"You wankers did this to her!" Spike hissed. "Just know if she doesn't make it your all dead. Probably going to kill you anyways." Spike said lifting Dawn and resting her on the couch. "C'mon baby s'all right." Spike beckoned.
"Spike she's gonna be all right, it was just a little witchy stuff, a power overload or something, shell be fine." Willow offered nervous.
"Damn it Red you know not to mess with the dark arts. Not with her." He hissed. "She's too vulnerable."
"What happened?" Buffy asked charging into the room with Xander.
"Red let her do magic." Spike said stroking Dawn's hair.
"Willow, she's the key, we don't let her mess with magic." Buffy said angry herself. She rushed to the couch next to Dawn and Spike. "It's too dangerous."
"Dawn wake up!" Spike hollered. "Dawnie." He whinned. He couldn't lose her. This was not happening. It was all some fake lie. Something the big red cooked up. Some fake witchy crap keeping her like this. Not real. Not real. Not. Real.
"Willow, do something. This was caused by magic. So fix it!" Buffy hollered angry. Her sister laying limp in the vampires arms. What was happening? This couldn't happen. Not to her sister. Not to her Dawn.
"I can't. I don't know what to do." Willow said in shock.
"Well what's wrong?" Buffy asked in terror.
"Power!" Angel exclaimed. "She has too much power." Angel frowned. Not wanting to reveal the power Dawn had bottled up inside of her. He knew that something in Angelus could sense it. Something strong.
"How can you have too much power?" Buffy asked annoyed and interested.
"She hasn't been using it at all, her magical abilitys. And its like it was all bottled up." Angel admitted. "And now she finaly used magic, used her ability's and it just hit her. Just came to her. She'll be fine...most likely." Angel said hopefull. "I think." He questioned.
Spike held her in his arms. "Then why wont she wake up?" He asked almost innaudable. "Wake up baby, please." Spike begged.
"What's going on?" Dawn asked weekly comming to her senses.
"Dawnie?" Spike said with a smile. "You were out. Completely. You weren't breathing. Are you all right?" Spike asked trying to calm himself.
"Sorta feel a little woozy." Dawn spoke, her words in a jumble. Almost all one words.
"Oh my God Dawn your all right." Buffy exclaimed, pleased.
"I'm all right guys." Dawn said weekly.
"Oh bloody hell." He sighed. He held her body close to his. "Don't ever scare me like that again." He ordered.
"Mmm." Dawn smiled. "It was a surge of power." She explained. "It was amazing. And I feel all tingly now."
"Huh?" Spike pulled away still holding onto her.
"Power." Dawn answered. "I feel all powerful. Kinda strange really." She admitted with a sly smile.
"Really?" Spike looked confused. "Power?" He muttered.
"Yeah. Like a high really." She said with a faint smile still on her face.
"Dawn?" Spike looked shocked. "How would you know what a high felt like?" He teased.
"Oh shut up." Dawn smiled. "I'm just saying it was weird."
"Yeah, it's the power it draws you in." Willow said with a frown. Remembering her past. Remembering the way she had been before. When she tried to suck the world into hell. Scary veigny Willow comming back into mind.
"Just don't go getting addicted. No girl of mine is going to be a wicca." Spike said shaking his head.
"Oh really." She smiled. She loved the claim he always took over her.
"Yes really. They tend to be...well not very dependant on their man...er whatever." Spike studdered over his words.
"And you like me being dependant on you?" She asked with a sly smile.
"Bloody hell right I do." Spike admitted.
"Hmm." Dawn gleamed. "Well don't worry, there's no changing my dependancy on this drug." Dawn smiled leaning into place a kiss on Spike's cold lips.
Dawn wilted into his touch as he pulled her closer taking control of the kiss. It was like they had forgotten that their were others in the room. It was like the entire world faded into nothing but them. Nothing but what they were doing. The way they loved one another. The way they held one another. Nothing. But them. Always. And no one else really appreciated the way they ignored them. They way they didn't matter. Though Dawn loved her "family" she really didn't care when Spike was around. He was the most important thing in her life. He was her life. And Spike didn't give damn if they all died as long as Dawn was his, forever. Safe in his arms.
