Part Nine: Hermione Writes
The days and weeks passed by, the nights were cold and foreboding, the days busy and painful. I never had time to think except when I lied awake in bed, dreading the next day, hating myself for what I had just completed, and for what I had not done. I was lonely yes, but I didn't know that. Not consciously.
My dreams were never pleasant, my sleep was never restful. It had been like this before, many times before and yet I never accustomed to it. Your heart and mind may harden, things may not affect you as much, but you still feel it, still feel the emptiness, the pain, the self loathing when it is all over.
I was lying in bed, staring at the ceiling through half closed, puffy eyes. I hadn't slept a decent night in weeks, my body ached with fatigue and apprehension. I wanted to gently slip into unconsciousness. It was only then, when I was on the brink of falling into a very fitful sleep, that my consciousness was shaken awake by an insistent tapping on the window pane.
I don't recall how my legs carried me to the window and back, but carry me they did. I returned to bed to struggle in opening the envelope.
Severus-
I apologize profusely for my lack of correspondence. I do hope you have been keeping well. As you may know, I have been busy traveling. So far we have seen all of Britain and we move on to Switzerland tomorrow. I can't wait until we get further to the east. I have heard so many fascinating things about India. Have you traveled much?
I must get some sleep. No doubt you wish to sleep as well.
Your Hermione. (1)
I miss you.
I wanted so much to write back, to tell her that I was okay, even though my coughing fit as I read would attest to much the opposite. Before I could even formulate a reply in my head, however, my eyes shut and, through the nightmares, stayed shut for what was left of the night.
(1)"Your Natalie" Sound familiar anyone?
I apologize to all of you who didn't want Hermione to leave, but as Severus said she should make the most of her opportunities. But don't worry, it would not be right of me to let them part forever. Be patient and all will be well. :)
Sue- Sorry to disappoint, they didn't kiss in this chapter but don't you worry, I will have them kissing at some point! And don't forget, Sev has already kissed her cheek so that's a big step for him. :) Thanks for your review!
