12 weeks pt 2
"Hmmm. You don't seem to have a fever. Did you eat something bad earlier?" The nurse asks me.
"No." I tell her.
"How long have you been feeling sick? Do you know what this could be?" She asks me while she continues trying to figure out what is wrong with me. I know I have to tell her, there is just no way around it.
"I'm pregnant." I say hesitantly.
"Oh dumpling. Are you scared?" She asks me and all I can do is nod. Our nurse takes care of all of us like we are her own children. She brings me into a hug and then looks at Lucas and asks, "Are you the father?"
"What? No!" He says very flustered. I know he didn't mean it to come off as harsh as it did.
"Ok, then. How far along are you sweetie?"
"About 12 weeks."
"Ah I see. So we have a classic case of morning sickness here, don't we?" She asks and I nod.
"I know there isn't much I can do for you but you can lay down for a little while if you want." She suggests.
"Can he stay with me?" I ask.
"Sure." She says and then takes us to a little room with a typical bed you would get in a school. She then gets Lucas a chair and a blanket for me in case I get cold.
"Thank you." I say as she leaves us alone. I look to Lucas as he takes a seat in the chair and ask, "So you had cancer?"
"I technically still do but it is dormant. They caught it very early on so it didn't get out of hand and I had a higher chance of surviving it. I don't want to talk about me though. How did this happen?" He asks me. I really hate this question.
"Well you see, when a man and a woman love each other very much-" I begin to say sarcastically.
"You know that's not what I mean. Come on, be serious." He tells me.
Im not supposed to tell him because of that stupid contract I signed. He is my friend though and I know he won't tell anyone else. "Ok well that didn't even happen anyway."
"What do you mean? Oh my god, did someone rape you?!" He asks, raising his voice a little bit.
"No! Keep your voice down. You need to stop guessing because you are terrible at it. I went to a doctor's appointment a few weeks ago and they got my mom and I mixed up. Well my mom and Shawn were trying to have a baby and since they got our charts confused, they artificially inseminated me. Now here we are." I explain.
"Wow. Maya, just know I will always be here for you. I wish you would have told me sooner. Now I understand why you were so distant but this is a time where we should be here for you more than ever." He reassures me.
"Thanks. Lucas?"
"Yeah, Maya?"
"I am actually pretty tired. If I close my eyes a little bit, will you still stay with me?"
"Of course." He says and as I close my eyes to sleep, I feel is hand touch mine and a moment later he is holding my hand as I am drifting off to sleep.
The nurse came back what seemed like a few minutes later but was actually an hour an had us leave to go get lunch. Im not really hungry but I know I should try to eat for little squish.
"I think you should tell them." Lucas says randomly as we walk to the cafeteria.
"Tell what, who?" I say, getting caught off guard.
"Tell the rest of the group that you are pregnant."
"I don't think it's the right time."
"It's now or never."
"I choose never."
"Maya come on. It's not like they are going to mad or disappointed. They might feel upset if you keep it from them any longer. You can trust all of us. You know that, right?"
"Yeah, I guess you're right but you don't understand how scary this is for me?"
"I don't understand? Maya, it is hard for me to tell people that I had cancer because once people know, they treat me completely different. When I first got diagnosed, I couldn't tell my real friends from my pity friends. Zay was the only one who stuck around."
"Fine I will tell them! Happy?"
"I don't want you to do this for me, I want you to do it for you because I know it will make you feel better with not having to keep it a secret anymore."
The rest of the walk was very quiet. I still don't want to tell the rest of my friends about the baby but I know I have too. How am I going to tell them though? Every step we take closer to the cafeteria makes my stomach cringe. It is like you are walking a plank and you know that once you reach the end, you have to fall. One step. Another. Another. Closer and closer we get. With one final step, here we are in front of our lunch table.
"Maya! Are you okay?" Riley exclaims as she runs to me and gives me a hug.
"Yeah I'm fine, Riles." I reassure her.
"Maya has something she would like to tell you guys." Lucas tells the group and this makes me want to punch him in the head. Riley gets a little suspicious, so she whispers in my ear and asks me if he knows about the baby. I whisper back telling her yes.
"What is it Maya?" Farkle asks and I can tell that he is concerned. He has been like a brother to Riley and me since Kindergarten.
"Well… Lucas had cancer!" I blurt out and I don't really know why. I guess I felt like if I told someone else's secret first it would make things better. Wow. That sounds weird. Forget I said that. I have no idea why I just told everyone about Lucas.
"What!" Everyone yells simultaneously, while Lucas yells, "Maya!"
"Are you okay, Lucas?" Riley asks, very concerned.
"What? Lucas, you had cancer?" Zay asks in a weird tone.
"Zay, you knew that." Lucas states.
"Shh, we are all together in this. I don't want these people thinking I am keeping secrets from them. I am still trying to get on their good sides." Zay says play defensively.
"Anyway, yes I am fine. I have been in remission for the past 4 years. What Maya was supposed to tell you guys is that she is pregnant."
"Lucas!" I yell.
"Don't get mad at me! You were the one who told my secret first." Lucas argues back. He was right. I can't be mad at him for telling them and at least it is out in the open now and I didn't actually have to say it.
"Is it true Maya?" Farkle asks.
"Yeah." I say, not really knowing what else to say.
"I always figured it would be you. I guess someone got a little too frisky." Smackle states and normally this wouldn't have bothered me but when you are a pregnant teen, your self-confidence goes way down. You feel like everyone is looking at you and judging you when they don't even know yet.
"Smackle! You can't say stuff like that!" Farkle explains.
"Oh. I am very sorry Maya. I am afraid I have struck a nerve." Smackle says to me.
"It's okay. I know out of all of us, it would be me in this situation. I guess I deserve this." I say.
"Maya, don't say that. This isn't even your fault. You didn't do anything wrong." Riley tries to comfort.
"I hate to bring this up but she did play a role in this. She isn't completely innocent." Zay interjects. I guess now is the time to tell them the whole story.
"Who is the father?" Farkle asks.
"Shawn." I say naturally. I get a lot of grossed out faces. No, now is the time I tell them the story but I won't bore you with the details for the hundredth time.
