The Words I Meant To Say

Summary: What if the last words you said to someone, were the last words you'd ever say to them before they were kidnapped? The epic journey to find their best friend, Carlos Garcia.

MAIN PAIRING CARGAN side pairing KAMES! :P

The Words I Meant To Say

Chapter Nine: Remember Me? 3

The Next Day….

Logan woke up the next morning depressed and empty. His boyfriend had just sacrificed himself to save him and his friends… how could he ever be happy again knowing that the boy he loved was now somewhere dead at the bottom of te ocean?

His heart ached each time it would beat, he sighed and tried to hold back his tears. He remembered when he'd place Carlos' hand on his chest and explain how the heart would work when Carlos needed help on his health homework.

The smarty leaned his back against the wall and looked at Carlos' empty bed. He remembered when it was Carlos' 15th birthday and he jumped on his little boyfriend singing the happy birthday song to him until he woke up laughing with his sweet smile plastered on his face.

The alarm clock was about to beep but Logan unplugged it and dropped the plug on the floor, just like Carlos used to do in the morning so Logan could get some sleep. Carlos could be the sweetest boy in the world… scratch that, he was the sweetest boy in the world.

Logan chuckled at the flash back when he sang in a whisper to his boyfriend, "Don't you worry your pretty little mind, people throw rocks at things that shine. And life makes love look hard. But don't you worry you pretty little mind, people throw rocks at things that shine. But they can't take what's ours. They can't take what's ours."

That was Carlos' favorite song that reminded him of Logan, and when his boyfriend sang it to him that just made his day perfect. Logan would always surprise him every day with lyrics from one of Carlos' favorite songs.

He fought back more tears as all of his favorite memories of Carlos flooded his mind over and over again. All he wanted was to hold his little Latino in his arms again. He wanted to kiss his boyfriend like James and Kendall could. He wanted to hold hands with his love again. He wanted to cuddle with Carlos and call him beautiful again…

Tears slowly fell down his cheeks since he knew he'd never get to do anything like that with Carlos again. Beat, ow, beat, ow, beat, OW! The more he thought of Carlos, the faster his heart would beat, causing him even more pain.

Logan wiped the tears away and walked over to the window to see flowers floating in the pool. People probably heard of Carlos' death and tossed roses, violets, tulips, and many more kinds of flowers in the pool to honor the sweet, energetic singer.

"Don't forget where I'll be… right here." Played Carlos' singing voice in his head as he remembered the day Carlos told him he'd always be by Logan's side. But if he wasn't beside Logan, he said he'd always be in the smarty's heart.

He stepped away from the window, trying to get away from the sight of the flowers floating in the water. He didn't want to believe that Carlos was dead, yet he watched Carlos die right before his very eyes. He was the last person to say something to Carlos. But James was the last person Carlos said something to.

Of course Carlos would try to get something off his chest before he was about to die. He knew James would attack him if he told the pretty boy that he broke his lucky comb pretending that it was a Frisbee… it turns out combs break when they don't come back and get run over by trucks…

Logan didn't really want to go anywhere, all he wanted was Carlos. But alas, he couldn't have the Latino. He couldn't even imagine the state Carlos' body could be in at the bottom of the ocean. Anything can happen to a dead body on the cold ocean floor…

Let's get away from all that morbid thinking for now… anyways, James and Kendall slowly crept into Logan's room and asked, "Do you need anything, Logan?"

"Yes…"

"What can we get you?"

"Carlos."

"Oh, Logan…"

The smart boy sighed and said for them, "I know, I know… you can't bring him back for me… I know." Kendall frowned and whispered, "We miss him too… but he's in a better place, right?"

James added, "He's probably happy eating corndogs in Heaven with his hockey helmet on. Logan, I think you know just what Carlos would say to you if he saw the condition you were in…"They all said in unison, "Don't be sad, get glad!"

They all laughed for second until they remembered the pain they were all feeling in their chests. Suddenly, an invisible light bulb popped above Kendall's head. He had an idea!

