Reflections of Love – Chapter 9

Just To Be Where You Are


"Only one more day" she said

"Finally, I can't stand be in this house anymore" he said

"I thought you liked living here" she said

"I love live here but when you aren't here I hate" he sad wrapping his arms on her waist

"Why?" she asked

"Because I feel your smell everywhere I go and I don't have you in my arms" he said smelling her hair

"I'm here now" she said

"I know" he said with his head buried in her hair kissing the back of her neck

"It's hard to leave" she said

"Is it?" he said licking and kissing her neck

"Yeah" she moaned

"So don't" he said kissing her breast

"I have to" she said tilting back her head

"You don't" he said kissing again her neck

"I do" she said pushing him away

"Your skin is so soft" he said "I can't resist"

"But we need to" said smirking

"I don't want" he said pulling her back and kissing her neck again

"I don't want either" she said raising his head and kissing him

"I can't wait" said her feeling his hard erection against her waist

"I can't wait. I have almost more than a month to release" he said smirking

"You've been such generous to me, you know?" she said

"Yes and don't think it is because I'm good. I'm Evil Spawn I'm just giving you a lot to make up for me" he said smirking

"And I will. With pleasure"

"You can expect lots of pleasure" he said licking her ears

"Can someone be this cocky?" she asked

"You will say me"

"Seriously. You are just full of yourself"

"Very soon you will be full of me also"

"Dirty!"


Neither Meredith or Alex could wait until he was released to have sex. He had made it to her a few times and it was great but she really wanted to give him the same pleasure he had given to her. He also wanted her to feel everything. He wanted her to feel him inside of her; he wanted to kiss her while she reaches the orgasm. He wanted to make love to her.

Although the last couple of weeks have been great and they had what just seemed the perfect relationship she still didn't say him what she felt about him. She felt like she didn't love him yet and she couldn't say him another thing. He knew it. He had said it to her a few times and he never had the mutual answer. But it was okay for him. He knew she had feelings for him and if these feelings weren't love yet it is okay. He knows she is honest and when she says it to him it will be true.


She let to work and he was alone again in the house. He wanted to do something special to her but he didn't know what. He wasn't good on these things. He never gave a gift to a girlfriend. In fact he never had a girlfriend. He didn't know how to do romantic speeches or write lovely letters and he didn't know if she likes these things. He only knew how to love her with his kisses, with his caresses, with his touch, with sex. He didn't know much more in addition to this but he wanted to know. She deserved. Derek didn't do many things for her either and he just felt like she never had this from anyone.

He decided to make a research. Even finding the best key words was hard.

Flowers. "Too obvious"

Chocolate. "She already eats enough junkie food"

Teddy bears. "Corny"

The three of them together. "Too corny"

Jewelry. "Too fancy'

Send e-cards. "Too simple and corny"

Leave her a message. At a billboard. "Toooooooo corny"

Take her out on a special dinner. "Could be"

Buy her new lingerie. "Way to go"

"This I could do. I think she might like it" he said opening a website he just found out. He had a plan.


The last weeks haven't been easy to Meredith. Sure Izzie told Cristina about Meredith mysterious guy.

"Seriously. Are you seeing a chick?" asked Cristina sitting down at the table to have lunch

"What? No. No vagina's monologue." Meredith answered

"So what? Is he that creepy?"

"It is complicated. Things are just fine the way they are." Meredith said

"How is the sex?" asked Izzie joining the two residents

"We didn't… I mean he doesn't… it is complicated"

"Are you dating a priest?" Cristina asked shocked

"Ew. No!" said Meredith

"So how can you don't have sex in weeks?!"

"Oh I see, you are back with Finn" said Izzie

"I'm not telling you guys. We are figuring it out and things are fine."

"Is he a vet? I told you, they are not even doctors." Cristina said

"Okay. He is doctor. This is all you have this week. A human doctor" Meredith said leaving the table

"Does he work here?" Izzie yelled but Meredith just ignored


"Hey" said Callie

"Hi" Meredith answered

"Having lunch in the OR? Seriously Grey you've used them better" said Callie

"Well it seems the only thing I can do it now, besides this is the only place Cristina and Izzie will let me alone"

"Oh, they still bother you about your mysterious date?" Callie asked

"How do you know it?" Meredith asked shocked

"In fact there is a poll about it" Callie said smirking

"You gotta be kidding me" said Meredith angry

"I know because Mark bet his 50 bucks that is someone from Seattle Grace and this is why you are hiding"

"Seriously. People in this hospital should care about their patients lives alone."

"Oh. There are a couple of people betting on patients. But I know you are not like this" Callie said smirking

Meredith just looked very annoyed and didn't say anything

"Let it be Grey. If you are happy and you seem happy, just let it be"

"I don't want to mess up things before they got messed by themselves"

"I date a manwhore Grey, a manwhore for God' sake and I don't care. I have the best sex I ever had and he makes me laugh. A lot. So let it be." Said Callie

"How you guys are doing?"

