She wasn't feeling particularly fine that day. He blood was already boiling before she'd even got to school but once she hears the words 'dyke' and 'Lesbo' being thrown around in the lunch hall she headed in and noticed a group of cheerleaders in a circle. Three jocks in the middle but she couldn't see who was in the middle of them. She pushed her way through the crowed to see Marley standing there in between the three boys. Kitty, Quinn and Brittany being held back by other jocks.
"Hey, dyke. What's the matter, kitty got your tongue?" One of the jocks snapped, laughing when Kitty struggles against the jocks arms to get to Marley "Come on, say something" the boy pushed Marley into the other jocks arms and the jock pushed the girl to the floor.
"Hey!" Rachel growled and the next thing she remembered she was standing over one of the jocks, everyone was staring at her in disbelieve. Her knuckles were already swollen and bruised, she wasn't sure if it was her blood or the jocks blood on her hands.
Rachel blinked, drawing in a deep breath and holding out her hand to help Marley to her feet before looking at the jock on the floor "You do anything like that again and I'll blind you, understand?" Rachel snapped and then there was a hand on her shoulder, pulling her out of the crowed.
"My office now" the principal said before yelled "entertainments over, get back to your lunch"
Rachel was still feeling a little fuzzy as she stumbled along the hallway to the principals office.
She didn't take in much of what he said just that they didn't tolerate fighting but, because it was Rachel's first offense, the only punishment would be detention for a week but if it happened again there would be a definite suspension.
Rachel just nodded the full way through the conversation, sighing when he finally told her she could leave.
Rachel ran her hands over her face as she left the school, stopping in her tracks when she saw Quinn leaning against her car.
Once Quinn noticed her she smiled, pushing herself off the hood of the car and over to Rachel "So I hear you're some sort of ninja or something?"
Rachel just nodded, not able to speak because Quinn was talking to her again.
"I was really mad at you Rachel. Believe it or not Jake and I have as close of a friendship as Puck and I and what you did, it made it weird for a while"
Rachel bit down on her trembling bottom lip, trying to will herself not to cry.
"But I'm thankful you stayed away from as long as you did. It made it easier for our friendship to heel. Jake really liked you, you know"
"He did?"
Quinn chuckled "You're really dumb sometimes, Labrat" Rachel's eyes lit up at the name and Quinn stepped forward, lightly taking a hold of Rachel's ballooned hand "You have no idea how much I've missed you" Quinn whispered, ghosting her thumb over Rachel's knuckles.
"Do that mean we're friends again?" Rachel asked, a tear rolling down her cheek.
"Always" Quinn smiled, using the pad of her thumb to wipe away the tear on Rachel's cheek.
"And Noah?"
"And Noah"
"Everyone else?"
"Everyone else" Quinn agreed, her face turning serious "on the topic of everyone else give me the stuff Sam has been giving you"
"How did you know.."
"He told me last night. I was going to have him come over tonight and take it from you but this is just cutting out the middle men. What were you thinking? Taking it in the first place"
"It stopped me from thinking"
Quinn nodded, like she understood "I wanna take you somewhere that helps me calm down and clear my head"
"What about school?"
"Like you could write with that hand. Come on"
Rachel nodded, allowing Quinn to lace their hands together and lead her along the path and through a slightly wooded area until they came to a stop at the railway line.
"Trains?"
"Yea. Just watching them pass by helps me relax. It's weird, I know" Quinn shrugged bashfully as she sat down on the bench.
Rachel just looked down at their still joined hands. Surely Quinn should had let go by now?
"You still love me?" Quinn asked and the question caught Rachel off guard.
"I don't think I'll ever stop" Rachel said, smiling a tight lipped smile and a shrug that was meant to indicate she was sorry.
"I didn't think I could ever feel like this about someone. I shouldn't let myself"
"Why?"
"Because if you get to involved you get hurt"
"I'd never hurt you. I would rather die than hurt you"
Quinn smiled but it dropped off of her face when she saw someone over Rachel's shoulder "I thought it was bullshit when Jordan texted me saying that you were talking to this freak again but clearly he was right"
"Brent"
"Shut the fuck up Quinn. I though I said you were never to see her again"
"Yea well that was before I found out you were cheating!"
Rachel had expecting Brent to look shocked or something but he just shrugged "You were in a depressed mood because this freak screwed everything up"
"Stop called her a freak. She isn't a fucking freak she's..." Quinn was cut off by Brent's hand. Rachel wasn't entirely sure if he slapped or punched her but that didn't matter.
The brunette grabbed the boys collar and threw her to the floor, his chest and head dangling over the edge of the platform, over the railway lines "you feel big picking on high school students, huh?" Rachel snapped, swinging her already injured hand up and down onto the boys cheek.
"Rachel stop. There's a train coming" Quinn stressed and Rachel could hear the train but her hand just wouldn't move from around Brent's neck "Rachel if you don't stop both of you are going to die"
She was close to blacking out, she could feel it. All she could hear was the trains horn and Quinn's voice.
"Rachel! Stop now!" Quinn yelled and Rachel snapped out of it, pulling Brent's collar, yanking him back on to the platform and about five seconds later the train sped past.
Rachel sat on the concrete, her head in her hands and her fingers tangled around her hair
"Fucking crazy freak!" Brent mumbled somewhere off to her left and then he left.