Kendall said with excitement, "Guys! I have an idea! It's depressing, but it'll help us move on… together!" the two other boys looked at Kendall as he explained, "We'll sing a song to Carlos!"

"But he's… dead…" choked James.

"I know, babe, but what about 'Worldwide'?"

"What about it?"

"No matter where we go, he'll be in our hearts… worldwide."

Logan asked quietly, "What about Carlos' parts in the song? Only he can sing them perfectly." Kendall answered, "We'll sing them together, although no one could ever replace the amazing voice that Carlos has..."

James asked this time, "Where would we do this exactly?" His boyfriend was quick to say, "In the Palmwoods pool area! It was Carlos' favorite spot to hang out with us… we'll perform there at four tonight… don't worry guys, I've got a feeling about this…"

At Four P.M….

The three boys were in the Palmwoods pool area holding microphones in front of a band Kelly managed to get. She was now taking over Gustavo's spot since he was now in jail for hurting Carlos. She sat in a lounge chair sitting in between Katie and Mrs. Knight.

All of the boys' friends showed up just in time to hear James sing, "Wait a minute, before you tell me anything how was your day? Cause I've been missing…" Kendall sang, "You by my side, yeah."

James continued to sing, "Did I wake you out of your dreams? I'm sorry but I couldn't sleep." Kendall glanced at his boyfriend as he sang, "You calm me down, there's something 'bout the sound of your voice."

It was Carlos' part now so they sang perfectly together, "I, I, I, I'm never, never, never as far away as it may seem. Soon we'll be together." James sang again, "We'll pick up right where we left off!"

The pretty boy shuddered before he sang, "Paris, London, Tokyo, it's just one thing that I gotta do." The three of them sang together, "Hello, tuck you in every night on the phone. Hello, tuck you in every night."

James sang once more, "And I can hardly take another goodbye. Baby, won't be long. And you're the one that I'm waiting on." The group sang again, "Hello, tuck you in every night on the phone. Hello."

Logan took a deep breath before singing, "Boy, I'll be thinking about you worldwide, worldwide, worldwide. Boy, I'll be thinking about you worldwide, worldwide, worldwide. Boy, I'll be thinking about you."

The smarty continued to sing, "Yes, I may meet a million pretty girls that know my name. But don't you worry…" Kendall sang, "Cause you have my heart."

Logan went on, "It ain't easy, to keep on moving city to city just get up and go." Kendall sang his little part again, "But the show must go on so I need you to be strong."

Carlos' part came up again, making the boys sing even better, "I, I, I, I'm never, never, never as far away as it may seem. No never! Soon we'll be together." James sang his small part again, "We'll pick up right where we left off!"

The pretty felt tears in his eyes but shoved them away as he sang, "Paris, London, Tokyo, it's just one thing that I gotta do." All of them sang together, "Hello, tuck you in every night on the phone. Hello, tuck you in every night."

He looked at his friends and saw tears in their eyes as he sang, "And I can hardly take another goodbye. Baby, won't be long. And you're the one that I'm waiting on." The three friends repeated, "Hello, tuck you in every night on the phone. Hello."

Logan sang again with all his heart, "Boy, I'll be thinking about you worldwide, worldwide, worldwide. Boy, I'll be thinking about you worldwide, worldwide, worldwide. Boy, I'll be thinking about you."

It was Carlos' part again, but before they could sing it a shockingly familiar voice sang flawlessly, "Oh! Wherever the wind blows me! You're still the one and only boy on my mind!"

They all looked straight ahead to see CARLOS! He held a microphone in his hand, and he was wearing new clothes that they saw him wearing a few weeks ago. His hair was wet but he obviously didn't care. He looked at his friends and motioned for them to keep going.

James sang with a passion, "Ain't no one better! Worldwide! So always remember! Worldwide! Always remember, boy, you're mine! Paris, London, Tokyo, it's just one thing that I gotta do."

Carlos joined in as they all sang together, "Hello, tuck you in every night on the phone. Hello, tuck you in every night." James continued to sing with that same passion, "And I can hardly take another goodbye. Baby, won't be long. And you're the one that I'm waiting on."

