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Edward.

"I can't believe we are doing this". I joked; watching James and Laurent muck around in my apartment, as we all got ready for the party Tanya invited us to.

James fumbled with his shirt. "Shut the fuck up. We're doing this for you."

"Bullshit!" I laughed. "You're doing this 'cause you've been fucking Jessica and this is easier then going to her house."

Laurent chuckled. "That good in bed, huh James?"

"Fuck off, assholes. At least I'm getting some". He pointed out, reaching for his jacket. "When was the last time either of you got laid? Oh wait, Edward hasn't been laid for six years. I forgot". He joked, and I rolled my eyes.

"Don't…go there."

"I should just nickname you Jack off".

"Fuck off". I shook my head and glanced at the mirror.

"Oh I will be. Later". He grinned at his reflection. "Man, I am one handsome motherfucker. Lets go, you bunch of girls".

Laurent groaned and grabbed his wallet from the sofa. "Lets get this over and done with".

I grabbed my keys. "Lets go".

We locked up, and headed out. I was looking forward to going out; I hadn't been out all week due to a few exams. I hadn't seen Tanya either, and it was driving me crazy.

I hadn't even seen my family, which I felt bad about. Just seeing the family though, made me think of Bella. She was another one I, surprisingly, hadn't seen around university. I thought that would have been inevitable.

It was probably for the best. I'd always hate myself for what I did to her, and it's for the best that we're moving on with our own lives, and not seeing each other.

We headed into Laurent's car, because he would be the sober designated driver this time. I told him the directions Tanya gave me, and we soon found it. Well, it would be hard not to with all the music blaring and the kids surrounding it. My foot was shaking in anticipation, probably for seeing Tanya and finally being able to be and act single again.

I didn't care who, but I was hooking up with some girl tonight. James was right; being a bachelor couldn't be better.

We parked a street away, and headed down. Playing techno, you couldn't miss the huge house. We headed in, and saw university students everywhere. I recognized a few.

"James!" One guy through a football to him and waved. James caught it and raised his eyebrows.

"Hey, man."

"Hi, James". A blonde came up to him, twirling her hair around her finger. He smiled and moved his fingers under her chin.

"Hey, Lauren".

I envied him so bad at that moment. But it didn't last long. We headed to the bar, and ordered a drink. Sure enough I felt a tap on my shoulder.

I turned around to see Tanya; in the hottest outfit I had ever seen her wear. My breath caught in my throat, and I gaped at her. She smiled at me.

"Hi, Edward. Glad you came".

"S-Sure." I choked, managing a smile. "I said I would, right?"

"Right". She smiled and glanced at the bar. I quickly jumped in. "Would you like a drink?"

"Love one". She winked at me. "Whatever you're having".

I turned to the guy at the bar and ordered two shots. I was all for downing them tonight. I handed one to Tanya, who brushed her fingers with mine.

"Thank you". She smiled and clinked her glass against mine. "To being single."

I smiled. "I'll drink to that". I downed my drink quickly, causing a burning sensation in my throat. It couldn't have been better though. She did the same, and I stared at her in amazement. "Did you just down that?"

"I've been starting long before you have, babe". She teased and fuck me, I wanted her.

They played some ridiculous bump and grind hip-hop, and Tanya grinned at me. "Dance?"

I wasn't about to pass up that offer. Especially since I was dying to find reason to touch her, and two because I intended on doing things I normally didn't do. I downed another shot and nodded.

"Sure". She took my hand and led me out, in the crowd. I spotted Jessica and James making out, and smirked. She was too stupid not to realize James didn't want her, but her entirely way too fuckable body. Which of course meant it wouldn't last more then a month before James got sick of her and moved onto some other girl. Lucky bastard for having his pick and choose.

Tanya moved her body into mine, and I moved my legs slightly apart, feeling her brush up against the bulge already forming in my pants. I moved my mouth to her cheek, brushing my lips against her skin as I breathed huskily into her ear. I could have sworn I heard her moan softly, bringing her hand to my thighs as she twirled around. She smiled up at me, and that's when I felt her hands move slowly but surely to the bulge in my jeans. I bit back a groan when she palmed me, her lips trailing lightly over my neck.