"Do you guys mind?" Angel said with slight resentment in his voice.
"No peaches I don't mind." Spike smiled looking into Dawn's eyes while he directed his comment towards Angel. "I don't mind at all." He smirked. That familiar malicious smirk.
"Can you guys keep this PG please." Xander begged in horror.
"Bugger off Harris." Spike spat out the words still mezmorized by his breathing Dawn.
"So Dawn you feel all right now?" Buffy asked sincerly. Almost losing Dawn made Buffy think. What if she had? The way she had been so angry with her. Told her she made her sick. When she loved her sister. Loved so much she would die for her. She had almost lost her tonight. And that would have killed her. Even though something inside her still felt jealousy. Somthing still made her want her sister's life. The ability to walk up to the one that you love and tell them you loved them. Feel it in return. So much it made things simpler. Made things all right again. Made this life feel like it was worth living. Even though Buffy still had feelings for Spike. She loved Angel. Loved everything about him. Always had. Always would. And sleeping with him could have caused her sister to be killed. Or worse sired. What was happening. She was falling apart. Buffy felt like she was falling and there was no one there to protect her. No one. But maybe Angel could be. Maybe he would be.
"Yeah Buff. I'm fine." Dawn sighed. "I need some rest though I think." Dawn stumbled over her words. She remembered quickly that she didn't live here anymore. She lived with Spike. Which was not necisarily a bad thing. It was great living with him. He was her hero. The love of her life. Her savior.
"All right." Buffy frowned. "But I want you to know your welcome here. This is still your home." Buffy said hopeful. Hopeful for acceptance, for forgiveness.
"Thanks sis. But it's really not anymore. No offense." Dawn said looking from her sister then to Spike. "Wanna take me home now?" Dawn asked looking at Spike with a smile on her innoscent face.
"It'd be my pleasure luv." Spike's face lit up with unholy thoughts.
Dawn stood up as Spike helped her onto her unstable feet. She hugged her sister. "I love you sis." She kissed her cheek and walked out the door Spike by her side. Dawn was almost making a statement. Without really meaning to. She only said goodbye to one person. Her sister. And she had showed them all where her home was now. Where her family was. With Spike. Her love. Her life. Her soul.
They walked into the crypt and Dawn sat down on the couch waiting for Spike to sit beside her. He paced around for a minute and grabbed a pack of blood. He poured it into a mug and sat beside her. They sat in silence. Strange silence. Spike drank his blood and Dawn sat thinking. She was thinking about so much. Dawn loved Spike. She was restless without him. She was worthless without him. He was the only thing in her half empty life that had any meaning. The most important peron in her life. She loved him and that was enough. She knew that it couldn't be forever though. She new sooner or later she was going to have to make a desicion. Spike couldn't live with her until she was a wrinkly old lady. It was not an appealing thought so Dawn shook it off. There was no other option than for her to become...a vampire. She knew it was a big desicion. A really big one. One that would change her entire life. Forever. And it was perminant. Which was like a gift without return of purchase. She knew she wanted it. But convincing Spike was going to be damn near impossible. He wouldn't want to make her one of him. To curse her. But he always enjoyed being a vampire. And Dawn knew if it meant eternity with Spike then she would enjoy it as well.
"Something on your mind pet?" Spike asked calmly.
"Yeah." Dawn answered vague.
"Hmm." Spike smirked as he finished off the last bit of his blood. "Whatcha thinkin' bout kitten?" Spike asked looking down at her.
"Not much-" She was interupted by a ringing. Her cell phone. She hadn't remembered turning it on.
She got up and walked over to it she lifted it and turned it on answering it with a gentle ''hello''.
"Hey Dawnie. It's Janice. We on for the Bronze tonight?" Her friends voice made her feel pleased. She missed seeing her all the time. Missed spending most of her time with her.
"Uhm, maybe." Dawn said looking at Spike, who gave her a confused look.
