It was one week before Christmas and we were having a Christmas get together at the Cullen's. You see my dad decided that he wanted to play happy family at his company Christmas ball. He told Emmett and I that we had to go.
Emmett got to bring Rose because daddy dearest wanted to show off his strong son and his beautiful girlfriend. Which I didn't mind because I would have at least have one of my friends there. Dad said that I had to make a good impression on his new business partner.
His company was merging with some company from the east coast. That why we had to go to this stupid thing, so he could show of his family values. what a croak of shit.
I was sitting in the Cullen's living room opening my gifts. I got some books from Esme and Carlisle. The gang pitch in and bought me a top of the line computer. I got every one $500.00 gift certificates to there favorite places, I even got one for Edward.
We started talking about the trip to L.A. when Edward walked in. "What are you doing, Christmas isn't till Saturday?" He asked. "Well if you bother hanging out with us ever once in a while you would know that Emmett, Rose and I are not going to be here for Christmas."
"What ever Bella, Let me go get your gifts then." He ran up the stairs. "He got us gifts, maybe he coming around then." Rose said. "I wouldn't get your hopes up Rose." " God Bella your always so negative." She said with a smile." You know it babe." I said. ever one laughed, Just then Edward came done. He handed a gift card to Rose and Em. it was to there favorite restaurant. He didn't hand me anything, ever one looked at me and I gave them a sad smile telling them it was OK. He told us that he would give ever one else there gifts later. Never in my life had I felt like a Peace of shit till know.
Esme saw how hurt I was and change the subject. "I have one more gift for you all." She handed us envelopes and we all looked at each other thinking what is this. then all of a sudden Alice started jumping up and down. "These are the letter from U.W" She said.
"I think we should open them together." Emmett said. "OK on the count of three."
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We all opened our letters and started scream, we all got in. we were all cheering but Edward. "I'm sorry you didn't get in Edward." Esme said. " I got in mom but I don't think I'm going there."
"YOU HAVE TO BE FUCKING KIDDING ME." I yelled
"Language Bella." "I'm sorry Esme. Edward for the love of god you have wanted to go to U.W since we were freshman, you said they had the best music education program. You said that this program would help you become a music teacher, that all you have ever wanted. Now all of a sudden you don't want to go."
"Where are you going to go Edward?" Jasper asked.
"I don't know yet, I might go where Tanya goes. She thinks I would be a great lawyer and there some good schools in the east for that line of work."
"THAT"S IT, I'm sorry Carlisle and Esme, but I can't be here right now." I gave them hugs, Esme whispered in my ear that she was sorry.I walked out the door. I made it to the porch when someone grab my arm.
"What do you want Edward?"
"I want to know what your deal is Bella. So what if I don't want to go to U.W with you guys. Its not like we all are going to be together forever we need to be our own people not just a group."
"I know that Edward. But I also know you want to go their to. You have never in our whole lives wanted to be a lawyer. Tanya has you so wrapped around her finger that you are willing to give up your dream just to please her. You are pathetic.
"You know what Bella you are a bitch. Why is it that when ever we fight you blame ever thing on Tanya.?"
"Edward do you like what you have become around her?
Tanya says this
Tanya said that
Tanya thinks that
See a pattern there Edward. You are the one that makes it all about her, not me."
"You think your just so perfect Bella, You always have to be right you always have to be the one everyone runs to when they have a problems. The only reason you hate Tanya is because I need her and not you."
"Your right Edward, you don't need me you don't need anyone. But you want someone who really needs you and someone that loves you. because deep down you know Tanya is using you and that you don't really love her."
"You know nothing."
"Oh, I know more then you think. I know that when you look in her eye's you feel nothing. That when you touch, you don't have that spark I also know that when she puts down your friends and family that it kill you inside. She is not right for you and you know it."
"Then who is right for me Bella?"
"I am." I said in a whisper hopping he didn't here me.
"What did you say?"
"It doesn't matter."
Before I had time to think his lips were on mine, I was shocked but then started to kiss him back. but as soon as it started it ended. He pulled away. "I'm sorry Bella, I shouldn't have done that, I have a girlfriend." Then he walk back into the house with out another word. I fell to my knees and started to cry. I felt to large arms wrap around me. "Bella lets get you home."
Emmett picked me up and brought me to the jeep, we rode home in silence. When we got to the house he brought me to my room and laid me on the bed. He laid next to me I was glad, I didn't want to be alone.
"It will be OK belly." He kissed my forehead
I cried the tears that I told myself I wouldn't cry for Edward Cullen.
AN. thanks for all the reviews there great.
Bella and Edward will be together, Just not yet.
lots of love
Nikkie