"Fuck, Tanya". I breathed against her hair, holding her body to mine.

"If you insist". She grinned, taking me by the hand and pulling me towards the stairs. I didn't even know where we were going, and my vision was slightly impaired. She pushed me against the stairwell, undoing the top buttons on my shirt so she could kiss the skin that was now revealed.

"Mmm". She moaned against my chest, grinding her hips lightly into mine. Fuck, I needed her. I wanted her. Badly.

As she continued to kiss my chest, I bent down and pressed my lips to her neck. She moved back a little to grant me access, and I wrapped my other arm around her waist and brought her closer.

"Kiss me". She groaned against my ear, and I pulled back enough to bring her lips to mine. My God. For all the times I had thought about this, imagined this, and now it was happening. Her lips melted on mine like butter, and her mouth immediately opened against mine, allowing me to kiss her the way I always had wanted to. Our tongues met and fought for dominance, while my hands skimmed all over her body, quickly covering her breasts before heading down to her thighs. I pulled them apart, allowing my crotch to grind freely against her.

"Ugh. You're so…perfect". I moaned as she began to stroke me through my jeans. I could clearly see down her top now, and she had left nothing to the imagination.

"Holy f--"

"Upstairs". She hissed, moving her hand away and leading me up to one of the rooms. I stumbled up the stairs with her, letting her choose whatever room. I just wanted to see her body under mine.

She shoved a door open, and it was empty, thank fuck. I shoved her against the wall, kicking the door closed behind me. She was perfect. Perfect kisser, perfect body…God. What she was doing to me. I ripped off her skirt, not meaning to destroy it but we were past the stage of worrying. She turned around and nudged me forward until the back of my knees found the bed. Oh, yeah. I lifted her up and placed her on the bed, and she pulled me roughly down with her. I practically fell on her, my mouth never detached from hers.

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. I couldn't think of anything else. Her hand went to my jeans, and undid the belt and zipper. I leaned up to help her, but she moved my hand away and began to slide them down herself. She turned around so I was lying on the bed, while she straddled me. She gave me a lazy grin and began to pull my jeans down lower and lower. I closed my eyes slightly when I felt her reach for my boxers and pull them down as well. I quickly lifted my shirt and threw it to the side, not wanting to have anything between us.

I couldn't have imagined anything better.

Pretty soon I had ripped off her clothes, staring in awe at her true womanly body. She was all curves and breasts, and I couldn't keep my hands off them. I was soon inside of her, and we'd both moaned pleasurably at the contact. I couldn't describe how fucking amazing it was.

I didn't want to move. I hadn't had this in so long and it was making me realize how much I missed it.

I came with a loud moan, only moments before she did. We stared at each other for a few moments, before resting on our backs, breathing heavily.

"Wow". She grinned and I agreed. I was breathing heavily.

"You…were amazing". I breathed and she giggled against my chest. "So were you. I can't believe your fiancé didn't take advantage of that. Typical of a little virgin."

I winced at the thought of Bella. I didn't like when people brought her up. I was glad we made the right decision, but that didn't give my friends the right to insult her.

I cleared my throat. "Yeah, anyway…I uh, better get up." I sat up in the bed and reached for my pants. Tanya wrapped her arms around me, breathing hotly on my neck. She kissed my bare shoulder and leaned her head against mine.

"We should do it again sometime". She kissed my shoulder again. "I like you, Edward. A lot."

I rested my jeans on my thighs before turning to her, lifting her chin and kissing her lightly. It felt nice. And in all honesty, I could relate to her.

"I like you too". I murmured.

But I adore your body. I thought, as I nuzzled her neck. She sat up in all her glory, and I couldn't help but think how fucking sexy she was. My lower region rose to attention at the thought, and she smirked, reaching over and removing my jeans from my thighs, throwing them to the side.

"I don't think we're done".