"Oh, I see gotta ask the boy toy." Janice giggled. "All right then. Were all gonna be there. If you showed up it would be great." Her friend spoke with hope in her voice.
"All right, I'll try. See ya." Dawn offered as she hung up the phone.
"Who was that Nibblet?" Spike asked beckoning her to come closer with the stare in his blue eyes.
"Janice." She said with a depressed sounding sigh.
"What's the matter pet?" Spike asked concerned.
"Well she wants to hang out at the Bronze tonight. Can we go?" Dawn asked pleading him with her eyes as she sat beside him on the couch.
"I'm not really a people person pet." Spike said trying to avoid her puppy dog eyes.
"Spike. Please." She begged weekly.
"All right." Spike said defeated. He gave in with ease when it came to her. She was his only weekness. His only kryptonite...well that and wooden stakes. But Dawn was a weekness he loved.
"Thank you, thank you, thank you." Dawn repeated hugging Spike. "I'm gonna go get changed." She jumped up and went to her bags of clothes. She shuffled through them Spike watching her every move. She found a little black dress she thought would be appropriate. Dawn knew very well Spike's eyes were on her every motion. It made her nervous. Yet intregued. She slowely undressed, feeling the heat of his stare on her body. She tried to ignore it not letting him know that she knew he was stairing intently. She pulled the dress over her head and slid it into place. Perfect. She thought. This was gonne be a good night. She turned to face Spike who was still stairing intently. "Like it?" She asked with a wide smile across her face.
"I love it." Spike said a crooked smile playing across his lips.
"Come on let's go." She said with a shy grin.
Spike stood up and walked over to her. He held her hand and walked her out the door. They walked over to Spike's motercycle. Dawn had avoided riding that thing for sometime now. But she didn't feel like walking. Wanted to save her energy for dancing. So she hoped onto the back with Spike. He protectively slid a helmit onto her head and drove off. He headed towards the Bronze, Dawn's arms around his waste as she leaned her head onto his back. Comfortable. Always. With each other things were always so comfortable. They were almost the same person. So close it seemed like they were. They knew everything about each other and more. Spike pulled his motercycle into the Bronze and turned to slid off. He picked Dawn up even though she could have easily slid off on her own. It felt better to take care of her.
They walked into the Bronze. Dawn took a deep breath. It was time for her friends to meet him. Meet Spike. Her life. And if they didn't approve it didn't matter all that much. But she wanted them to. So much. Too many people disapproved of him. And she just wanted someone to be happy for her. Anya was. But she had always been semi clueless. And she had always been Dawn's friend her only friend. She knew even if the ex-demon disaproved of Spike she wouldn't tell her. It was strange how everyone always lied to Dawn. Always told her what they thought sounded good. Even the always honest Anya. Dawn looked around for her friends. But then they ran up to her with smiles painted across their overly excited faces. Janice standing in front of her. Tanya beside her and Max on the other end of Janice.
"Hey Dawn." Max said in her high pitched voice. "Who's the hunk?" She asked sweetly.
"William." Spike said shaking her hand. He didn't want to have to explain the name Spike to the girls. And William was his name, originaly. It sounded more...human.
"William." Dawn teased. "This is Max, Janice, and Tanya. My friends." She said with a smile.
"Come dance." Janice said dragging her onto the floor without letting her protest.
The girls danced for a while. Mainly just them together. A few guys would come over but Dawn would shoo them off. Occasionaly Dawn would go over and get a drink with Spike and he would dance with her. The way he danced with her made her feel so special. She knew Spike loved her. But he had loved a lot of girls in his unlife. Even though they werent all necisarily true love. He cared for them. And there were certain things that made her feel special. And she had never seen Spike dance with Buffy the way he danced with her. Grasping her hips tightly. Grinding his body up against hers. Moving her with the music. Kissing her neck. Whispering things into her ear. Making her feel...special. As always. And it was obvious that her friends approved.
"Dawn I can't believe he is your boyfriend." Janice said over the loud music playing over the speakers.
