Chapter 9: Nashville Pt. 2
~Kaylee~
I woke the next morning and slowly got out of bed and walked out of my bedroom. I walked down the small hallway. I entered the kitchen and started the coffee pot. It was the first thing I did in the morning most days. Today was one of those days. I walked out to the living room and found Dean was sprawled out on the floor while Bryan was sleeping soundly on the sofa. I laughed silently and left them.
I walked back into the kitchen and grabbed myself some coffee. I sat at the table and carefully sipped the hot beverage.. I looked down at the floor and spotted my old cat Sassy. She was rubbing against my leg and purr. I reach down and pick her up. I hold her closely and kissed her head. "You are my only family here. Well you and Sophie that it is." I whispered to her. She perked her ears up and she rubbed her face against mine.
"That isn't true" I looked back and saw that Brie was up she was smiling at me. "You have more than just your cats." Brie said. "You see those two snoring men over there in the living room. They both have a place in their hearts for you. Dean a little more maybe, Bryan looks to you like a sister. He told me that while he was convincing me to come here. He thinks you are one of the most talented female wrestlers on the roster. Besides Me that is" She said after grabbing a cup of coffee and sitting down next to me.
"Yeah I like Bryan too" I tell her. "He is one of the best submission wrestlers there is. I respect him" I tell her she smiled.
"Yeah it takes a lot of time to become that good" I say to her.
"You have been wrestling longer than I have. You do things most female wrestlers can't do nowadays" Brie said.
"I guess that's why I am Champion" I say to her. She laughs and we sit chat for awhile before the guys wake up and join us. Bryan kissed Brie and sat down next to her. Well all then proceed to talk about the shower schedule.
I was first than Brie and the boys could fight over which one went in next. I really didn't care; I just had to get ready for the day. I had a long day I knew that my family would cause trouble they always did when I showed for something. I was the only one that actually made something of myself. They were all drunks it seemed to run in the family. I was smart enough to get out of that. I didn't want to end up like them. I ended up where I am now. I had a new family it was slightly large. All my coworkers we are all family in way. We all have one thing in common our passion for what we do every day of the week. Entertain the WWE Universe and putting our bodies on the line for them. I didn't mind I loved what I do, you had to because there are days where you just want to quit but you don't because you love your job. You had to love wrestling.
The Blake family didn't get why I went for that profession. It was what I wanted to do. I also wanted to be a singer but that could come later in my life after I retired from Wrestling. It was my dream since I was a little girl. It was dream before I wanted to become a wrestler. I have what I need in life. Today was me finally saying goodbye to my past and moving onto my future.
I stepped out of the shower and walked in my room and picked up the black dress I chose to wear for today. It was light and thin it was really warm out to day so I picked out a thin strapped black dress. It was simple but had black lace that covered the dress. I dried off and slipped on a strapless bra and matching underwear. I slipped the dress on and looked in the mirror. I fit me perfectly it was something I had gotten on my shopping trip with the Bella twins. I took the towel and pressed my hair dry. It was going to dry fast considering it was short. I like my hair short it was a lot easier to take care of. I brushed it and put a small amount of hair mousse in to keep tamed down. I fingered through and ran a brush through it again. I was done right when Brie walked in the room.
"Wow you look great Kay" She said. "You are going to best looking woman there well I mean we will be" She said to me. I smiled at her and left so she could get dressed herself. I walk down the hall with my flats in hand. It was almost one 'o clock and the funeral is at two thirty. So there was about an hour and half till I had to be there. I saw that Bryan was sitting at the table putting on his tie.
"Hey Bryan" I said sitting down at the table next to him.
"Hey Kaylee how are feeling right now" He asked, I looked at him and then down at my hands. They were shaking I didn't even know that they were shaking.
"I don't know I haven't seen any of them in years. I just want to get this day over with." I say to him. I felt Bryan take my hands.
"You can do this. Want to know why" he asked me. I nodded. "Because you are better than them they like to hurt people to make themselves feel good. Honestly I think they are just jealous of your success. You made something of yourself and they didn't" He said.
"I keep getting told that" I say to him he stifles a laugh.
"That's because it's true" he said. This time I crack a smile and a laugh.
"I guess so" I Say to him. Bryan heads to my room to check on Brie and I am left at the table alone. I put my shoes on. I sit back in the chair and sigh.
Today was the day I let everything in my past go. At least I keep telling myself that today. I close my eyes and I see the life I had with my father. I knew one day that his problem would kill him. I even told him. I had cared about him once but that was before my mom died and he changed. He used to be the only one that had a life that meant something. Mom's death changed him and changed me into somebody who was afraid to let someone else in. Maybe that was why Ian and didn't last I was afraid of commitment and relationships. It could be why I was so hesitant about Dean and a relationship. I was afraid he would hurt me like Ian did and my Dad. They both let me down. I didn't want to be like that anymore. I wanted to be happy with somebody but I didn't know how to do it.
Everybody was now ready and packed into my small car. I pulled out of the parking garage and headed to cemetery where my mother was buried. I knew that was where he wanted to be buried next to mom. The ride was quiet in the car and I was thankful for that. Bryan and Brie were in the back while Dean was in the front with me. I took a turn and another before I was in front of the cemetery. I parked and sat in the car. I could see members of my family were already here.