"Guess not". I smiled teasingly and she giggled, bringing us back down. I crawled on top of her and we started again.

***

I watched Tanya sleep for a bit, before glancing at my watch. It was early morning; I knew we had to leave. I didn't want to, but I gently nudged her.

"Hey…"

"Mmm. Edward?" She curled up against me, and I wasn't sure what to do.

"Uh, yeah. Tanya. I have to leave". I settled my hand on her bare shoulder. "I'll talk to you later, alright?"

"Want my number?" She got up, bringing the sheet with her.

"Oh yeah. Right". I shook my head slightly. I pulled out my phone from my jean pocket and she recited it to me. I closed my phone and leaned forward to kiss her.

She curled her body against me, but I knew I had to leave. I had to use the last of my restraint to pull away from her again and get dressed. She just watched me with a sexy, seductive smile.

"So I'll see you soon?"

I grinned. "You bet. You all set with getting home?"

"Oh yeah. Don't worry. We have a designated driver". She insisted, waving her hand dismissively.

I nodded and pulled my shirt over my head. "See you later."

"Sooner rather then later". She teased and blew me a kiss. I smirked and winked at her, closing the door and heading out.

I headed downstairs and found Laurent hooking up with a petite brunette on the couch. I tapped his shoulder. He pulled away to glance at me.

"Oh, Edward. Where were you?"

"Uh, upstairs". I ran my fingers through my hair lightly. "Where's James?"

"Ready to go. He was looking for you…somewhere". He looked around and shrugged his shoulders. The brunette dismissed him at the lack of attention and walked off. Laurent smirked.

"She was an interesting one".

I chuckled. "Sure seemed that way. Come on, we better head off".

"Chill man". I helped him up and we found James doing more shots. I sighed and pulled him up by his elbow while his friends jeered at him. He was laughing stupidly.

"Come on man, you're wasted". I helped him up and he followed me. "Fine, fuck. I'm fine".

Laurent helped me and we got him out and down to the car. He threw up before we got in, and Laurent looked relieved he didn't do it in his car. I felt a little sick myself, but I hadn't really had a lot. I had done what I set out to do, I was satisfied. I reached into my pocket for my phone and squeezed it, smiling slightly.

Yeah, I sure did.

I was in a daze as we headed home. I couldn't feel anything but numbness from the alcohol, and my joints were aching. Great.

I'm probably getting sick.

I pulled out my phone and browsed through to Tanya's number, staring at it. James was having a drunken conversation with us about bullshit, and Laurent was laughing. I was too tired to amuse him.

Should I send her a message? Or would that look desperate? I sighed and figured I would. Why not? If she enjoyed our time together as much as I did there was nothing wrong with acknowledging that.

Hey, gorgeous. Had a good time. ;)

Edward.

I quickly shut my phone and placed it in my pocket, somewhat excited and somewhat dreading her answer. She probably wasn't in to me as much as I was into her.

"Eddwaarddddie. My maaaaan." James slurred, turning his pointless conversation to me. "Fucked Tanyyya, hey? Smooth son of a bitch".

I smirked. "You better believe it".

Laurent glanced over at me. "Next time you're the sober driver, shithead. Just cause you broke up with that little girl doesn't mean you get any special privileges."

I pressed my lips together for a moment. "It's Bella".

"Huh?"

"Her name is Bella". I repeated. "You don't need to make the wise cracks, alright? And I didn't break up with her".

"Oh, sorry". He waved his arms sarcastically. "You broke her heart but it was mutual, right?"

I bit back a growl. I didn't like talking about it and they knew that. From the time they met Bella, James and Laurent had always referred to her as a little girl compared to how the girls looked at college. Bella was very small, petite and delicate, and they used to laugh and say;

"She looks like she's in junior high. Edward, you pedophile!"

I never saw that, but I used to laugh it off at first. After a while though, it got irritating. And now especially.