"Yeah, me neither." Dawn smiled, swaying her hips to the music.
"So are you guys serious?" Tanya asked interested.
"I love him." Dawn admitted.
"Oh my God." Max said in shock. "Love, Dawn, that's awesome!" She screamed.
"So you guys like him?" Dawn asked curious.
"He's smokin'!" Janice hollered in excitement.
"I think he seems really cool." Max offered.
"I want one." Tanya said looking over at Spike who was sitting at the bar.
The girls all laughed in unicin. They danced for a few minutes longer when Dawn decided it was time to give Spike a break from all this. He was always doing things for her. But she wanted this. Wanted to spend time with her friends. Spend time with them before she decieded to change. Let him change her. She knew if she didn't do it sooner or later then it would never happen. And she would end up without Spike. End up dying a bitter lonely old women. Who lost the man she loved because he refused to make her eternal.
Dawn said goodbye to her friends and went over to Spike. "Ready to go William." Dawn giggled sarcasticaly.
"I thought youd'e rather me sound more...human." Spike frowned.
"I like you just the way you are." Dawn said leaning closer. "Come on let's go." She smiled.
They got onto the motercycle again and Spike drove them home. It was her home now. A crypt. Her home. Who would have thought. Life had taken such a turn, for the better. She had gone from being a slayers little sister. To being with Spike. The one she thought loved her sister. She had always had feelings for him. Even before the real memorys. Even in the memorys the monks planted. Something made her want him. Even when it was forbidden. Even when it made her family abandon her. It was better just to be with him, be in his arms. This was going to be heavan.
They pulled into his place. And they went inside. "Yeah know. I think maybe we should get an apartment." Spike blurted as they shut the door behind them.
"Like together?" Dawn asked with a smile on her face.
"Of course." Spike said grasping her hips.
"Spike?" Dawn said looking down.
"Yes Dawn." Spike answered pulling her into him.
"Change me." She demanded her voice in a low whisper.
"What?" Spike asked in shock. "Dawn no, never." He said with a hint of sadness in his eyes. He wanted to.
"I remember the last time you said that." Dawn looked up into his piercing eyes. "You said you would never drink from me, and you did." Dawn said bringing it to his attention.
"I know, but that was different." Spike said almost angry.
"Spike I want this...need this." Dawn begged.
"You can't get what you want by begging this time. This is different." Spike said with a sigh.
"Spike, don't be an idiot." Dawn said harshness ringing in her tone. "You can't be with me until..." She hesitated. "What happens when I become old." Dawn was holding back the tears.
"Don't you think I think about that?" Spike said almost yelling as he backed away from her. "It haunts me constantly." Spike frowned. "I love you Dawn. And I want to be with you forever, but I wont curse you. I wont deny you a normal life. A life without Sun, or change, or bratty little kids." Spike said stepping closer to her again.
"I love you Spike." Dawn whispered. She wrapped her hands around the back of his neck. "And this is all I want. It's enough. More then enough. It will solve all our problems." She was right. Spike knew that. And a big part of him knew that being a vampire wouldn't change her. It just made you act on your inhibitions, made you forget guilt. And Dawn was too good a person for that to change her. She would never want to harm anyone. The only person she ever hurt was herself.
"All right Nibblet." Spike said giving in, as always. He gave into her every whim.
They both say on Spike's couch. Nervous. This was it. She was making a decision that effected the rest of her life. She wanted this. This didn't make her afraid. She wasn't afraid of being with him forever. She was afraid of being without him forever. Afraid of him going on after she died. Living. Always living. Never alive. Spike may have been a vampire, he may have been dead. But he was more alive then anyone she had ever known. He knew how to live. Knew how to feel. And she wanted to feel him. All of him. He had given her so much. And she wanted to give him everything. Wanted to prove to him that eternity with him was all that she wanted. And she would. By becomming a vampire she would be free. Free from her family. Free to be with Spike forever.
