I'm going to Italy on Saturday so i'm going to try to get as many chapters as I can up this week to make up for my absence for two weeks :)
My Heart – Paramore
Jacob appeared from around the corner and just stared at me for a few minutes. Neither of us said anything. An array of emotions spread across his face and he finally settled on angry. "Bella what are you-"
"Stop" I interrupted. I found that I was actually quite upset. "Why didn't you tell me?"
He didn't say anything.
"When? When did you imprint on me?"
He sheepishly looked away from me. "When I first phased"
"When you first...?" I was becoming slightly mad. "And when were you actually planning on telling me! I mean, isn't this something that I should know?"
"I was going to tell you! That day when you jumped from the cliff. But then he called and got in the way! Then he was back and you fucking married him! How the hell was I supposed to tell you then"
"Do you want to know why I was so hesitant to choose you? Because there was always the chance that I could lose you to someone else and could do not nothing about it. Do you want to know how many nights I've cried myself to sleep with the fear that in the morning, you could have imprinted and that person wouldn't be me? That was why I didn't choose you. Because if I lost you to someone else I don't know what I would have done"
"And how do you think I felt when you married him!" he shouted. "I lost you to him and it fucking killed me!"
"Then why didn't you tell me! It could have changed everything"
"Because I wanted you to choose me, not because of some messed up, magic imprintation, but because you simply loved me"
My mouth fell open. "And at what point did I not make it clear that I was in love with you? Was it when I kissed you? Was it the multiple times I told you I love you? Or was it when I left my husband to be with you?" I threw my arms by my side, defeated. "And when I came back here you knew that I was unhappy. You knew that I wanted to find a reason to stay and all you had to do was tell me"
"But he came back and you just followed him home! And I was left, totally crushed, again" he looked away upset. "I don't care if I'm being selfish, but I just want you, Bells"
"I left because I was too much of a coward! I didn't want to be known as the girl who fucked up her marriage when she was so damn sure it would work in the first place! And I was scared that if I left him, I would have no where to go"
"You'd have me!"
"Not if you were to imprint on someone. Which absolutely terrified me because then I would have lost everything. So I would have rather lived unhappily than live while watching you with someone else"
"Then what the hell do you think I was doing when I was watching you with him" he strode towards me until he was about a metre away from me. "And I told you. I told you before you left in hope that you'd stay but it didn't work. You still left with him. And I've lost count of how many time I've lost to him"
"What do you think I'm doing here, Jake?" I asked him calmly, trying to push all my anger at him away. He looked at me as if he only just realised I had returned after telling him I was never coming back. "I left him. I've actually left him. He's going to send the divorce papers"
He stared at me for a few seconds to take in what I had just said. Then he closed the distance between us and kissed me. He desperately wrapped his arms around me so there was not a millimetre of distance between us. My hands found their way into his hair and I gently bit his lower lip which caused him to groan slightly. He reached out behind me and closed the front door which I had left open then pushed us both up against it. I reached for the hem of his shirt and lifted it over his head, throwing it to the floor. He started kissing down my neck, biting lightly as he did so. He picked me up so I was at his level where he then continued to kiss my collarbone and chest. He hooked a finger on the v-neck of my shirt and pulled it down just a little so he could continue to kiss my skin. He stopped at my bra then paused before dipping his tongue under the rim of it. He kept his eyes on mine to watch my reaction and when we realised he couldn't go too far, he pulled the cup of my bra down with his teeth and commenced kissing my breasts.
Eventually he lifted my shirt off and threw it on the floor to join his. He reached behind me and smoothly unhooked my bra with both hands and threw it away. Feeling slightly exposed, I pushed my chest up against his to cover my nakedness a little.
He must have sensed my nervousness. "Bells... are you sure about this?" he said between kisses.
I nodded and grinned against his lips.
He carried me away to his room where he kicked open the door and set me on his bed. His lips never left mine as he did so. I laid down on my back so that he was hovering over me. "I'm not rushing things am I?" he whispered in my ear.
I placed a hand on his shoulder and pushed him onto his side to flip us so he was laying on his back and I was straddling him. I shook my head "You're not rushing anything" I grinned. I leant over and dotted kisses on his lips, neck, collarbone, chest and stopped when I got to the waistband of his jeans. I watched him smiling as I unbuttoned them and slid them down so he was just in his underwear. He sat up and kissed me, flipping me over onto my back in the process. He then, in one swift move, undid my jeans, slid me out of them and had them somewhere on the floor. He bent down and started kissing the inside of my thighs. The anticipation was causing me to tremble. He hooked his fingers on the edge of my panties and slowly (too slowly) slid them down. He removed them then brought his attention back to me. He instantly plunged his tongue inside me causing me to gasp. He continued to explore me and I moaned and arched my back. I had never felt anything like it, not in this way. My toes began to curl with pleasure as continued to suck and lick passionately.
To much protest on my behalf, he stopped and smiled as he hovered over me once more. His brought his lips to mine and kissed me lovingly. I used to my feet to attempt to pull down his underwear while he smiled against my lips. Once I had finally undressed him he positioned himself so he was at my entrance. He stared into my eyes for a while and mouthed the words 'I love you'. I brought him down to kiss me before wrapping my legs around him. I gasped as he slid into me. He paused for a bit so I could adjust to his size. It was slightly painful at first but was quickly replaced by nothing but pure pleasure as he got his rhythm.
His breathing became heavier as he sped up, as did mine. I was making noises I had never heard myself make before and they became louder when I realised it was Jacob who was causing me to make them. His hands wondered around my body as he pounded into me and I had to refrain from digging my nails into his back too much as I felt myself climax. He kissed me roughly and grinded against me harder and harder as he himself ended. He collapsed on top of me, but still kept his weight on his elbows, as he gathered his breath.
He rolled over and pulled me with him so I was lying on his chest.
He kissed my forehead. "I love you, Bella Swan"
I smiled and kissed his chest. "I love you too, Jacob Black"
I had to rush the end a bit cos I'm shattered. I know I said i'd try to have as many up as I can before I leave for two weeks but really, I'll probs only have this and another tomorrow perhaps. I was meant to upload this one last night but I accidentally went out :P
well anyway, I hope you enjoyed this one :)
I have ideas of what I want to happen next but 1) I'm not sure how to get there. 2) I don't know if you guys will like it. 3) It will be difficult to write. I think i'm going to do it anyway because I think it will be good. It wont be all lovely and happy though. So have a warning.
Thank you all so much for reading and reviewing :) Keep them coming.
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