None of them knew I was coming they all thought that I most likely would be out of town. They didn't think I would I come. But as I sat here I was fighting on if I should get out of the car or not. These people put me down for so many years. Telling me that I couldn't follow my dreams and that I wouldn't amount to much but, I did become somebody and have so many people looked up to me. Kids, adults and that felt good. I was appreciated by people who didn't even really know me but of what they saw in the ring and what was posted on the internet. They appreciated what I did every day of my life. I had thousands of people who react to what I do on TV. Whether they like it or hate it.
"Kaylee you have to get out of the car" Dean said, I looked back and saw that Brie and Bryan had already exited the car.
"I know. I just don't know if I want to do this anymore" I say to him.
"You can do it. You are stronger now and can face them. They have no control over you. This is for family and you are his daughter even if you don't want to be." He said.
"I always wanted him to come and apologize to me. For making live in the pain I did. I wanted to forgive him at one point but I guess he just didn't care" I tell him.
"Today is the day you let him go and you move on. You don't need that in your life. I get it I really do. I know you can get through today." He said I felt him take my hand. I never would have expected that Dean had this side. I guess I really didn't know him outside of the ring. I only saw the way he was at work and in the ring. I didn't know the real Dean. I guess he did have a soft side. "You tell anyone about this you will regret it" he said to me. Dean was back I laughed and grabbed my purse. I opened the door and slowly stepped out. I stood up and shut the door and walked to the front of the car where Brie and Bryan were standing. I watched as my father's sister got out of her car. She was the worst one out of my family. She looked over at me and frowned. I smiled and felt someone take my hand I looked and found it was Dean. He smiled down at me and I started forward. Brie and Bryan followed behind me. I didn't care if I wasn't on the list I was his daughter I had a right to be here and I f wanted to bring friends I could.
I walked through with my friends and found seats in the back. Dean sat on my left and Brie sat on my right with Bryan. I watched as the seats filled up. There weren't many people here. He didn't have many friends and the ones he had were drunks like him.
I listened as people talked about him. I wasn't mentioned once by anyone. I sat there and watched as people ignored that I was here. When the people were asked if there was anybody who wanted to say a few words I stood up and walked up. I could hear the grunts of the crowd.
I looked over everybody. They all looked like they wanted me to leave. I stood tall and opened my mouth to talk. "If none of you remember I Kaylee Grace Blake I am his daughter. I sat back there and listened to all of you speak about how great of a man he was. You knew a different side of him. I knew the real side. He was an alcoholic, he was abusive and he neglected me every day of my life. You people call that a good man. You all didn't even mention me. His daughter who became a successful professional wrestler I have friends that care about me. This man didn't do anything for me. I did everything on my own. I raised myself. I didn't need him and today is the day I let it go. I am moving on with my life and putting every one of you behind me. I don't need any of you. I tried to fix it but, you know what he didn't want to and none of you would let me. So I am done with all of you. I know this isn't the place to do this but I think it is the best place to say this." I say to them I could hear the mixed reactions but it had to be said. I had to say what I felt.
I could hear the murmurs going through the crowd. "I know you are all jealous because I made something of myself. I got a career that I am going to for however long my body will let me." I say to them. "I don't care what you think of me anymore because I have everything I ever wanted in life. So you can hate me I don't care" I say walking away from the stand I stopped and looked back at them. "Have a good life" I say to them.
I didn't know where all that came from but I felt better. I told them how I felt and it felt amazing to let them know how I feel. I wasn't here to just move on from my dad but them too. I didn't need them I told the truth I had everything I needed and that wasn't here with them.
Brie, Dean and Bryan followed me away from the crowd of people. I was on my way to my car when I heard my name being called. I turned around to see my aunt. She walked up to me and slapped my face.
"How dare you come here and say that" She said to me. I smiled and looked down at her considering I am a few inches taller than her. "You ruined my brother's funeral. Who do you think you are coming here and saying such deceitful things about our family" She ranted.
"What right do you have for telling me I wouldn't do anything with my life? What right do you have to deny me on coming here? He was my father I had a right to say goodbye to him. It is a free country" I say to her. I watched as she backed down for a second.
"You are a brat you always have been. Throwing my brother in jail for two years for child neglect he loved you and you were so ungrateful" She told me.
"Loved me, are you kidding me. Telling me that it was my fault my mom died and beating me was telling me he loved me I don't know what fucked up world you live in but that doesn't say love to me. He got what was coming to him. So do you" I say to her. I turn around and head to my car.
"You are such a littleā¦" She didn't get to finish because I heard Brie interrupt her.
"What are you going to say about Kaylee Huh? I don't think you know her. I have known her for almost three years. Every time we talk or even if we don't all I see is a good person. She puts people before herself. She would take the shirt off her back for someone. She actually takes time to greet her fans. She lets people go in front of her in lines. She has a big heart and you know what everybody respects her. She may not let many people in to inner circle but that's because of you. You made her feel like she wasn't worth anything. I have listened to the things you have said and done to her. She doesn't deserve a family like you." Brie said. I heard her take a breath before she walked away and joined us at my car. I looked at my aunt and saw the shock on her face. Brie turned and looked back at her.
"Don't ever contact her or even approach her she is better off without any of you in her life." Brie added and walked to get in the car.
I never had anyone stick up for me like that before. It felt amazing that someone cared about me. I turned and got in the car with everybody else. I let Dean drive. I wasn't really in the mood to drive. I sat and looked out the window.
"Thank you Brie" I say to her.
"You are welcome" she said to me. We didn't say anything else after that. We just sat in quiet till we got back to the apartment.