"Rachel" Quinn whispered softly, taking Rachel's hands and pulling them away from Rachel's head before placing one finger under Rachel's chin and pressing her lips flush against Rachel's.
The dark fuzziness was gone and was now replaced with the fuzziness she felt the first time Quinn kissed her. How could you go from almost killed a man to being the happiest person on the planet?
Quinn huffed out a breath, resting her head against Rachel's and placing her hands either side of Rachel's head.
"Never do something like that again. You scared me half to death"
"Because Brent could have died?"
"No because you could have, Rachel. Don't you get it? Brent means nothing to me, I thought he did but then you had to show up with you sweet little comments and adorable smile and I realized he didn't really mean anything to me. Not a much as you do"
"I need to tell you something. A lot of things actually"
"Ok, lets go to my house. My parents are at work"
Rachel nodded and the girls headed back to the school in silence "I'll drive us back and drive you to school tomorrow. You can get your car then"
Rachel didn't argue, she just got into Quinn's car and began thinking how she was going to tell Quinn she was crazy. How she was going to tell Quinn about every last detail of her life an how she ended up this fucked up kid.
"You're worrying me, why're you so quiet?"
"I'm trying to figure out how to tell you this"
Quinn pulled up into her drive way and turned to Rachel "Just tell me"
"Can we go inside"
"Of course we can" Quinn smiled, getting out of the car and leaving them into the house.
Rachel followed Quinn up to the room, pacing on the floor and tangled her hands together.
"Hey, calm down" Quinn said softly, putting her hands on Rachel's cheeks and making the girl look at her.
"I don't know where to start"
"Just start from the beginning, Rachel"
Rachel nodded, putting her hands on Quinn's waist and balling the fabric up in her fist "Ok. When I was six my daddy took me to the toy store for my birthday and I wanted this huge bear but they didn't have any in the store. I got really mad at my dad even though I knew it wasn't his fault but I still had a tantrum and I just kept yelling in the car. Yelling until I got a rise outta him and then- then, uh..." She could feel her breath begin to become more shallow but she tried to hold it together.
"Breathe Rachel. You're ok, take your time"
"The car just came out of nowhere. He would have saw it if he wasn't to busy yelled at me. They tried to save his life but all those defibrillators done was make her jump, that was it. My daddy died because I didn't get a dumb fucking bear. " Rachel ranted, squeezing her eyes closed.
"Don't. Rachel, open your eyes and look at me" Rachel forced herself to open her eyes and look at Quinn. The blonde smiled "You're ok. You don't have to tell me anything else"
"No, I have to tell you now or I will never tell you" Rachel stressed, walking past Quinn and standing at the foot of her bed.
"Just take your time. We have all night"
"You know about my mom. About how she killed herself" Quinn just nodded, waiting for Rachel to continue "Well that wasn't a one time thing. She tried to kill herself at least five times, three of those times I was the one who found her. On Christmas Day I found her passed out on her bathroom floor. Drug overdose. When I was nine I found her in the bath, arms dangling over the edge and blood dripping from her fingers. Slit her wrist. And then was I was ten she tried to hang herself. All of those memories just keep flooding back at random times and I can't stop them! My mom was sick and no one helped her. Things like that are in your genes, Quinn. I already feel like I'm losing my mind, what will it be like when I'm older!"
"Have you been to see anyone?"
"Yea. They just gave me every pill they could get their hands on" Rachel mumbled, sitting down on Quinn's bed and tangling her hands in her hair "I can leave if you want me to" she said after a couple of seconds and stood up to leave but Quinn grabbed her arm and pulled her back.
"Don't you dare" Quinn said, holding onto Rachel's arm as if to stop her from leaving "You aren't the only one who's been through some stuff Rachel. And just because you have a past doesn't change my feelings towards you"
"I blackout sometimes. Just like today with that jock. I have flashbacks, nightmares, night terrors"
"I can't trust people. I have like this emotional wall up and I can't fall in love with anyone. Well that is until now"
Rachel smiled, resting her head against Quinn's shoulder. She thought that maybe Quinn would tell her what had happened to her but two minutes she realized she wasn't going to "How did you SAT's go?"
"Fifteen-ninty. That gives me a good chance of getting into Yale"
"I can see it now. Quinn Fabray. Kick as lawyer"
"Alright, don't get ahead of yourself" Quinn smiled, placing her hand on Rachel's cheek and rubbing her thumb along her cheek bone "Did you sleep at all last night?"
"No. I've been feeling funny for days. Like I could lose me temper at any moment and I did. I'm just glad that it was on someone who deserved it and not my sister or dad"
"How about we get some sleep?" Quinn asked, pulling Rachel's jacket off of her shoulders
"When will your parents be home?"
"Not 'til dinner time"
Rachel nodded, taking off her jacket and placing it on the back of a chair.
"Come on" Quinn smiled. Pulling back the covers back and allowing Rachel to climb into her bed.
Rachel sighed as she settling into the bed, wrapping her hands around the covers and pulling them up to her chin.
Quinn got into the bed beside her and Rachel assumed she was going to lay with her back to her but she was pleasantly surprised when quinn wrapped on arm around her waist, taking a hold of Rachel's hands and pulled the brunette flush against her.
"I love you" Quinn whispered into Rachel's hair, pressing her lips against the back of Rachel's head.
