiss
Will he think of that as just a friendly gesture? Well, I'll surely have to do something about that.