"We are fine. We both live at hotel rooms and just have lots of fun. We need to have fun Meredith. We need to make up for the time we were sleeping over biology and anatomy books while people were having fun. We have the rest of our lives to grow. Just have some fun"

"I guess you are right"

"I am. I mean I loved George and I wanted to get married but now I see it was a big mistake. He was the great guy that totally broke me because I thought he was the guy that would never break me. Now I'm with Sloan and I know he is just an asswhole, so what can I expect? Nothing. What can I get? Everything. I mean whatever he gives me it is better that I could ever expect."

"But what if he really can't give you anything"

"Then I wait. They do, Meredith. They always do. The best men are the menwhore. You enjoy the sex and the fun. Eventually they will get tired of this and if you are lucky enough you will be with them when they come to realization and this case they will make you the happiest woman ever."

"But if they never come to realization?"

"Then enjoy the fun and the sex as long as you can but Meredith they will. Sex and fun was what they ever had. Just make sure you are the woman to make them realize it. Be where they are Meredith. If it is only about the sex then make it about the sex. But if you feel that there is a slight chance that it might be something else. Than just grab it"

"And how do you know?" Meredith asked

"Let him make the moves. You will realize when the moves change. Slowly they will be more than new lingerie and fantasies" Callie said

"Is Sloan making the moves?" Meredith asked smirking

"I don't know, I'm not paying attentio enough because I'm all for the fun. I always took things very seriously in my life. Maybe eventually I would like to try a serious relationship again. Maybe"

"So what is your bet?" Meredith asked

"About your mysterious guy?" Callie asked smirking

"Yeah. I want to know how close you are" Meredith said smirking

"Seriously Grey, do you think I would give you a manwhore speech if I didn't know it is Alex?" said Callie letting Meredith shocked

"How do you… who… did you…?" rambled Meredith

"I saw you guys kissing one night after his surgery. You weren't discreet Meredith" said Callie "Plus. Izzie and Cristina must be really blind. How come you have a mysterious boyfriend that appears at your house and Alex doesn't know who is?"

"Yeah. This was a lame excuse" Meredith agreed

"But they are so convinced that you'll never date Evil Spawn that they just don't consider this possibility"

"So I guess you will win the poll" Meredith said smirking

"I didn't bet. Sloan did. But he really sucks on this. I have a lot of fun because he is always totally wrong." Callie said smirking

"Who he said?" Meredith asked curious

"Dr Steven"

" Eww. The gross ped?" Meredith asked

"Yeah. He told the only reason for Meredith Grey, VP of Dirty Mistress Club to hide a man she is having sex with is shame. See why I always have fun? Seriously a single 45 years old man that probably is still virgin and that spit when talks and that keep his hand half of time inside his paints? Mark really sucks in betting polls" said Callie making both residents laugh out loud

"Your secret is safe with me but think about it Meredith. There is no reason to hide it. Just enjoy it. You will have much more fun in the on call rooms than hiding from your stalking friends to have lunch" said Callie leaving the OCR


"Fine" said Meredith to Cristina and Izzie in the locker room

"What?" asked Cristina

"I will let you meet my date" Meredith said

"It was about time. I mean almost one month and no sex at all? I need to see check on him Meredith. Maybe he is just another dysfunctional penis guy" said Cristina

"When?" asked Izzie excitedly

"Tomorrow. At lunch." Meredith said

"So he is a doctor that works at SG" said Cristina

"Yes"

"Please Meredith just tell me you are not dating another attending, are you?" Izzie said

"No Izzie, he is a resident. Tomorrow at lunch you will meet him." said Meredith

"Just give us one more hint Mer" said Izzie

"Barbie. Get yourself together and wait until tomorrow" said Cristina "Is he a surgeon resident?" asked Cristina to Meredith

"Goodnight guys" Meredith said leaving the locker room


Meredith drove back home. It was an exhausting day and all she want was her bathtub and Alex

"I'm home" she yelled as she entered the living room

"Upstairs" he yelled back

"So how was your last day of vacation?" she asked

"Boring" he said laid on her bed

"Excited to get back to work?" she asked

"Excited to be closer to you" he said kissing her

"I ate in an on call room. You definitely has to get back soon to work" she said

"Just three more days" he said kissing her neck

"Finally, I'm almost tying you in the bed" she said

"Part of any fantasy?" he asked running his fingers on her belly

"Maybe" she said kissing him when his cell phone vibrated

Lex. I need you here. Please. Call me. M.

Alex read the message and deleted it.

"What is it?" Meredith asked

"Advertising" he lied

"Well I think we can start our 72h countdown" she said kissing his nape

"I can't wait" he said feeling guilty


Just To Be Where You Are is a Lifehouse song.