Since Carlos was singing with them, they sounded amazing when they sang, "Hello, tuck you in every night on the phone. Hello." Tears streamed down Carlos' face as Logan looked at him and sang, "Boy, I'll be thinking about you worldwide, worldwide, worldwide. Boy, I'll be thinking about you worldwide, worldwide, worldwide. Boy, I'll be thinking about you."

Logan walked towards him and wiped Carlos' tears away singing, "Yes, I may meet a million pretty girls that know my name. But don't you worry…" They all sang together in perfect harmony, "Cause you have my heart."

Everyone instantly clapped at the end of the song and when they saw Carlos and Logan kiss again. James and Kendall ran over to Carlos and hugged him, not caring that they just took him from his and Logan's enchanting kiss.

Once they were finished squeezing the life out of the little Latino they asked, "How the heck did you survive that fall?" Carlos answered, "It hurt, no doubt about it, but I didn't die. I was in pain for a while until I realized that I had to get out of the water before I really did die."

Carlos kept going, "I swam over to the rocks and climbed up the mountain like a spider monkey! I was going to let the waves push me to shore, but they got too violent even for me! So I got up and realized that you guys were all gone. So I camped out there for the night and ran back to the Palmwoods just in time to sing with you guys!"

Logan wrapped his arms around Carlos' waist and said, "I love you so much, baby." The Latino smiled his adorable sweet smile and replied, "I love you so much too, Logie." And that's when they shared another heart melting kiss together.

That Night….

Carlos and Logan were star gazing on the roof of the Palmwoods like they used to do all the time. Logan would point out all sorts of constellations and Carlos would look up into the night sky with awe. The stars were so pretty at night, it was hard for him to believe that some of those stars were dead but their light still shined from light years away.

The Latino looked at Logan and sang softly, "Elevator buttons and morning air. Strangers silence makes me wanna take the stairs. If you were hear we'd laugh about their vacant stares. But right now, my time is theirs."

Logan knew this song… he started to sing, "Seems like there's always someone who disapproves. They'll judge it like they know about me and you. And the verdict comes from those with nothing else to do. The jury's out, but my choice is you."

Carlos giggled as Logan sang to him, "So don't you worry your pretty little mind, people throw rocks at things that shine. And life makes love look hard. The stakes are high, the water's rough. But this love is ours."

The tan boy sang as he grabbed Logan's hand, "You never know what people have up their sleeves. Ghost from my past gonna jump out at me. Lurking in the shadows with their lip gloss smiles. But I don't care, cause right now you're mine. And you'll say…"

Logan smiled as he sang, "Don't you worry your pretty little mind, people throw rocks at things that shine. And life makes love look hard. The stakes are high, the water's rough. But this love is ours."

The both sang together amazingly, "And it's not theirs to speculate , if it's wrong. And your hands are tough but they are where mine belong in. I'll fight their doubt and give you faith, with this song for you."

Carlos sang, "Cause I love the smile that you have." Logan sang back, "And I love the jokes that you speak. And any snide remarks from my father about your helmet will be ignored. Cause my heart is yours."

He kept on singing to Carlos, "So don't you worry your pretty little mind, people throw rocks at things that shine. And life makes love look hard. And don't you worry your pretty little mind, people throw rocks at things that shine. But they can't take what's ours. They can't take what's ours." They looked at each other as they sang the final part:

"The stakes are high, he water's rough. But this love is ours."

Sorry it's been so long since the last chapter! I wanted to make it absolutely perfect for all of you and I hope you can forgive me for taking so long with it! Sorry if it's not good or if I made mistakes!

Attention readers! This shall be the last chapter of "The Words I Meant To Say"! :/ Sorry! I might make an epilogue or something if you want me to!

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The songs in this chapter were "Worldwide" by Big Time Rush, & "Ours" by Taylor Swift! Sorry if you don't like singing in songs, but I felt that it was needed for this chapter. Thank you all so much, I love you all! :) And stay tuned for the epilogue and sequel (if you review, that is ;) )!If you have any questions at all, please send me a message and I'll do my best to help you!