"Dawn are you sure about this?" Spike asked. "Because once it's done, it's really done. There is no going back." Spike made sure she was clear. Part of him hoping she would say no and tell him she couldn't do it. The more prominent part dying to make her one of him. Make her his for eternity.
"I'm sure." Dawn answered. "I've never wanted anything more then this Spike." Dawn said with a faint smile. One that faded as soon as she felt the nervous pit in her stomouch. But she wanted this needed this.
Spike moved over Dawn pushing her down on the couch so that she was on her back. She breathed nervously. Spike leaned over her, towering his body on top of hers. One hand on her hip, the other caressing her cheek. He moved his mouth onto her neck. He lapped at the skin. Calling the warm blood to the surface of her pale neck. Spike breathed heavily. He knew it was now or never. He slowely looked down at her calmed face. His vampire fascade comming to the surface. He leaned his mouth into her neck and pierced her soft skin with his sharp fangs. Dawn moaned in a twinge of pain at first. Spike sucked the blood from her skin. It was calming having him on top of her. Skin pressed against hers. But she remembered how this wasn't just a game. Not just him drinking from her for fun. This was the real thing. She was becomming one of him. A vampire. He continued sucking the blood. His gready mouth enjoying every moment of her euphoric blood. The crimson liquid gliding past his lips and through his tongue, pouring down his hungry throught. What if he get's board of me after all of this? Dawn thought wearily. But it was too late for second thoughts Spike had taken way too much blood now. And she was either going to die or become one of him. Spike slid back from her neck as he pierced his wrist with his fangs. Quickly shaking off his demon face he moved his wrist to her mouth. He poured the drops of blood into her mouth. She grabbed a hold of his wrist in a daze. She didn't really know what she was doing. She was completely out of it. She had lost too much blood. And all that was left was him towering above her limp body. She suckled the cold blood eyes closed in a trance. Dawn fell back down onto the couch. Falling asleep. Losing the battle to stay conscious. Always losing the battle. Always.
Dawn woke in the basement of Spike's crypt. She was strangely alert. Not dizzy or week. Or even tired. She looked around. She remembered what had happened. Or had it all been a dream? Had Spike really changed her? Was she really one of him now, a vampire? Forever. Dawn smiled. She felt different. More alive. But strangely the same. She was still Dawn. Still herself. But more then that. She could feel everything around her, but the feelings were amplified, more intense then before. Dawn breathed in the air. Everything was different, yet still the same. Like she had never really chaged, but she had. She was his now. For once she had given him something. A promise. Of forever. Giving her life to him. All of it. To him.
Dawn stood up and walked up the stairs. She glided into the crypt. She knew he would be here. He would be waiting. For her. She looked around there he was. On the couch looking at the ground, nervous. Why was he nervous? Never nervous, not Spike. He was always so confident. He looked so gentle, so strong, so perfect. Just sitting there thinking. Anything. Dawn thought. I would do anything for him. And she had. She had done everything. And so had he for her. She walked over to him standing in front of him. He looked up at her quickly.
Spike went to speak but Dawn put her fingers in front of his mouth. "Shhh..." She whispered. "Wanna play, Sire?" She smiled a gentle playfulness in her eyes.
Sire. He liked the sound of that. This was going to be fun. An eternal life with a Dawn free of guilt. Hmm? The things they could do together. Would do together. Forever. Because they would always be together now. No one could take that away from them, not anymore. They were bound together. For eternity. And that was just fine with both of them. Every last breath, together. Unafraid. An eternity, together.
Authors Note: OMG OMG OMG!! This chapter just poured out of me. I don't know why I decided to have Spike change her now. But the story was begging for it. The characters where begging for it. I just had to oblidge. And I really like how it ended up. No worries though. This doesn't make it the ending. I am thinking it's going to be really fun to write more of this fanfic with Dawn being a vampire. The interestng things that could happen. Hmmm. This is gonna be fun! So please review, I really want to hear what you think. This is a very important turning point in the story. So if you read this please review. I am pretty glad with how this chapter turned out. Haha get it "turned" lol. Luv you all-Kirsten