James laughed. "Oh, we've hit a nervvve! Eddie boy, tell us again how she wouldn't fuck you. Tell us how she'd leave you hard and desperate. Edward dated a nun!" He laughed heartedly. "No, he dated the virgin incarnate with the small tits! Come on, Tell ussssssss how--"

"Shut. The. Fuck. Up." I turned around and growled at him. "Enough, alright?"

My hand was itching to hit him, but I didn't. I couldn't help it. Bella had always been a big part of my life, and I didn't want to hear anyone insult her. My opinion of her hadn't changed and never would. I would always have a great amount of respect for her being unlike other college girls that spread their legs for every guy that comes across.

"Awww Eddie. I was kiddddddin. She's gonna findd the right guy out there, who's gonna love her small boobs and non-existent ass. Then you can drag Tanyaaa and her double D's to the wedding and you can have a big orgy!" He laughed and my fist clenched tightly.

Laurent glanced at me. "Calm down, Edward".

Yeah, like that'll help.

I ignored him. "I am about five seconds away from throwing you out of this fucking car, James. You got me? Shut the fuck up!"

He did after that. I was grateful for that and Laurent drove to my apartment in silence. I thanked him when he dropped me off, not bothering to say anything to James.

"See you in class, man".

I nodded and closed the door, heading upstairs and fumbling with the keys. I cursed under my breath until I found the right key, and opened the door. I can't remember much after that. I stumbled in, tossed my keys to the side and headed straight for the bedroom. Between the alcohol and the sheer exhaustion of university all week, I fell asleep only moments after my head hit the pillow.

***

Bella.

"Hey, Bells!"

I turned around and smiled. Jake was almost always there after I was finished with my lecture. He had been such a good friend over this past fortnight, I had seen him every day since we had gone to maccas together and he had truly helped me to open up and be myself again in such a short time. I was truly privileged to have him in my life.

"Hi, Jake".

Sienna and Cass grinned and greeted him. They really liked Jake, as Rose and Alice did. It was nice that we all got along.

"Well, we'll see you later Bells". Sienna nudged Cass and they headed off.

"See you tomorrow". I managed a smile and waved, before turning back to Jake. He smiled at me and reached for my books as he always had.

"How is my best friend?"

"Tired". I admitted with a small laugh and leaned my head on his shoulder tiredly. He wrapped an arm lightly around my waist.

"Where do you want to go for lunch? You've got work tonight, don't you?"

Jake had spoken to Sam, his friend who owned the diner a bit further down the road. It was an amazing place, very relaxed and open. Sam was very happy to meet me, and after a quick interview, he told me he'd love to have me working for him.

"As a good friend of Jake, I've got no problems. Welcome, Bella".


I shook his hand. "Thank you so much."


With that I ran outside, happier then I had ever been. "JAKE! I GOT IT!" I squealed when I saw him, and jumped straight into his wide-open arms. He laughed and twirled me around.

"I know!"

"How did you know?" I asked playfully. "Were you eavesdropping?"

"Nope. I just knew. Because there's no reason why he wouldn't want to hire you. Especially after all the things I told him." He winked, and I laughed heartedly.

"Oh, Jake, Thank you so much!" I hugged him again and he lifted me from the ground, pressing his lips to my head.

"Sure, sure. Anytime."

I smiled softly at the memory and looked back to Jacob. "Yeah, I do. You don't have to do this, Jake. I feel bad. I mean, we go out every day. What about time with your friends?"

"Hey." He lifted my chin. "You're my friend and you need me, right?"

I hated admitting that, but it was completely true. The first few days after he had taken me out I had cried on his shoulder, still unable to banish thoughts about…him. They still hovered there, but Jake had a way of making me forget when I was with him. Since then, I had craved his presence in my life and his visits had become more of an occurrence day after day. He was beyond incredible and part of me, a big part, had developed an unbreakable attachment to him. One that I don't think anyone, or anything, could change.

"Yes". I whispered, moving closer to him to feel his overprotective stance over me. He brought me closer, and I felt his lips against my head. I blushed as he whispered;

"I care about you a great deal, Bella. I'll never leave you."

