Ch7. Home
BPOV
Me and Jasper had tried to move on, for the family. But it was of no use.
And Charlie had tried many times to force me to come home. But, I told
him that it was better that he didn't see me this way. That Jasper and
I needed each other. He finally gave up. Gave up on me. On my life.
But, that's what I really wanted, I guess. I didn't want him to worry
about me. He just didn't understand that this wasn't just a teen crush.
I thought about all of these things as I drifted asleep beside Jasper.
He knew that it calmed me and made me feel safe for him to be there
when I fell asleep. Probably because that's what he used to do.
After I was asleep, Jasper would go to the woods, to walk and just
think. Sometimes, when my nightmares were the worst, he would hold
me, all night long.
Speaking of nightmares, I still had them every night. Some nights they
were worse than others, but I was handling it the best I could.
I never got any good sleep though. So, I was always tired. It didn't
matter if I sleep for days on end, I was still so tired. So emotionally
exhausted.
That night, as soon as I closed my eyes, the nightmares began.
I dreamt that he was on fire. Burning. Dying. But I couldn't save him.
I was too slow. Too late.
That's when I woke up. It was still very early in the morning, the room was
still pitch black. That's when I noticed it. Noticed that I was in someone's
cold arms. For a split second, I thought it was his arms. But I knew better
than that.
"Jasper, what's wrong? Were my nightmares causing me to scream again?
Oh Jasper! I had the worst nightmare! I dreamt that he died because I was
too slow to save him! I miss him so much!"
I threw my head against his chest and cried. Cried until I was shaking.
"Bella"
It. It couldn't be. I couldn't have heard that beautiful, angelic voice. His voice.
I looked up and saw him, sitting there, so perfect, just as he was the last
time I saw him. Had it really been six months?
"No! No! This is a dream. This isn't real. It isn't real!" I screamed, knowing
that my agony would be even worse tomorrow, because this dream felt so
incredibly real.
I jerked out of his grasp, and stumbled towards Carlisle and Esme's room.
They weren't there, so I ran down the stairs, tripping on the last step.
Luckily, Carlisle, Esme, Rose, and Emmett were in the living room,
so Carlisle caught me before I hurt myself.
I was sobbing by then.
"Bella! What's wrong?" Carlisle had asked me, very worried.
" I-I-I dreamed that he-he was back, and was holding me." I cried.
I sunk to the floor , sobbing.
Rose and Emmett, started to laugh? Was mine and Jasper's torture
really that funny? Maybe I was still dreaming. Maybe I had finally lost it.
While Carlisle was trying to calm me down, he came downstairs.
Watching me with pained eyes.
"Bella, you're not dreaming. He's really back." Esme tried to tell me.
"And so am I!' squealed Alice, who had just walked into the room,
accompanied by Jasper.
Jasper! He would know how to help me, dream or not. How to
calm and soothe me. How to wake me from this hell.
I ran over to Jasper, and crumpled against his stone cold chest.
Letting go of everything. Sobbing as hard as a human could.
"Jasper!" I wailed, "I can't take it anymore. Not without him.
Not with these dreams. These nightmares."
I felt him trying to comfort me. I welcomed the calm feeling.
He held me in his arms and quietly spoke to me.
"Bella, it's real. Your Edward, and my Alice are back. It's not a
dream. I promise you Bella, I wouldn't lie to you about this, not
even in a dream."
"You mean that he- and she- and we? Oh Jasper!" I screamed.
I hugged him with all of my strength, and ran to my Love, who
embraced me in his strong, cold arms.
"Never let me go again" I wailed as he held me and ran his fingers
through my hair. I took a deep breath, inhaling his intoxicating scent.
"Don't worry, I won't " he said in his perfectly smooth, velvety voice.
The feel of his arms around me was like no other. It was safe.
It was right. It was Home.
This is NOT the last chapter! There is still more to come!!!! Please review and tell me how you
like it, considering that this is my first FanFic. Also, I would love any suggestions! Thanks!