"Thank you". I said softly, sincerely. I genuinely meant it. Though if he ever left me, I don't know how I'd cope. I needed him like the earth needed the sun. Without him I would fall back into my depressive state, and I couldn't handle that. I couldn't remember.

Then of course, it had to happen. Jake drove us to the local diner outside of the university and we headed in. Jake joked about the waiters in this place and I laughed, glancing to the right as we waited to be served. That's when I saw him. Or should I say…them.

I hadn't seen Edward since our almost wedding, and I was so glad about that. I asked Rose and Alice not to mention him, and it helped a great deal. Now, here he was in all his perfection, with a girl next to him, just as beautiful. She was someone that was in his league. Something I never was. They were sitting on the booth, laughing and talking. He wrapped his arm around her and moved closer, and at the same time she snuggled close to him. My heart was ripped into shreds, and I couldn't move. The feelings overwhelmed me again, and I almost collapsed. My hand went to my chest in desperation to soothe my heart, and I couldn't breathe. It hurt too much.

"Bella?" Jake nudged me, but I couldn't move. He must have noticed then, because his comforting stare on me turned to one of fury to them.

"You've got to be damn well kidding me…"

"J-Jake". I blinked furiously, and that's when I realized my eyes were wet with unshed tears.

He quickly wrapped his hands around me to steady me. I felt like I was going to faint.

"Come on, we'll leave". He said gently, but I could hear the anger in his voice that he couldn't hide. I nodded, thankful they hadn't seen us. I couldn't tear my face away, until Jake drew me to his chest and led me out, bringing my head to his chest so my view of them would be blocked.

"Don't look at them, Bella."

I knew he was right; it would only make it harder. I closed my eyes and inhaled the scent on his shirt, clinging to the comforting aura that surrounded him. The same I depended so desperately on.

Jake led me out quickly, and I felt horrible. This was his favorite diner, and I had to spoil it because I was weak.

"J-Jake.." I couldn't control the tears. "I-I'm s-so s-s-sorry…"

"Bella." He stopped and turned around now that we were outside. "You can't keep doing this to yourself. It's not your fault this happened, it's his. Hewas the idiot who let you go." He held my cheek and looked into my eyes with such intensity. "I know it will hurt to see him with someone else, but you have to understand this, because it's true. It doesn't matter whether he finds another girl or not, they will never match up to you. I feel sorry for her. But you…well, I can't even explain how lucky I am to have you".

I couldn't say anything, so he kissed my forehead and took my hand again.

"God," I shook my head slightly as he led me by the hand to his car. "I really don't deserve you, Jake".

"Hah. Sorry, I'm not buying that." He joked, drawing me to him for a hug. I stood on my toes and wrapped my arms around his neck tightly. He didn't seem to mind though and embraced me just as tightly, pressing me to his warm, comforting body. Being in his arms like this, I knew one thing for certain. I craved it more then anything. His personality, his smile, his warm touch. I had become much to attached, yet I couldn't bring myself to do anything about it now.

He chuckled and had to break my hold gently. "You're clinging onto me like you're worried I'll disappear or something."

"I am". I admitted timidly, and he held me and against his chest. "I need you, Jake."

He was silent for a moment, and I glanced up at him, worried I'd frightened him or worried him. He didn't seem either. He seemed to want to tell me something, but was struggling with it. His eyes didn't leave mine, and I couldn't look away. He leaned forward slightly, and pressed his forehead to mine. My lips pursed gently, and my eyes closed from the familiarity of it.

"…You need me to just…be your friend, right?" He said in a strangely soft tone.

"Of course as my friend, Jake". I opened my eyes to meet his. "You're my best friend."

He half smiled and nodded, looking away. It seemed forced, but he hid it well. "Sure. Come on. We'll go somewhere else for lunch." He opened the car door for me, and I headed in, a little perplexed what his reaction. Something inside me told me not to pursue it, so I didn't. Jake had never hidden anything from me, so I knew if it was something he wanted me to know, he'd tell me eventually.


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